I finally grew a pair and apologized to Minerva. Been avoiding her like a coward. I stood outside her door all sweatin like a punk, wondering if she was gonna slam the door in my face. I walked in, spilled my guts, told her everything's been hectic since the attack on Goldis. She looked at me like I was crazy, but she eventually opened up.
She asked me if I knew what was gonna happen, said the timing was too convenient, how we ran away together right before the attack. I guess I didn't count on her piecing all that together. You were right, shoulda left weeks earlier. I knew I had to give her somethin, so I told her I'd gotten word from the Crimson Dusk that something big was going down. Had no idea it was going to be as bad as it was, got the message last minute had to just go, had no time to warn anyone else, thought it was just gonna be some heated discussion blah blah blah. I started stutterin. My one fucken tell. Let myself get a lil emotional as I told her I was too scared of losin her to think straight, that if I could go back, I would have warned Nerissa. That part's true. I'm just not sure how far I would have made it after tellin her, and I don't think one of my little handwritten notes would have sufficed.
Min's different now. I thought she was quiet when we first met, but it's like I gotta drag conversation out of her. Grief changes people, or so I'm told. It's a start, though. I'm still a screw up, but maybe I still got a shot with her. I don't know. You're still the only one I can talk to about this crap. Thanks for listenin.