EPOV
She said yes!
I didn't understand how something I already knew was coming could hurt so much!
I have been losing my mind since the last few days.
Isabella Swan was all I could think about nowadays... I thought those old feelings were long gone, but apparently not!
I wanted to ask her out, but I wasn't sure how that was going to pan out... She was my brother's ex-girlfriend for God's sake!
But it should be okay? I mean, she said she didn't see their relationship working out, and it seemed she was doing just fine without him?
There was a very high probability that she'd refuse to go out with me. That's the worst that could happen, right?
Naah, it could be worse! She might take this in the wrong way, and I might end up losing her friendship. I didn't want that! I mean, it took us years to get to this stage where we could have a normal conversation! I didn't want to make it worse by making some stupid mistake!
But I was finding it really difficult to stay away from her.
I was running out of excuses to meet her!
"I'm going to propose to Bella this weekend," Masen said to me on the phone and I stopped typing on my laptop.
What?
That came out of nowhere!
"What?" was all I could say.
"Yeah," he chuckled, "I'm going to surprise her by proposing to her in front of everyone at Mom-Dad's anniversary bash."
Ummm... Okay?
"Did you actually talk to her about this?" I asked.
I wasn't sure if that's what Bella wanted, or maybe it's just wishful thinking on my part, but it felt like she didn't actually see any future with Masen?
"Yes," he said.
"Oh, and what did she say?" I asked immediately. I hoped he didn't notice the impatience in my voice!
"We didn't discuss in detail since I didn't want to spoil anything, but I got the answer for the things that I wanted to know," he said.
Oh!
I had no idea what I was feeling at that moment.
It felt like everything was over!
"That's... That's great!" I said, "Congrats!"
"Thanks!" I could sense a smile in his voice, "I want to surprise everyone! I just wanted to let Alice and you know about this, so be careful. Don't mention anything about this by mistake to anyone."
"My lips are sealed," I said.
I had never felt numb in a way I felt after disconnecting that call.
What was I thinking?
Bella could never be mine. That was never going to happen!
Masen and she were always meant to be...
What was I even thinking?
I was glad I never asked her out and didn't make things awkward for any of us.
Still, it hurt!
But what else could I even do about it other than cheering and being happy for them?
So that's what I did.
I cheered as loud as I could for them.