-๑-๑ ஜ ๑-Chapter 22: You don't have to - -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-

-Shizuo´s point of view.-

"How are you feeling?" Turning his head to face the not exactly unwelcomed but still unexpected guest the raven couldn't help but groan into the pillow underneath his cheeks. It was quiet, the usual sound of his computer´s cooling system was missing and the raven realized with a frown why that was the case.

He was in bed. Not working and the worst of it all- Shizu-chan was here.

With a feeling of doom and irritation the raven remembered the day before- Shizu-chan had come over, just doing what izaya had asked for in his message only to notice that he had a freaking fever.

He. Izaya Orihara. Getting sick like a freaking idiot.

A cringe surfacing on his expression Izaya remembered even more than that- his words to be precise and actions.

"I feel like a piece of bread," he finally responded to the blond´s question truthfully as the memories resurfaced from the dead.

"Not better at all?" he heard the blond ask but that only annoyed him that much more. He was presenting himself this weak and carefless in front of his enemy just what the hell was he thinking. A groan followed, sounding more like it was rooting from frustration than from being sick.

"No, I just feel like I'm as stupid as one," the raven explained, shoving that suddenly way too hot blanket off his body as he wormed out of the stuffed heat.

"Why?" the blond frowned, watching the raven as he kicked the blanket off his frame.

Sighing Izaya buried his face in the pillow, a frown forming on his forehead during the action.

"Just erase everything that I said yesterday from your memory alright?" he requested, not caring all to much whether the blond actually understood him or not anyway though.

Honestly just how stupid had he been?

Telling him straight out how nothing but Shizu-chan mattered during their…. appointments- honestly was he crazy? Not that he was fearing for the blond to act upon his statement in a negative way and yet- he had just revealed way too much about his former appointments with that asshole and that really pissed him off.

Just knowing that Hachiro had told the blond things that the raven never wanted anyone to ever know about had been the worst but now going so far as to spill the information himself just how low had he sunken?

He couldn't really tell why but it just really irked him that he had spilt that kind of info while rambling nothing but nonsense.

Turning his head to glance at the blond he suddenly noticed another oddity in this situation. Confusion ruled his expression for a second.

"Wait, why are you even still here?" as far as he remembered Shizu-chan had gone out to get medicine, he even remembered the shitty taste the medicine left on his tongue entirely killing his whole tongue in the process, but after that?

"You asked me to sleep over."

...

"Yesterday never happened," Izaya stated, throwing that stuffy blanket off as he slipped out of bed.

What did he even catch a fever for seriously?- then again the moment he wondered about the cause of getting sick he remembered a certain morning after visiting a certain blond´s house. He had been running home in drenching wet clothes- sure no one had seen him but that was probably the reason he got sick in the first place.

Fucking Shinra, could have noticed he was getting sick when he was over to get checked for the sedatives as well that idiot.

"Alright, alright," the blond responded, a tad annoyed that the flea wasn't even being the slightest bit grateful that he had looked after his sorry ass, but okay- the raven could glare at him all he wanted. Shitty little louse.

"...don't you have work today?" the man in question suddenly asked, pulling at that sweaty shirt he was wearing.

"Did you look at the clock? It's afternoon, I was already gone and came back."

Blinking the raven twisted his head doing as told and looked at the indicator of time.

"Oh." It was already past 4pm- had he really slept this long?

How… odd-

Izaya had never been the type to sleep in, no matter whether he was sick or not. He was a light sleeper too, so considering that the blond was walking around here and probably snored or something being the monster he was Izaya was really surprised he didn't wake up at all.

"You slept like a stone flea," the blond unnecessarily added making the flea feel more and more like he was the one being toyed with instead of the other way round.

And he really didn't like that.

"... what did you come back for anyway?" he questioned, pulling that blanket off his bed as it was probably sweaty and he wanted to wash it later.

"You?" the blond responded making the raven internally face palm at the response.

"No, I mean-" he tried again while folding that huge piece of cloth. "Why did you bother to look after me? I would have survived you know."

It wasn't like the flea wouldn't have been able to look after himself, Shizuo knew that, but honestly being this ungrateful by now the blond regretted complying to the flea's wishes.

"Were you having fun watching me brabble nonsense like a drunk person?" the raven questioned with something that resembled his usually glare of annoyance.

"I'm not you, Izaya," Shizuo responded truthfully, after all it had never been his intention to annoy the flea or make fun of him while being sick. No, if anything it was probably the opposite.

"I know that, but that doesn't mean-" breaking off the sentence halfway Izaya was forced to swallow the words as the blond was suddenly way closer than he thought.

Warm skin brushing against his forehead as the raven was left to blink in astonishment trying to analyze the situation.

"What are you doing Shizu-chan?" were the words that finally left his lips in an actually really confused fashion.

"Hm?" blinking innocently the blond merely met the raven´s glance as he lowered the palm off the raven's skin again, "Checking your temperature, what else?"

What else-

Seriously.

"You wouldn't believe it Shizu-chan, but I actually own a thermometer," the raven snorted, swatting the hand away- only to elave Shizuo with a frown.

Seriously, he had liked the flea better when he was just complaining about being sick and not being this shitty.

And yet, well Shizuo could not deny he was glad the flea was alright again.

A sigh leaving his lips the blond pulled a cigarette from his pant's pocket.

He knew Izaya wouldn't like for him to smoke in here- he didn't even need to ask, just looking at all that expensive stuff everywhere, the couch in the living room, this being the bedroom, he didn't need to be especially smart to know the flea would hate for him to smoke in here, and yet he just really needed a cig.

Otherwise he was probably going to kill the flea in his own apartment. Annoying little shit.

First he was annoying him in his dreams, then while being sick and not even noticing how annoying he was being and then this.

Lighting the lighter to the other end of his cig he illuminated the small device.

"What are you even so mad about?" he found himself grumbling, not really expecting an answer as a glare met his face. "Could have thrown you out of a window too, you know, being sick and weak and all," the blond stated, using the adjectives he knew the raven hated the most on purpose.

His eyes narrowed- oh had he hit a nerve perhaps?

He was expecting another remark.

But a sigh was the only thing he received as the raven paused in his motion. A frown was crossing his forehead and his hand ruffling through his hair in a fashion of irritation.

"It's not exactly nice to have someone listen to you while you talk about shit that's none´s fucking business, you know."

Oh.

And suddenly that fleeting feeling of anger was gone. Izaya hadn't really been detailed about what exactly he was talking about- but considering the last time he had behaved this salty it wasn't hard to guess.

"Yep doesn't matter. Fun thing isn't that? Never wondered how Hachiro managed to keep me alive with all the shit he did? Didn't enjoy that for sure."

Shizuo hadn't really put too much thought into it, but at that moment Izaya told him about something he didn't want him to know. Admitting that he had had to surrender to an asshole like that, and admitting that he had been … helpless in that regard, no matter what the bastard did…

The flea had said things he absolutely didn't want the blond to know about at that moment.

Taking one last deep breath of the cigarette that was dangling off his lips the blond exhaled.

"Don't know what you´re talking about." Izaya's eyes narrowed in response, not getting what the blond was playing around for- he had been sane enough to know what he had been saying and he also knew the blond had paid attention. "You were just rambling shit so I ignored you anyway," the blond continued, and the raven´s gaze softened.

Was he trying to do him a favour?

"Hoh, the monster has that much patience?" he cooed testing the waters and simultaneously switching the topic.

Shrugging the blond dropped the extinguished stub of the cigarette into a dustbin not far away.

"I do, I think I deserve a reward for enduring you," he stated, a pleasant smirk spreading across the raven´s features.

Well if the blond was being that way he could handle him well enough.

"Come to think of it we still got something to do," with a soft creak the bed protested as the raven let himself fall back into the fluffy mattress, back resting on the fabric as he glanced towards the blond.

Shizuo didn't need the flea to spell it out for him to know what he wanted. After all it was the first thing the flea wanted to get done the day before, before Shizuo realized he had a fever.

"... you sure you are fit enough for that?" he questioned, not really trusting the flea to be sane enough and skip this session of his if he wasn't feeling well again.

"Of course I am, and seeing how we are already late considering my previous condition we should continue where we left of yesterday, right?" the raven suggested making Shizuo´s mind wander back to the day before when the flea suddenly headed for a kiss without any warning.

"... right," he agreed, and it was only two steps he needed to approach the raven on the bed.

Kneeling on top of the mattress, Izaya's thighs in between his knees he unfastened his bow tie with one hand while supporting his weight with the other to the left of Izaya's head.

"Hoh? That didn't take much convincing," the raven purred, not at all abashed that the blond was taking charge for once, usually it took the raven way more effort to get him to do as he wanted him to.

"You had good arguments," the blond merely said before lowering his head down to the flea´s face- Izaya was expecting a kiss but oh how surprised was he when he found the blond latch onto his neck instead.

Tongue, warm, smooth, trailing over his skin the blond suddenly decided to suck at a tempting spot, making shivers travel up and down the raven's body.

A hand was sneaking down to the raven's thighs, sliding along until they hooked onto the rim of Izaya's pants, but the piece of cloth was not pulled down entirely, just lowered, the fingers playing with the belt and buttons as Shizu-chan´s hand slipped inside his pants. Feeling the blond wrap his fingers around his shaft the raven flinched for a second biting down on his lips on the bold move- he hadn't expected the blond to go for his dick already, but oh that wasn't all.

It was then that the blond left off the raven's throat and looked at Izaya instead, those eyes mixing with the familiar black Izaya was used to see by now.

Feeling his chest rise softly up and down the raven realized with a hint of surprise that the blond was pretty good at turning him on like this.

Leaving off the flea, Izaya was almost disappointed as he lifted his head to watch what the blond was going to do next.

He was being gentle, well it wasn't like he wasn't always being gentle but this time it was different. It was like he was putting extra effort into making Izaya feel good.

And the raven wasn't stupid he knew why.

He was about to complain about it, Shizu-chan still stroking his dick softly, but hell he choked on that complaint when that rod suddenly got engulfed by Shizu-chan´s mouth.

Eyes rolling back the raven let his head thud back into the mattress, mouth falling open into a silent gasp at the unexpected heat and friction making him grab the sheets as the blond sucked on his dick.

He was trying to keep his mouth shut but he couldn't help a soft whelp that might as well have been a moan from escaping his lips when the blond pulled him towards the edge of the bed, getting off it himself.

For a moment Izaya thought he was going to pull him off entirely, hands bracing themselves against the mattress, but oh that was not it.

Hands suddenly grasping his wrists the blond pulled them towards his head and oh my god the raven didn't know how good it felt to get sucked off like this-

Fingers curling and grasping the blond´s hair harshly he instinctively pulled his head closer, a moan spilling from his lips at the motion.

The hotness engulfing him was driving him insane, no one had ever done things like these- not to mention that it was Shizu-chan doing them now. Glances were thrown, the blond was looking up at him, kneeling on the ground, glancing up with those dark black eyes and god that was a sight to behold of.

So far Izaya hadn't been paying attention to the blond´s hands, since it was his mouth that was demanding for it the most, but now he could feel them, trailing towards his waist, his back, and suddenly his pants got pulled down farther just so much they were settling around his thighs.

A momentary gasp escaped his lips and he looked at the blond- somewhat confused, somewhat already knowing what he was doing as his fingers probed against his hole.

"You don't have to do that," he breathed, and the blond left off the raven for just a few seconds, that hand wrapping around his shaft instead as he stroked it up and down at an even pace.

"I don't know what you are talking about," the blond said as that other hand kept giving him those delicious frictions. He knew Izaya had actually been serious about what he had said, but so was Shizuo.

"You d-," the raven breathed but didn't get to finish his sentence as the blond´s lips were suddenly back on his shaft bobbing up and down the length. He was sucking, moving faster, involuntarily Izaya's hands moved, trying to get more of that friction, friction that was slowly but surely causing the heat to coil inside.

"Shizu-" a gasp escaped his lips, he pulled at the blond´s hair, trying to get him away- he was close-

He was so fucking close.

But the blond didn't budge. Instead he sucked even harder, driving the raven to ecstasy. A moan escaped his lips, his sight blackening out for a second as he reached his peak. Tiny puffs of air left the raven's mouth as he pushed the blond´s head off him-

That brute- trying to get his breathing back in control he frowned at the blond. Why was he doing this in the first place?

"Stop treating me like this," he panted, still trying to come down from his height. He didn't need Shizu-chan to be gentle with him, they were enemies, they hated each other- the brute had told him, he would try to kill him on the streets, without a second thought.

Swallowing the blond looked at the raven, already knowing that he wasn't acting like the raven wanted him to, but hell as if he had ever done what the flea wanted him to.

"Like what?" he questioned, provocatively, leaning up to kiss the raven´s neck once more just a bit above the spot he had sucked, teasing the tender skin.

Shuddering softly the raven pushed at the blond´s shirt, trying to shove him off, but the blond didn't budge. "I have no intention of hurting you Izaya." he suddenly whispered, right above the raven´s ear casting hot puffs of air across them making the raven tremble pleasantly, "no matter if it matters or not."

Tch, it wasn't like the raven didn't understand this much. Why was the blond so keen on proving to him that he was not an ass like Hachiro? Of course he wasn't, he was Shizu-chan.

And yet his mouth was going dry at the statement, it had something final, something assuring to it, something the raven couldn't quite pinpoint as annoying or outrageous, no, the opposite.

It was a promise that should offend the raven considering their relationship was based on hatred, despite the recent sort of awkward friendship they had formed and yet he couldn't help but relish in the words that the blond had spoken.

No one had ever said anything remotely as intimate as this to him.

With a push, hard but yet soft the raven nudged the blond to get off him as he laid back on that mattress. The pants were discarded, the blond pulled towards the bed as it was Izaya's time to push him down onto the mattress while settling on top of his waist.

"Okay, enough playing around, now it's my turn."

to be continued~

TROLOLOLOLO yes I cut off right there xDDD ahahaha I'm evil C:

btw I noticed a slight error in my notes for this story lmao xD

So in chapter 19 I wrote about that dream of Shizuo´s, where Izaya said he loves him, and I wrote the following part as though Shizuo notices and accepts that he loves the flea after all- … well that was wrong on my part lmao xD

he was supposed to realize that later xDD but with all my different stories going on I kinda lost track of the plot x'D

So anyway, I fixed that now, just deleted some sentences at the end and rewrote some parts, if you want chu can go back and re-read that part, you don't have to though, the only important thing it that Shizu-chan didn´t accept or realize yet that he is really actually starting to love the flea yet xD

Well then, see you in the next smutty chapter on 28th February 2018~ xDD

Crea: Sowy sweetie xD I was late after all aw dang C': but happy birthday still~! Consider this chappy a late birthday pressy haha xD

Unknown: xD haha sowy no snuggling, but some steamy lil smut instead hoho C: awww get better cookie! …. thinking about it by the time you read my reply you are probably already well again xD well at least you got your sweet smut moment xD and there will be more next chapter hohoho xD

Guest 2: xD of course you are in all my stories x'D Counted you once for every chapter haha sotd still ended up winning by far tho gosh such a surprise xD Izaya is fucking adorable being the childish lil shit he is xD haha who knows~? you might be getting more sleepy cuddles than you think next chapter C; cuddles for the win xD hah i would say its izaya just not wanting to be alone for now xD no ulterior motive yet C: yet C: xD Actually I'm wondering about that now, now that you said it xD Might make shizuo sick too, but then again… hmmmmm I don't know yet let's see xD And i think he would take care of Shizuo in his own way, like…. calling Shinra xDDDDDD and then fucking off xDDD

OH and "Survival of the doomed" won the double update xD Almost forgot x'DDDD