Sesshomaru groaned as he felt pleasure run through his body. His mind was thumping, as was his youkai. When he peeked open an eye, he was surprised to see his mate on top of him, lowering himself down on his straining cock. "M-mate…?" He moaned as his hands tightened around his hips. "What are you…?"

Inuyasha's hands were on his chest, he was flushed and riding him while whimpering. Sesshomaru couldn't deny that he wanted this, but he was so confused. He stroked his mate's cock and accepted when he joined their lips. His brain was fuzzy, he didn't understand what was going on and why his mate wasn't where he left him.

The pleasure felt like lightning shooting through this body as his mate moved. He was looking down at him with such an intense desire. Sesshomaru sat up, kissing him and holding him tightly. Inuyasha wrapped his arms around his shoulders and joined their lips and once more.

They were moving together tightly. Sesshomaru groaned into his mate's mouth. He needed this. He really needed this. He felt his mate's tongue on his neck then. Sucking and scraping his fangs along, making the youkai think he was going to mark him. Sesshomaru felt his youkai pulse and wondered if it was okay to stop fighting it so much now. His mate was willingly in his arms. They kissed again, he could feel the pinpricks of his mate's claws on his back and felt himself shudder as his mate came, tightening around his length. He thrusted a few more times but paused when his panting mate pulled away. The youkai watched his cum drip lewdly between his mate's legs.

He stood and the youkai followed. Inuyasha's long hair swayed this way and that, before he looked at his mate, beckoning him forward. Sesshomaru came behind him quickly. Soon enough, he was roughly thrusting with his mate bent over a table in his rooms. It felt good to have his mate like this. He needed this, he needed him. He pulled the hanyou upright and joined their lips again. Playing with his chest and cock. Then he bit his mates mating mark and realized that that's what he wanted. He really wanted to be marked.

His mate was moaning and whining, begging him for more, he changed their position. His mate flat on his back on the table…but then it changed. He was looking up at him with utter terror as he began to scream and shout while fighting him. This startled Sesshomaru who then woke with a start. He was drenched in sweat and his breath was coming short as he sat up quickly and looked around the room. "…agh…" he groaned, trying to make his way to the bathing room to cool his body and clear his mind. He collapsed on his way and passed out from the heat.

Inuyasha hadn't attempted to leave his room since Sesshomaru returned him. His consciousness was still sinking slowly into the water, but it'd been accosted by Sesshomaru's words. They bothered him more than anything and though he couldn't remember why, he wanted to kill that man.

Then it was like he opened his eyes. However, he had no clue where he was and what was going on. The woman in the room seemed startled that he looked at her, but he knew who she was. He just…couldn't remember her name. He stood up, taking in the room and feeling uneasy. What wasn't he remembering? "Milord?"

Inuyasha looked at her, "Who…are you? Where the hell am I?" She seemed extremely surprised but answered his questions. He could hear her heart racing and wondered what she was so concerned about. He then asked about it.

"Lord Inuyasha…you've been in a state for months…not speaking…recently you've even attempted to take your own life…I'm surprised…" She explained, giving him water.

"Okay…so why am I here?"

Her eyes widened, "Because you're the mate of the Lord of the West…he's been trying to find a solution to your sickness."

"Mated? To the lord of the west?" Inuyasha questioned. "Who's that?" The hanyou realized he was feeling extremely jumbled about a lot of things right now.

"Please wait here a moment while I retrieve the healer!" She hurried off to get Masane who came quickly.

She seemed shocked to see him awake and hear about him talking. She was even more shocked when she experienced it herself. "Do you know what happened when you came to be here?"

"…no."

"Do you remember anything about yourself?"

"I do…but everything feels fuzzy…" He murmured.

Suddenly, there was urgent knocking at the door. Masane opened it and a guard spoke quickly, "Lord Sesshomaru has collapsed!"

Masane was shocked to hear this and excused herself with a bow to Inuyasha before going to the youkai's side. "Who collapsed?"

"Lord Sesshomaru, your mate…" Sakura answered. She didn't know if she should inform the hanyou about his hatred towards the youkai or if that would be overstepping.

"Is he okay?" He then asked.

"…you want me to find out his condition...?"

"Well yeah…you said he's my mate, right?" Inuyasha was confused about what she was confused about.

"Y-yes…but…" Sakura frowned before looking behind her and making sure the door was closed, though she still ended up whispering. "…you…and lord Sesshomaru don't have a good relationship…"

Inuyasha's eyebrows raised some, "Really? Why?"

"…it's…not my place to say…I don't wish to incur his wrath." She bowed a few times. She could tell the hanyou wasn't convinced and worried that maybe she shouldn't have said anything at all. However, it seemed unfair and like she was manipulating him if she pretended like their relationship was what it wasn't.

"Oh…" Inuyasha frowned. If they were mated, why wouldn't they have a good relationship. He was already so confused and uncomfortable that when he was told he was mated he felt relieved. There was someone close to him that could help.

Soon the Masane woman returned and began to check him over again, he'd had a meal and spoke to her for a bit. She informed him that he had an incident involving his youkai and it overwhelmed him. She didn't think the memory loss would be permanent, but he would have to continue to be monitored.

When able he happily popped up and began to explore. He frowned when nothing was jogging his memory and said such to Sakura. Those around them exclaimed at hearing him speaking again. "Well milord…you destroyed the previous fortress, and this is all brand new…so it's doubtful that anything here will jog your memory."

Inuyasha frowned, "I destroyed it?"

"Yes…you went missing for a while and suddenly appeared…and lost it. You destroyed everything and then passed out and remained asleep for a while." Sakura continued to explain as they walked, even talking about how many healers had been brought to help him and how frustrated the king had been.

Inuyasha nodded and listened as they came to training fields. He looked over at them and they all seemed shocked to see him. "Milord! You're up, how are you feeling."

Inuyasha looked at the inu that jogged over, "I'm fine." The youkai seemed extremely surprised that he'd spoken.

"I'm glad to hear your voice again." He smiled. Sakura began to explain that he was missing his memories right now and that Masane expected it to resolve itself eventually. "That is unfortunate news then. Well, once again, my name is Hiroki. I'm currently training a new batch of recruits and milord's presence can and will discourage them." He said with a smile, especially when the hanyou looked confused and began to question him again like he had all those months ago.

Hiroki thought it was funny that they were having the same conversation and explained with no problem before the hanyou huffed and walked off with Sakura. For the first time, he ate in the main dining hall. Those there seemed extremely frightened of him, and he asked her about that too.

"…before you went missing…you killed a few kitchen servants…"

Inuyasha knit his brows together, "Why would I..?"

"…you were looking for something that Lord Sesshomaru had taken from you. The sword at your hip. I was told you must keep it at your side at all times. They said you even attacked Lord Sesshomaru with a kitchen knife as well." Sakura spoke softly.

Nothing seemed to help the hanyou remember those things though. However, much to everyone's surprise, he apologized. "Even though I don't remember why I did it…it sounds pretty messed up." He frowned looking at them. They seemed a bit more comfortable about serving him. Inuyasha played around with the food and asked various questions about what he was eating since he couldn't remember ever having something like this before.

When he was being guided back to his rooms, he heard people speaking about his mate again. Stating that they were confused about why the hanyou wasn't helping his mate and wondering if he was letting him suffer on purpose. When he asked Masane about it she seemed surprised that he wanted to know and was shocked himself about how terrible their relationship apparently was. He wondered why he seemed to despise his mate so much.

"Since you are both newly mated, heat will be hard on you. It only happens to the lord every half decade or so, so this is new, and he is having a hard time dealing with it unfortunately."

Inuyasha nodded. He remembered what heat was and what it felt like. He remembered being extremely uncomfortable when it first happened and how even the cool waters of a river couldn't help him. Eventually, he was left alone as night sky came. He tried his hardest to remember things but there was so much he didn't understand.

Eventually he worked himself up enough to go see this mate of his. At first, he thought he would come see him himself, but the heat would change things. Since he didn't know where his mate's rooms were he asked a guard to guide him. The guard seemed reluctant but guided him to his doors anyway. The guards at his mate's door said nothing and unlocked the doors for him, and he went in. He looked around and was unsure of which door in the sitting room was the right one. He could smell the man and taste his heat on the air.

The hanyou chose the door that smelled the strongest and headed in. He was greeted with the sight of a beautiful man, lying practically naked in a bed being bathed in the moonlight. His arm was covering his eyes as he panted. Needless to say, he was shocked by his mate's appearance. Then he clammed up when he shifted, and cold golden eyes peeked at him. "Ughhh…" he groaned. "…again…?" He murmured looking at him before slowly sitting up. "…are you real or a hallucination? …so annoying…" He mumbled, standing up and approaching him.

He was able to grab him and was relieved and bothered by the fact that he was actually here. The youkai caressed his face and stared a little longer than he intended to before kissing the hanyou. "Just stay put." He whispered against his lips before he began to pull him along.

"…shouldn't you lie back down…" Inuyasha was startled at how quickly his mate looked at him and the shock on his face, "…you uh…don't look like you're doing too well…"

The youkai pulled a hand through his hair, "Another dream…" he mumbled, "Ugh…wake up…" he groaned, speaking to himself.

"Um…you're not dreaming…" Inuyasha explained, he was nervous being this close to the attractive male and his youkai was on high alert, which he found strange. Sesshomaru scowled, he couldn't believe that. Since he was suppressing his youkai to the best of his ability, he was having a hard time monitoring the hanyou, so he didn't feel anything from him. "The servant, Sakura, said I hurt myself somehow, and I don't remember much right now. Masane said I'm alright, but my memories will take a bit to come back but she needs to examine me more to make sure they'll come back at all though."

Sesshomaru was just staring at him, unsure of what to believe. It felt like something that would happen in a dream. He sighed, trying to wake himself up again. "So why are you here exactly?"

"They said you were my mate…I wanted to see you…"

Sesshomaru clenched his jaw, his youkai was too delighted to hear that, and it bugged him. He sighed and went into the bathing chambers. Inuyasha curiously followed and watched the lord strip and get into the chilling bath. "Go back to your rooms." He said coldly, looking at him after dunking himself.

"…" Inuyasha felt uncomfortable with the way the youkai was looking at him but made no effort to leave.

The youkai sat with his back towards him and leaned his head back on the bath, "Even without your memories you're a defiant nuisance." He said looking back at him. "What do you want?"

The hanyou wasn't sure. He knew he wanted to talk to him, but he couldn't exactly formulate any questions. He was beautiful, soaking wet, and in heat. He wanted to ask about their relationship and why they didn't get along, but his state was a bit distracting. His own youkai was watching but not acting on anything. Sesshomaru was watching him and wondering how long this was going to last. He was pleased that this change had occurred but he…wouldn't get his hopes up about anything involving the hanyou. There was no guarantee he wouldn't try to harm himself again.

When he felt sufficiently cooled, he pulled the hanyou along. Covering himself some he pushed him into his bed and climbed in after him. Inuyasha was surprised and felt how startled his youkai was. "Go to sleep." He said turning away from him this time. The last time he'd slept with the hanyou in his bed had been comfortable. He could feel his youkai intensifying the pheromones, but it didn't seem like Inuyasha's youkai would rise to it which was helping with the intensity of the heat.

The youkai's eyes opened when he felt Inuyasha spoon him from behind. He looked down at the arm thrown over his waist and felt the hanyou's hand on his stomach. He was so confused about this new state. He could feel his youkai curling in delight and closed his eyes, willing himself to sleep.

The youkai had passed out earlier and been found by a servant. It was as embarrassing as when he passed out in the hall due to Inuyasha's emotions. He felt like a naïve child unable to control their own body. It was frustrating but the heat should only last a few more days. He hated how debilitating it was.

When he woke in the morning, he could see the furred tips of Inuyasha's ears in front of him. The hanyou was pressed flush against his body and his own cock was throbbing at the proximity. Then he shifted and held back a groan at the sparks of pleasure shooting through his body. He pulled away and stood, rushing to the bath and getting in fully clothed.

When he finally cooled down and returned to his bed chambers to change, the hanyou was sitting up, his short hair looking wild. He came over and straightened his hair, the hanyou watching him curiously. "Go back to your rooms now."

"…but…"

"Get out." Sesshomaru mumbled as he returned to his bed.

"…" Inuyasha stared at him a moment and wondered why his mate was acting so cold towards him. He thought about what he'd been told about his behavior before and wondered if his mate was still upset about that. "I'm sorry…" He said quietly. "…see ya…I guess…" He thought that since his mate had worked so hard to find a solution for his illness then maybe he cared about him, but it was clear he was still furious with him.

Sesshomaru listened to him leave and felt like he could finally sigh. His bed smelled like the hanyou, and his youkai was reacting fervently. His cock was already solid again and he was having a hard time reigning his youkai in. He couldn't deal with him being in here anymore.

Inuyasha walked through the halls, looking around at everything. The fortress was gigantic. He could see a few guards following him around and didn't let it bother him. He had breakfast in his rooms and spent some time in one of the many gardens. He was enjoying the fresh air and snacks as his mind wandered to his mate as he could hear the servants' whispers from a distance. They were again speaking about how the lord was suffering and he wasn't willing to help him. The youkai clearly didn't really want him around, why would he go against that? Was he supposed to force himself on his mate? What kind of monster would that make him? Mate or not, heat or not, he wasn't the type to harm someone like that.

It was starting to really annoy him, and the sky began to darken. This irritated him a bit more as he stood to go back in before it started to rain. Sakura was faithfully by his side and talking about various things in the fortress. Other servants would avoid him, bowing and even avoiding his gaze. He wished he could remember what he'd done but his youkai clearly didn't feel the need to help him any. He wasn't sure if even it remembered what had happened or would tell him for that matter. It was frustrating him even more as a thunderstorm began. He was sitting quietly on his bed and looking out of the window. Watching the lightning and timing the thunder. It didn't seem like it'd be letting up anytime soon.

As he watched, he heard movement in the hall past his sitting room. It sounded like people running quickly and he popped up and headed over. When he opened the door, he could see people scattering from all directions. "Stay out of his path! He isn't right of mind!" A guard shouted at them.

"Hey what's going on?" He asked. No one stopped as they scrambled away. He scowled and began to walk in the direction they were running from. He could see his mate, half dressed and looking delirious. His eyes were blood red, and he was covered in sweat as he stumbled. The rain began to let up as the hanyou approached him, "Mate." He called. The youkai turned to him sharply. Inuyasha went to help him. He remembered someone telling him that fever could hurt the mind and that's what he was worried about. He wasn't sure if the same held true for youkai but it was clear his mate had no intentions of completing it with him so he would help him cool down instead.

The youkai quickly joined their lips and while the hanyou didn't mind, he couldn't do this with someone who wasn't there mentally. He pulled the youkai into his rooms and into the bathroom. He filled it with icy water before pulling his slightly protesting mate in fully dressed. The youkai was clearly upset about the cold water but not about his proximity to his mate who he began to kiss and whine at. Inuyasha found this funny. His mate behaved like he didn't want to be near him but did things like this. The youkai was kissing him deeply as his hands explored his body, trying to remove the offending clothing. Inuyasha was waiting for him to cool down enough to regain his senses and allowed him to do as he wanted. It felt good and he could feel his hard length rubbing against his waking cock, especially when he was pulled into his lap. He smelled wonderful too. He found the intense look in his eyes attractive, and his body reacted to his hands easily. His own youkai was fearful though…that was odd.

He was straddling the youkai who was nipping and biting at him before sinking his fangs into his mating mark. Inuyasha couldn't help the moan that left his mouth. His own cock was hard and pressed tightly against his mates. He couldn't help but roll his hips, it felt good. His mates youki was wrapping around him tightly. He was still trying to remove his clothing and eventually began to shred it. The hanyou didn't mind because he had a wardrobe full of clothing and found this to be fun. He was half naked and realized he really wanted to have sex with his mate. He was so attractive, so it was hard to say no.

He was flushed, even in the freezing water. His mate suddenly stopped moving. He was looking at him as his eyes regained their golden hue and he looked around. "Ugh…" He groaned, taking in their current position and how his cock was throbbing pressed tightly against his own. He clenched his teeth when the hanyou shifted. He was certainly being tortured.

Inuyasha was watching as he processed everything and leaned in, kissing him again. "You feelin' better?" Sesshomaru was a little unnerved but accepted the kissing. He didn't mind contact with the hanyou like this and his youkai was practically squealing with the fact that the hanyou was willingly in his lap and initiating the contact. He really could feel all of him like this and could feel his heat intensifying his pheromones once again.

"…yes…" He spoke softly, wondering if when the hanyou went into heat again he would suffer as he had been. Inuyasha was staring at him, waiting for him to finish regaining his senses and maybe continue. The youkai stood and dunked himself in the cold water, staying under for a while before resurfacing.

He then began to climb out and the hanyou blurted, "Do you hate me or somethin'?" The youkai froze.

Sesshomaru looked back at him and stared. "Is this your way of coping?" He asked, confusing him. "Is this situation so terrible that you must erase your own memories to protect this life you defend so adamantly?" He asked coming closer, making the hanyou nervous. Inuyasha could feel his arousal die and his youkai twist in fear telling him to apologize for his statement. Inuyasha scowled at that, since when would his youkai ever want to apologize for anything? "I don't just hate you. I despise everything about you. I detest having any connection to you. I loathe seeing you in my fortress, and I abhor every breath you take." Sesshomaru stopped at the shocked look on the hanyou's face as his own youkai berated him for hurting their mate. Screeching that their mate wanted to be close. He took a deep breath, glaring at him. "Though I suppose I can't necessarily say that now, can I? Clearly, I have some affection for you as you still live and breathe." He continued out of the bath, "As annoying as it is. You're still alive because of that. That's what I hate. I hate that I want you to be alive and well no matter what it may cost either of us."

Inuyasha was stunned to silence. His mate was telling him that he hated him but…not really? It was confusing. His mate hated that he liked him? Loved him even? Youkai were confusing. He came out of the bath after him, confused on what he was supposed to do with his mate's words. "…but why…?"

"I'm done speaking to you Inuyasha." He spoke coldly as he headed for the door. This annoyed Inuyasha who was just lost and confused. Forgive him for wanting to ask his mate some questions about his life since he was missing so many memories. He grabbed Sesshomaru's arm, stopping him. The youkai glared at him, "Unhand me brat."

"Stop acting like I'm attacking you or something. Sorry for not having any fucking memories and waking up in some strange fucking place. Forgive me for wanting to speak to the person everyone keeps calling my mate! Who else am I supposed to talk to, you pretentious asshole!? If this is how you are there's no fucking wonder, we don't get along!" He growled, his youkai twisting and begging him to stop, a crack of thunder being heard outside.

He watched the youkai's eye twitch, this was clearly part of his punishment for all that his youkai had done. All that he had done. He took a deep breath. He would never sigh and groan in front of others, but Inuyasha was different. "Ask."

Inuyasha paused, "W-what?"

"Ask your questions so I can return to my rooms to deal with this heat that is currently driving me mad. Ask!" Sesshomaru growled. The youkai seemed to become more annoyed when he didn't speak immediately but paused when he saw the hanyou turn bright red.

"…you don't want to complete it?" He mumbled softly, avoiding the youkai's gaze.

Sesshomaru could laugh. What an insane turn of events. "No. You don't." He said and turned-on heel to leave.

"Wait, what do you mean?"

"I have no intention of sleeping with you when you don't have your memories Inuyasha. Leave me be." He stated coldly as he continued back to his own rooms. When he arrived, he collapsed on his bedding, his youkai furious with him for not taking their mate's clear offer. He had no intentions of doing such when he had his wits about him. Perhaps he should look into modifying his own sword to suppress his youkai. He was biting his lip hard enough to make it bleed as he took deep breaths. His cock was throbbing, and he rubbed to get the smallest bit of relief. Life was tormenting him for his transgressions. He didn't expect things to get worse for him though.

When his heat finally passed, it was like he continued to run into the hanyou. He was certain he could sense him. He didn't realize how bothered he would be with his continued presence and the fact that he wasn't avoiding him. He thought he would be pleased but he wasn't pleased at all. It was annoying. The hanyou was sitting in a garden as he walked pass with his advisers. He was listening as Sakura avidly explained some of the things Sesshomaru had told the staff about him and his adventures. The hanyou was smiling at her as if she had a screw loose based on some of the things she was telling him. "Wow I guess I don't remember a lot then. Traveling with a group to defeat a villain sounds like something from a fairytale." He chuckled at her antics. Sesshomaru could feel his easy-going amusement. Was it better like this? Should he even be working to find a solution…wouldn't he be happier if he remained like this…? He held back a sigh and continued to walk.

"It's great to see him doing so well." Sesshomaru ignored Kotono and continued to walk with them following behind. His new advisers would be here today, and they were explaining to him how they planned to acclimate them.

In the garden, Inuyasha watched him leave and frowned slightly. Later, as they were heading back to his rooms, he was stopped by a few new people, who Sakura informed were council members. "It's great to see you well Lord Inuyasha." One spoke with a smile.