BPOV
I couldn't fucking believe I was falling for Edward fucking Cullen out of the whole world!
It was getting very clear to me with each passing day that I was seriously attracted to him, and even though I was aware of the fact that these were completely one-sided feelings, I couldn't help myself!
The more I got to know him, the more I was falling for him. I realized that I had never actually known him before... We were more similar than I had initially thought!
"So how is your foot now?" Masen asked me on the phone after a few days.
"Yeah, I'm glad it's completely fine now," I said.
"Nice... Bella, can I ask you something?" He asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Did you find anyone else there?" He asked.
What a strange question, I thought.
"Not really," I said.
I didn't want to tell him about my feelings for Edward yet.
Wait a second... Why should I even tell anyone about it?
First, I didn't even know if Edward had any feelings for me, and I shouldn't make a fool of myself. Second, I wasn't sure how Masen was going to take it. I mean, I was dating him just two months ago!
"Same here," he said.
Wait, but I guess I needed to clarify with him that I didn't have any feelings for him!
"I'd say my heart is definitely growing fonder with each passing day," he chuckled.
What?
Ummmm... No, just no!
I needed to stop this!
"Look, Masen..." I said.
"We can talk about it in detail when you come here," he said.
That might be a good idea, I guess? It's better to talk in-person and try to explain everything instead of having this conversation on the phone. I mean, I was going there next weekend anyway! Esme loved to throw parties, and she had planned back to back parties for their wedding anniversary and Masen's grandfather Aro's seventy-fifth birthday bash.
"Yeah, let's talk when I get there," I said.
I mean, it was just a matter of a week...
Suddenly I was scared about how he was going to take everything...
I hoped I didn't have to break his heart!
I started feeling bad for falling for his brother!
No... I needed to get my stupid feelings in check!
"So... You guys headed for the concert tonight?" He asked.
"Yeah..." I said. We were going out for the concert with friends.
"I can't believe Edward and you are on good terms now..." He chuckled.
"Yeah, me neither..." I smiled weakly.
I had completely lost it!
I chose what I thought was my sexiest dress as my outfit for the concert.
I wanted to look good!
I wanted him to notice me!
Not sure what the fuck was wrong with me!
"So..." Edward smiled as we gathered in the parking lot, "I have a surprise for everyone!"
"Surprise?" Rosalie said.
"Guess who's moving back to SF?" He smiled as he opened the passenger door of his car, and a beautiful woman got out of the car.
"Tanya!" Rosalie and Irina squealed with excitement.
Ohh...
"When are you moving back?"
"When did you decide?"
"Why didn't you tell me?"
They were bombarding her with questions. It was the first time I felt I was the outsider in this group... I was an outsider!
"Relax... relax!" Tanya said, "I decided a few days ago. I wanted to surprise everyone. I just told Edward," she smiled brightly as he wrapped her arms around Edward, and he smiled lovingly at her.
Okay, I guess she wasn't his ex anymore!
"Bella, meet Tanya," Edward smiled as he introduced me to her.
"Hi..." I said. I was pretty sure this was the most I had been jealous of anyone in my entire life, and I didn't even know her!
I was completely gloomy throughout the concert.
Edward and Tanya were inseparable throughout the concert... He was constantly talking to her... and I didn't like that at all for some reason.
Why was this affecting me so much?
Why was I acting like he had just broken my heart?
It was his life. He could date anyone he wanted. He didn't owe me anything!
I didn't know what was fucking wrong with me!
"Are you okay?" He asked me after the concert was over.
No, there was no way I was fine.
But there was no point talking about it!
"Yeah, why?" I smiled widely.
"Nothing," he said, "You don't seem your usual self for some reason."
"Oh really?" I said, "I'm fine! I just have a little headache."
"I see," he said, "Hope you feel better soon."
Yeah, I hoped so too!