Please tell me another Lie
AN: Spoilers for ch. 164! Man 164 do be hitting like truck.
A deep sigh escaped my lips as I stood by the ocean with the same bouquet of flowers as the first time. It's been another year already. Another hellish year where I can't go a day without being reminded of you.
Every time it rains, every time I'm on a bridge it's like that night. I freeze. I somehow expect you to grab from behind again. Hold me tight, hold my head. Shield me from everything, just like you tried to do after you realised you care too much to use me.
Every time I walk by a river, every time I smell the ocean, I think of you. Your eyes. The way they looked at me. Letting me see through every lie you told me. You always tried so hard, I liked that. I liked it even better when you tried even harder to not lie anymore.
How long has it been since you've taken your revenge? I don't know.
Sorry, that was a lie. I can recount every single day. Every morning I look at my phone and hope. No I beg. I beg that it was all just a nightmare. That you'd take me with you. Let us commit the perfect crime. Together.
Instead I come here every year. I bring you flowers. I watch them drift off into the sea. I pray for a miracle. I pray that it wasn't your body the fishermen found. I prey that you will simply walk out of the water and tell me another lie. I would give anything to hear one. Only from you.
Tears well up in eyes. I wish you could wipe them away again. I wish I could look into Aqua's eyes, Kana's eyes, even Mem's eyes. I haven't seen them in years. They may hate me. Perhaps they notice that I no longer find joy in acting, but I persist. You said you were interested in my acting. That was the first truth you entrusted me with.
I cherish it to this day.
I love you Hoshino Aquamarine, so please tell me another lie.
Please.
