Well when I started this story it was just another Yukino's birthday story. Well the being I made it a bit too depressing. I was going through a hard time well let just say that the legal process of immigration in the USA is terrible.

Anyway I don't want to get depress again. I was going to plan to use you guys for next project ideas but in the end I reject the stories. So two story ideas I had was one was a story Yukino's POV where everyone was a cat. Yeah that was a terrible story and end in three sentences. The second story I want to tell was demon/ monster story just think of OreGairu in a Rosario+Vampire setting, no fights just drama but I was not sure what kind of creature to make Hikigaya. So yeah I drop it. Feel free to take those two story ideas.

I found myself on a bus in the snowy country. I was not looking forward to my birthday, it has become business parties with my family. I remember the fun time, four years ago, I was truly happy. It started out me being force out of my apartments because Nee-san was with them at first it was with him only. It was a lie to drive me to attend my family business dinner as an excuse for my birthday. As I was outside the café shop to give them my good byes, they surprise me by giving me my birthday gifts. I was truly happy for the sentiments, the fact they were together to pick out gift for me and the fact that they were trap by nee-san for me. Just made me happy, that I was able to spend most of the dinner party satisfy, just waiting for it to be over to open my gifts. It was the following Monday, that we had a small birthday party for me. It was just a small cake but it was truly delicious. It was the best birthday party I ever had. The following year, even though we were in our last year and we were in a certain cold war with each other. We spend time to celebrate my birthday. I was happy too.

But that all change when I enter university, we separated. Even though, he and I were attending the same university. We try to spend my birthday together but I got busy and had to cancel it. I got an email from them wishing me, happy birthday that day but it was not the same. Since then I really didn't want to celebrate my birthday. It was just another gloomy cold day. I notice that my stop was approaching, I got my suitcase ready. The bus stopped at a small bus stop to let the riders down. I step down from the bus and walked down the road. After a few minutes, I reach a small path. The path goes toward a small cabin that my father bought during his university days. It has not been use in years, even though my father has it clean every month. I walk through this empty dirt pathway to the cabin. The snow kept falling, reminding me that it was the end. Winter is the season of death. The gray background just brings out the pain and loneliness. I hold back the tears, I felt cold. It was not the weather rather it was this lonely atmosphere. This quietness in the wind just hurts my ears. I don't want to feel it but I have to recognize that I was alone. They were the only people I consider close and yet I was alone. One was the sun itself. I felt warmth with her around. I was able to walk the path of life because she was the light that lit the pathway. He on the other hand was my support. The main support beam of a home. There was a time that I wanted to be like him, someone strong. I wanted to be at his side but I always fell short. I was always looking at his back. As he blows everyone's expectations of him. I lost sight of him. He was so close and yet I let him go. I was heartbroken for some reason when I found out that there was someone else walking beside him. It turned out that black hair woman with black frameless glasses was his girlfriend. I felt betrayed, he was able to replace us. My world was change again.

I reach the door, I unlock it and enter the cabin. I turn on the light and what I found on my left side was a stone fireplace with a stack of wood inside ready to be set on fire. It was really cold inside. In front of the fireplace was a white fluffy rug. Black sofa and loveseat across from each other. Everything inside was made out of wood. It just felt empty. The small table for four, seats in the middle of the cabin. At the far end next to stair was a small kitchen fully equip with every modern tech of the last five years. I didn't feel like cooking and either way I didn't bring anything to cook. I close the door behind me and just walked toward the stairs with my suitcase being pulled. I drag it up the stairs. It was just a small hallway. On the right at first door was the master room and across the hallway was the guestroom. At the end of the hallway on the right was the closet and across it was the bathroom. The bathroom was American style, it contained a white bathtub and the toilet too. I went to the closet to retrieve bed linens. I went back to the master room. I open to find a queen size bed. I made the bed and laid down. I just felt cold inside this cabin, no it was even colder and lonelier inside the room. I was under the cover with a cold numbness running through my body. I decided to sleep. I change into plain pajamas. When have I stop using my Pan-san pjs? Was it years ago or months? I just can't remember. Tomorrow, is the day of my birth. A day I'm not looking forward to.

I woke up, the place felt warm. I got up and sat on the side of the bed. Something change. I stood up and walk toward the door. I open it and to enter the hallway. I close the door behind me. I turn toward the stair and prepare to walk toward it. As I took the first step, I heard a door open. I turn around scared. There was man that came out of the bathroom. I was scared for my life. He had dark jeans and just plain black pullover. He had a towel on his head, scrubbing his head with it and not looking at me. Who is he? No, I should run. I back away slowly but my first step made a sound. He started to raise his head to look up. As he raised his head, I saw those eyes…

"H-Hikigaya-kun?"

"Oh. Morning Yukinoshita." Replied Hikigaya-kun

Why is he here?

"Why?" I asked.

"Well it is your birthday. Ah! Happy Birthday." Replied Hikigaya-kun.

"H-how did you get here?" I asked.

"Well let just say I kind of followed you. Anyway, why don't we go down stairs?" He asked.

I was about to head downstairs when I notice I'm still in my pjs. "Umm… I'll freshen up a bit first."

I enter my room, I went through my suitcase for some clothes that will look nice. Then I rush to the bathroom. I saw that there was a basket that has some clothes in it. I expected those were Hikigaya-kun's. I turn the water faucet on. I started to undress.

After my hot bath, I got dress. The plain white undergarments felt weird. Am I nervous? I took out my thick leggings and wore them. I almost trip over myself when pulling up the leggings on my left leg. I should slow down. I don't want to get hurt trying to get dress. And if I do the only other person that can help is Hikigaya-kun and for him to see me undress is embarrassing. Next, I adjust my white skirt. The hem reached my knees. My skirt was a thicker fabric. I button up the white shirt. The red cardigan fit a bit tight on me but it should be fine. I fix my hair, and also tie my red ribbons onto my hair. A hair style that I use to wear in high school.

I walk down stair to see that Hikigaya-kun was sitting down a white box on the table. I took notice now, that the table had several plates of different food. Did he cook all this?

"Sorry but most are bentos from a convenience store"

"Well it was expected. There is no way you can cook all that, in this kitchen."

"Well let just eat then." Replied Hikigaya-kun.

We sat down across from each other and started to eat. We had some small talk here and there. Once we reach the birthday cake that he got for me. I split it in fours. I gave him a piece while I got up from my seat, to prepare some tea for us to enjoy the cake with. As I was boiling water, I saw the back of Hikigaya-kun. There is something I have to know. Why was he alone? He would have brought her along.

"Um… Hikigaya-kun. What about your girlfriend? It is rare that you are not with her." I asked.

I remember the first time I saw them together. She was a cute young lady, with blue frame glasses. She was the kind of girls Hikigaya-kun like quiet, a nice figure, young. When I met them, they were on a date. They were together for six months. He never told us and I felt betrayed.

He sighs, before he replied, "We broke up four months."

"W-why? I thought you were happy with her." I asked.

"Yukinoshita, I really don't want to talk about it but I guess I have to tell you since… Well my request is still on the table..." he sighed before he continue... "She was really a great person but I guess she felt pressured. I guess you can say it all went downhill when she met you. Because she met you, I guess I had to introduce her to Yuigahama, Isshiki, Kawasaki, and to my regret Haruno. I was not planning to tell your sister but you know how Haruno is. Your siste saw us on our date and she was forceful and well interrupted the date. She introduced herself as my formal girlfriend and she was touchy and flirted with me. This just cause her lose confidence in herself. We got into arguments. Always the same that I was out of her league or I should date someone better or the 'classic', you deserve someone perfect. Hah! Perfect."

It was my fault.

"I see…

…I'm…"

"I'm scum of sociality, Yukinoshita. I write article for the news paper about how corrupted our sociality is. Always badmouthing someone. I don't need perfect." Interrupted Hikigaya-kun.

"That may be true but you do deserve to be happy." I replied.

I walk toward him. I kneel beside him and place my hand on his.

"Hikigaya-kun, we care for you. Yuigahama-san and I, we want you to…"

"Yukinoshita, let drop it and enjoy your birthday." Interrupted Hikigaya-kun with a sharp tone.

"Fine! But we'll talk about this later." I replied.

I look down, to notice that I still have my hand on his. I slowly retract it. I got up to finish brewing the tea. I serve the tea with the cake that he brought. It was just a simple cake with strawberries on the top with a chocolate plate that read "Happy Birthday". I ate the cake, it was great but I think it was the atmosphere that made it great. I mean it taste like a cake someone would buy at cake shop. The tea that went with it, felt warm and taste nice. I look up to Hikigaya-kun who sat across of me. He was enjoying the tea. I felt a tightening around my chest area. This cabin that use to feel cold and lonely now felt comfortable and pleasant. I look around and notice the beauty of the interior of the cabin. The oak features of the walls, floor, and ceiling gave it a simple yet rustic feel. The fireplace was roaring and yet it gave out a warmth that felt like the kiss of the sunlight on the skin. The whole place had a glowing state. I was at home and yet I'm hundreds of kilometers away in the snowy country. A place where I belong? That's the best way to describe it. We got up from the table, I turn to Hikigaya-kun to thank him. I bowed toward him.

"Thank you, Hikigaya-kun."

"No problem." He replied.

I raise myself. Even though he gave me this party as a present. I want something more personal from him. I looked down. I was embarrassed to say it. I can feel my heart beat increasing in rate and loudness. I asked, "I-I know it shameless and selfish for me to ask b-but can we share the same couch?"

"I don't see a problem with that since it can fit three people on it." He replied.

T-t-that not what I wanted. What was term they use? Something with utensils? Fork, forking… no that's wrong, it's spooning.

"I-I mean can we s-spoon on the couch?" I asked.

His face turn red. "Umm… Y-Yukinoshita, I understand what you were trying to refer to but you use the wrong term." Replied Hikigaya-kun.

"Is it not the action of hugging?" I replied with a tilt of my head.

"Well you are not wrong but it is a term for more intimate form of hugging that lovers do. And at times it can lead to umm… ahem… sexual intercourse." Said Hikigaya-kun.

"S-sex… You beast…" I cover my chest area with my arms. "W-what nonsense did you come up with?"

"Oi! I'm just trying to correct you."

"T-then what is the difference?" I asked.

"D-do I really have to tell you? I think it's better if your boyfriend explains it rather than me." He said.

"There is no such person, Hikigaya-kun." I replied.

"Well let take a seat on the couch then."

I follow him to the couch, and we took a seat. There was a space between us. We didn't need to talk but I want something else. I turn to Hikigaya-kun, he faced somewhere else. With upturn eyes, I tried to get his attention. He sighed then turn to face me.

"Fine, Yukinoshita. I'll e-embrace you but I have to warn you. I have no really experience with it…" He faced away me before continuing. "My ex-girlfriend and I, we were not really affectionately with each other. We were not intimate at all."

"I see" I replied.

I felt happy hearing this.

I got off the couch and Hikigaya got in position. Well it was awkward process, even though it took Hikigaya-kun a few second to decided to either have his feet on the couch or keep them on the ground. I guess he wanted to respect the place a bit. I found it troubling too, while Hikigaya-kun lean on the couch's arm rest and was spread out on the couch, I didn't know what I to do. Do I mount him? Or do I seat on top of his legs? In the end, he sat up again. Hikigaya-kun told me to seat on his lap. I follow his command. It was warm place to sit.

"Well umm… next kind of like a hug, place your arm around the mid part of my back." Hikigaya-kun instructed.

"Yes" I replied.

I hug Hikigaya-kun, my hands rest on his mid-section of his back.

"Well on the count of three, I'll lean backward while we both raise our legs off of the ground onto the couch."

I nodded.

"1…

2…

3…"

Well it was not a perfect transition. My heel struck Hikigaya-kun's shin. The pain from that cause Hikigaya-kun to jerk his head downward. Which in turn cause his chin to bump into my head. It was painful lesson. But I found this embrace to feel nice, my head on his chest and my arms around him. I felt warm and safe.

"Well umm… excuse me." Said Hikigaya-kun.

He wrapped his arm around my waist. I see he also had to hug too. Well that's fine and all but I do have question I want to ask.

"Hikigaya-kun"

"Hm."

"Well what the difference between what we are doing and spoon? You mention intercourse but could it not occur since we are in this kind of position." I asked him.

"Y-Yukinoshita. I don't think that was a question you should have ask at the current moment… Either way, to answer it. Well in this position we c-could umm… have intercourse but you see… F-for spooning, I should be hugging you from behind and we both should be in the fetus position lying on our sides. Your back should be touching my front side like a spoon henceforth the name. Our knees drawn up." He answered.

"I see"

So my back and his front should touch.

After what it appears to be an hour or two. I woke up to find that Hikigaya-kun had been patting my head. I nuzzle my head against his chest. When I looked down, I notice that Hikigaya-kun's rested hand was touching part of my white shirt and the skin of my waist. To my embarrassment the shirt and cardigan I was wearing, rode up. If anyone walked in on us, it would look like Hikigaya-kun was trying to place his hand under my clothes to fondle my bare body.

"H-Hikigaya-kun, why don't we take a small walk." I asked him.

"Sure" He replied.

I need to cool down. I got up, and fix my clothes, smoothing out the wrinkles. I went toward the entrance, I put on my shoes and my heavy coat. I open the door and went outside. The sunny and blue sky was really bright causing me to blink more often to get use to the change of light. I turn around to see Hikigaya-kun closing the door behind him. I walked toward him and hug his left arm.

We just walked around the snowy ground, while we walked under a tree. The snow that was collecting on the tree branch fell on top of Hikigaya-kun. I had a great laugh. I didn't want him to get sick so we return to the cabin to get Hikigaya-kun a change of clothes and to warm him up. Once he changed into dry clothes and warm up by the fire, I found myself lying down on the couch. Hikigaya-kun was sitting down on the floor. I was combing Hikigaya-kun's hair with my fingers while I believe he was playing with what you called a hand held game. I think he calls it PS Vita or Vita for short. I peek over his shoulder once to see what he was playing, he was playing as a high school student with glasses that fight as a thief (AN: Yes, a Persona reference).

After a few hours, we decided to have our dinner of leftovers from lunch. It was a silent dinner that was concluded by leftover cake with tea and a good book or at least in Hikigaya-kun's case a light novel. I still find it amazing that he can still read them at his age. As the only source of warmth and light was dying out, I ask Hikigaya-kun to add a piece of fire wood into the fire to keep it burning while we go to sleep.

Jeez, it really is bothersome arguing with Hikigaya-kun but in the end, I'm dragging him into the master bedroom. It's not like I'm planning to have sex with him or anything. I just think that we can share warmth easier this way.

"I don't this is a great idea, Yukinoshita." Said Hikigaya-kun.

"Enough. Turn around so I can change into my sleep wear. You also should change too." I told him.

"Yeah, I'm going to sleep in the other room. I spoil you enough on your birthday already." Remarked Hikigaya-kun.

"It still my birthday. You should be happy. You get to sleep in the same bed as someone as beautiful and wonderful like myself."

"That might be true but coming from you is just arrogant. Well it is not my first time to have a girl to sleep with." Said Hikigaya-kun.

"I see." I replied, feeling a bit depressed.

"Yes, with Komachi when we were kids."

I rub my temple but I'm glad it was just Komachi. I was worried about his formal girlfriend.

"A-and here I thought you were a beast and slept with yo…"

"Stop right there! My relationship with her was at most spending sometimes with each other but never got that serious. If anything, the closest I got to sleep with someone of the opposite sex was when Yuigahama and you had that slumber party/ study session that I interrupted because of your sister. Well at least the couch was soft." Interrupted Hikigaya-kun.

"You really should stay away from nee-san."

"I know but she finds away. And that scares me." Replied Hikigaya-kun.

"It's getting late Hikigaya-kun. Turn around so I can change." I said.

We change into our sleep wear. As I lay down next to Hikigaya-kun, his T-shirt smell like artificial rainfall. I don't like it, I prefer his smell from high school. It was ocean scent that I find pleasant.

"Good night Hikigaya-kun" I said.

"Night, Yukinoshita." Replied Hikigaya-kun

I woke up, it was so warm but it was a comfortable warmth. The room was dark. I can hear soft breathing behind me. I can feel something warm around my abdomen. I feel around my abdomen to find what this warm feeling was. I felt warmth, this was human flesh. The more I feel it and closer to my abdomen the more convince I am. It was Hikigaya-kun's arms. I see he was embracing me. I turn around to face him. He was still asleep. I moved even closer to him, pressing my being into his front side. The single fabric of his plain T-shirt that was against my body just releasing his body heat into the air. As I press my body against him, all I could think about was that I wanted his body heat, I just want to absorb it. It was a warmth that I missed. I looked up to his face.

The boyish charm of his, has disappear. Now it was more robust, his facial feature was handsome. I place my hand on his face. I caress his cheek. Even though his face was clear, I can still fell the protruding of his beard stub against the surface of my palm. I can feel my heart beating faster. Again, this beating of my heart. I think I'm starting to understand this matter. I dug my face into Hikigaya-kun's chest.

"Hikigaya-kun". I called out.

The replied of soft breathing reach my ears. He was still asleep...

"I love you."

Well I'm done with Yukino's birthday until next year. Time to work on Yuigahama's sometime in April. Check the previous chapter to see what I'm working on. Anyway I'm currently working around four ideas. One is to redeem myself with a Yuigahama POV. The other three are more mature theme. Two are Hiratsuka-sensei POVs and one with Yukino's. I feel like giving a hint on how eventful they are. One idea is drinking cause two to close the gab, another is an argument that lead into a romance, and comedy work that leads to a romance.