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WARNING: THIS FIC DEALS WITH HEAVY ISSUES. IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR A LIGHTHEARTED FIC, THIS FIC IS NOT FOR YOU. IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO HANDLE DARK SITUATIONS, THIS FIC IS NOT FOR YOU.

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Oxford Not Brogues

Fragile

Chapter One

It had been a very strange first week for Seras at the Hellsing Organization. She was one of three monsters living in a manor full of soldiers and vampire hunters. While Alucard and Sebastian didn't seem to mind, Seras could feel eyes on her whenever she went anywhere in that manor. She could practically feel the hateful eyes boring into the back of her head. She could hear the humans whispering away about her as if she wasn't there and couldn't hear them. And Seras thought the orphanage was bad? This was a lot worse. Nobody was even bothering to get to know her. They just automatically hated her because of what she was. That wasn't entirely fair to say, though. Walter has been nothing but nice to her. She occasionally had lovely chats with the old butler. And her boss, Sir Integra, wasn't entirely bad either. The elder blonde, while cold, was sometimes pleasant and...friendly. Maybe sometimes a little too friendly. There was one night when the Hellsing cut her finger just to order Seras to lick and suck the wound before it could get infected. While being forced to do it had been absolutely mortifying for her, the small blonde couldn't help but have enjoyed it a little.

Perhaps it was Seras' need to socialize, to finally have a friend in this place. Or maybe there was an unspoken attraction between both girls. It was truly a mystery, but either way it was safe to say that both girls had gotten pleasure out of it. Besides Sir Integra and Walter, Seras didn't really have anyone else, not even her supposed mentors. After the night Alucard turned her, neither monster interacted with Seras. They didn't even look her way. At one point, she attempted to follow her master like a puppy dog in hope that he would talk or teach her something. But he didn't pay her any mind. He just continued onto his room to the dark, cold basement, and Seras took the hint that he wanted to be left alone. And Sebastian? He was far colder, making her feel as if her existence was purely a nuisance to him. Perhaps he regretted that Alucard actually turned her into a vampire instead of letting her bleed out to death in that awful small town known as Cheddar. Whatever the reason may be, Seras decided to keep out of his way and to not bother him. Sebastian seemed just fine by that.

The one place she felt the most out of place was the training room. It was very awkward, not just because she was a vampire and they were humans, but because she seemed to be the only female soldier the Hellsing Organization had. The males gave her strange looks while they worked out. Others whispered things to each other while pointing in her direction. It was evident that they were talking about her, but Seras tried to ignore them as she normally did. Per usual, she kept to herself and trained alone. That is until one day someone surprisingly had the guts to approach her.

"Hey!" A man greeted her. Seras just about jumped out of her skin from that small scare. She was currently lying on a dark blue mat near the wall. She had been in the middle of sit-ups, but stopped to look up at the man. The man was quite large, reaching about her master's height, which she thought wasn't humanly possible. The muscles on his arms were about the size of her head. He wore a clean, white t-shirt that was tucked away in dark cargo pants. Dog tags hung proudly around his neck, though Seras wasn't able to read them from where she was. He had short, dark brown hair, a strong neck and jaw, and a wide, pleasant smile that was quite infectious. She smiled back at him.

"Hi," She responded, sounding and looking slightly confused by this unexpected interaction. The man leaned over a little to whisper something to her.

"Just so you know, you're showing your panties to the entire room." The man told her. Almost immediately all color drained from Seras' face. The girl shot up straight with a loud squeak and quickly pressed her legs together to hide herself from any prying eyes. Timidly, Seras took a quick look around to see if anybody else had noticed that her underwear had been visible. A few men were staring at her with wide grins on their faces as they chuckled to themselves. But, thankfully, a majority of the men were too preoccupied working out and talking amongst themselves. Feeling slightly better and absolutely relieved that someone told her instead of just letting it continue to happen, she sighed and looked back up at the nice soldier.

"Thanks," She whispered.

"No problem," He laughed. "I advise that when you do sit-ups you should probably face the wall." He pointed at the wall behind her. The girl blushed at her stupidity, but couldn't keep from smiling.

"Right," She murmured and spun on the mat to face the wall. Instead of leaving her alone, the man knelt in front of her to hold her feet while she did her sit-ups.

"You're new," He stated as if she didn't know this. He then held a hand out to her. "I'm Ryan. Sorry I didn't introduce myself sooner." The little vampire's heart leaped in her chest. Were things finally turning around for her? Was she finally making her first real friend among the soldiers? Eagerly, Seras took his hand and shook it.

"I'm Seras!" She happily introduced herself. The man's smile widened.

"Seras?" He repeated, liking the way it sounded. "Groovy name," Groovy? Seras thought with a childish giggle. She then realized that the man was at least in his forties. While it was terribly noticeable, he had crows feet in the corner of his eyes and his hair, while thick, was receding a little.

"How seventies of you," She responded.

"The seventies were the highlight of my life. What I would do to be twenty again." He murmured to himself. "What are you? Twenty? Twenty-two?"

"Nineteen actually," Seras answered. She was unsure if the man was oblivious to it, but he still had a hold of his hand. Seras, however, was well aware and was blushing like a schoolgirl. Why was she so giddy? Her heart was racing in her chest. Finally someone was speaking to her and she was utterly terrified of screwing it up. Don't screw it up, Seras. This was her chance of getting people to warm up to her and make them see that she wasn't another scary, unapproachable monster. This was her chance to make friends!

"Nineteen," Ryan whispered while a spark appeared in his eyes. He then remembered that he was still holding her hand. "Oh!" He softly exclaimed with a jolt. He quickly released her hand to rub the back of his head out of embarrassment. "Sorry," He snickered with an awkward smile.

"It's alright," She laughed. Ryan then grabbed ahold of her feet again.

"Do you want to do a few sit-ups then? I have a hold of you." He promised her.

"Yeah, thanks." The girl muttered as she lied back down. As she started a new set, she asked him a question. "So, how long have you been working at the Hellsing Organization?"

"Seven years," He answered. "Before then I was a soldier for...fifteen years."

"Wow," Seras softly exclaimed.

"What were you doing before you were hired by the Organization?" Ryan asked.

"I was a cop." The small blonde replied. His eyes widened in bewilderment, though a large amused grin settled on his lips, and he actually laughed outright.

"Seriously?" He responded. "You were a cop?" For the first time since meeting him, she frowned.

"What's wrong with that?" She asked defensively. His dark brown eyes flickered down her form. For a second she thought he was admiring her before his gaze met her eyes once more.

"You're so little." He told her. "So young, I just can't imagine it." That amused grin shifted to flirtatious. "That's kind of hot." The little vampire's face turned a dark shade of red. What did he just say? "I don't mean any offense, Ma'am. I just...kind of...have a thing for...strong women." Once more, those dark eyes of his flickered down her body, and this time Seras was very much aware that he was checking her out. The bashful blonde looked elsewhere. She was used to guys hitting on her and she was slightly used to it, but for some reason she felt confused at the moment. How was she supposed to respond? She didn't exactly feel that way towards him, but how can she turn him down lightly while still trying to make friends with him?

"Thank you?" Seras responded awkwardly, getting a good laugh from the soldier.

"And you're cute. I bet not too many men took you seriously." He added. The little vampire frowned in disappointment.

"No," She answered. "No matter how hard I tried, I was hardly found intimidating to anyone. And the sexual harassment was purely a nightmare." She hinted at it, hoping he'll understand and stop trying to flirt with her.

"Guys were always after you?" Ryan asked. He wasn't surprised in the slightest by the sound of it.

"Yeah," She murmured.

"Sorry to hear that." He whispered, though that smirk never faltered from his lips. His eyes definitely didn't show that he was truly sorry. It threw Seras off a little and even made her uncomfortable, but she was too hung up on making friends to care. The two were then interrupted. The soldiers that had been training started filing out of the room. Some were awfully sweaty and were dabbing their heads and the back of their necks with damp towels. They chattered away as a few stopped alongside Ryan and Seras.

"Hey, Ryan." One guy spoke, completely ignoring Seras. She was pretty used to it by now. She lied there quietly and waited for him to finish talking. "A couple of us are going out to get steaks and beers. You in?" Shockingly, Ryan shook his head.

"No, thanks. I'm going to help Seras train and get to know her a little more." He replied.

"Are you sure?" Seras spoke without thinking. She was bewildered that he actually chose her over hanging out with his buds. Why would he rather stay and train than go have some juicy steaks and cold beers with good friends? Had she really made such a good impression with him? She found it hard to believe.

"Yes, I'm sure." He laughed like she just told a joke.

"Do you want me to bring you back anything?" His friend asked.

"Yeah, a steak and a beer. I'll pay you back." Ryan promised with a nod.

"Got it," His friend replied with a click of his tongue. The group of friends then left to go have their dinner. The door closed shut behind them, leaving Ryan and the small blonde alone in the room for the time being. With the soldiers gone, it was so quiet. It was kind of nice.

"Are you really sure that you don't want to go off with your friends?" Seras asked.

"Positive," He snickered. "I thought that we could hang and..."

"Get to know one another better?" She asked.

"Exactly," Ryan responded as he held out a hand to her. Seras didn't think twice about taking it. He helped her up into a sitting position. Their faces were only inches from each other, causing the soldier's smirk to widen a little. Her face darkened with a blush and she nervously pulled her head back away from him to get some distance. The man didn't take any offense and merely laughed the awkwardness off. "So, where do you want to start?" He asked before he slid back to sit up against the wall.

"Um..." Seras murmured as she thought carefully about it. Her attention was drawn to Ryan when he patted the spot next to him. Without question, the small blonde shifted on the blue mat to sit beside him. "I don't know. What do you want to discuss?" The two sat in silence as they gave it some thought. After a moment, the man came up with a question.

"Why did Alucard turn you?" Ryan asked.

"Oh, because he shot a hole through my chest. Maybe he felt like he owed it to me? I don't really know." She answered with a shrug.

"Wait," The soldier interrupted. "He shot a hole through your chest? How in the hell did that happen?"

"I was being held hostage by a vampire. My master didn't let that stop him from getting the mission done." Seras replied so casually. It had only happened a week ago and while she was still bothered by it, she didn't let it show.

"Master?" Ryan laughed. The girl blinked several times as she emerged from that dark memory. She then glanced up at the man with a curious look in her eyes.

"What?" Seras questioned.

"Alucard actually makes you call him master?" The soldier laughed. "Wow, I didn't know how...kinky he was. I thought he was basically dead from the waist down." Seras furrowed her brows when he said that to her. She stared up at him in uncertainty.

"You think he makes me call him master because it gives him some sort of sexual thrill?" She asked in disbelief. She just couldn't imagine her master actually getting turned on by hearing her call him that. It was weird to her and so...perverse. And now thinking about, did Alucard even have a sexual life? The girl shuddered at the thought.

"Why else?" Ryan snickered with a shrug.

"Maybe for respect?" She suggested, knowing fully well that was the reason. Admittedly, Seras was annoyed that the soldier was turning an innocent, respectful thing and making it dirty.

"Come on, it would give any man a sexual thrill being called master by such a cute, sexy blonde." The man whispered heatedly before he ever so smoothly slid his hand onto her thigh. Seras jumped and glanced down to see those thick fingers stroking over her bare skin. Immediately, it became obvious to her why he stayed behind and what he truly wanted. Of course, she should have known that he was only after one thing. The little vampire thought, clearly disappointed how things turned out. Quickly, she pushed his hand off.

"I think you misunderstood. I'm not interested." The Draculina stated as she pushed off the floor. Before she could fully stand up, Ryan grabbed her by the wrist and pulled her back down. Seras grunted as she landed on her ass next to him.

"What are you talking about? We didn't get our signals crossed. We're getting to know each other, remember?" The soldier whispered. His hot breath wafted over her neck as he leaned in to kiss it. The small blonde shuddered away from his lips. The balls on this guy! She's had to deal with handsy guys before, but never one that was so forceful. Anger started bubbling inside of her. Why couldn't he just take the hint? Her eyes shifted to a dark red before she grinded her teeth together. Seras tried harder to be assertive.

"I'm not interested, Ryan!" She growled. She was beyond tired of these types of men. The type that think that they can get somewhere if they keep trying even after a girl says no outright. Seras jerked her arm free and again tried standing up, but this only infuriated him. Unexpectedly, Ryan grabbed her tightly by her arm and used his other arm to wrap it around her waist. Aggressively, he pulled her back down next to him.

"Don't be such a fucking tease!" He snarled at her. Fury simmered in the man's eyes. He just couldn't understand what the hell was wrong with her. She had kept smiling at him and blushing. It was clear to Ryan that she liked him in some way, so why was she now acting like such a bitch? Was it an act? Was she purposely playing hard to get? He absolutely loved a woman that played that way, but now was not the time. He wanted her now. "We were having a good time, now stop trying to fuck it all up." His fingers dug deeper into her arm, trying to keep her restrained.

"I said fucking no, you dick!" Seras repeated before she elbowed him hard in the throat. The hard impact to his Adam's apple caused the man to choke. The little vampire bolted to her feet, but before she could take a single step, Ryan wrapped his arms around her legs and used his weight to make her topple over.

"You fucking bitch!" Ryan exclaimed through harsh breaths. The second she fell face down onto the mat, he was on top of her to better restrain her. His big hands pinned her wrists to the floor with ease. He then pressed his large, heavy form on top of her, keeping her restrained to the floor beneath him. Her breasts were crushed painfully to the hard mat, making her grit her teeth and whine. Much to her shame, she couldn't really fight him off. Since her moment with Integra, she hasn't had a single drop of blood. She was weak, like her master said. Utterly worthless and an unfit vampire. But this didn't stop her from struggling. "Do anything like that again and you'll fucking regret it!" The man panted. He was desperate to rub over his sore throat, but didn't want to give the bitch another chance to strike.

"What the fuck do you think is going to happen?!" Seras screamed as she tried kicking her legs, but his own legs prevented that from happening by weighing them down. "Do you honestly believe that you will get away with this?!" Ryan had the gall to laugh out loud.

"Who the fuck is going to believe you?" He asked her outright. "You're a monster, I'm a well respected soldier that kills monsters. You go around spreading your little lies and see what happens. Integra will lock your crazy ass up or even have your precious master finish the damn job he started in Cheddar. Everyone in this Organization knows what you are and hates you with every fiber of their being. You know it and I know it. They wouldn't believe a word of what you say nor would they care if you end up dead. Now submit, little monster, to your hunter before he kills you." The more he talked, the more Seras realized he was right. Nobody here truly trusted her because she was a monster. She was an unholy creature that didn't deserve their respect. Who would believe her over a human who was, apparently, respected and well liked? Her chest was becoming heavy, her heart was racing, and she felt sick to her stomach. Hot tears burned her eyes, but she fought from crying in front of him. Was she about to be raped? Oh, God! How did this happen? How can she get out of this?

"Get off!" She screamed on the top of her lungs.

"Shut the fuck up!" Ryan warned her. He pulled the gun from his holster and pressed the tip to the back of her head. "You struggle, I shoot. You scream, I fucking shoot. Do I have to remind you that nobody here will fucking care if you end up dead? I'll just tell them that you got awfully hungry and tried taking a bite out of me. No one will fucking question it, especially since you have those famous little frenzies that you go on! So, stop struggling and just let it fucking happen! It will be over within a minute." Tears ran down her face. God, he was right. He was fucking right! Seras closed her eyes tightly as she sobbed. What was she supposed to do?! What can she do against him, a human? No matter what, she would look like the villain or she would end up dead! Her only choice was to just...let it happen, as much as she hated admitting it. Let him have what he wanted and then he will leave her the fuck alone. She could forget about this horrible fucking night, wash it all away. At least she would still be alive. Then again, would she even be thankful for that afterwards? "Remember, move or scream at all and I put a fucking bullet through your fucking skull." Digging his gun into her head, he cautiously released her wrist. Seras hyperventilated beneath him, but stayed absolutely still while she whimpered and whined. The man smiled and snickered under his breath. He liked seeing her squirm in fear. As if he was a natural at this, Ryan reached under her skirt and grabbed a fistful of her panties. Roughly he pulled them down, managing to tear them in the process. Seras cried out when he hurt her, but said nothing when he dug the gun harder into her scalp.

"Shut the fuck up." He warned her for the final time. Tearing her panties off completely, he threw them carelessly to the side. "Maybe if you actually relaxed you will enjoy it." He snickered in her ear as he adjusted himself on top of her. "Try and relax, honey." The sound of him hastily unbuckling his pants to release his throbbing dick made her cry harder. Scared and embarrassed, she hid her face away into the mat and just waited for it to be done with. When he fully unbuckled his pants, he swept his hand up to push her skirt out of his way, revealing her ass to his eyes. The man moaned softly as he caressed over her round soft ass. "You have an amazing ass." The soldier muttered as he admired it for a moment or two. When he was done, he grabbed her tightly by her thigh and pulled her legs apart so he could fall into the cradle. Ryan didn't hesitate to push his hips forward. The tip pressed against her folds before it was forcefully shoved into her tight, dry channel. That action alone caused Seras to tense up with a high pitched whine. A moan escaped the soldier's lips, disturbing strands of her hair as his hot breath wafted over her. He didn't hesitate shoving the rest of his cock in, every inch. The girl was unbelievably tight and so very hot around his dick. She wasn't wet in the slightest, but that was no concern to him. It felt fucking incredible to him, so there was no way in hell he was about to stop just to make sure she was comfortable. "God!" He moaned. Ryan then started thrusting anxiously, hitting it hard and fast. Seras had to bite down hard onto her bottom lip to keep from screaming in pain. It was purely rough and it was starting to burn from how dry she was. It was unbearable! She could hear skin slapping skin along with the sound of the plastic mat squeaking and groaning with every harsh move their thrashing bodies.

"Stop," She whimpered through sobs. The pain was sharp and agonizing. Her stomach churned, making her feel as if she would vomit.

"Shut up!" He hissed and reminded he had a gun to her head by jabbing her hard with the tip. God, she was tight! He couldn't believe how constricted she was, practically squeezing the life out of his cock, though he had no complaints. "Fuck! Are you a virgin?!" Ryan breathed heavily. "Fuck, it feels so good!" He groaned loudly from the amazing sensation. "Oh, fuck!" He gasped, nearly cumming right then and there from how tight she was. While she wasn't exactly the greatest fuck he ever had since she just lied there, he could truthfully say that her pussy was probably the sweetest, most tightest thing he's ever been in. He definitely wouldn't mind getting a few more fucks in before she got all loose and used. "Does it feel good for you too? How does my cock feel?" There was such a large smirk on his face. "Hey, why don't you call me master?" The little vampire opened her eyes to reveal dark red orbs that glowed hellishly with pure hatred. He was defiling her and now he wanted her to defile the thing she called Alucard? It infuriated her and she refused to open her mouth. "Go on." Ryan pushed her, losing his cool fast when seeing that she was being a bitch again. "Say it!" He shoved the tip of his gun further into her scalp. "Call me master, you kinky little slut!" He thrusted harder, as though he was trying to prove to her who was boss. Seras' cheeks glistened with hot tears while her bottom lip trembled. "Last warning, fucking say it!" She heard the click as he pulled the hammer back. She silently apologized to her master for everything. She apologized for being weak, for disappointing him, and for saying his title during this horrible act.

"Master," Seras regrettably whispered.

"Louder," Ryan growled. "Say it like you fucking mean it, like you are deep in the throes of passion and absolutely need my cock." He demanded. The little vampire bit into her tongue as she tried to keep from crying any harder. "Fucking say it!"

"Master," It came out in a broken whine. It was evident she was crying her eyes out, but it could have passed as her actually liking what he was doing. The thought sickened her thoroughly. Ryan closed his eyes and fully enjoyed being called master.

"Say it again." He whispered. His hips jerked and twitched as he drew closer to his orgasm.

"Master," Seras sobbed, feeling so incredibly dirty. How would she ever be able to call Alucard master again? Ryan had completely ruined it. She could never again look her Sire in the eye or speak to him. Not after everything that has happened. She was a disgrace. "Master," She felt his hips twitch crazily as he moaned loudly in her ear.

"Oh! Oh, fuck!" The soldier exclaimed his pleasure while he pumped his seeds deep into her astounding pussy. "Fuck! You are extraordinary, babe!" Seras was relieved when all movement stopped. The man breathed heavily and proceeded to moan softly. He stayed that way for a good long minute, just moaning and breathing. "Oh, god." He softly exclaimed every few seconds as his racing heart calmed itself. He kissed the back of her neck with another breathy moan. "I'm ready for you. Make me cum again, baby. Make me cum hard again. Just one more time." Ryan eagerly started thrusting hard again. "Make me cum." He repeated. "I want to cum all over you." Repulsed, Seras tried pulling her head away from his.

"Stop!" Seras exclaimed. "Please! You already got what you wanted! Just leave..."

"Shut up!" He yelled at her. "How many times do I have to fucking tell you that?! Just shut the fuck up and fucking take it like the strong woman you are!" With that said, he fucked her hard. "Take it, Seras! Take my large cock!" He exclaimed through gritted teeth as his thrusts became harder and went faster.

"I fucking hate you!" The small blonde screeched through sobs.

"And I fucking love your cunt, slut. Shut up!" Ryan growled. He dug his meaty fingers into her thigh and pulled her body closer towards his thrusting cock. Seras closed her eyes tightly when she got a weird feeling in the pit of her stomach. It was pressure, and even though how uncomfortable she was from the rough, hard sex, there was a strange thrilling sensation deep within her. What was this feeling? She panicked. God, please no. Don't let this happen! Why was her body betraying her? Seras was unable to stop her body from climaxing. She trembled while releasing a sound that was between a moan and a sob. No! The small blonde cried hard when the pleasure coursed through her body, making her feel dirty and weak. Feeling her orgasm caused the man on top of her to laugh in delight. "Nice to see that you're finally fucking relaxing." Ryan spoke. "I guess you like the feel of my cock after all. It's okay, come again for me, sweetheart. I want to feel you shake around my big dick." He whispered these filthy things into her ear. Seras instinctively shot one of her arms back to elbow him hard in the face. The impact from her elbow caused his lip to split open. Blood leaked down his chin and dripped off to stain her yellow uniform. The man, surprised by the sudden attack, grunted as he was forced backwards off of her. When the weight was lifted off of her, Seras took that chance to escape. She attempted to scramble to her feet, but failed instantly. Before she could stand, he was back on top of her. "Fucking stop!" He wrapped his arm around her, pinning her arms to her sides and tackled her back to the floor. She struggled beneath him until he pressed the gun to the back of her head again. "Keep fucking still!" The soldier yelled. "Stop being a selfish bitch! I helped get you off and now return the fucking favor!" Seras opened her mouth in a silent scream when he roughly thrust every inch of his cock back in.

"Stop!" She begged through sobs.

"Stop pretending that you don't like it!" He snarled through huffs and puffs. The back of her neck was damp from his hot breath. "You absolutely love it. I'm probably the best fuck you ever had." That big muscled arm had her locked against him. He was squeezing her so tight that she actually thought he would crush her to death. Her arms were squished to her sides in such a painful way that she thought that they may shatter. The man groaned and thrust fiercely when he was cumming again. "Fuck!" He softly exclaimed through his moans. "Fucking beautiful! God, your tight puss feels so damn good!"

"Get the fuck off me!" Seras screamed while baring her fangs. All movement stopped when she shouted that. All that could be heard was his heavy breathing while he just glared daggers at her. After recomposing himself, he finally spoke.

"You're so ungrateful." The man scoffed while he scowled at her. "I show you a good time, get you to come, and you stay a raging bitch? No wonder why you're fucking a single or why everyone fucking hates you." He roughly pushed off of her as if she was in the wrong and he needed to get away from her as quickly as possible. "Fucking women, man! You can't live with them, but you can't live without them. I'm so tired of their fucking shit." He grumbled to himself as he placed his gun back in his holster. Ryan climbed to his feet while tucking his dick back in his pants and fixed his buckle. Seras stayed curled up on the mat, too scared to move to draw any more attention onto her. Looking down further, he was amused to see a pool of his juices on the mat as it dripped off of her. "Clean you and that mess up. We don't need anyone getting into our fucking business." The soldier then winked at her before walking away. No relief came, not even when she heard the door close behind him.

"God fucking damn it." Seras sobbed as she hid her face in the mat. She buried her fingers in her hair only to fist the strands tightly. "Fuck, fuck, fuck." She cried before hitting the mat hard. "Fuck! Why?!" Large, hot tears rolled down her cheeks, blinding her completely. "I fucking hate him! I hate him! Fuck him!" How did she not see it coming? Should she have? Were the signals and red flags there? Had she missed them? She had thought that she had finally convinced people that she wasn't a monster. She thought that she had made her first friend. She was so fucking stupid! And what was worse was that she could do absolutely nothing but lie there and let it happen. She was weak. And what the fuck happened to her during it?! Why did her body betray her? She came! Why did she orgasm for that foul prick? It disgusted her thinking that a part of her might actually have liked it. But how? Why? She hated him! Hated it! She wanted out from under him and even fought to get free several times! Why did she fucking orgasm? She was just as foul as that man and she hated herself! Seras pushed herself up. She shifted onto her hands and knees. Her legs were shaky but she managed to keep herself up. Her chest heaved up and down while she struggled to breathe from crying so hard. She was still blinded by her tears, but was able to make out some of her surroundings. Thank God she was alone.

After confirming that he wasn't there, Seras carefully climbed to her feet. A pain shot up her vagina, reminding her of the extremely rough, dry sex. She whimpered in discomfort while her shaking hands tried rolling her skirt back down to cover her intimates. It disturbed her that she could actually feel his fluids dripping off of the lips of her sex and travel down her bare thighs. It bothered her even more seeing the mess that was made because of him. There was a small pool of cum, though the coloring was a little odd. It was almost pinkish, however she knew instantly that it was just her diluted blood from how rough he had been. She couldn't let anyone find this; she was embarrassed enough. She quickly looked around to help her clean this mess up. The only thing she saw in sight were the panties he tore off of her. The panties were a goner, nothing but shreds that she wouldn't be able to wear. It will have to do as a rag. Picking it up off the floor she first wiped off her inner thighs. The little vampire shuddered when seeing all the moisture and smeared blood wipe off onto her makeshift rag.

"God that's disgusting." She murmured, feeling absolutely sick to her stomach. After she was done, she crouched down to clean up the rest of the mess. Wiping up the liquid and just seeing it smear onto the mat made the whole situation worse. God, she hated him so much. The small blonde cleaned it up the best she could and when she was done she tried searching for a rubbish bin. Unfortunately, there wasn't one in the room, leaving her no other choice but to ball the dirty thing up into her hand. "Gross," She mumbled when she could feel the hot cum stick to her palm. With her clean hand, the little vampire wiped the tears from her face. She knew that her eyes must have been red and puffy, but there was nothing that she could do about that. Seras took a couple of deep breaths to gather herself and then she did the one thing she was dying to do, put this atrocious night behind her. Just forget that it ever happened and move on with her life. Pretending that everything was okay, the small blonde exited the training room and walked out into the brightly lit hall. She cautiously looked around, saw no one, and went on her way. Admittedly, the girl was absolutely relieved that no one was around to witness or hear that. She was embarrassed enough and didn't need people making fun of her behind her back because of what happened. Seras clutched the panties tightly in her hand, hiding it from any prying eyes though it was safe to say that no one was around. Even though she was completely alone, the girl kept her head down and her eyes on the floor. She moved stiffly, unable to relax in the slightest. She was still having a little trouble breathing, but reminded herself to breathe deeply through her nose and release that air from her mouth. She just hoped to God that she wouldn't run into Ryan again. She wouldn't be able to hold back if she saw that prick smirk in satisfaction. She would probably kill him, which would result in Sir Integra having to kill her. As Seras was going down a set of stairs, heading her way to her room, Alucard and Sebastian were coming up them. The little vampire didn't bother looking at her mentors. She had felt so small and worthless in front of them before this, but now...that feeling was tenfold. Seras felt like a dirty insect that just didn't deserve their respect or acknowledgment. She balled her panties up even tighter and tried hiding them behind her back a little. She kept close to the banister to squeeze past Sebastian on the way down.

"Miss. Victoria, Sir Integra has requested our presence in her office." The demon told her as she was passing them. However, when she brushed past him, both men stopped in the middle of the stairs. Their noses wiggled when catching an unfamiliar scent on the Draculina. Instinctively, the monsters turned slightly to look at the Police Girl in disbelief. That scent. It was the scent of sweat and...another man? And...was that the fragrance of her sweet blood? It smelled...different, but they couldn't figure why they could smell it. Their eyes narrowed on a drop of blood that stained the back of her uniform. How did that blood drop get there? She hasn't been on any missions yet, so she shouldn't be covered in blood. Their eyes flickered down further, noticing that she was clutching something in her left hand. It was evident that she was trying incredibly hard to hide something, but they couldn't tell what it was. Smelling the air once more before she could get any further from them, the males came to the conclusion that Seras just had sex. It was most definitely unusual, however, that she looked unbelievably tense and absolutely exhausted, maybe even a little bit embarrassed. Normally sex was...therapeutic; it was meant to calm someone and even bring joy. Was it possible that Seras regretted the sex? Then why did she do it in the first place? Alucard and Sebastian were most definitely confused.

"Police Girl," Alucard spoke up, using a tone of voice that demanded her attention. The girl obediently stopped when she reached the bottom step. But she refused to turn to look at them.

"Yes?" She murmured a few seconds later. It was evident that she had been crying. Her voice sounded different, like she was trying to keep it from cracking. The master vampire opened his mouth, but no words came out. What was he supposed to say? Tell her how disappointed he was that she gave away her virginity? Or tell her outright that he was her mate and didn't like that she may have developed feelings for another man? He had no right saying any of those things to her when he had been quite neglectful this past week and left his mate all alone to deal with this new life. The elder vampire sighed and said the only thing he could think about saying that wouldn't hurt her.

"I know how lonely you must have felt this past week. I'm glad knowing that you are...getting along with the humans." He told her softly, earning a shocked look from the demon.

"Alucard," Sebastian whispered, but the elder vampire merely waved a hand to silence him. The little vampire tensed up further when she heard what her master said. Her eyes burned with fresh tears, but she managed to keep from crying. God she wished that she "got along" with someone that she actually liked, or more preferably, someone she loved. But it was stolen from her. She didn't get that choice. Seras dug her nails painfully into the palm of her hands, doing everything in her power to not cry. Not now, just wait a few minutes more until she was locked away in her room. Or better yet, she wished her master would erase her memory of this night. Would he do that for her if she asked? Or would he just look at her in disgust?

"Perhaps you didn't hear Michaelis, Police Girl, but Sir Integra wants to see us in her office. She's going to brief us on a mission." Alucard reminded her. Seras turned and her eyes flickered up, but it was obvious she wasn't looking directly at them. She kept her eyes on their torsos. Why wouldn't she look them in the eye? It bothered them but they didn't voice their concern. And it was obvious that she had most definitely been crying. Her orbs alone were red, showing her recent frustration towards a particular situation. But her eyes were also puffy and red from being rubbed due to constant tears.

"I wanted to take a shower. Do you think I can do that first before we go on..." Seras asked. She was desperate to wash away the filth that clung to her. She needed it and a fresh pair of panties. She definitely didn't want to go on a mission with no panties and dripping with that prick's cum.

"No," Sebastian interrupted before she could finish. "And why take a shower now when you're just going to get dirty on the mission?"

"Let's go, Police Girl." Alucard demanded as he turned to proceed climbing up the stairs. "You know how our master gets when we keep her waiting."

"Yes, Sir." Seras sighed before she reluctantly followed after her mentors.

End of Chapter One

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