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I decided now that my other FanFiction (The One Shot) 'Games Night Goes Wrong.. or Right', there will be probably a second One Shot added to it and it will serve as a compilations of One Shots.
The second is AH/AU. I'm currently writing on it.
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Rose POV:
I'm standing in the middle of everyone, hearing them talking mixed up. It's making me crazy.
"Did you get your Molnija already?" hearing Viktoria's voice with a hint of excitement.
"Help? How? Stan fought with his one.. so who helped you Rosemarie?" My mother's asking with her usual stern tone. God, I thought after an amount of time she would know me and what I'm capable of because I'm shadow-kissed. But clearly that's not the case. We had such a good start earlier.
"Me involved? Oh, Come on Little Dhampir, I'm your friend." Questions over questions, they won't stop. The only comfort right now is Dimitri. I lean against him and my arm around his back on his hip. But, to be honest, I don't believe Adrian at all. He could be involved, he knows exactly I could fight them even in a pregnancy because I would have help no matter what, and how miserable it was for me at Court behind a desk. Adrian was a visitor, every day. He kept me entertained and didn't talked about Dimitri, which was good because feeling lonely sucks.
'It was Mason, he helped you? I remember you said you saw him.' Lissa's voice in my head doesn't make it better. At least she didn't asked out loud if it was Mason, because everyone here knows he's dead, maybe except Dimitri's family. It's too much, it's been a long day, I'm exhausted.
"Enough! Stop these Questions!" I yell, totally overstrained. "One at a time. For God's Sake.. I'm exhausted, it's been a long day and dealing with all those questions? I'm sorry.." After calming down I try to answer as good as possible.
"Still no Molnija, and it's a tattoo, from what I know it's not allowed in a pregnancy. Heard that. It doesn't matter if I'll get one for this kill, I took a life." I look at Dimitri's sister. One day she'll know how it is to kill one. "Mom, we'll talk in private, tomorrow okay? There are still things you don't know. Or ask Victor. Oh I forgot, he's in jail."
"For you Adrian, yes you were involved with Stan. No Guardian would tell the Great-grandnephew of Queen Tatiana about Strigoi in front of the gates of St. Vladimir's. It should have been a good deed, right? Because you saw how miserable I felt doing the paperwork. It was you who put me in danger. You planned everything. Am I right? And Alto covered you." My gaze changed from calm to angry. How could he?
"Fine, it was my idea, when I found out you want to leave Court, I knew exactly where you would go. I had a few hours to set everything up. I called under a name of one of the Court's Guardian, Croft or something and asked for Stan. Can you believe they really thought it was that Croft? How dumb. Easy to fool them. Well, Stan liked my idea.. Finding the Strigoi wasn't hard as well, because I know them, they weren't even happy with their lives. I know you can handle them. They wanted to die anyway, if you hadn't had the situation under control, Stan would have killed yours too. Easy. We had everything under control too. Nothing could have happened to you and the baby, Little Dhampir." The whole time I carefully listen to him, but I notice how Dimitri tensed and clenches his fists with each word. He's beyond pissed, but unlike me, he can hold himself back and has a lot more self-control.
"Are you stupid? You think you had everything under control? You can't trust Strigoi, everyone knows that. You- especially you, know nothing about them, did you know how long they already were monsters? Or how strong, or if they were Dhampir, Moroi or even Human before? What if they would have sent more? Go get yourself a new drink. The only things you know about is alcohol and cigarettes." I bark loudly. I find it even unexpected for me how I just treated Adrian and how I talked to him, a royal Moroi. Honestly, the outburst was to expect. I still consider him as a friend, maybe not on good terms right now.. "We wouldn't be celebrating a baby shower, that's for sure."
"I think we should call it a night. Adrian, you better get going to your dorm, if you don't want Rose and Dimitri to hunt you down." Abe points out in a harsh tone which makes me flinch. Adrian looks uncomfortable, his eyes showing how sorry he is but instead of doing what my father said, he remains on the spot. If he doesn't leave, Dimitri will really hunt him, he's barely holding his self-control any longer.
"Rose I'm- " Adrian starts but Dimitri and Abe are cutting him off. "LEAVE!". Never heard them this angry, I can understand, what he did was beyond unacceptable, I'm furious too, but after my outburst I try to stay calm, breathing in and out. Stress isn't great in my situation, it could lead to an early labor. In some ways, I'm sick of being pregnant and I would love to let her come as soon as possible, but she's not ready yet or maybe I'm not ready yet? Yes she would survive, the chances are high, for 33 weeks my baby girl is already as big as one in the 35th week. Still, she should wait 7 weeks.
I thought Adrian would leave but instead he stays and keeps on talking. One glance at my father tells me he's in his Zmey mode, woah bad move Adrian.. I would advise him to run.
"Listen Rose, I -" And again he can't finish what he want to say because of my dad, in his Zmey mode, stone cold voice. It even makes me shiver. "You don't get to talk to my daughter again! Are we clear? I don't care if you're an Ivashkov." Pointing with a finger at his chest and continue speaking "You don't want me as your enemy!" Finally Adrian takes his feet in his hand and runs, fast. My guess is he will hide now from him, forever.
We all set off in the same direction, towards the guest dorms. I'm exhausted and tired but I feel like it's my duty to escort at least Dimitri's family to the room. Viktoria and Olena came all the way from Russia to Montana, I even guess both expected a perfect baby shower with no such drama but unfortunately it wasn't perfect at all. I had my usual outburst, so much for only showing them my good side. I won't be good enough for Dimitri in their eyes. I fucked up, not even within 2 hours. And with my mom? I don't even want to start, our relationship will never be like a normal healthy mother and daughter relationship. Sometimes I wonder how it is to have a loving, caring mother, a mother who's always there for you, like Lissa's mom. Since a few months I know how it is to have a father, our relationship grew, he's always there for me, he's been calling me a 2-3 times a week asking how I'm doing.
Flashback:
Before answering the call I always check the ID, and glad it's my dad. It's been 3 days since we talked, I kind of love talking to him it distracts me and he's good company. Today he's calling at a silly time because I'm still stuck at work, so it's easier on speaker.
"Old Man, How are you?" I ask excited.
"I'm doing great. You, Little Girl? Tell me, what did the doc say?"
"I'm great too. Well, the usual actually. She's doing just fine, Baby's been moving and kicking a lot lately. My little girl starts already with the training." I chuckle.
"Well, you certainly had another training with Belikov. Your's wasn't on the curriculum." I widened my eyes in shock as Head Guardian Croft was standing before my desk. Normally he always has his Guardian mask on, not showing any emotions, but now.. well he's laughing at me. Why didn't I pay attention? Fuck. I quickly end the call without saying anything to Abe. Damn it.
"Guardian Hathaway." Croft stops laughing. Finally. "I assume you're finished? Go back to work."
Flashback End.
The walk there is silently and kind of awkward, no one's speaking and everyone is in their own thoughts just like me. I move closer to Dimitri and take his hand, lacing his fingers with mine.
"I'm sorry it turned out to be a shitty baby shower.." I whisper "Talk in our dorm?"
"It's okay, wasn't your fault Roza." keeping his voice low. "Tomorrow, I'm heading to my dorm"
This makes me stop. He doesn't sleep in my room, which idiot did the room distribution? He's finally with me again and heading to his dorm in the guest quarters? No, just no!
"You're kidding right?" I shoot him a glance.
"Rose, it's better if I have my own room, your parents are here and officially I am here because of the field experience, business.."
"I don't care if my parents are here, they know we are living together at Court when you were there."
"You really do believe everything I say? Do you?" He smirks. God, he's an idiot, my sexy Russian idiot. I playfully punch him against his hard chest instead of answering and we start walking again.
We say our good night to the others and that we would meet them at breakfast. I promised my mom we would talk as soon as I'm awake. Finally in our dorm, I change into my large sleeping shirt and lie next to Dimitri. Cuddling against his bare chest. I get to sleep and wake up next to him for the next 7 weeks. Definitely the highlight of each day.
"I know I said we talk when we're in our dorm, but I'm just too tired." I confess and only lift my head a little bit so I can look in his beautiful face. It would be better if we talk now, especially since there's still the Tasha incident in the back of my mind, something I probably couldn't forget until we discuss it out, even though I completely blended this whole thing out when we had sex earlier this day.
"You should sleep Roza." He whispers and is giving me a kiss on my forehead. "Good night."
"Mhmm, night." I murmur and fall asleep as soon as I close my eyes.
I wake up with Dimitri's goddamn alarm clock, how I hate these things. If the alarm wouldn't be from his phone, I would probably smash it. At least I'm feeling rested and fit again. Looking at Dimitri in the morning next to me, I feel even better. Normally I'm not a morning person, I'm still not fully awake but it's like a dream that he's finally here and I'm afraid that if I fall asleep again, he might be gone and everything might've been a really good dream. So I rather stay awake now. Whatever awake means at this early time.
"It's so early. Can't we stay in bed? We tell them I don't feel good." I cuddle once more closer to him and look at him with puppy eyes, in hope it will help.
"How are you really feeling?" He asks me while putting soft kisses on my lips. "Talking to your Mother about everything can be a good thing. If you leave now, there are maybe already some donuts in the Guardian lounge."
"Still tired but good. Oh man, you may be right.." I take all my willpower together and get up from the comfortable bed. "You, Comrade, need to get up too. Enjoy your time with your family. See you at breakfast." I smile
After 20 more minutes I'm standing ready in front of the Guardian lounge. I still haven't put my signature on an employment contract so I don't know if I can enter this easily or not, though I'm a Guardian too. When I was a student here, I gave a shit about the rules, but now, I became more responsible and not a rule breaker anymore. I guess knocking and asking would have the same affect. I do as I thought and Stan opens the door, looking confused, probably why I didn't enter. If someone would have told my younger Rose how I'm behaving, she would have laughed and never believed it.
"Guardian Alto, I'm looking for Guardian Hatha- Oh there she is." Pointing at my mom in the Guardian lounge, drinking coffee. "You're coming?"
"You're late. Timing is everything Rose!" Janine, my dear mother, getting on my nerves so easily. God. I don't answer, it's nothing new. I signalize her to come and turn around to leave.
5 minutes walking in awkward silence with her I clear my throat. "So, do you have any questions or should I just start?" I look at her but she doesn't ask anything, I take that as a signal to start. "The most important thing to know is, in the car accident with Lissa and her family, I died, due to Lissa's Element Spirit she brought me back and since than I'm shadow-kissed. Means I feel all her emotions, she can communicate through the bond with me, but only one way. I can pull myself in her head, and see the surrounding from her eyes, like I'm her in this moment, you know what I mean?"
"Rose.. I know you being shadow-kissed, but died? You actually died?" She swallows loudly. "You need to talk to me, I'm your mother."
"I visited the land of the death." I shrug. "I do now.. And still not finished, though. Mom, what I tell you now, it may sound crazy, nobody believed me at first. I think they still don't.. Only Dimitri tried to help me and believed me.. I uhm.. saw Mason's ghost back at the academy, he warned me about the Strigoi coming. I saw him because the wards were broken. Outside the wards, especially in the air, I have a fucking headache every time and I see familiar and unfamiliar faces.. Ghosts.. I also feel nausea when Strigoi are coming. That's one good thing at least."
"It does sounds crazy, I admit. You were outside the wards for 2 years, did you saw also any.. ghosts?" I wonder if she believes her daughter or not, but to be honest I don't want to ask her.
"No, it started after Spokane. I have an even closer connection to the other side with each death, well that was what Victor Dashkov said, and I think he's right. It was my theory too." I shrug. "Mom.. they helped me 2 weeks ago. I didn't know if it works but I tried and well.. the ghosts distracted the Strigoi so much that he didn't paid attention and I could stake him. Ask Stan how the bloodsucker suddenly reacted if you don't believe me. I think he saw it too."
"Rosemarie, in your case I already need to expect the unexpected, but ghosts.. I try to believe you, so tell me how do they look like, and do they speak? And why are they still on earth?" With all these questions, I know Janine is really trying to believe me, no empty words.
"They are grey, or almost transparent, they are kind of flying and looking sad.. hard to explain.. no speaking, only Mason spoke but it was almost inaudible and only 2 words. Father Andrew said they normally only rest 40 days on earth after their death, or unfinished business I guess because I saw Lissa's brother Andre." I don't want to tell my mother that the ghosts are also trying to show me that I don't belong here, she doesn't need to know that now. Janine Hathaway knows already more than any of my friends. I never thought this moment would actually come. This isn't Guardian business, this is a real mother - daughter thing and she really listens to me, not pretending, or whatever.. At first I didn't wanted to talk to her, but now I think otherwise. I didn't even wanted to tell her so much about the whole Shadow-kiss thing, finally having the feeling of a real mother - daughter relationship makes me want to spill out everything, what she missed in my life. Well, actually almost everything. "Mom, let's skip the ghost part now okay? There's something else I need to tell you."
"You talked to Father Andrew about Ghosts? I guess it's true then if he even told you motives why they would be on earth." One look at my Dhampir mother shows me she's still skeptical but trying to understand everything I just revealed. "Okay Rosemarie, what is it?"
"I'll no longer work at Court. Listen, the desk job is horror, it's boring doing paperwork 6 days a week. You can't imagine. So when I got here, Alberta offered me a job as a school Guardian. At first only 3 days a week, that's good right? In these other 4 days I'll try my best to get in form again. I thought a lot about the offer because raising a baby in a school..pretty messed up. Alberta, Kirova and I met halfway and yeah.. I'll soon put my signature under a contract. Damn, I can't wait to be an actual Guardian."
"Your father told me, I'm glad it worked out for you getting a real Guardian job.. you trained so hard. But what about the baby, who's going to take care of her in these 3 days when you're working? Did you thought about that, too? It's not that easy Rose. It's a human being not a doll." Oh man, Guardian Hathaway is back on track.
"I thought about everything, I'll have someone who takes care of her, I know this person almost my whole life. Don't you think I know that? But at least I don't give her away. I try to achieve my goal with her in my life, I'll work hard. And maybe one day I can be Lissa's Guardian even if I'm raising this baby. Who knows what the future holds?! I got thrown back with the message of being pregnant before even having graduated and worked as a Guardian outside, but that doesn't stop me. My future isn't ruined at all with a baby, there may be a lot of bumps ahead, with my family, friends and my boyfriend, I'll manage to jump over these bumps. I count you as my family, so please don't disappoint me and your future grandchild. All right?" I say, suddenly feeling proud of myself, these were my fears when I think of being a mother soon and now I kind of got over them, literally told my mother I would achieve my goals and a great future ahead of me. I still may have other fears about being a mother, the normal ones that everyone has with their first child, letting the baby fall, not knowing how to hold her correctly or when she starts crying, what these cries means. And the biggest one, if I'm simply a bad mom, not good enough.
Tada, Chapter 16!
What do you think, will Rose make it work to raise a baby in a school?