-๑-๑ ஜ ๑-Chapter 20: You are hot -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-
-Shizuo´s point of view.-
He couldn't shake off the feeling. Being on his way to the flea´s apartment the blond smoked one cigarette after the other as he tried to get rid of that dream- but even more annoying than the dream was the memory of their last… well, meeting.
That kiss to be precise.
Litting yet another one of his various cigarette´s he coughed momentarily- probably a sign that he was already overdoing it.
Walking just a bit faster down the street he was currently strolling upon he tried to ignore the voice in the back of his head that questioned why they had kissed the way they had in the shower if it was just desire that drove him.
So what if Izaya was sexy? There was nothing wrong about admitting that much- he had experiences it first hand, that voice, that body, those erotic actions- why lie to himself when it was obvious?
Okay. So he desired the flea.
It had to be this gene of his- that incubus gene.
Stupid genes, stupid flea and stupid dreams. Made him want to throw up.
Shaking his head the blond tried to get rid of this annoyance- seriously, the flea even managed to annoy him when he wasn't even doing a thing.
People on the streets warily took a few steps back as they saw the fuming bartender approach- he was in Shinjuku by now, the flea´s apartment already in sight. He was on the way to one of their meetings and yet Shizuo almost felt like he was on his way to beat the flea up. The people around him probably thought that way too.
"Oh, Heiwajima-san you are dropping by quite often aren't you?" Raising his head the blond stared at a woman, long brown hair framing her face as she emerged from the elevator, dressed in green and red. "While I´m amused you are interrupting Izaya's schedule I do hope you really squish that insect this time," She mused, sounding more like she was trying to order the blond around than a request of hers. Frowning just a little bit more at the cocky tune she was using despite her knowing who he was the blond remembered her- she was that secretary of Izaya, wasn't she?
… Insect tho…
Sure he always called the raven a flea, but insect- she probably despised the louse as much as he had- no did, definitely did.
A glance was thrown towards the elevator- it seemed to be working again. Only too well Shizuo remembered the day before when he saw that asshole Hachiro in Izaya's apartment and-
His fists were clenching and unclenching as the hatred resurfaced from his mind. That asshole. he sure hoped he died or something. Sure he only threw him across some buildings and pulled him down these stairs- a few droplets of blood were still attached to the walls of the staircase it seemed as the blond let his gaze wander to the staircase he had descended yesterday- but still.
He should have hurt that bastard so much more.
Taking a deep breath the blond tried to calm his nerves. Going into Izaya's apartment with that much rage bottled up inside him was not going to end well, even less if the flea tried to provoke him or something like he usually did.
Step after step he ascended that staircase again, not trusting the elevator the woman had exited as he went for the flea´s apartment.
Windows passed, stairs fell behind and the sound of a doorbell tore through the silence. Blinking just once the blond noted that this was probably the first time he simply used the doorbell.
Usually he barged inside the flea´s place, or hammered against the dor, screamed his name or last time the secretary had opened before he even got to rip that door out of its angles.
… it was somewhat weird.
With a clicking sound the door opened, snapping the blond out of his thoughts.
An…. unusually disheveled Izaya was looking at the blond with an expression that seemed to be honestly… surprised?
"What are you doing here, Shizu-chan?" Confusion was decorating the raven's face, honest confusion.
"Huh?" Shizuo merely said as he wondered for just a second whether he had gotten the date or time wrong, but no- Izaya's message had been pretty clear hadn't it? He was supposed to come here today, no?
"Did you forgot your own message?" the blond questioned only seeming to increase the raven´s confusion as he tilted his head.
"Message?" Feeling a tinge of annoyance raise to his head the blond fumbled for his phone- the phone that Izaya had given him.
Had he really mixed up something? Swiping across the screen he typed in the flea´s name, not yet having figured out how he was supposed to fix the password- or change it for that matter.
There it was. Twisting the screen he showed it to the louse, thinking for a second if that was what Celty was always feeling like when she showed her PDA around when Izaya looked at the message with a few blinks.
"Oh, right," he seemed to have remembered writing it, and stepped back from the door. "Sorry, totally forgot about that one," he sighed- and with that he just turned around.
He really had forgotten entire about that one. Ever since heading home from Shinra´s place on his own two feet, having gotten rid of the drugs inside his body he had somewhat not been able concentrate properly.
"I got some work to do though," considering he had been quite lazy the day before. Izaya was about to try and send Shizu-chan away, just like he had tried to last time, but then he remembered he had some questions out in the open that he still wanted an answer to.
Glancing at the blond a soft smirk drew across his lips as he spoke playfully, "...but I guess you won't just leave again right?" A soft snort left his lips as he let himself slump down on his favourite couch.
"Guessed right, flea," Shizu-chan replied, following the flea to the mentioned piece of furniture- he wasn't sitting down though- rather glancing around? Hmmm Shizu-chan seemed to be somewhat different today.
"But please Shizu-chan, not my desk this time," Izaya announced, seemingly startling the blond at the words.
"You were the one starting that stuff!"
…
He was curious. the day before Shizu-chan had beat Hachiro up, then dragged him to Shinra´s- having been high on whatever sedative the bastard had administered to his system he had been somewhat out of it, carelessly saying words of gratitude and that they were friends. Honestly the raven didn't even know why he had said that, after all they were anything but friends, ne?
Maybe that was why the blond had left so abruptly? Was he that offended by being called a friend?
Well considering their past Izaya would be all to surprised, it was a logical reaction and yet there was this slight jab, this squeezing negative feeling.
Sighing the raven discarded the unnecessary thoughts and got up from the couch again.
All of that didn't matter, what mattered now was him and Shizu-chan or rather that energy business of his.
"And who was the one taking the joke seriously?" the flea questioned while approaching the blond- approaching him farther and before the blond knew it there were hands around his neck.
Growing stiff the blond froze at the unexpected motion- if anything he knew Izaya as bold, so if anything he would have expected to have the flea go for his junk again, but something like this? It was odd, awkward even because the flea was clearly smaller than the blond, barely reaching up and instead of a somewhat hug the motion made the flea seem like some kind of fish dangling from a fishing rod.
Was he trying to accomplish something?
"You still started," the blond mumbled, not too sure whether he was supposed to do anything yet or not.
"Shizu-chan sometimes you seriously behave like a child," the raven sighed, and somehow, despite being closest to the blond in front of him than he could possibly be he felt like he was hugging air, like something was missing.
Lonely.
"And you are behaving strange today."
A deep frown crossed the raven´s expression, annoyed by his own actions. This wasn't like him, what was he even trying to do here? This whole situation seemed somewhat like a daze. Instead of teasing the blond and getting him mad he had the urge to just roll up next to him and sleep.
Shaking his head imperceptibly he tried to get rid of the unnecessary thoughts.
Now was not the time to be confused or stuff, Shizu-chan was just here for their agreement and he would leave again right after.
Surprised the blond´s eyes widened as he found a pair of soft lips press against his own.
He- hadn't expected Izaya to go for a kiss.
It was soft, and surprisingly sweet, it lacked the usual hint of eagerness and heat, instead it was like the touch of a butterfly, soft and without any bite behind it.
It was odd, especially for the flea, but somehow Shizuo couldn´t find a reason to complain about it. Pressing his own lips softly against the raven´s he moved them, parted his lips, inviting the raven to deepen the kiss.
And he did, the hot tongue was invading his mouth softly, slow, completely different to the last time and yet not any less thrilling. It was hot.
Letting his own pair of hands sneak around the raven´s waist his fingers searched for the hem of his shirt.
Having closed his eyes the flea´s confusion only increased. He felt warm, inside out, the blond´s hands traveled underneath his shirt but then- paused.
"Hey, you are pretty hot," the blond suddenly announced breaking the kiss.
A tad confused the raven rose an eyebrow, "Is that a compliment?" he snorted but no-
"No, seriously," suddenly Shizu-chan´s face was so much closer than during the kiss, his forehead connecting with Izaya's as one of those usual frowns appeared on his face.
The flea was hot, undeniably so but that wasn't what the blond meant. Feeling the heat radiate from the flea Shizuo only confirmed his suspicions. Yeah, no mistake.
"You have a fever," the blond announced, causing the raven to blink.
"Oh," he hadn't seen that coming, but now thinking about it, "Would explain why I'm feeling dizzy," he mumbled aloud, but the blond had caught the words nonetheless.
A moment passed.
…
A blink.
…
Another.
…
"Huh?" Shizuo frowned, and that frown was even deeper than the one before, almost seemed angry.
"You are not feeling well?" he repeated and his hold on the flea tightened.
And then it suddenly made sense, why the flea had forgotten about the message he had written himself and why he had been acting in an odd way.
Waving the blond off the flea however didn't seem to be particularly fazed by the change of events.
"Yeah, but nevermind, we were about to do something, ne?" he grinned instead, his movement not indicating in the slightest that he was intending to stop.
"Not if you are sick," Shizuo frowned, that crease on his forehead only growing deeper.
A sigh was all that left the flea´s lips though as he rolled his eyes.
"Why not?"
Why-
"Did you even hear what you just said? You are not feeling well." Shizuo repeated, for a moment wondering just how high the flea´s temperature really was if he kept insisting on their appointment while obviously being sick.
As if he was going to do anything to a sick person- no matter if it was a violent or… well the other kind of action.
"We should move this to tomorrow or something," the blond mumbled, "When you feel better," but a snort was all that followed as the raven rolled his eyes once more.
"Come on, really? It doesn't matter how I feel anyway as long as you are horny everything is settled." The raven explained with a shrug, he seemed like he didn't care even in the slightest as he revealed this piece of information that Shizuo hadn't known anything about so far.
Feeling his stomach twist unpleasantly the blond´s eyes narrowed.
"What?" but the flea didn't even seem to have noticed what he had just said as he merely shrugged.
"Yep doesn't matter. Fun thing isn't that?" he chuckled, "Never wondered how Hachiro managed to keep me alive with all the shit he did? Didn't enjoy that for sure."
It was disturbing. The flea was grinning, joking about something so disturbing- it wasn't even that Shizuo was mad at the flea for saying these things, or for thinking that way, it was the way Izaya had gotten used to the treatment of that guy that he didn't even see what was wrong here.
It tasted bitter, the understanding of what that bastard had been doing to flea for all these years no matter the flea´s condition.
"Wha-!" yelping the raven flailed his arms trying to hold onto something as he got swept off his feet.
With a muffled groan he found himself being thrown across the blond´s shoulder like a sack of potatoes.
"What are you doing?" he questioned, and tried to push at the blond, but somehow he felt too sluggish to actually try and get off the blond.
"Taking you to bed flea, you need to rest," Shizuo replied gruff and with yet another whelp the raven found himself being dropped into his own bed.
"Come on, Shizu-chan. I don't need-" the raven had been about to complain, explain that Shizu-chan didn't have to be considerate or anything, but a towel smashed right into his face made him shut up pretty nicely.
"Shut up and sleep," the blond sighed, the towel was nice and cool, Izaya couldn't recall when the blond had went and drenched it in water.
"I don't wanna." was the only response he was willing to give though as he sat up in bed.
"You want to," Shizu-chan replied, that hand of his suddenly pressing him back down into his matress.
"No," the raven replied stubbornly.
"Yes," the blond insisted.
"Nope," he pushed at the blond´s hand.
"Izaya-" of course with no result.
"Nopedi, nopedi, nope, nope, nope."
Sighing the blond groaned- this, he had always thought Izaya was the most annoying when he tried to provoke him in the streets or caused him to damage property, but it this right now was even worse.
"...seriously?" he questioned, and considering just how childish the flea was behaving right now he definitely had more than just a normal fever.
Tossing the blanket across the raven he turned to the door.
"Rest up, idiot."
Gasping the raven digged his way out of the pile of fluff, electrifying his hair in a way that made it stand up into all directions.
"Hoh, the amoeba calling me an idiot?" he questioned, bu upon pulling the blanket off his face he had to notice that the idiot in question was already gone.
...
Sighing the blond was making his way down the stairs he had walked up before.
the flea´s words weighing heavy on his mind.
Izaya never had told him that. But now that he thought about it, it made sense. "You don't have to do that-" he did insinuate something like that.
that Shizuo didn't need to make the flea feel good.
And thinking back about what Hachiro had done to the flea he should have concluded that much earlier.
Did he not say anything because he was afraid of what he would do? Somehow Shizuo should be angry that the raven even thought that way- but then he considered his temper again His anger, the things he threw at the flea without thinking during chases. If anything Izaya probably figured the blond would just snap at some point and do what he wanted…
But hurt him? He wouldn't do that not even by accident.
Tch, pissed him off for some reason.
For now he would let him sleep.
No matter what this shitty feeling in his guts was that didn't let him sleep at night, and made him long like this for the flea, he just knew one thing, and that was that he didn't want that guy to hurt Izaya ever again.
And he could make sure of that right?
Problem solved.
….
Should he have stayed?
The flea was having a fever and all after all- … tilting his head thinking the blond stopped on the pavement. The people around him were doing the same, taking the safest route possible and switched to the other side of the road as the blond wracked his brain about the flea.
He was sick- ahh but he had seemed fine enough to take care of himself.
…
Nah who was he kidding?
…
it was quiet in the apartment without the blond there.
Feeling his phone vibrate against his thigh the flea pulled it up. Frowning softly as the lit screen was hurting his eyes somewhat he read the message he had received.
A snort was the first reaction, not knowing what to make of the unexpected show of affection- but then a smile drew across his lips as his lower lips connected with the phone in a thinking manner.
Heh, he felt warm, pleasant. And that even though the message was so simple.
(I will get some cold medicine so sleep already flea.)
To be continued
Sowy for having taken so long to update people ahhhh gomen xD This chapter was kinda hmm hard to write for some reason xD And studies were keeping me busy ahhh