Hey! Tadaa! A new chapter. Enjoy :-)
I'm sorry it isn't as long as the other chapters so far.
!Also a quick reminder about my One Shot. It's online, if you're interested. !
Imagine a Games Night with Dimitri, Lissa, Christian and Rose. Is set after Love fades. Mine has. Could there anything go wrong?
Rose Point of View:
"Okay, if you girls say so. Need to go." I turn around and continue my way to Guardian Petrov's office. Alberta and Stan are arguing about something, they don't even got in her office yet. I know I shouldn't be eavesdropping, but in this moment I can't resist so I quickly hide myself in a corner.
"Stan, what were you thinking? She could have been dead by now or you!" Ohh, I don't think I ever saw or heard her this furious. Now I wonder even more what really happened and why nothing worked, or the Strigoi so easy to kill and to distract.
"Come on, we're talking about Hathaway. I saw her face, she needed this thrill. To feel useful after months, so I hired them. They wanted to die anyway." he answers casually.
"Let's hope Belikov won't find out. As for Rose, she's smart, I guess she got already suspicious after she staked him. Look, it was a good deed from your part, but you didn't thought about her pregnancy or about Belikov if he'll find out, did you? And maybe it was the nicest thing you ever did for her, but eventually she'll find out too and feel even more useless because it was planned and she didn't even really fought."
"It's only you and me who knows about this. Hathaway will get a Molnija from saving me from a Strigoi. Done!"
"You can go now." she replies and finally enters the office. I knew it, it was too good to be true. But Stan was right, I needed this, I was so ready. In this moment I wished it would only be a belly to buckle up, and if there are any combats, or Strigoi battles, I could join. But, where did Alto found them? Yellow pages? I'll probably never find out. After 5 more minutes of hiding I finally give Alberta her phone back.
2 Weeks later:
I spent most of my time at St. Vladimir outside jogging, not too fast, and on the trail Dimitri and I used to run everyday back then. I miss him like crazy, the last time we talked was when Alberta gave me her phone. I text him every second day, only to tell him everything is okay with our baby girl. I still check on Lissa and since the incident I often see Dimitri through the bond. I always wonder if he knows I'm checking on her and when exactly. I think Liss can kind of feel or sense when I'm in her head, because it isn't normal that she's looking at him so often or does she only want to make sure he's not kissing someone else?
On a rainy day, I'm sitting on a mat in the gym after a school day for students so I don't bother anyone. This hour and the one before school was always my favorite. Now it would be a good time to check on Lissa, how is she doing? I'm in her head right now, seeing everything through her eyes. She's going to her dorm with Dimitri and another Guardian on her heels, I don't even know the name. Suddenly she stops and turns to Dimitri. She definitely sensed me.
"Guardian Belikov, can we have a word please?" my best friend asks him, he nods confused. I'm confused too.
'He's miserable Rose. I know you're seeing him through the bond.' She says through our shadow-kissed bond. I get mixed emotions from her side, still disappointed and mad but also pity for how he's been the last two weeks. Lissa is right, he looks miserable, if you look at it exactly. Serves him right.
"Everything alright Princess?" He asks with his Guardian mask on.
"Dimitri, she's definitely with us. I don't know why, but I sense it." she says, and even though he can't see me or hear me, his face lit up a little bit.
"You're really there? I really am sorry, believe me," he looks at Lissa while speaking, for everybody else it seems like he would talk to her, but in reality, he's talking to me. "Roza, don't you know I love you?"
This Russian standing in front of Lissa, using my nickname and the three little words.. this makes me emotional, I leave Vasilisa's mind and back in my reality, except that I'm still emotional. I pick up my phone and I text Dimitri.
"Yes I was there, back in my mind now. I know you are sorry, but that doesn't change the fact. I love you too."
I don't know how long I'm sitting there until I hear my phone ringing, FaceTime. Before picking up I close my eyes, breathing in and breathing out. I feel nervous doing FaceTime with HIM.
"Hey! You remember this place?" I ask and show him the gym.
"I do. We had our first real kiss in there Roza."
"Yeah.. I kissed you. and let me quote you." I say, turning the camera to me. "Do not do that again."
"I know, and you answered.. Don't kiss me back then." he smiles at me, these kind of smiles which makes my heart melt. "Rose, you're beautiful."
"Thank you.. Comrade you'll never guess which dorm I got for my visit.." I want to distract myself and him from having a deeper conversation. I know we should talk, but I can't take this right now, so distracting him from this and maybe things like you're beautiful.
"Your old dorm? No, that's for novices. You got my old room, right? Pretty cozy."
"Yep. Alberta probably thought we made little Hathaway in there, a little joke from her. I'm only sleeping there Dimitri, I'm mostly outside or in the gym."
"Like your dad, a picture of St. Vladimir's in the nursery." he smirks. "How is our baby anyway? And how are you?"
"We're doing great. Don't worry. Are you off now?"
"Rose, I know you want to distract me or yourself. You also know the reason I called."
"Yes, but I don't want to.. and I can't take this. Do you know how much this hurts? You could also have taken a stake and push it through my chest, it has the same effect. I'll probably never understand your reasons for kissing her. Can't you please give me the space I need now? If I'm ready, I'll talk to you." I sigh and look in the camera. What I would give to see him in person, it's just not the same seeing him on screen. I can't run my hands through his hair, smell his cologne, touch him and feel the familiar electricity shooting through my body.
"I was protecting you, and our daughter. Tasha kept asking where you live, if you live near college or still at Court.. I didn't wanted to answer, didn't wanted her to find you. She kept asking. This woman really wants to see you dead. If this is what you want.. Good Bye Roza" with these words he hung up on me and the display goes black from locking the phone. Is it possible that he kissed her to protect his family, or only made up a lie in these weeks we didn't talked to each other? Yes, Tasha still wants to see me dead, that's no secret. I want my space, but I also want Dimitri by my side. Is it possible to have both? It wouldn't be the first time.
In the last 3 days without any contact to the outside world, I came up with the perfect plan.
"Alberta? I've got a brilliant idea for this years field experience. Your students are annoyed, no legendary fight anymore.. their words."
"Oh, hi Rose. How are you? Heard that too. Wanted to figure out something already." She groans and rubs her forehead.
"Is it allowed to bring two Guardians in to help out?" I ask and really hope she says yes.
"Let me guess, our former Guardian Belikov and your Mother?" She asks, already knowing my reply. "That would be great. Is it possible for them?"
"I talked to Lissa, it's totally okay for her, and he would be here for the baby." I smile a bit. "I just need to ask my Mom. It's Guardian stuff, right. When does it start?"
"In a week from today on." her gaze changes from friendly to her well known Guardian mask. "I thought about this a lot. I would like to offer you a job here. To many Guardians left. We're understaffed."
"Me? Are you serious?" My eyes went wide open. "Alberta? You know my school record. I did things, mostly only the forbidden stuff. I mean look at my bump."
"You and Dimitri, let's say.. I encouraged you both in some way. How he looked at you and how you looked at him, you both thought no one was watching, it was pretty clear to me that it would be only a matter of time." she smirks a little and carries on "Rose, you understand your responsibilities better than guardians twice your age."
Did she really encouraged us? Would we had sex without her telling Dimitri he should take me away from Jesse when I punched him, even wanted to kill him because of the darkness I took from Lissa. But then again, it was Guardian Petrov who wanted Dimitri to take care of me or comfort me. She certainly knew before we knew, that for sure.
"You do know I'm pregnant, She'll pop out soon. If not I will pull her out by myself." I chuckle lightly "But, I'm honored and would love to work here. What about Kir-, I mean Headmistress Kirova?" Even if my life is at court right now, but that could change, could I raise a baby here? Definitely not, how should that work?
"Let me handle this with Headmistress Kirova." She said in serious tone. Basically implying me how to address Person of authority. As if that would ever change, but nice try.
Dimitri Point of View:
I messed up when I kissed Tasha. I wanted to explain Rose what exactly happened but she doesn't want to listen. Yes, it's understandable that this topic might hurt but she really needs to understand why I did this, kissing her was awful. I miss talking to my girlfriend, not even the Facetime call earlier cheered me up, maybe only a little bit because I got to see her. The conversation we had earlier, wasn't like we used to. I felt like back when she started training with me, some kind of random small talk except with sharing memories.
I really wonder when I could take my Roza in my arms again, or if she ever allows me to take her in my arms. I wouldn't blame her for what I did when she doesn't allows me to throw my arms around her neck. Princess Vasilisa knows I need to think, so have a little break now, good time to do a few laps around the campus. In my fifth round my phone's ringing, looking at the screen, I stop instantly. She usually never calls, a text yes, calling no.
"Rose, is everything alright?"
"No worries, I'm fine. A quick question, Are you interested in helping the Guardians here at St. Vladimir's with the field experience? The novices are annoyed, and you still have your reputation as the battle god. So what do you think? And by the way, Lissa's okay with it." she does sound like she's doing fine.
"Annoyed? How so? Okay, I'll be there, when exactly?"
"According to them, no legendary fights anymore. Understaffed. It starts already in a week." she sighs, "I would love to help, but I can't, thanks to you Comrade."
"I can remember. Yuri, Jean and me against you. Will you be there Roza?" I ask hopefully and still standing on the same spot where I stopped when she called.
"I think so. Dimitri, I gotta go. I'll see you in a few days. Take care of you, bye.." This can't be it until I arrive at the Academy. I know there's more, why does she have to go? Before she can hang up I quickly question her.
"Wait, what is it you don't tell me?" Hearing her breathing in and out on the other line. What could it be?
"Okay, but please don't get mad." she begs "I got a Job offer from Alberta, I intend to take it. I need to discuss the details with her. Comrade, you can't imagine how boring paperwork is."
I don't know if this is good news or bad news. Or both, if it makes her happy taking this job, but we'll be living so far away from each other. Lehigh is only 1 hour from Court, it was perfect. Pennsylvania to Montana, it's at least 37 hours by car, or 10 hours by flight. I won't see my family often, that's for sure. I guess these are the sacrifices I need to make because I know exactly her current job is nothing for her, but it hurts being so far away from them if she takes the job.
"It's a great opportunity for you Roza, you should take it. We'll figure out how to make it work, right?" I say, trying to make her believe or maybe trying to make me believe my own words. Deep down I know Rose and I can make it work, no matter how far away from each other.