-ooo-

Recoil

Part 1-5: Getting Established

The yacht drifted at anchor, rising and falling on the gentle swell. A crystal-blue sky overhead, deep green water beneath. Seagulls circled above, wings barely moving as they drifted on the air currents.

Lisa lay at ease on a lounger on the aft deck, wearing a one-piece swimsuit that looked rather like her regular costume with the arms and legs removed. She looked up from rubbing on suntan lotion as I approached.

"Hey," she said, flashing her vulpine grin and raising her oversized sunglasses slightly. "You dream a nice yacht. I'm impressed."

I took the seat next to hers. This is just a dream, right? I asked, looking around.

"Just a dream, sure," she said cheerfully. "And, you know, not."

... right, I said. I'm sure that'll make sense when I wake up.

"Well," she said cheerfully, "it is all in your head, if that makes you feel any better."

I'll get back to you on that, I decided. While I'm here, do you have any other pearls of wisdom?

She picked up the umbrella drink that had not been beside her ten seconds earlier - or had it? - and sipped at it. "Well," she said at length, "you're pretty well on track for the moment. The question of school will come up. Don't ask to go to Arcadia; it hasn't been established yet. Winslow's your best bet there. When you get there, remember that Ms Blackwell isn't the principal, just another teacher."

So I'm going back to Winslow again, I grumped.

"Well, it'll be the first time for them," she observed, sounding amused. "And of course, there will be a certain lack of some people."

I nodded. Emma, Sophia, Madison. The three bitches who had made my life hell. There'll be others like them, I pointed out. There's always bullies.

"True," acknowledged Lisa. "But they won't have a specific reason to pick on you, other than the fact that you're new. That'll wear off. And seriously, you've gone toe to toe with the likes of Leviathan and Alexandria. You've faced off Tagg and Armsmaster. Are you going to let a bunch of high-schoolers scare you?"

I said slowly, Well, I don't have my powers any more ...

She sat up, raised her sunglasses, and gave me a stern look. "It's not about powers," she said flatly. "Powers are a means to an end. In the end, it's what's in here that counts." Her fingertip tapped on my sternum.

It would be a lot easier with powers, I pointed out.

"You always refused to use your powers on the bitches anyway," Lisa pointed out. "So how is this different?"

I thought about that. It isn't, I guess, I said. Except that now I can't ditch class to go rob a bank or something. I don't have you guys to go hang with.

"Oh, you'll always have me to hang with," Lisa assured me. "As for not robbing banks, nor will you have the responsibility of a territory to oversee. You'll be able to actually be a teenager for the first time ever."

I don't know how, I protested. The only time I was able to be a teenager was when I was with you guys. And you can't say that was a normal time.

She grinned at me. "Well, now you've got a chance to learn how," she said cheerfully. "But it's about time for you to wake up. Have a nice day. I'm going for a swim."

Getting up from the lounger, she leaned down and kissed me. Her lips tasted of dust and blood.

Then she turned and dived off the edge of the boat into the deep green ocean. Water splashed up, and some got me in the eye. I blinked …

-ooo-

… and I was awake.

I rolled over and sighed.

It was always hard to see Lisa and be reminded all over again that she was dead, that what I spoke to in my dreams, in the hypnotic trance, wasn't her at all, just a construct that my subconscious had thrown together.

Unless it wasn't. In which case I had no idea what was going on.

Still, on one level it was nice to see her, to talk to her. It gave me a certain amount of comfort, of confidence.

I climbed out of bed and padded out of the spare room, down the hall between the other two bedroom doors, to the bathroom.

When I was finished, I went back to my room and changed out of my brand-new pyjamas – thank you, Nina – to my sweats and running shoes. Nina had raised an eyebrow at these, but I had told her that I needed them.

Closing my bedroom door behind me, I headed downstairs as quietly as I could.

Not quietly enough, apparently; boards in the hallway creaked, and so did the stairs. I was almost at the bottom when a tousle-haired, pyjama-clad Danny appeared at the top, rubbing his eyes.

"Taylor?" he queried sleepily. "Where are you going?"

"Out for a run," I said, pitching my voice just loud enough for him to hear. No sense in waking up George and Dot; he would be irritable about being woken early on a weekend, and she would be concerned about me running. I had pepper spray in my pocket, once more courtesy of Nina, but she didn't need to know about that either.

Danny came down a couple of steps. "Running?" he asked, sounding confused. "Won't you get lost?"

I shook my head. "I have a good sense of direction," I told him. "Besides, I'll just stick to the nearby streets."

"Wait a minute," he said. "I'll come with you."

I opened my mouth to frame a refusal, but he had already disappeared back upstairs to his room. I suppose I could have left while he was getting ready, but that would have been mean.

To his credit, he was downstairs in fairly short order. The running shoes looked new; I figured that he was using his work boots far more often.

As he let us out the back door, I asked – quietly, as I knew that his parents' bedroom was directly above – "Do you run much?"

He waited until we were out the side gate before he answered. "Not really, but I've been working down at the port with Dad. I'm a lot fitter than I used to be."

Well, I thought, we'll see.

-ooo-

As it turned out, he wasn't all that unfit. However, he had not been running in some time, if ever, and it showed. I had to stop several times to let him catch his breath, but he always doggedly got back into stride again. In the end, though, we turned for home before I had done half of my planned run. I shrugged mentally. There was always tomorrow.

We walked the last hundred yards as a cooldown; I was breathing heavily and sweating just a little, but he was panting like a steam train and perspiring heavily. However, he was still steady on his feet, which I counted as a plus.

"Do you do track and field or something?" he asked as he got his breath back.

I shook my head. "I don't think so," I said. "I think I've just got a routine or something. I woke up and decided I wanted to go for a run."

"Wow," he said. "I thought I was fit, working at the port. I think I've got a ways to go."

"We've all got areas we can improve in," I pointed out. "You've got upper body strength that I'll never have."

"Yeah," he said. "I guess."

When he opened the back door, Dot was in the kitchen making breakfast. She looked around in some surprise. "Danny?" she asked. "And Taylor? I thought you were both still in bed."

"Oh, uh, sorry, Dot," I said awkwardly as I came up the steps behind him. "I wanted to go for a run, and Danny came along to make sure I'd be okay."

She eyed me speculatively, then glanced at Danny. He nodded. "It was more like Taylor went for a run, I went for a stagger," he said ruefully.

"So, not a romantic walk to watch the sun rise over the Boardwalk then," she observed, sounding mildly disappointed.

I shook my head. "Not hardly. Sorry. Danny's nice. But ..." I broke off, trying to find a diplomatic way to say it.

"But you're just not that interested in him?" she suggested gently.

"Mom!" protested Danny, blushing.

She smiled and patted him on the cheek. "You go upstairs and shower, young man," she advised him.

"Okay, Mom," he said. Turning to me, he added, "I'd like to go running again, if you don't mind me holding you back. I think I need to do more of that."

I shrugged. "Sure," I said. "We can do that."

He grinned, then turned and headed into the front hall.

As his footsteps receded upstairs, Dot turned to me. "So you run in the mornings?" she said.

I nodded, hitching one hip up on the table. "Apparently so," I confirmed. "It did seem really familiar," I added truthfully. "Ms Veder says that if I do familiar things, it might open up a memory."

"So did it help bring anything back?" she asked.

I shrugged. "Not yet, but I have hopes. Ms Veder seems to know what she's talking about."

"Nina Veder is a smart girl," Dot told me. "She knows her stuff. Helped a cousin of mine. I've got a lot of time for her." She lowered her voice. "I just wish she'd be more careful of the company she keeps."

I blinked, trying to work out what she meant. Then light dawned. "Oh – her roommates?" I asked.

She nodded. "Yes," she said, keeping her voice low. "Did she tell you about them?"

"Something like that, yeah," I said, then frowned. "But I don't really see the problem."

She shook her head disapprovingly. "You young people and your ways. I just don't think it's a Christian act."

If there was anything that was going to remind me of the era I was in, that was it. Legend had not come out yet; his marriage was still years in the future. The revelation that a member of the Triumvirate was gay had done a lot to foster acceptance of the homosexual community; when Flechette had quit the Wards to be with Parian, the scandal had been all about her defection, not her preferences.

And my own grandmother was a bigot, even in her own restrained way. It was a shock to the system.

But there was nothing I could tell this sweet old lady that would change her mind, would make her re-evaluate her views. I didn't know how she would react when Legend revealed his orientation; it might change her mind and it might not. But it wasn't something I could talk about now.

Another thought intruded. She might be wondering about me, given that I've shown a distinct lack of interest in her son.

I forced a smile. "Well, you don't have to worry about me," I reassured her. "I am interested in boys. Just … not right now, you know?"

She smiled, and seemed to relax slightly. "That's good, dear," she said, kissing me on the cheek. "Now, would you like to help me with the pancakes while Danny finishes his shower?"

"Love to," I replied.

-ooo-

Saturday morning breakfast was a more relaxed affair. George came down in his shirtsleeves, and Danny was dressed in t-shirt and jeans after his shower. Following our discussion of the evening before, and the morning run, Danny was treating me as just another person at the table, which was more or less what I needed. George seemed to pick up on the difference in his behaviour, and shot his son a few suspicious glances; Danny affected not to notice.

Dot and I were just finishing the washing-up when Nina Veder knocked on the door. Danny let her in, and she strolled through to the kitchen.

"Ready to go, Taylor?" she asked.

I frowned. "Go?" I asked. "Go where?"

"Well, first to the police station, to make sure that you're not a wanted felon. Secondly, if they've still never heard of you, to the local court registrar to have some temporary identification made up for you. Get you back into the system. And thirdly, we need to discuss which school you'll be going to, if they haven't figured out who you really are."

"Oh," I said. "Wow. Okay." I looked down at myself. "Should I change?"

She tilted her head to one side. "No, you look tidy enough. Maybe brush your hair?"

I trotted upstairs, came down with the brush that – once again – Nina had bought me. "I can do it in the car," I suggested.

"Good idea," she agreed.

"Wait a minute, you're going out?" asked Danny.

"Um, yeah, looks like it," I said. "Why?" Oh great, I thought. Here we go.

"I was gonna call up Alan, see if he wanted to come over," explained Danny. "Him and Zoe just had a baby. I thought you might like to meet them. They're good people."

Shows how much you know, I decided not to say.

"Red-haired guy?" I asked, though I knew full well that it was.

He nodded, looking surprised. "That's right. How did you know?"

I grinned briefly. "Me and Ms Veder passed him on the pier when we were getting off the boat."

"Oh," he said. "Oh. Right." He grinned and shrugged. "I just thought, you don't know anyone around here, so …"

I nodded. "I understand, and I appreciate it, Danny. It's just that my plate's kind of full today. Maybe another day?"

"We could invite the Barneses over for Sunday dinner," suggested Dot from the kitchen door. "Taylor could get to know them then."

"That sounds reasonable," I agreed. "But we've got to get going. See you all later."

-ooo-

We made our way to the car. As we got in, Nina looked at me oddly.

"What?" I asked.

"The bottom step," she said. "You never step on it. You always jump over it. Why is that?"

"I … what?" I asked. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Should have been watching for that. "I didn't realise."

"Interesting," she noted. "Something that might provide a clue." She put the car in gear. "Also, I note that you and Danny no longer have that tension between you. Care to share?"

I shrugged. "Nothing to share. Last night, I told him that I wasn't interested. In the nicest way possible, of course."

"And how did he take it?" asked Nina. Her eyes were on the road, but I could tell she was giving me her full attention.

"Very maturely," I said. "We're currently just good friends." I paused. "Oh, and apparently I like going for a morning run."

"Oh, you do, do you?" asked Nina. "Did it, uh, jog loose any memories?"

It took me a moment to get the pun, then I groaned. Nina looked very pleased with herself. "That was bad."

She nodded cheerfully. "I know, but seriously, did it help you remember anything?"

"Nothing concrete," I told her, "but I think I've been doing it for a while."

"That's good," she said. "That's very good. Another piece for the puzzle."

"Unfortunately," I added dryly, "it's not a corner piece."

"Every little bit helps," she observed. "For now, we'll just take it one day at a time."

-ooo-

"Well, she's not in the system anywhere we can see," the police sergeant told Nina. "No descriptions that match closely enough to matter, no hospital records. Fingerprints, nada." He shrugged. "I've seen it before, with people who just wanted to drop off the face of the earth, kids of itinerant families. It's rare, but not unheard of."

He looked over at me. "But usually we can just ask them who they are, where they're from." A fatherly grin. "Of course, then we get the tough ones like you, who are fully competent, but can't remember a thing."

I shrugged. "Sorry," I said.

"Well, the best we can figure is that she's from Brockton Bay or somewhere nearby," said Nina helpfully.

"That's something, I guess," agreed the sergeant. "We'll keep looking; if anything pops up, we'll let you know." He handed over a sheaf of papers. "In the meantime, here's everything you gave us on Miss Snow. Medical report, plus fingerprints and so on. Take that to the court registrar, and you shouldn't have too much problem with getting her issued temporary identification."

-ooo-

The registrar was a fussy bald man, at least sixty, who would have been as skinny as me, if not skinnier. He peered at me over rimless spectacles, then at Nina.

"So she isn't your daughter?" he said querulously.

Nina shook her head. "No, she is not."

"And you can't find any next of kin?"

"No, sir, we can not," she confirmed.

He addressed me directly, this time. "Young lady, you have no memory of your family, or where you're from?"

I shook my head. "No, sir," I said. "I'm fairly sure my name is Taylor Snow –" half true, half a lie – "but beyond that, there's not much to go on. They pulled me out of the ocean after that big regatta smash-up."

He adjusted his glasses. "I see. Well, these documents seem to be in order. Medical information, identifying marks, fingerprints. An affadavit that these documents are true and correct, and all refer to the same person; that is, you. And a sworn statement by a medical professional, one Edwina Veder, MD, PhD, that you are of sound mind and sound body, and are fit to enter society."

He filled out a form with crabbed handwriting, had me sign it, then stamped it with what seemed to be unnecessary enthusiasm. Passing the form to me, he said, "Take good care of this, Miss Snow. According to this document, you are once more a productive member of society. It will serve as your legal identification until you can get something more binding."

"Can I … can I get copies?" I asked tentatively. "In case I lose it, or it gets damaged, or something?"

He smiled austerely. "Certainly. Twenty-five cents per photocopy, and I can have the copies certified."

I glanced at Nina – Edwina? – questioningly. She nodded. "Not a bad idea, Taylor. Yes, sir, we would like that."

It took a little more time, but a creakingly ancient xerox machine spat out four copies, Nina paid an extra dollar, and the registrar stamped each of them with a different stamp and signed them as being "true and accurate copies of the original document".

Each of us shook hands with the old man, and he wished us a good day. As we got up to leave, he was pulling down the shutters.

-ooo-

Outside, with the original and three copies in my bag, and the fourth in Nina's, I turned to her. "Edwina?" I asked. "Really?"

She heaved a deep sigh. "My parents thought they were getting a boy, and had chosen Edward as a name, okay? So when I came along, they couldn't think of a good name, and settled for the closest girls' equivalent."

We got into the car. "So … did they ever actually call you 'Eddie'?" I asked as I buckled myself in.

"For about one week," she confirmed. "A week during which I refused to acknowledge the name. So we compromised and went with Nina." She started the car and put it in gear.

"So why not change it by deed poll?" I asked.

She shrugged. "Ever hear the Johnny Cash song 'A Boy Named Sue'?"

I frowned. "I think I know it."

"You think the guy in the song ever thought of just changing his name? Ride into a new town and call himself Jim-Bob or George or something?"

I shrugged. "Not really. I guess he just got used to it."

She nodded. "Same with me. I'm used to the fact that my given name is Edwina, but I call myself Nina, and that's all everyone has to know about me." She looked at me. "Make sense?"

I grinned at her. "Sure thing – Edwina."

She rolled her eyes. "Okay, fine, get it out of your system."

I shook my head and chuckled. "I'm done. Sorry. I shouldn't make fun of your name."

She half-shrugged. "Oh, I used to make fun of it all the time." A side glance at me. "Lunch?"

"Yes, please," I agreed. "Becoming a real person again is hungry work."

-ooo-

Lunch was almost over. I had had a pita wrap with sun-dried tomatoes, and Nina had demolished a vegetarian quiche. I was sipping my tea when Nina leaned back in her chair.

"So, Taylor," she said. "Now we get to the unpleasant task of deciding which bastion of education will have to bear the brunt of accepting you within its hallowed halls."

"What school I'm going to?" I asked.

"If you want to reduce it to such tawdry terms, yes," she agreed, nibbling at a sugared doughnut.

"Uh, what options are there?" I asked.

"Not many, I'm afraid," she said. "Immaculata is a private school, predominantly Catholic. Do you know if you're Catholic?"

I shrugged. "No idea."

"Grantley is a public school, but it's not in the best of shape," she went on. "Five gets you ten it folds in the next three years."

I didn't know about three years, but I knew it wasn't going to last twenty-two years. I had the vague idea that Arcadia had been established on the old Grantley campus.

"Anything else?" I asked.

"Yes," she said. "Winslow. It's a good school, from what I hear. Strong in athletics, and they regularly compete well in academic challenges."

How the mighty have fallen, I thought. Or would fall. Or whatever.

"Well, it sounds like Winslow's the pick of the bunch," I observed.

Nina nodded. "Well, as it happens, I spoke to the principal of Winslow this morning."

"And …?" I prompted, when she paused.

She smiled widely. "And he's willing to see you this afternoon, if that's the one you want to attend," she told me. "All we have to do is call ahead."

"So wait," I said. "You already chose this one for me?" I felt vaguely insulted, despite what Lisa had said in my dream that morning.

She shook her head, still smiling. "No. You chose. I merely anticipated your choice."

"And if I'd decided that I was Catholic?"

A half-shrug. "I'd be making a call to Immaculata instead."

"Huh," I said. "You called them all."

She nodded. "No sense in not hedging my bets." Getting up, she dusted crumbs off of her legs. "Well, ready to go and see what Winslow looks like?"

I grinned, ignoring the butterflies in my stomach. It won't be like it was when I first went there, I told myself firmly. It'll be totally different.

"Let's go to school," I agreed.

End of Part 1-5