Feyd,

My sister has recovered, and I will be returning to Giedi Prime, as promised. I know my departure was abrupt,

I've been drinking tonight. In fact, I've been drinking most nights. I've been drinking a bit too much to really care at this point so I'm going to be frank. I think I understand you. I really think I do. The whole thing with the tub - I think I have a thing with tubs myself now. And not because of you, oh no... I didn't understand it at first - why you seemed to recoil every time I

It's just - you clearly have a thing with Bene Gesserit Sisters. You like me better the farther I stray from my teachings.

I think I like myself better, too.

I know very little of your upbringing. Forgive me if I'm too bold, but I think we might have the potential to understand one another. Perhaps I might be of use to you at least. You said you want me to be honest. Here I am.

There's nothing left. Everything I thought I had was a lie

All I want is to talk frankly for once in my life. Without rules or the need to speak in code.

I'm being foolish.

We aren't friends, so I don't know why I'm writing to you. I've stopped using my transcriber. I used to think I wrote to preserve history, but I now realize that I wrote for glory. My own sort of

I don't know. I pictured people reading what I wrote someday and referring to me as

as a great historian instead of a

I've been drinking again. I don't know why I'm telling you this. I have no one else to talk to and

I do my best to be stoic, but I'm starting to think I wasn't born for it.

I can't even think about my handmaidens without crying. I know what you must have done to them - it's why I'm still here

I'm a coward.

Feyd,

I'm sorry for leaving so abruptly. The truth is, I thought you meant to kill me. I beg you to reflect on the time we spent together during the first weeks of our marriage and ask yourself why I may have felt that way. My sister was never sick, and I am sorry for leaving you. I have found myself missing the halls of Giedi Prime, and I wish to return. We have much to discuss. I know you may not trust me, and I understand why. I will do my best to explain the situation upon my arrival, but I am no longer safe here.

Baron Harkonnen,

I apologize for my long absence. My situation has changed, and I will be departing Kaitain for Giedi Prime tonight. You may expect me tomorrow morning. I humbly ask you to ensure the well-being of all my handmaidens for the remainder of my absence. In return, upon my arrival, I will dedicate myself to you completely - in whatever way you see fit.

Princess Irulan