I've been sitting on this chapter for a while. After a few rewrites, I think it's ready for the world! Also I decided to combine two chapters just for you guys! Double line is the M stuff, you have been warned. Enjoy!

(There was an upload issue! Chapter 16 was a mistake and deleted, making it so there is 21 chapters now, not 22)


Starlit's view:

We decided to stay on Cybertron for a while, while everybody tried to go back to a normal life. It wasn't easy, there was a huge gap in the team now. Everyone seemed to act like they were ok, but I could tell they weren't. Prime was promoted to temporary Magnus and burying himself in work, trying to fix what Sentinel Prime had done. It kept him too busy to think about the battle on Earth. Bee and Bulkhead also got a promotion, becoming a spy and an engineer respectively, and were busy with training. I was still considered a youngling and wasn't allowed a real promotion, but was offered free Academy training under their engineer program. For now, I had to decline.

I could feel my memory core crashing again. Since Prowl has passed, I had started to forget things again. I first noticed when I had forgotten what I was doing in the med bay. Everything that was laid in front of me to build a new type of security camera, one that could sense a bot using a cloaking device, but it no longer made sense. I tried my hardest to get through it, to force myself to remember, but nothing came to me. I got frustrated, pushed everything off the desk and putting my hands on my helm. Ratchet saw this and quickly hooked me up to check me over, scolding me for making a racket as he did.

"Slag it all…" He muttered, the screen on his wrist was telling him something, but I couldn't see it. "You're processor is overheating 's your memory core that's the cause. I can make a patch to try to redirect the power, but…" it wasn't good.

"What will happen?"

"Worst case, you'll shut down and put into stasis lock. Or, you're going to lose all of your memories." He sounded guilty, but there was no help for me. I couldn't fix it, no one could. I'd lose everything or my processor would burn up, melting itself into nothing. I don't remember what else he told me, but I know I wanted to see Bee.


The yellow mech was at his bunker, playing a game he had brought from Earth about racing. The pause screen played in the background as he let me in. I had no idea why he didn't just race himself. The car in the game could only go around a few tracks, he could go wherever he wanted.

"Hey Star!" He grinned, but it faded when he looked into my optics. "What's wrong?" He asked as he sat by me. What was I going to say? "My processor is melting and I might not be around much longer?" No...that was too much.

"Just wanted to hang out." I was half true, the real reason was that I wanted to spend time with him before I forgot him. "Can...I stay with you tonight?" He agreed, of course, deciding that weird, old Earth movies were the cure.

"I know you don't want to talk about it, but I'm here for you." Bee said after a little while. "Is it because we're all so busy? I'm really sorry, training has been really...well...difficult. All I wanna do when I get back is recharge...but that doesn't mean..!" I cut him off, putting him into a tight hug. I wanted to kiss him, I wanted to show him what he meant to me, but it would be so unfair. "Star?"

"I...just miss you is all." It felt horrible to lie, but I couldn't bring myself to tell him.

"You live next door." He snorted, pulling me down to lay with him on the couch. I laid my helm on his chassis, hiding how red my cheeks were at being in this position. I had been sitting with my legs over his lap, but when he pulled me into him it made me have to straddle his lap a bit. I don't think he meant for that to happen, but then again it was Bee.

"I can't miss you while you're away?"

"I mean...sure." His voice held a laugh in it. "Didn't know you cared so much." The sudden change in tone made my spark skip a beat. I felt his hand gently lay on the small of my back, pulling me a little closer. I looked up, seeing his optics had darkened a bit.

"O-of course I do." He knew that, what was he...oh... I saw my reflection in his optics, seeing how red I had become at the realization of what he was doing.

"I know we haven't talked about our relationship or had time, but I want to make that up to you." He was red as well, but sounded far more confident than before. I felt the tips of his fingers on my back move is small circles, sending small sparks of electricity run up my spine.

I didn't let him continue talking, knowing he could babble on and on when he got nervous and kissed him deeply. I wanted him too, but didn't trust myself not to start crying and tell him everything, so I egged him on to distract myself. I remembered his weakness, his audio horns, and quickly had him begging under me.

"S-Star...ah...no...not that." He squirmed, bucking his hips into mine absentmindedly. It was a new reaction, the last time we kissed he was able to keep control because he stopped me when I touched him there, this time he didn't stop me. I quickly found out he loved it when I gently nipped his neck cables while I rubbed them.

"F-frag…" His motor revved as his hands roamed my frame, finding a sensitive seam to get back at me. It was my undoing, allowing him to gain the upper hand while I was distracted.


From under me, he used the leg trapped between mine to get a little leverage and gently pushed his knee into my interface panel. I moaned into his neck, not expecting the dizzying sensation. I couldn't control myself and kept rutting into his knee, holding onto Bee's shoulders for support.

"Heh, someone's needy." Bee purred into my audio receptor. "Let me take care of you…" He nipped under my chin, making me sit up a little as he shifted. "Will you open for me?" He turned my face to look at him while his other hand drifted towards my port cover. His optics were even darker now, but still held all of their sincerity. I bit the inside of my cheek, suddenly feeling nervous that he'd reject me after seeing me exposed myself. It was completely irrational, Bee wouldn't do that...would he?

"Relax." He pulled me out of those stupid thoughts by kissing right under my left optic. "You don't have to, it's ok. I...was really nervous my first time too. Let's slow down..."

"No...I mean...I'm just...a little overwhelmed." I didn't want to slow down or stop now. I cupped his face, putting my forehelm to his. "I want this." I took a breath as I unlocked the safeguards and opened my panel, feeling like my face was going to burn off. I watched Bee's face as he looked me over, never once seeing any kind of disgust in his features.

He pulled me into another kiss to distract me from what his hands were doing, only realising where one was going when I felt him touch my entrance. I gasped, allowing him to deepen the kiss as one finger slowly circled around my valve before pushing in.

"Slag, you're already dripping for me." It was true, the moment Bee used his knee on me, I could feel the lubricant starting to build up. "You're so tight though…" The way he said it was almost primal, like he wanted to take me right now, but was holding back. It sent shivers thought me, forcing me to lean heavily on Bee as the sensations took over. This whole time I thought Bee had been making little noises, only to now realize it was me. I tried to stop them, but Bee whined softly when I bit my lip to keep quiet.

"Don't hold back, Star. I want to hear you…" He made a point by inserting another finger, stretching me further and grazing against my seal. I couldn't hold back the pleasured cry, bucking my hips into his hand to feel more. He shifted his hand a bit, running his thumb over an even more sensitive node and I saw stars. I heard Bee whispering sweet things to me as I came down for my first overload, slowly coming back to reality. Bee's lower half and right hand were coated in a light pink lubricant, my lubricant.

"I-I…" I felt so bad that he had barely even done anything to me.

"Hey, don't apologise." He kissed me softly, moving our positions so I was now under him. "It's your first time…" I watched in slight horror as he slowly licked off his fingers, feeling dizzy again as I watched him. He was putting on a show, purposely taking his time with each digit and moaning as he did. "You taste so good, I want more." He smirked, dipping between my legs and kissed right above my outer node. Before I could voice anything, he used his glossa to to open my valve up, pushing it inside and prodding at my seal. Bee held my hips still as he prepared me, to keep me from thrashing away from him. The nodes just behind the seal were picking up every movement he made, causing a familiar warmth to spread through me.

"Bee…" I cried his name, making him stop and pull away. I whined, missing his warmth.

"I've got something better…" He teased me, kissing me again and making me taste myself on his glossa. I heard the telling hiss of a codpiece retracting as Bee pulled away from me. I watched him lean back a little, allowing me to see his spike. His face reddened as I openly ogled him. He was bigger than his fame let on, but not so much so that it was disproportionate. His spike was mostly black with two yellow race stripes running up the underside, accentuating the blue biolights that went through them.

"Er…" I caught myself staring, but he was grinning wolfishly now.

"It's ok, I don't mind. You're far more beautiful...I've never seen pink biolights in anyone before." I'd take his word on that. "Are you ready?"

"Very." I revved, pulling him down again. I felt his spike rub against my valve a few times before he lined up and slowly pushed in. It didn't hurt until he got to my seal. I was thankful that Bee took the time to loosen me and used his glossa to make a small hole in it. It would have been far more painful than it was now.

"Ah...frag…" My fingers drug down his back, leaving light scratches as I tried to adjust to him.

"S-so tight…" Bee groaned. "You're...doing so good." He peppered kisses over my face, finally settling on kissing me deeply. After a while the pain subsided and everything was starting to feel good...really good. I rolled my hips, making both of us moan and Bee finally started moving. I had no idea there were so many sensitive nodes hidden deep inside. Everytime Bee moved, new ones were found, each deeper than the last.

"Primus…" Bee sighed, biting my neck, inciting a new sound from me. He shivered, biting the same area again and making me cry out. "Mmm…" I felt him smirk into my shoulder. "You feel so good Star, so tight and warm around me." It figures he would like to dirty talk.

"Please…" I begged, feeling the heat pool into the lower half of my body. I couldn't think straight.

"Please what?" Oh great, he wanted me to talk dirty back. "You gotta tell me…" He teased, purposely slowing down a bit.

"Bee…faster, harder, please!" I looped my right leg around his waist, pulling him closer and pushing him deeper. "Frag…" The new position made his spike hit a particularly sensitive node deep inside. He took that as his que to quicken his pace, careful to make sure he hit that same node over and over.

"Star...oh Star...I…" He started to falter a bit, his pace more erratic than before. Deciding it was my turn to pay him back, I stroked his audio horns which sent him over. I watched his eyes turn white for a split second as he overloaded, filling me with his tranfluids. This caused me to overload for a second time, nearly crashing from the experience.


Bee recovered after a couple minutes, humming softly as I stroked the back of his helm. Both our panels had closed while we recovered, which meant Bee wasn't buried inside me anymore. I missed the feeling of being full.

"I love you, Bee." I gained his attention, pulling him from his light recharge.

"I love you too, Star." I felt him move again, shifting us back to how we were originally, with my helm back against his chassis. We stayed like this the rest of the night, falling asleep in each others arms. Before I shut down completely, a warning flashed across my HUD. I choose to ignore it, deciding to deal with it in the morning. All I wanted right now was to recharge in the warmth of Bee's arms.


AUTO REBOOT: SYSTEMS ONLINE

MEMORY ERROR 404: NOT FOUND

REINSTALL

I awoke to the message, not remembering where I was or why the message was flashing in my HUD. I opened my optics, not wanting to move right now. There was a huge monitor playing a movie of some kind on silent; a black and white image of a giant, eight legged creature crawled over a city as organic life forms ran for it.. Odd,what is this? I quickly diverted my attention to who I was on when they made a noise. Wait...who is this? I leaned over them a bit, trying to figure out why I was laying on them. Unfortunately this alerted the mech that I was awake, waking him up.

"Star? What are you doing?" How does he know who I am? "You ok?" That color...I know you, but... I felt something spark in my processor, causing me to glitch out. I heard the mech shout as I crashed, blacking out completely.


Bumblebee's View:

Starlit's glitch had apparently gotten worse since Prowl died. I knew that look, the one she got right before passing out, but this time her optics didn't come back on. They stayed grey.

"Starlit?!" I tried to wake her, but she just fell limply back into my arms.


I rushed her to Ratchet, who said a crack had developed in her memory core, causing it to heat up. He was able to redirect something in her processor to save her from a complete meltdown, but the damage was already done. The color of my armor apparently caused something, making her to crash. That meant now I couldn't be around her, maybe even never again. Why she didn't tell me before?

Jazz had even tried his Processor Over Matter thing with her but couldn't get through to her. It was like she was gone...we tried for a few days but she never improved. The pain of losing her without losing her was too much for me, I wasn't sure how long I could take being apart from her. I had convinced Jazz that I could help, who then convinced Ratchet to calm the frag down and let me try.

However everytime I did get to see her, I had to wear a halo projector to change my color to a light blue, but, like I told Ratchet, she didn't recognize me. She remembered my name at least, though I think it was because Ratchet had repeated it over and over, but she didn't remember who I was. I blamed it on having to change my armor color.

Thankfully she remembered Jazz, but so far no one else seemed to stick in her mind. She was convinced Jazz was her adoptive Creator, no matter what we told her. He was more of her brother, but he went with it for now. At least she could remember someone, even if it wasn't quite right.


It had been at least an Earth week since it all happened. She was in her bunker now, caring for her flowers. She had a fascination with them and they kept her happy. Ratchet allowed her plants from Earth to be brought in after Jazz had asked what else to try. We were unsure if they'd survive, but hopeful they would help her memory.

Little did anyone know, I had been sneaking a new plant or two into her bunker every night. It wasn't easy, but Sari did help me a few times, traveling back and forth to Earth in secret. Star never knew I was there, since I snuck in while she slept, but she was so happy the next day. She had at least new ones ten now, the latest was a pink one, a daisy I think. I stayed this time to see her reaction, hiding outside the tiny window near her door, to quietly watch as she watered them all. I was suddenly jerked away and pulled down the hall by my arm.

"What the sla…" A white servo clamped over my mouth.

"Chill Bee, it's me." Jazz turned me around. "What ar' ya doin' near Sta's place?"

"You scared me…" I huffed, but answered him. "I...I just wanted to see her." I couldn't stand the fact that I couldn't see her everyday anymore. I couldn't stand that we had finally became more than friends and then...

"Ar' ya the one leavin' the flowers?" Jazz crossed his arms, making me look at him again. I nodded and to my surprise he smiled. "Did you start doin' this a day afta she lost everythin'?" I thought about it for a second and shrugged.

"I guess?"

"An' have ya noticed anythin' else abou' her? Like da fact she's been humming a song I don't reconize?" I blinked in surprise.

"She has? What song?"

"Don' know. I can't figure it out, but maybe it's an Earth song I haven't heard yet. Maybe you can figure it out." Jazz smiled and walked away. "But don't let her catch ya."

I watched the cyber ninja walk away, silently accepting his challenge. I crept back down the hallway to her bunk and flattened myself against the wall near her door. I opened it just a crack to hear her, but not enough to let her know I was there. Sure enough, she was humming a song, I couldn't point it out at first, but it sounded slightly familiar...that's when it clicked; it was a lullaby. I'd heard it once back when I was first protoformed, it was played as all new lives were brought online, well to our batch at least. So she remembers her creator? I peeked in and saw she was caring for the orchard...er...whatever the flower Prowl gave her was. No...she remembers Prowl. So it wasn't that one Jazz was talking about.

After she was done with the purple flower, she moved to one of the ones I gave her, the one with tiny white flowers. She was humming softly still, but it was a different song. This one was an Earth song, one Sari and I showed her when she first came to Earth. I just couldn't name the song...She suddenly stopped, freezing her movements. I wasn't sure why but she turned to the door, looking right at me. Slag! I moved into a shadow as she came towards me and opened the door all the way.

"Hello?" She tilted her helm, wondering why I was at the door. From here, she couldn't see my armor, I didn't want her to glitch again. "Can I help you?"

"Er...no! Um...h-how are you?" My processor working hard to come up with an excuse.

"Do you know what these things are? Why are they here?" So she didn't remember what flowers were now, huh?

"They're called flowers…"

"Of course they are, but where are they coming from?" So she noticed… She then stepped aside, letting me inside.

"Um…well…" I stepped into her room, weary of her crashing again, but she didn't. So now the theory of it being my armor was out the door. "I...brought you some. You know, to cheer you up." Her face was blank, but she wasn't glitching. Starlit was just taking it in, it just took her longer to understand things now. It broke my spark to see her spiraling like this.

"Thank you." She smiled, for the first time in a long time. "I like them."

"Starlit," I wanted to ask if she remembered anything about us, but I couldn't do that to her. I sighed, deciding it best to let it go. "Do you really like them?" She gave me a look, like there was something she wanted to say too.

"You aren't here for flowers, are you?" At least she was still sharp.

"Heh...no...I actually wanted to know, do you remember anything...about us?" I could feel my face turning red, having to look away. It just came out before I could stop it. She was confused, giving me a hard look like she was trying really hard to remember.

"Are we friends?" I felt my spark break, the reality hitting me hard. "I'm sorry...I...I'm trying but…" I must have a look on my face that told her it hurt because she then got a hurt look on her face.

"It's ok. It's...not your fault." I told her as she put a hand on my shoulder. "Do you remember why this happened?" I looked back to her, only her eyes were bright white.

"Starlit?!" I grabbed her shoulders to keep her from falling, but she didn't fall forward, she just stared at me. I tried to get her to move, to get her to Ratchet but it was like she was frozen to that spot, trapping me here with her hand still on my shoulder. The grip she had on me was tighter than before. I was about to com someone, but her eyes went back to green before going to black as she crashed again. She finally let go, tipping forward into my chassis. I scooped her up, running to the med bay.


Starlit's view:

I felt like I was floating, my body completely weightless, like I wasn't attached to it anymore. I looked at my hands only to see my body had become nothing more than a green, glowing outline. All that surrounded me was darkness, but I felt calm here, not at all concerned as to why I wasn't caporal anymore. A warmth surrounded me here, like a warm, safe and loving hug. I don't know how long I floated in the dark, but a small blue light was suddenly in the distance. I think I was floating to it, but I felt someone grab my hand. I turned around, seeing a mech outlined in a bright blue light.

"It's not your time…" That voice…I turned to see a blue outline of my brother.

"Prowl?" I felt my spark soar, my memories of him coming back to me. "Where...where am I?"

"At the entrance to the Well of Allsparks. I'm here to stop you. You have to wake up." He told me, cupping my face. "Go back...you still have a lot to do." He smiled softly.

"Prowl...I'm so lost...I can't." How was I supposed to go back when I had no idea which way to go or where I was.

"You can, Starlit. I know you, you're stronger than you think. Focus, remember what I taught you." He put his forhelm against mine and a warm sensation spread through my processor. "I believe in you…" he said, his image fading away with the distant light. I felt a pull around my waist, like I was being dragged backwards into the darkness, towards a brighter white light. I shouted Prowl's name, but no sound came out.


Slowly, I came to. At first their voices were muffled, but soon I could make out Jazz's voice. It sounded like he was pleading to someone.

"Come on sweetspark...don't leave me just yet…" He was talking to me. Then my sense of touch came back; I could feel his hand holding mine.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it...I shouldn't have…" It was Bee, he was crying but he wasn't near me. He must be by the door.

Movement was hard, it felt like I'd been in stasis for a long time, but I was able to move my hand and squeeze Jazz's. This caused him to shout to Ratchet, who forced open my optic to scan me. At least I can still see.

"She's back…" the old medic sounded surprised.

"W-what?" Bee was shocked.

"How can that be?" I recognized that voice...Prime? I remember him! If only I could wake up all the way.

"Some sort of fragging miracle...she had no conscious thought just a few clicks ago, and yet here she is." He sounded angry, but I knew the medic was over the moon with joy. I was too, I had no idea I was going offline...

"Can she hear us?" Jazz asked. I'm guessing someone said yes, cause he spoke to me. "You nearly gave me a spark attack...don't scare me like that." I felt him press his helm against mine.


I opened my optics a few solar cycles later. Ratchet had knocked me out with a hard line of code so I could heal more, giving my body time to reconnect properly to my processor. I overheard him saying he had to shut me down completely to stop my processor from completely melting, but had thought the damage was too far to fix.

My memory core was now reconnected to my processor via a melted copper wire. This wire somehow acted as a conduit, forcing a complete reboot of my systems. I guess it somehow corrected the crack in my memory core and rebooted everything in my processor. It wasn't a complete fix, but it was back to what it was before Prowl died. I only knew this because I had searched my files after I woke up. The last week though was a complete blank.

When Ratchet knocked me out, he allowed the fusion to complete rather than fry itself. However, my processor had to re-figure out how it worked, seeing as it was basically rewired. I was offline for a short time because of it, but not long enough to extinguish my spark.

"You're awake." Ratchet pulled me from sorting files as he came into the room. "I leave for one click and you finally decide to wake up?" He smirked. I tried to say something, but my voice was static. "Hold on kid, you're not all healed yet." He sat by me, telling me he had to manually reconnect things by using codes used from protoforms. "You're lucky to still be here...I thought we lost you back there." He said, reconnecting my vocalizer.

"W-what happened?" It was static filled, but my voice worked.

"Now, don't talk." He warned. "I'm not done yet. You and Bee were talking and suddenly yer optics went white, I guess. Bee ran you here, you were out cold and your optics were burnt out. I knew your processor was melting down, so...I disconnected the signals to you body to help cool it down. It allowed me to reset you, but nothing came back on right. You were what humans call brain dead. After a few mega cycles, I wasn't sure if you were gonna wake up, I almost gave up...and then you woke up." He scanned me, getting back semi normal readings.

"Ya got lots of flowers in that time…" I looked over to see Jazz had come in. It took me a second to understand what he meant, but to my left was at least twenty plants. Mostly flowers of all different colors and types with a few flowers in vases as well. I would bet Sari got the vases of flowers and Bee got the potted plants.

"Bee?" I asked, getting a glare from Ratchet.

"He thought they would help ya come back ta us." Jazz sat by my feet. "I told him one was enough…"

"I told him to get them the frag out of my med bay…" the grumpy medic mumbled.

"I think they give da place some life, dig. " Jazz teased him.

"I pride myself on never having smacked a bot who is carrying...don't make me break that streak." Jazz shook his head, still smiling.

"How you feeling, Sta'?" The black and white bot looked back to me, putting a hand on my leg. "You got feeling back yet?" He was checking to see if I could feel my legs. I smiled, moving my foot for him, not wanting Ratchet to hit me if I spoke. "Solid." He grinned.

"She still can't walk, so don't even try." The medibot shouted from his monitor.

"I know, I just wanna make sure she's a'ight." He was just worried, similar to how Prowl was. He just wasn't frantic like my brother had been. "How about your head? Anythin' feel off?" Both of them wanted to know that. I sighed, unsure of how to answer without talking.

"Will you leave her be?" For once Ratchet had a point.

"Sorry, sorry…" Looking closer, Jazz's visor was a little dim, like he wasn't sleeping well.

"You need to rest up too, kid." Ratchet was talking to Jazz. "It's not good on you or for the sparkling. Now get out and go rest."


Ratchet had reconnected everything, but my movement was very slow still. The medic wasn't too worried, but if it didn't improve soon he'd have to reboot me again. There was a huge risk in that causing a complete disconnect again, so I was adimate about trying a bit harder. That just caused the movements to become jerky, which forced Ratchet to go through all of the files connecting to my arms. This meant the computer read out all of my thoughts and I had to try to not think.

"Alright, move your right hand again." Ratchet told me, looking at the reading on the tablet he held. This was getting tedious, boring me nearly to death. Of course the computer read out what I was trying to do behind his back.

RIGHT ARM: ONLINE

HAND: ERROR CODE. ALL DIGITS LOCKED: NO INDIVIDUAL MOVEMENT

GESTURE UNKNOWN: 1,2,4,5 DOWN 3 UP ERROR

"Alright you smart aft...try that one more time…" Ratchet was not amused that I tried to flip him off. He did something, unlocking their joined movements in a nano click. "Now the left...don't even think about it!" The error had come up but the readout stopped when I did. What was he going to do, I already couldn't walk. "Good...that's up. Now, your legs." This is where everything went weird.

RIGHT STABILIZER: ERROR. ACT LEFT

LEFT STABILIZER: ERROR. ACT RIGHT

"The slag?" Ratchet tried again but got the same thing.

"What's that mean?" I asked, my words also appearing on the screen.

"Your right stabilizer is reading as your left an' so on…" He scanned my legs and up to my processor. "It's like a wire is crossed, but there isn't a one out of place. I know because I did the work…" He was talking to himself.

"I'm not getting an error about that. Just an error that movement is restricted." I told him, going over the connections again. "I can move them." I showed him by moving my ankle joints.

ERROR: STABILIZERS INACTIVE

WARNING: MOVEMENT RESTRICTED

"Hm...this is going to sound weird, but try moving your left stabilizer while focusing on your right." I just gave him a look like he'd lost it, but gave it a shot. It wasn't easy to do, but I was soon able to move my entire leg.

LEFT STABILIZER: ONLINE

ERROR: LEFT ACT RIGHT

"Slag...the signal is crossed." Was all he said as he hit another button, causing my body to feel heavy. "Sorry kid, gotta go in again and fix that…"

"W-wait!" Too late, I was out before I could finish.


Bee was hovering over me, jumping back when I opened my optics.

"Er...hey! Just checking on you…" He was acting weird.

"I think I'm ok." I wasn't getting any error about shifting around to sit up. "Are you ok?"

"Yeah...I'm sorry. I'm the one that made you crash, I did this." He took my hand as he looked into my optics. "I mean...the color of the armor did, but it's part of me so…" I put a finger up to his lips, making him stop.

"What are you talking about?" I remember watering flowers, a flash of yellow and then nothing. Now that I thought hard enough on it, he actually just caused a reboot from me remembering him. "You mean the whole passing out thing? No, actually, I don't think you caused anything bad. I remembered you." He stared at me for a second in confusion.

"Wait…" It was a strange thing that happened, but if it hadn't I might have been stuck in the state I was in. "I fixed it?"

"Kind of? I'm still figuring it out too." The only thing I had to go on was that brief time before I crashed. "You didn't hurt me though."

"So...you remember everything again?" He looked hopeful again.

"Did I forget things?" He laughed, putting his helm against mine.

"Nothing important." He teased me, knowing I knew I'd forgotten even him at one point. "But...do you remember what caused the first crash?" I blushed, knowing what he meant.

"Oh...actually, no. I remember...erm...well…" He looked confused. "I remember you and I fragging, yes." That made him sputter and he nearly fell off the berth.

"R-right! Um...did that cause it?"

"No, it wasn't that. I think...I caused it. Before we fell into recharge, I got a warning but it didn't seem urgent. Now...I wish I had read it." I just didn't want to at the time. "I knew…I knew that I was going to crash. I'm sorry for not telling you, I just…" I felt my optics tear up, not wanting to admit I'd been selfish. I felt him cup my face, making me look back up to him.

"It's alright. You're still here." He kissed me under my left optic, where a tear had just run free. "But Star, if anything like this happens again, I do want to know. I get that you were trying to protect me, but when I thought you were gone…" He was crying now too. "I wasn't sure what to do with myself…" It hit me that he had thought he had done this, that he had nearly taken me offline.

"It was never your fault. It wasn't you that caused any of it…" I regretted not telling him and letting him think he did this to me this whole time. The unintended guilt I put on him. "I never meant to hurt you...you're right, I thought not telling you was better, but I was wrong." I pressed our helms together. "I promise...no more secrets."


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