EPOV
This was not going to work...
Nothing was going to work!
I had fucked up so badly...
And I was too late...
But I had to try...
This was my only chance...I had to do it!
And luck seemed to be favoring me right now... Even if it's just a little bit!
I couldn't believe my luck when Charlie told me that her ex-boyfriend suddenly remembered that he loved his family... He seemed to be an asshole, and it must have hurt Bella... But well, good for me!
I couldn't sleep at all last night... I was trying to figure out how I could make her understand what I was going through in the past few years...
I wasn't sure if she was ever going to forgive me...
I wouldn't blame her if she couldn't... I was a fucking idiot and asshole!
Things were so good at the beginning, but then... I completely lost it!
"Yeah... So..." I took a deep breath, "Do you remember when Jane had proposed the idea of keeping our relationship a secret?"
"How can I forget that?" She said.
"Yeah..." I said, "Do you remember I was opposed to that idea in the beginning?"
"Ummm... Yeah..." she said.
"I should have stuck to that," I said, "Agreeing with her on that was the dumbest fucking decision of my life."
"I think Bella and I need to talk about this... I'll let you know later," I said to Jane.
"Sure, take your time. But remember, guys," she said to Bella and me, "I'm here to help you. This is my job and I know what I'm doing."
"This is bullshit," I said to Bella once we left her office.
"Yeah... But maybe she knows what she's doing?" she said.
"I don't know..." I said, "What's the point of hiding? And it's not like we started dating recently or something... We are like an old married couple... How the fuck would I be able to show that I'm single?"
"I thought you were an actor!" She joked.
"Shut up!" I rolled my eyes, "That's not what I meant. I think it's a stupid idea... And I want you by my side at every single step... We are in this together."
"I'll be with you at every single step," she smiled.
"I guess I was better off doing those small movies..." I said, "This shit is scaring me already."
"You are going to be fine... I know it!" she said as she wrapped her arm around mine.
"But she said it's important for you to have young girls' following, and it's difficult when the lead actor is taken," she said, "Also, I think it will be good for me...I don't think I'm ready to have any kind of attention on me... I prefer this... It will give me some time to get ready."
"But how long can we go on like this?" I said, "We can't keep it a secret forever."
"She said only till the movie release, right?" she said.
"I don't know..." I said, "This seems like a stupid idea to me."