A/N: I keep writing ahead. I don't know if I've ever had a writing project lengthy enough for me to jump around and write future chapter blocks as the inspiration strikes. It's giving me something to look forward to during some of the calmer moments of the current chapters, and it's spurring me along to get there.

C/W: Discussions of passive suicidal ideation.


Hermione took a deep breath of the chilly air, looking at the rows of homey cottages with an excited fluttering in her stomach. Somewhere in the distance, Hogwarts castle was reflecting in the early morning light over the Black Lake. It called to her. She exhaled and sent her answer on the wind: I'm coming.

As she moved to gain access to her pack, Hermione felt Malfoy's arm still coiled snugly around hers. He let go immediately.

"Shall we?" he asked, gesturing to the path that led to Hogwarts' front gates and sounding bored.

"Just need a tic." Hermione reached into her pack, now slung off one shoulder, only rummaging a little before locating her water bottle. She withdrew it and spelled out a quick update:

Arrived in Hogsmeade. Our time on the Pequod was an absolute pleasure. All is well.

She took a swig of water and tossed the bottle back into her pack, smiling at Malfoy as she shrugged into the shoulder straps, unable to contain her happiness at returning to her beloved school.

"Ready."

He nodded and started up the path. They walked side by side in silence, Hermione practically bursting with an excitement that she did a very good job of keeping inside. Mostly. If there was a little extra spring in her step, she could hardly be blamed.

When they arrived at the gates, Hermione nearly lost her breath at the sight before her. The castle was just visible in the distance, dark and magnificent against the pale morning light. Taking a deep breath, she slid her wand out of her holster and closed her eyes, concentrating her heart on what she felt in that very moment: the peaceful welcome of homecoming, the trilling buzz of anticipation, the overwhelming sense of rightness in being back at Hogwarts.

"Expecto Patronum," she said steadily, and she heard Malfoy's quick inhalation as a bright white otter burst from her wand, practically sparkling in the dawn. She reached out her hand with a small smile, watching the sweet creature loop around her forearm once before hovering in front of her, awaiting her request.

"Please deliver a message to Hagrid: Hi, Hagrid! We're at the front gates. Can't wait to see you!"

The otter did a small backflip of acknowledgment before soaring through the gates and out of sight, Hermione smiling fondly after it. There had been a long time after the war when, harrowed and shell-shocked and battered, she had not been able to summon her Patronus at all. She'd been in a fog, her once-happy memories muddled with a sadness and lingering guilt that went bone deep. The realization that she could no longer cast a proper Patronus had brought with it a wave of humiliation. She had fought a war. She had won. And she had come out damaged.

It wasn't long before her compartmentalizing mind had redirected her despair into action. After all, how was it fair that she lose the convenience of a quick, secure, and virtually un-replicable messenger charm (not to mention the dementor protection, of course) simply because she had experienced trauma? It wasn't fair. And she wouldn't stand for it.

So she had done what she'd always done best: research. Over the past several years, Hermione had studied the Patronus charm and developed and tested a variety of theories, many of which were inspired by Sirius' accounts of his time in Azkaban. He'd held onto his sanity through the sheer strength of his conviction that he was innocent. It was an un-shatterable truth. Hermione had wondered if this approach to defending against the dementors' maddening effects might translate into summoning a force strong enough to dispel them.

In her ongoing explorations, she'd considered a range of strong emotions outside of happiness that might lend power to a Patronus and explored them all quite comprehensively. Sadness alone, as expected, had failed to produce, but when concentrating on a sadness that had permeated feelings of love, the barest wisp had appeared from the tip of her wand. Progress.

It had been only recently that Hermione had finalized her rather groundbreaking conclusion: a Patronus could be summoned using any emotion that brings the caster a feeling of security. In her years of research, she'd been able to successfully cast her Patronus using thoughts and memories that centered deep feelings of love, preparedness, coziness, strength, a sense of belonging, conviction, righteousness, happiness (of course), and peace. A book was forthcoming.

Hermione lowered her pack to the ground and quietly accioed her notebook and pen, jotting down the details of the casting on a page near the back:

Location: Hogwarts gates
Context: message to Hagrid
Feeling: homecoming
Result: brilliant, immediate, effective

She closed her notebook and was kneeling to tuck it back into her pack when she heard a booming woof! and the sound of rapid footsteps approaching. Her head snapped up and she broke into a wide grin as she caught sight of two familiar shapes approaching from the grounds. She stood quickly and brushed off her pants.

Fang made it to the gate before Hagrid, the playful borks he emitted upon seeing her echoing through the still morning air as he bounded up the path. Malfoy took a small step back.

"Hello, Fang!" Hermione laughed, kneeling to greet the giant dog and wishing she could reach through the bars to scratch his ears.

"Hermione!" Hagrid's eyes were barely visible through the crinkle of his smile as he approached the gate. Without delay, he held out his hand and Hermione felt the wards around them melt away. The gates swung outward and Fang raced through, bounding in tight circles around Hermione and occasionally jumping to land a slobbery kiss wherever he could before bolting over to Malfoy with a nose full of curiosity.

And then Hagrid had swooped her up in an all-encompassing hug, the air rushing from her lungs and a tear escaping her eye at both the sudden pressure and the sudden blanket of love. She hugged him back as best she could.

"Hello Hagrid, it's wonderful to see you!" she squeaked, her face squashed against his chest. Somewhere behind her, she heard Malfoy snort. Hagrid tensed, then gently set her down.

"Malfoy." Hermione couldn't blame Hagrid for the gruffness—if Malfoy had been cruel to her at Hogwarts, he'd been even more horrible to the half-giant. She suddenly felt quite awkward.

Malfoy nodded. "Hello, Professor."

Hagrid raised his bushy eyebrows but otherwise didn't acknowledge the formality. He scooped Hermione's pack up from the ground, waving away her feeble protests with an enormous hand and walking back through the gates. She hurried to catch up, Malfoy following a step or two behind.

"So, tell me how yeh've been, Hermione!" Hagrid said as she came up beside him, gracing her with a broad smile and a cuff on the shoulder so heavy that she felt her knees buckle a bit. "Things goin' well at the Ministry?"

They chatted happily for a little while, Hermione bringing Hagrid up to speed on the pieces of legislation she'd contributed to and Hagrid sharing updates about life at Hogwarts and the rest of the staff. It was pleasant and comfortable and enchantingly natural, as it always was, and she barely registered Malfoy's presence at her back.

Hagrid smiled down at her through his beard, his beady eyes shining. His voice was hoarse when he spoke. "I'm glad it's you they've sent, Hermione. There's no one smarter and no one better for it."

She positively beamed at him.

"Ah, here's where we head off," Hagrid said suddenly, clearing his throat and taking a sudden left across the grass. Hermione could see the edges of the great lake shimmering in the distance and she stopped, feeling a worm of anxiety nestle its way into a corner of her heart—a heart that had felt so full of happiness and successes lately. But here they were, on the very grounds where they had been commissioned to build one hell of a bridge, and the enormity of their task once again seemed to loom.

Fair enough, she told the small presence. I see you.

She started following Hagrid again just as Malfoy caught up to her. They walked side by side in silence, Hermione doing her best to take in everything around her: the smell of the cold spring air, the pink of the waking sky, the growing nearness of the lake, Hogwarts' turrets rising friendly in the distance. The loveable half-giant leading her across familiar grounds. The sometimes-likable man walking beside her. She smiled again as she felt the anxiety soothed by a gentle hand. Peace.

They caught up with Hagrid a few minutes later a near the lakeshore. His eyes flickered between the two of them and narrowed slightly, but he made no comment.

"So, hereabouts is where you'll be camping," he said, gesturing to the clearing behind him, which stood thirty yards or so from shore. "The lake and surroundin' shorelines are open to yeh, o'course. The students know we've got researchers on the grounds an' not to come 'round these parts while you're here." He put down Hermione's pack. "We got a few hours before lunch if yeh'd like to do some walkin'. We can leave yer bags here."

"That sounds ideal," said Malfoy, lowering his pack to the ground beside Hermione's and casting a quick but intricate ward over their gear. "Alright, Granger?"

"Agreed," she said with a nod. Then she stepped forward and, after a few moments of feeling it out with her magic, lifted Malfoy's ward with a handful of thoughtfully applied nudges. She bent down and retrieved her water and notebook from her pack then turned to look up at him, her expression schooled. "Ready."

Malfoy was staring at her, dumbfounded, then he shook his head and rearranged his face into a scowl. Hermione heard Hagrid chuckle quietly.

"Come on then, at least bring your water," she said happily, standing up and brushing off her jeans yet again. Then, nudging his shoulder as she passed him, she asked sweetly, "And could you ward the bags when you're done?"

At that, Hagrid let out a deep laugh and Hermione couldn't help a smile of her own from splitting her face. She glanced at Malfoy, hoping he wouldn't take offense, hoping this would be one of the sometimes that he was likable, and that he thought she was likable, too.

In that instant, it hit Hermione like the Hogwarts Express that she wanted the two of them to be friends. Draco Malfoy was an academic equal, a quick thinker, a problem solver, a knowledge seeker. She'd never had a friend like that before. And she wanted to be here, doing all of this incredible research, with that exact kind of friend.

After a moment's pause, the man in question sighed dramatically and rolled his eyes. "Yes, we all know, Granger," he huffed, "you're amazing."

"Aye, an' don' you forget it!" Hagrid chortled.

They spent the next couple hours walking the shoreline west of their campsite at a meandering pace. Around midmorning, Hagrid bid Hermione and (a bit begrudgingly) Malfoy goodbye and headed across the grounds toward the castle to prepare for his first class of the day, Fang loping at his side (after one more slobbery kiss to Hermione's face).

"Is it—" Malfoy started after Hagrid had left them. "What day is it?"

Hermione laughed. Her brain had just been doing some mental gymnastics to figure out that exact thing.

"I'm pretty sure it's Friday," she said, trying to recall the agenda. "Right, 'cause… yes, we're headed to our next location on a Sunday following two nights on Hogwarts grounds."

Malfoy grunted noncommittally. "Weekdays would've been better," he said. "Less chance of being disrupted."

Hermione wasn't worried. "It's not the most pleasant time of year to be lounging by the lake," she said with a shrug. "Besides, this is just the preliminary round. The main event will be mid-week."

He nodded, seeming to relax a little as they headed back to their campsite. They walked closer to the water's edge now that Hagrid and Fang weren't with them, not knowing if it would make much of a difference but willing to try anything that might help strengthen the imprint of their presence around the lake. Neither of them spoke much.

They reached camp and Malfoy strode directly to their packs, lifting the ward with an annoyed flick of his wand and reaching for the rolled-up tent.

"Any idea what the food situation is like, Granger?" he asked, and no sooner had the words left his mouth than there was a loud crack! and a bistro table appeared with a simple setting and two chairs. A diminutive house-elf with large brown eyes wearing a tiny set of long johns bowed next to the table.

"The headmistress is arranging for your meals to be served out here," the squeaky voice said, standing tall. "What is it Winky can be getting for you?"

"Winky!" Hermione breathed, and the house-elf looked at her, a bit startled.

"Yes, Miss. Would you be liking anything special from the kitchens today?"

"Oh, uhm," she looked at Malfoy, who shrugged. "Just a selection of whatever's been made for the Great Hall would be lovely. Thank you, Winky."

The elf nodded and disappeared with another crack! and the table filled itself with a spread the likes of which Hermione hadn't experienced in years. She grinned and sat down to eat.

After a delicious and filling lunch (Hermione was only able to hold back from gorging herself by focusing on the knowledge that they'd be here for another four meals), she and Malfoy made quick work of setting up their tent. She went in first, unrolling her sleeping bag on what she now considered to be her side of the small space and unpacking a few go-to items for easy access. Then she backed out through the flap, sitting back at the table with her notebook in hand and leafing through her notes as Malfoy took a turn setting up his sleeping area for the weekend ahead.

Within half an hour they were exploring the shoreline again, this time wandering east of their campsite. They walked in silence for a time, scouting the nearby area for… well, Hermione didn't really have much of an idea what they were looking for. This portion of the expedition was mostly about establishing a presence on the grounds surrounding the lake, and introducing themselves into the environment. But they kept their eyes open nonetheless, and Hermione wracked her brain trying to think of how else they might communicate a message of friendliness, as it were, to any merfolk who might be listening.

After a long while, Hermione cleared her throat.

"I have an idea," she said firmly, keeping her eyes forward as they walked.

"Okay."

"So, hear me out…" from the corner of her eye, she saw Malfoy tilt his head in her direction. "I know we were joking about it on the Pequod, but… well, I was thinking, maybe we should try whalespeak while we're around the Black Lake." She hurried on before he could argue. "You know," she added, "to appeal to the 'language of the depths' that Unn was telling us about."

Malfoy had stopped walking. He was quiet for a few moments as he seemed to consider what she'd proposed. Discomfited, Hermione walked to the water's edge and knelt down to swirl her fingers in the cool liquid. Finally, he spoke.

"Granger, look at me." She turned her head to look over her shoulder, but otherwise didn't move. Their eyes locked and his voice came out flat. "I'm not doing that."

"Oh come on, Malfoy," Hermione said lightly, rolling her eyes and turning her attention back to the lake's surface. "You're supposed to be the language expert here. Don't you think we should at least try to adapt our communication style to resonate with theirs?" He shook his head with a snort, a look of incredulity on his face as she continued. "I mean, sure, we don't really know if the merfolk can pick up our surface voices from the depths of the lake, but it's worth trying, right? And besides," she gestured vaguely to the deserted grounds around them, "it's not like there's anyone here to judge you."

He gave her a pointed look. "And I suppose you're not counting yourself in that assessment?"

Hermione merely shrugged. "I'm not planning on judging you," she said simply.

Malfoy let out an exasperated sigh, casting his gaze upward in a silent plea for patience or mercy—she couldn't quite tell which. But then his eyebrows furrowed, and he looked back at the lake with a curious expression on his face. He strode around the area they were in, occasionally stopping to shift his gaze between the cloudless blue sky above them and the dark water all around. Finally, just when Hermione was about to burst with unasked questions, he let out an incredulous snort.

"It's here."

Hermione almost screamed. In fact, she was quite proud of herself for keeping it together when Malfoy was being so frustratingly mysterious. She listed the ten most common uses for wormwood in her head before exhaling a deep breath she'd apparently been holding. "What's here?"

He finally acknowledged her with an almost startled glance, as though he'd forgotten for a moment that she was there. He cleared his throat and pointed to the surface of the lake where Hermione was still trailing her fingertips through the water.

"Right there, in about—" he glanced up at the sky again "—six hours' time, the same stars will be in the same position, and reflected in this exact part of the lake, as the ones that Unn used to introduce us to the Black Lake colony back at that pond in the Forest of Dean."

Hermione blanched for a moment, her mind briefly homing in on Malfoy's awareness of the stars in broad daylight, before his words sunk in. "Oh!" She withdrew her hand quickly, as though her presence was being watched (and somehow deemed disrespectful) by the merfolk colony deep below. Her mind was racing, considering the implications of the reflective magic that might exist in this place so far away from their first encounter. But then an idea struck her, and she smirked.

"Weeeeeellllllll theeeeeeeennnnnn," she boomed suddenly in a low wail, barely keeping in the laugh that threatened to overtake her at the horrified look on Malfoy's face. "Perrrrhaaaaaps weeeeee shoooooould tryyyyyyyy tooooooo connnneeeeect?"

"Granger, this is serious!"

"Yes," she said, unable to contain her mirth a moment longer. "But just because something is serious, doesn't mean it also can't be fun."

"I'm pretty sure that's exactly what it means," Malfoy grumbled, but Hermione wasn't listening. She rocked back onto her feet and stood swiftly, brushing off her knees as she did so.

"So we should come back tonight, right?" she asked excitedly. "And probably tomorrow night as well?"

Malfoy nodded slowly, though he looked a little apprehensive. "I don't want to overstep, Granger," he said carefully. "What Unn did back in the forest… that's not magic that I understand. And I'm not sure we're meant to. It's almost certainly not our place."

"Of course," Hermione said briskly, waving her hand as though it were an afterthought before realizing how dismissive that was. Don't be rude, love, her mother's voice chided. "You're absolutely right. We won't try to appropriate any of what we witnessed."

Malfoy nodded more confidently. "Right," he said. "Well then. Is there anything else you think we should do before we head back to camp?"

Hermione couldn't contain her mischievous smile. "Caaaaaare foooooor aaaaa chaaaaaat?"

Malfoy barely managed a glare as he fought to keep his face inert, one eyebrow arching in what would have once been disdain.

"No."

He turned on his heel and made his way toward the campsite, leaving Hermione chortling on the shore.

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The rest of the time before dinner was spent relaxing—which for Hermione meant sketching whatever decided to come out of her pencil (it was a close-up of Hagrid's face, black eyes nearly closed in a smile), and for Malfoy apparently meant examining the cassette tapes from their adventures aboard the Pequod in the luxury of natural daylight. Winky brought them their evening meal as the sun was beginning to lower in the sky (another incredible selection from Hogwarts' kitchens), and as they ate they went over the details of their last night in the Forest of Dean, comparing notes and crafting a plan for the evening. It was all very simple:

1. Kneel in the proper location by the shore
2. Lean over the water's edge
3. Look into the depths and focus on feelings of peace and goodwill
4. Do. not. speak. whale.

When the time was right, they left their campsite and headed east again along the lake's shore. Malfoy led the way, looking up from time to time to check his earlier astrological calculations, eventually keeping his head tilted to the heavens. Sure enough, when he stopped them it was in the same location as before. Hermione saw his jaw clench and he nodded almost imperceptibly.

"It's nearly time," he said. "Ready?"

"Yes."

The two knelt side by side on the cold ground. Malfoy reached a slightly-trembling hand over the surface and confirmed what Hermione had no doubt they'd see, quietly naming each constellation's watery reflection. When he reached Hydra, he pulled his hand back and placed both of them palm-up on his thighs. Hermione mirrored his position and looked over. Malfoy nodded, and together they leaned forward over the water until they could see themselves reflected in the surface of the lake.

And then they simply existed.

They spent a long while leaning over the water, their breathing calm and soothing in the quiet night. Hermione's thoughts drifted like the dark liquid that stretched below them, and she allowed her mind to travel hazily across themes of welcome, deference, hopefulness, and respect. After a time, Malfoy's eyes met hers in their reflection and she nodded gently. Almost as one, they leaned back and settled more comfortably on the ground. The silence stretched around them and Hermione felt herself relaxing deeper into the familiar atmosphere.

Without warning, Malfoy's voice broke into her thoughts. "I used to come here when I wanted to die," he said, so softly that Hermione could have believed she had imagined it, if she thought her mind was capable of imagining him saying such a thing. Her head snapped up and she tried to catch his eye, but he was staring into the lake with a sort of detached bemusement.

"What?" Hermione's voice was sharp, too loud in the surrounding quiet.

Malfoy shrugged. "I said what I said, Granger," he said hollowly, still not meeting her gaze. "Our sixth year… it was the worst of my life. There was so much pressure and expectation, so much hanging over my head, whether I failed or succeeded…" he trailed off. "You have no idea how many times I wished I was dead."

Hermione didn't know what to say to that, so she said nothing. Instead she quickly thought back on the day they'd had, trying to see if she could retrospectively spot his discomfort or, really, any sort of buildup to this moment. But there was nothing, she realized with a shiver. Malfoy was a master at hiding his emotions.

"The funny thing is," he continued, "it was literally this exact spot. I would wander out of the castle at all times of the day or night, when the… when the cabinet became too much, or when I needed to get out of my head because all of my thoughts were telling me it'd be easier if I just wasn't alive anymore." He looked thoughtfully up at the sky. "And I would always end up here, with Hydra shining down on me and rubbing it in my face that each success just brought harder challenges." Malfoy swallowed. "I wanted to die, just so I could rest."

He finally looked up at her. "So if we truly believe we're imprinting on the borders of the merfolk realm with this visit, I'm afraid I've already established myself as a presence here a long time ago, and I'm guessing I didn't make a positive impression."

Hermione stayed silent, her eyes shifting between his. They were dull and closed off, but she thought she saw something else in there—longing, perhaps, like he didn't dare ask for comfort.

She imagined his soul those many years ago, how the torment would have seeped from him in oozing layers, a fetid sludge corrupting his inherent goodness and desire for peace. She thought of the upheaval at the time, and how the centaurs in the Forest of Dean had recognized her because of the context in which they'd first sensed her. And she thought of Malfoy now, as she knew him today, that same soul given the time to grow into its own self, to heal as best it could. He was so different than he had been when they were child soldiers on opposite sides of a war, and Hermione felt in her bones that he was closer to his true self than she'd ever seen him before.

Slowly, she reached out her hand and placed it gently on his arm. He looked away from her with a soft exhale, but he didn't move his arm from under her.

"I'm glad you didn't die," she said. "I'm glad you lived through it."

This time, Malfoy did pull away with a scoff. "I still don't know if I am."

Hermione felt her heart squeeze in her chest. She had so many thoughts swirling in her head, not the least of which was, I didn't even notice anything was wrong. She had just decided that she wanted to be his friend, and already she was proving to be a pretty poor one.

"Winky used to 'work' for Barty Crouch," she said after a little while, not trying to keep the venom out of her voice. "He treated her despicably, even though she did everything for him and his family." She looked up and found Malfoy staring at her. She met his eye. "Winky was involved when Barty Crouch, Jr. escaped from Azkaban. She was complicit in his hiding. And he was in her care at the Quidditch World Cup when he escaped her watch and cast the Mark in the sky as muggles were tormented." By your father, she didn't say, but she didn't have to.

"By my father," Malfoy spat, "and his friends."

Hermione nodded. "But Winky didn't want any of those things to happen," she said. "She witnessed and participated in a lot of things that contributed greatly to Voldemort's return." Malfoy flinched but held her gaze. "But she did it for her family. She did it because it was expected of her. She did it because she didn't see any other way."

Malfoy eyed her shrewdly. "Are you comparing me to a house-elf, Granger?" he asked drily.

"Are you telling me it's not a fitting comparison?" she shot back, daring him to get her started on non-human being rights.

But Malfoy knew better. He let out a resigned huff. "I wasn't magically bound to do any of what I did. I could have left the cause, I could've turned spy, could've made it so my classmates weren't rotting in the dungeons of my own home." He lowered his face, angry. "I had control over every single decision that I made."

"Bullshit," said Hermione sharply, and Malfoy snapped his eyes back to hers. "Every action you took under Voldemort's command" (he flinched again) "was taken under duress. Acting out, running away—you couldn't do any of that without risking your parents' lives. And not to be a literalist, but—" she reached out again and gently grasped his left arm and he cringed "—I'm pretty sure this was literally a magical bond to answer his call."

Malfoy's face paled and twitched, and for a moment Hermione thought it was going to crack and crumple before her very eyes. But then his eyes hardened and his mouth set in a hard line, and he pulled his arm firmly out of her grasp.

"Don't, Granger," he sneered. "Don't treat me like a victim. You know better than anyone how delusional that is." The look of disdain he shot her was withering. "I'm not one of your pathetic causes that you champion because you just have to be the one to change the world. I'm not a casualty of some system you think you can dismantle. I chose that path. I chose to inflict harm on the people around me. I chose to take the Mark." His grey eyes narrowed. "I chose to hate you."

He was breathing hard and staring at her, his cold gaze challenging and defiant. She heard the cutting intention in his words, an intention that should have wounded her coming from someone she considered—wanted to consider?— a friend. But in the space of a beat, her mind took in his words, held them up to the light for examination, and returned one word loud and clear:

RUBBISH

She shrugged. "Okay."

Malfoy blinked, then nodded, standing up stiffly from their place on the shore.

"But Unn didn't seem to think so," Hermione continued quietly. "And neither do I."

He just stared at her for a long moment, his face unreadable. Then he turned and strode away, back in the direction of their campsite.

Hermione stayed where she was, a strange sense of peace keeping her grounded. Eventually she shifted her knees out from under her, stretching out onto her back and watching the stars above her.

I used to come here when I wanted to die.

She felt a tear run down her cheek and welcomed the others she knew would come. Hermione mourned a new soul tonight, as she had done for each of the many souls she had seen damaged and torn during the war.

When she returned to the campsite over an hour later, Malfoy was, for all intents and purposes, asleep. Hermione retrieved her pajamas and toiletry bag as quietly as she could from next to her sleeping bag and crept out of the tent, taking care of her basic needs in a separate, warded area not far from their site. Then she made her way back to the tent and crawled inside, suddenly wanting more than anything to already be curled up in her familiar cocoon. Her water bottle was glowing where it lay next to her pillow, but she snoozed the message until morning with a tap of her wand and slid into the waiting sleeping bag. Work could wait; her mind was weary. She shoved her pillow up past her head and cushioned her cheek on her arm instead, unable to stop her mind from remembering, just before she slipped into a dreamless sleep, how it had felt to have another arm already there.