Chapter 35: Confrontation

Kagome

I had parked two streets down and walked to the company from there. I was avoiding the world right now. I went through the back entrance exit door. I took the stairs to the floor where they were doing construction. Then I took the elevator to Sesshomaru's floor from there. I silently prayed that no one had come into the elevator with me. Thankfully my prayers were heard. I hurried out of the elevator and into his office. You'd think I was stealing something with how suspicious I was behaving. There were already some empty boxes waiting in his office. He must have made that call he mentioned last night. I should have been home letting someone else take care of this. I was unable to sit still. I needed to do something; anything. So, here I was.

I packed the rest of my stuff into the boxes. I wasn't too keen on not working and staying home at first, but with everything that happened. That didn't seem like a bad idea now. Some time away would do me some good. I felt like I'd overstayed my welcome. I could always work somewhere else. I would have told Sesshomaru I had no issue with packing up my things and quitting. He would have asked why I suddenly agreed. That would have been a question I would not have wanted to answer; simply because I did not want to open that Pandora's box yet. However, seeing as he had already interrogated me. I was ready to get the hell out of dodge. I had to hurry up and get out of there. I did not want to run into anyone. Not today, and probably not for a long time; not from here anyway. I had been sitting on this information about Kikyo for too long. I hadn't even told Sango yet. I felt like I was going to explode, and then this secret would pour out of my mouth like word vomit. To the first person who would listen. I couldn't have that, especially not here. There's no telling how anyone would spin it if they got their hands on that kind of information. I was almost finished packing the rest of my things when I heard the elevator ding.

Crap, here we go.

I continued stacking the boxes until I heard the office door open. Whoever it was, was standing there but I continued to pack.

"How long are you going to pretend Kagome?"

I sighed and turned around.

"What am I pretending about Kikyo?"

"You're pretending as if our mother didn't tell you I'm your sister."

I clenched my jaw. The word 'our' made me angry. She emphasized it on purpose. She would never let me forget this connection between us.

"So what? Were you just lying in wait here, like some animal in hiding? Hoping to do what exactly? To see me so that we could have this sisterly chat."

"Stop pretending." she pressed.

What the hell did she expect me to say?

She smiled. "What?" she taunted. "You finally have nothing to say? You're usually so talkative."

"What do you want from me Kikyo? Did you want to throw me off my game? Congratulations, consider me thrown. This is all I have been able to think about. My so-called sister hates me for some unknown reason."

"I bet she was so happy that she met you," she said ignoring what I had to say.

"Yeah, she was happy to meet me. I was happy about meeting her too. What about it? or is that not allowed?"

I could see what I had said had stung, and I didn't know why. She hated me, did she want our mother to hate me too?

"Are you going to stand there all day? Or are you going to get to the point!?" I snapped. "Is this about Inuyasha?"

"Among other things," she said vaguely.

My patience was wearing thin.

I threw my hands up in the air. "You have got to be kidding me. I am tired of dealing with the two of you. Kikyo, let me explain this to you for the first and last time. Inuyasha never even loved me! Okay? He only loved how I showed up for him. I was the only one that came through when no one else did. He doesn't want me Kikyo. I sure as hell do not want him. I've told him that one too many times." I explained.

She folded her arms. "Oh, I know. There's only room for one person in his heart, and that is himself," she said plainly.

I pinched the bridge of my nose. "So why are you doing this? Why have you done all this? What is all of this for? I have never done anything to you. Not in college and not now."

She dropped her arms to her side and scowled. "That is where you are wrong Kagome. You did do something. You took what was mine. It should have been me."

"What?" I asked confused.

"She shouldn't have given you up. It should have been me."

"Excuse me?" I asked in disbelief.

"You shouldn't be living this life- I should! Why do you get to be happy like this? A man who loves you. A friend who would do anything. That family. People who would go this far for you. I should be where you are!" she yelled.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"Are you fucking kidding me right now? Do you even hear yourself? Woe is me. My name is Kikyo, and I have been bitter all my life because I wasn't given up to an orphanage. She gave me away to keep me safe! You are so fucking ungrateful and it's disgusting. You have no idea what it was like. I had to bounce from family to family. Imagine not being wanted by anyone; never being good enough. Until you phase out of the system. Do you have any idea what that does to a person? If it wasn't for Sesshomaru's family being as kind to me as they were. I don't know what I would have done. How dare you complain because you had a family. I didn't even know the one I came from. Birthdays, graduations, holidays. The loneliness that I have felt. For God's sake. I was given up because your father wanted a son and not another daughter! I am here because I deserve a good life. I am a good person, who deserves good things and that's more than I can say for you"

"No. Our father. Do not forget Kagome. You and I are sisters remember, and a family? That's laughable. What I had was not a family. I did not get some fairy tale. We were dirt poor and dysfunctional. Holidays, birthdays, and graduations were nonexistent in that house. A drunk for a father who couldn't keep a job and beat his wife. Then dipped off somewhere never to be seen again. A mother who paid no attention to the children she had left. She was too busy pitying herself and forgot she was a mother. That she had a job to do. I was the one left taking care of our sick brother. That is not a life. Not one worth living anyway. If you had the chance, you wouldn't swap places with me, and you know it!"

"Stop saying ours. I do not want to be linked to someone like you. As far as I am concerned. You are still a stranger. Do not call me your sister. You are jealous because of where I am. I HAD TO WORK MY ASS OFF TO GET HERE! I didn't take handouts from anyone. I sure as hell didn't try to manipulate or screw my way here like you did. You have been blaming and resenting me; for something that is not my fault. You're not the only one who had things hard Kikyo. Yes, you had a shitty childhood, but so did I and we're standing on opposite sides of life. The difference is I didn't let mine define me. You, however, clearly never left there."

She balled her fists up. "You still don't understand, do you? She kept things for you! Your first blanket. The pictures she took of you. She would talk about you often. She wondered what you would look like. She wanted to know how you were. She'd said she left a little note; saying what she wanted your name to be. Any last name would be fine. She would say. But her name has to be Kagome. I'm sure there were other things, but I didn't care to look. She had given you up. Still, she couldn't get you out of her heart. I would catch her looking at your things from time to time. She spared time for you. Someone she had let go. Someone she didn't know anymore, but she didn't spare even a single glance for me. The daughter that she still had… I wasn't good enough."

"None of that was my fault!" I snapped.

"I DO NOT CARE!" she screamed. "Why do you get everything, and I get nothing?"

I didn't know whether to be angry or feel bad for her. She was so angry and bitter. There was so much misdirected anger. She was too blind to see that she and I had been in the same boat. Two daughters, in some way. Were forgotten by their family. We both suffered, but only one of us let it change us.

"You hated your life and instead of trying to live it right. You had the chance to change things and make your life better. Instead, this is what you've put your energy into. Now what Kikyo? What's next? You can't do anything to pull me and Sesshomaru apart. I'm still happy. I'm going to continue being happy."

I didn't know what Sesshomaru had in store for her, but I wanted it to burn. This is a feeling I never want her to forget. This is what happens when you try to tear me down.

"I'm going to ruin everything that makes you happy," she said glaring at me.

I tucked the boxes under my arms.

"Good luck with that. I am going to enjoy leaving you with nothing. You should have left me alone while I was still being nice." I said pushing past her.