Disclaimer: As always I don't own anything.
Author Notes: Several of you felt pity towards Tori in the last chapter and how could you not? Yet someone had the insensitive remark of telling it that it was "Terrible" for re-writing the timeline, the story is meant to make the readers have a connection to the characters through every day ocurrences, it took Jade and Tori a while to heal, and the reason as to why I never mentioned the miscarriage before is simple, it's not easy to write something like that.
Anyway, this is actually a deleted scene from the previous chapter.
Jade hated the fact that she had to leave her wife behind after such an intense fight, but she needed to get out of the house.
"I'm going to kick myself later on for this" Jade thought as fresh tears were running down her cheeks "But I just can't be in the same place as Vega... or I'll do something I'll regret."
So the former Goth went straight to her car and drove away from the apartment complex.
After a while she got to her destination, one that brought out so much pain and unpleasant memories but at the same time a glimmer of hope in those early months of their marriage.
Cemetery.
What used to be one of Jade's favorite place now became an everlasting site of agony.
She parked her car, taking in a deep breath before going out.
Jade quietly entered the graveyard, noticing how quiet this place was, it wasn't that much of a shock since rarely there are any people at 1 o'clock in the morning.
She eventually found what she was looking for.
"Tabitha West"
Jade sat down in front of her daughtes grave.
"Hey baby" She said emotionally "I guess you weren't expecting a visit from me so soon huh?"
Silence.
"You may be wondering why your mama isn't here with me tonight?" Jade muttered sadly "Well, the truth is... She's hurting, and so am I... We'll be in so much pain for a very long time... And... It's because you're not here with us... I... we love you so much, I was looking foward to hold you in my arms, to play with you... now... the silence in the house is a terrible reminder that we had to lay you to rest"
Jade sniffed.
"No parent should ever have to bury her child, it's just cruel... For a while I thought that maybe I was being punished, for what you may ask?" Jade asked rethorically "For being a gank... I vividly remember all those times I took a sadistic glee in scaring little kids when I was in high school, now maybe karma is hitting me back by denying me the opportunity of being a mom."
Jade didn't notice that she had company.
"I'm sorry..." She whispered "I'm sorry for that... But I'm even sorrier by the fact that you never got to meet your mama, she would have loved you as much as I do, maybe even more... Tori... Your Mama? She's nothing short of an incredible woman. She's loving and devoted and caring, and don't tell her I said this, but the woman's always right, something you would have gotten to see as you grew older, you also would have seen that she has a heart of gold and maybe you would have inherited that from her."
The shadow got closer to the crying woman.
"Just so you know Tabitha" Jade muttered "You're never going to be forgotten, even if you were here less than five minutes with us? You were... are still our baby, I promise you that, and I hope in whatever place you are, you recognize us as your parents"
She slowly got up from the ground "I'll come back soon... With your mama this time, and we'll be here a lot longer... maybe in higher spirit.. Maybe"
The former Goth turned around, only to jump in surprise.
"Holy mother of..."
"Relax my child" An elderly Reverend said soothingly "I did not mean to frighten you."
Jade who was never one to trust any type of religious person, after what Holly had caused her wife, cautiously asked "What are you doing here Father?"
"I came here to visit my late wife" He answered kindly "As I do every night?"
"At 1 o'clock in the morning?" Jade questioned incredulously.
He smiled back "Every night she woke up at exactly this time, when she couldn't get back to sleep, she woke me up so we could talk until we went back to bed, now that I can't fall asleep I come here just to tell her about my day, in a way it brings me closer to her"
"Then why did you come my way?"
"As a man of God, I have it in me to try and help those in need"
"Thanks but to thanks" Jade grunted "I don't trust your kind"
"My kind?" The Father asked confused.
"You religious people may say you want to help" She clariffied "My wife has been hurt by someone trying to shove the word of God down her throat, and I'm not having it! I just lost my child! I don't need a bigot priest telling me I deserve what I got!"
The former Goth was ready to walk away from the elderly man.
"I heard what you told your daugther" He said "Sounds like she would have been lucky to have two mothers who loved her dearly"
That made Jade stop in her track, slowly turning around to meet the caring eyes olf the elderly coot.
"You're of with that?"
"My child, not all men who serve God think homosexuality is a sin" The Reverend stated "I happen to believe that our Lord loves everyone regardless of their sexual preference"
"What... you do?" Jade questioned in shock.
"Tell me about your struggles" The man said kindly "You look like you need a helpful ear in your hour of need"
And so Jade reluctantly spoke to the man, once they gout out of the graveyard that is, and after several hours, the former Goth was emotionally exhausted.
"I love my wife more than anyone in this world. And I... it kills me that I couldn't give her a baby... I really want a kid. And when that day finally comes, I'll learn how to be a good mom. But my wife?... she's already there. She's a mother... without a baby... Tell me Father, if God is all good, then why did he take our daugther from us?"
"I can't say for sure my child" The Reverend said gently "But don't let your pain cause you to lose sight of what's really important, if you want a child, I'm sure the good Lord will provide, but don't forget, you're not alone, I suggest that you go talk to the little womaqn whose waiting for you at home, looks like she needs you as much as you need her,, give it time, but never forget that there are good people who will help you in your pathy to parenthood"
"Thank you father"
"Oh... and another thing"
"Yeah?"
He wrote down a phone number on a piece of paper.
"Here's my number, just in case you or your wife need some help, my door is always open.
Nothing else was said as the two of them walked in opposite diretions.
As Jade got in her car she wondered.
"Was this guy sent to help me?"
Seems to me that Jade just learned that not all religious people are small minded bigots.
Anyways, constructive critisism accepted as always.
Invader Johnny Signing Off.
