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For moments, they both stayed in silence.
"Talking With you like this every night is a fortune. " said Kazama after moments of silence with a face that didn't show his emotions, almost a solid expression, like his usual expression when he speaks. Chizuru looked up at him and wrapped herself more in the blanket as she listened to him, not that she was afraid, but it was a cozy evening after all with the weather being icy outside and having warming inside the inn room. She imagined being with him like this every night with no ability to run away from this life. Her feelings were bipolar this evening. One moment, she was severely depressed and felt a tightness in her chest, but another moment, she was feeling better, not enough to say she was happy but enough to say she was feeling comfortable.
"You don't seem to be uncomfortable either. " He continued. They both know he didn't mean that she was content or happy. He was not stupid. He knew that she had been through too much by now, but he only meant that she was not suffering from being physically close to him.
Chizuru didn't feel like replying. She didn't expect him not to abuse her continually once he took her by force. The first night that she was sent by him to the inn after taking her by force, she was expecting him to force her into sleeping with him. After spending a few days with him and even though she could not say that she trusts him, she was not afraid of him, and she could have honest talk with him with no fear.
Kazama was not very worried about Chizuru embracing him late or soon. Of course, he was trying to make her accept him as her husband, but with the upcoming war and what threatened his people, he had too much to be concerned about. He believed that he was doing Chizuru a favor, taking her from a human husband who was not even capable of keeping her safe during this war. He hoped that if she didn't satisfy him as her spouse now, then she'll satisfy him after she gave birth to a child. Her human husband was dead, and Kazama was going to give her and her children what her human husband was never going to be able to give her so it was just a matter of time before Chizuru embraced Kazama as her spouse. She was completely alone with no support and no human husband to return to in a very dangerous world, and Kazama was going to keep her safe. For him, It was just a matter of time before she appreciated what he did for her despite the fact that he took her by power.
The first night that he entered the inn room where he sent her to be kept there, he was thinking of anything but talking with Chizuru. It was a hard day, and after his intense fight with her husband, he was willing to only rest.
He knew that Chizuru was afraid of him and knew she was expecting him to sleep with her with force, so he expected her to attempt to run away at some point and he was too exhausted to think of that. When he entered the room and saw the woman that was supposed to share the bed with him soon, sitting there with her eyes swollen from crying and obviously not attempting to run away, he was too tired to speak with her about the events of her night.
Kazama lifted his hand to push a strand of her hair behind her ear. He did not feel like talking either. Their eye contact was enough. He could see the pain in her eyes from the first evening, but after what they did in the carriage, he felt more like he was willing to comfort her.
Although he was not planning to force himself on Chizuru or hurt her since the first night that he kept her in the inn, he was not caring as much about her as he was caring after their sexual intercourse in the carriage. In fact, before they did what they did, Kazama was not hurting Chizuru mainly because he was willing to find some peace in their relationship even if they didn't like each other. Not to mention that he was quite irritated by the fact that Chizuru was a threat to the nature of the relationship between himself and his children since Chizuru asked him about what he would do if their Children hated him because she was hurt by him. Kazama didn't show much anger but he found that possibility worrisome because since he couldn't marry someone he loves and loves him in return then he was hoping that at least he can have a deep and meaningful relationship with his children and Chizuru was threatening such a relationship.
But after their intimate action, he felt like he was responsible for her. That was why he kissed her tears during their intimacy.
With this thought, he moved his hand from her hair to her back, pushing the blanket down enough to expose her shoulder and resting his hand on her back between her both scapula and pulled her closer to himself.
Chizuru didn't resist, but there was still a mixture of emotions in her eyes and sadness was one of them.