Dimitri Point of View:
3 Weeks later:
It's been almost 3 weeks now, I barely talk to her only in training when necessary. I know it is my fault and I should believe her. Three weeks without hanging out like a couple in the gym, kissing her, the conversations with her, not training related. Now, I give her my Guardian mask, and say what she should do. And oh, sometimes it isn't easy, we almost have our little moments, I don't want but at the same time, I want them so badly.
Flashback:
"You did your 13 laps, now stretching, you know how."
"No staking, sparring with you and learning new moves?"
About staking, what could go wrong when she's staking dummies? Sparring with me, no way I would let that happen, but I'm talking about Rose Hathaway, she would wait until someone does something, then she would beat the shit out of him. Taking Lissa's darkness, literally searching for a fight, with the darkness, there are the pregnancy hormones, could end badly. New moves, are there moves she doesn't know yet? Teaching her them now?
"Staking, you know how, after one staked dummie you would be annoyed. Sparring, no way Rose, other moves, okay. Be careful!" I sighed lightly, even though it's a move she probably knows already.
After a while she tries out the move, with one foot she kicks my lower leg from behind and with the other she kicks the fibula, not hard enough to hurt me seriously but enough to get me to the ground because I didn't expected that from her now that she's pregnant, and that's the easiest move to do. I am still in my thoughts when she was already half on top of me, quickly putting her arm under my neck, pushing my right arm under her leg and my face nearer to her belly. I touch her belly already with my forehead because of this move, definitely too near. Rose slings her leg around, her other leg with my arm still tucked under. I really try to get out of this, but my Roza has a force in her, as we are so near again I can't help but hold my breath, like she does too, for a second, before she speaks.
"So.. uh you have any other moves you wanna show me?"
I want to, so much, but not training related. I sense she wants too, at least kissing me, but it didn't happen.
Flashback End
It's already past curfew, everyone should be in their room, I'm off tonight but I can't sleep, I really need to talk to her. Gladly the Guardians are allowed to leave their dorms. What if this Moroi in the girl novices dorm sees me, what would be my excuse? Patrolling there as an excuse, could work.
I make my way to the girls dorm, without getting caught. I'm pretty good at this I think. Still hearing noises from her room, I knock and hope she would open and let me in. And she did, yet she looks confused to see me at curfew, sneaking to her dorm. She lets me in and closes the door behind me.
"Did you get lost?" she asks, clearly trying to make this situation comfortable.
"I want to talk to you Rose, and no, it can't wait until our next training session."
"Then talk?" At least she isn't throwing me out, yet maybe, even if her answers are shorter than usually. But how should I start now? I look at her, for the first time in almost three weeks I let my Guardian mask fall, and showing her my emotions.
"I'm so sorry" I start "I'm an idiot, I said terrible things, I can't take them back anymore. And you sleeping with some random Moroi, it was awful of me saying this."
"Yes you are. Dimitri, this was not only awful, you know. It embarrassed me to hell, hearing you saying I'm literally a slut, it was heartbreaking. You, from all people, should know that I'm not this kind of person. Remember the gossip with Ralf and Jesse? You were the one who told me I'm not that kind of person. I now had sex in my life once, with the man I love, and he loves me, wait, at least I thought he does. Suddenly I'm a slut according to this man!" She's furious, I know I deserve all the anger.
"But I do. I do love you Roza"
"Don't Roza me for God's Sake. Do you believe me? Dimitri, tell me honestly, do you believe me?"
Tough question, I believe her now that she didn't slept with anyone else, but I still can't believe that she's pregnant, from a Dhampir, though Dr. Olendski confirmed the pregnancy.
"I believe you, even if it's impossible."
"Thank you! I should congratulate you, since you're finally accepting getting a dad." she finally managed to smile a little bit "Took you long enough Comrade."
Instead of saying anything I pull her closer to me, wanting to place my lips on hers as she spoke.
"What are you doing?"
"Kissing you, Roza."
"I'd love th-" I cut her off by finally embracing her after three long weeks. I lift her up to my waist and she slings her legs around, finding the way to bed with her on my waist and keep kissing my woman. We lay down and every kiss got hungrier. After a time she pulls away, and looks deep in my eyes. I should mark this in my calendar, usually she doesn't pull away.
"You really are happy about this mini version of us?" pointing to her bump. "You know I would love to make out with you, more than know, but we should talk. There is a lot that you don't know about."
"What is it?" I ask her, wondering what would be up now, do we have problems? Do I need to quit?
"Alberta knows, let's get this straight, at first I said I wouldn't tell anyone who's the father, we talked about graduation, if it's possible, guess what, I had an outburst, nothing she couldn't handle, but I occasionally spit out a bit, she counted two and two together, Tada, she would have won the bet if there would have been one."
"There is one in the Guardian lounge." Now I'm the one who spit out something.
"There is what? A bet 'who knocked Rose up'? Hilarious.. guardians also need to have fun.. on my behalf! We write a new song, Cindy Lauper is wrong, not 'Girls just wanna have fun, but Guards just wanna have fun'"
"Now I know why Alberta only wrote a 'D' on the ballot paper." I look her in disbelief "You actually know a song before you were born? From my crappy music?" She's ignoring this question, who wonders.
"She won." she smiles at me even tough this bet in our lounge isn't funny at all, I'll remove this tomorrow. "And you, what did you wrote? Careful, I notice when you are lying."
"I guess I won. I wrote 'Comrade' on the ballot paper. At this time I still didn't believed you, but I had this feeling."
"Are you insane? They know that my nickname for you is Comrade. A few, when not even all of them heard me calling you Comrade." Rose cuddles to my chest and looks up at me "In fact, you won, the main prize."
I nod and lower my head to kiss her forehead. "Is there something else?"
"What did Stan bet? Should I be prepared to kick his ass when I graduate?" Oh God, I know she would ask me about Stan, but this, I don't want to answer. Not today, not tomorrow, never. She should kick his ass right away.
"Should I stay here or sneak back to my room?"
"Do I need to kick YOUR ass too?"
"Fine, he wrote 3 names." Her eyes widened, I can see she's fuming, I know Rose hates Guardian Alto, but now, she totally despises him, when gazes could kill, he would be dead. I got one 'My gaze can kill you right on spot' once, never again.
"Do I want to know who?" I need to say that she gained a lot of self control, not as much as I have, but for her it's impressive.
"Rather not."
Dimitri Point of View:
"I think I can imagine who he meant, Ralf, Jesse, and Adrian, am I right? And not knowing who it should be of these three."
"Don't do anything stupid Roza. It will also be reflected on me."
"Me? Nah, never since I get your Zen life lessons." I roll my eyes about this. I really do hope she doesn't do anything stupid, it will be reflected on both of us, not only on me.
"Let's sleep, you don't want to be late again tomorrow for your training session?"
"You're staying?" My Rose looks happy, that shouldn't change anymore. "I will be lost again, baby's hungry." She smiles innocently.
"Yes. Yeah right and when you weren't pregnant?"
"Well that was me, the one and only Rose Hathaway. Limited Edition."
"That's for sure." I grin lightly, I'm looking down on me and saw that I'm still wearing my shoes, as well as my black trousers and jacket, only because in case I would get caught. Took off the shoes, but with the trousers I really hesitate, don't know what to do now. Take them off or not? Yes she saw already a lot more, but only once.
"Roza. You forgot my first lesson: Don't hesitate." she smirks as she looks at me watching what I do. "Remember?"
I take off my trousers and Rose literally drools. "See something you like?" My Roza grins before she replies to that. "Lots" , I love these moments we have together, even if they are little, they are precious. I spring beside her, holding her close to me and pull the blanket up on us.
"Good night." I kiss her deeply to say good night.
"Good Night Comrade"
Rose Point of View:
I place kisses all over his beautiful face when I woke up, as I realize I'm only 15 minutes late, not bad, I broke my record. I smile to myself as I also notice that he's half awake.
"Morning Comrade. You know you're late, a whole hour. Guess you broke your record to." I love teasing Dimitri, he can't stand it to be late, it's already not okay when I'm late, but when he's late, apocalypse.
"Late? Okay, get up Rose. Training."
"What about horizontal training in here?"
"I like your idea, I'm all for it, but not now."
"Mattress sports?" I hold the gaze and put on a seductive mask. In these moments I'm so glad that my bond to Lissa is only one way. I definitely need my privacy with him even though his self-control is a lot stronger than mine that means, nothing will happen until graduation, maybe not the very same day but I still need to wait, and it's almost killing me! Being horny the whole time since I'm pregnant, him being around me doesn't make it any better. I have day dreams in class, glad no one can see them. Not the first time having day dreams in class, but definitely the first which were dirty, and involving Dimitri, only him and me.
"Up Roza."
"To do what?"
"The usual things, laps, stretching, staking."
"Any interesting moves? Maybe pinning you or the way around, on the ground, to the wall."
"Good God, what is with you? I know you're sometimes dirty minded, but this morning.."
"Don't ask. I wait until Stan's class. Gonna be long 2 hours until then." with that I stood up and grin at him. Dimitri clearly doesn't know what to expect in Stan's class. And I clearly don't know what to expect exactly when I dream. I have no control over them. "Come on Comrade. Aren't you usually faster?" As I fully realize what I said, the situation now, he didn't got up, still lying in my bed with only a t-shirt and his tight boxers, the funny thing, I'm up. We don't have sex, unfortunately, but that didn't matter. I burst out in laughter, it isn't on purpose but it was pretty good though.
"Okay, I can imagine now." He got up, kissing me once and put on his cloths before leaving my room. "I understand you, Roza."
10 Minutes later I stand in the gym looking for him, where is he?
"Comrade? Where are you? Guess what, cantine didn't hold me up this time." Still no answer from my Russian battle god, where could he be? Did he got caught be sneaking out? After 5 more minutes, it feels like an eternity because I didn't know what happened, he finally enters the gym.
"Everything's alright?" I ask him gently
"Someone saw me entering your room last night, but didn't saw me leaving until this morning. So Alberta called me to her office."
"Oh fuck, what did she said? Am I allowed to kick some asses now?"
"I never saw her with such an anger, not about me sneaking to your room, because she asked if I finally apologized to you, and if I would hurt you ever again she would hunt me down. What did you told her?"
"The truth, and nothing but the truth." I shrug with my shoulders "You survived, now the only question, do you survive a talk with Janine? I'll tell her I'm pregnant and you-" pointing to his chest "because you were such an idiot, you can tell her who's the dad. Maybe she will finally tell me who my father is, if yes, you can talk to him too. At least saying you got me pregnant." I smile evily and really feel like an evil, talking to Janine and tell her 'Hey Guardian Hathaway, by the way here's Belikov speaking, I had sex with your daughter, and oh, I'm the father of your grandson/granddaughter. That would be a stunt from me, but Dimitri, poor him.' But maybe my father is a really nice guy, and doesn't care who's the dad.. "Congratulations babe. I mean on the child." I grin and still feel like a Disney Villain, that isn't a good mixture, not at all. "Now you really don't need to accept Tasha's offer. Guardian/Lover/Dad."
I'll never forget what it did to me when I heard Dimitri accepted her offer, but in the end, he declined, but then there was me, why did he wanted to leave in first place? I'll annoy him with this. Forever. Maybe not forever, but for a long time.
"I told her no. Remember, I chose you. Do not start again please." One sentence as an evil and he's already kinda pissed off, or at least I have the impression. He's always pissed when it comes to Tasha's offer. We never really spoke about the ski-lodge, or why he truly wanted to leave, now I know we should have. I never would have thought it would have gotten serious with him, not until after graduation, but then again, who know's what the future hold's right?
"Dimitri, it's about time that we talk about the ski-lodge. What we have is serious, not only a fling for a few weeks, for me it's serious. I would have never slept with you if I wouldn't love you. These secrets about the ski-lodge are killing me. I'll also be honest with you okay?"
"Rose, it's also serious for me, what I said in the cabin is all true. I love you. Please don't hate me, I chose you, because my heart belongs to you since Portland probably. When you kissed me in the the gym, I pushed you away, wanted to do the right thing, because I already loved you, but I couldn't admit it like you did, distracting me with Tasha, trying to get you out of my mind, I tried to, so hard, spent time with her, pushed you away, saying 'You're a child', that was out of line. I still regret what I said. Trying to avoid you, but in the same time I wanted to see you, and was jealous when I saw you with Adrian or with Mason. My jealousy spoke. Tasha never understood me like you did, still do. When I heard you left with Christian and you're in Spokane, captured by Strigoi, I couldn't act anymore like I wouldn't love you, but I was afraid it was too late.. Even though I know what you're capable of. I'm so sorry I pushed you away and tried to avoid you."
"You're really being honest. I was a bitch to you when Tasha showed up. Do you wanna know why I kissed you? Because I wanted you to lose control, you fought so much to hold you back, when you saw I had a black eye, hesitated if you should touch my hair or not, wanting to know what you would do if I kiss you. And I provoked you with you with 'You don't care about me, I'm just another student for you.' But I knew you do care about me, it was just cruel, shouldn't have said that. Mostly I kissed you because I loved you. There never was anything with Adrian. And there will never be anything with him Comrade. Mason, I didn't loved him like he loved me, but I thought I could, we were lot alike, so I gave him a chance when I saw you with her, but I couldn't be Mason's girlfriend because when I imagined someone holding me and whispering dirty things in my ear, he had a Russian accent."
"You really shouldn't have done that, I mean kissing me. Roza, you were still so beautiful, even with a black eye, yes I hesitated. Guess what, I lost control when I kissed you back. Oh Rose, this, I'll never forget what you said and what I answered. 'Don't tell me what I'm feeling.' Right? I perfectly remember this day. That was what you thought, not that you only love me? Only, the guy has a Russian accent when he whispers you dirty things in your ear or holding you?"
"Be happy that I think about a specific accent. Don't expect too much." I grin to him and suddenly feeling freed, I'm glad we finally talked honest about the ski lodge, hearing he wanted to get me out of his mind, that hurt, but he's right, he chose me and I wasn't better, I tried to fall in love with my best friend, played with his feelings.