-๑-๑ ஜ ๑-Chapter 35: Control -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-

"You look like you just came out of a hurricane." It was Namie who added the compliment as soon as the raven entered his apartment.

It was quiet- evening. An hour had passed since the raven had… met up with the blond.

"... do I?" Somehow Izaya's usual wits failed him as his mind was probably everywhere but focused on Namie right now.

Or well- not anywhere- but rather on Shizu-chan.

Shizu-chan- Shizu-chan- Shizu-chan.

An untamable longing seemed to fill his mind as he let himself sink down onto his swivel chair.

"Got into a fight or something?" Again the woman pried.

"Ran into Shizu-chan on my way home."

"Pfft, serves you right."

She probably thought he got beat up or something- chased around the city or so.

Well the second part was actually true. And so much more after that.

Turning around the man faced the window, a smile he couldn't quite brush off his lips spreading across his expression.

He felt happy- happy and agitated, so full of energy.

Not the succubus kind or anything weird. He just felt the need to do something.

His hands were itching, his mind turning the past events upside down.

That's gotta be uncomfortable-

Fuck.

Happy and horny.

They had to stop after the- he didn't even know which round it was. But fact was that Shizu-chan´s phone had rang, finally managing to tear the two apart.

Izaya didn't know what had gotten into him- didn't know what to say or do or just-

Swallowing shortly the raven closed his eyes for a moment.

His palm slid up touching a spot on his neck. A spot that he was sure was now wearing a kiss mark.

He should work.

He should just brush this meeting off as nothing- it was just that right? Another appointment- just a bit earlier than scheduled. And yet he just couldn't bring himself to stop this feeling.

This sudden want.

This urge to just bail out of that door and run back all the way to Ikebukuro to the blond.

This instant.

…

Had he finally lost his mind?

Opening his eyes again the raven let his sight travel across the city.

The sun had set- lights were now illuminating the city from below.

Streets, shops- … alleys.

… how many times did they even do it? In an alley for fucks sake... They had never suggested a second round, not to mention a third or fourth- why today?

The raven felt his lower region stir again as though he had summoned them with mere thought.

What the hell was he doing? Becoming a sex addict of some sort?

Was he drunk?

Fuck.

It was a mess.

Everything.

Groaning softly the raven's head tilted back, meeting the chair´s rest. He had to calm down. This had to be some weird side effect from their way too frequent meetings.

After all, once every second day had alreadly given him the power to stop time for a short period, so who knew what kind of effect having sex more than once a day was going to have?

Maybe he was just.. overcharged?

Like some battery?

Maybe that was the reason he felt so agitated.

The thought was somewhat logical- somewhat assuring- and yet back in his head Izaya knew it was bullshit.

That's not what this was.

And the thought scared him as much as it exhilarated him.

Like ice breaking the surface of a glass bottle, realization started to slowly- slowly dawn on him.

It was just a second he needed to get up from his chair again- scaring his secretary just a little as she jumped at the sudden motion.

"I will be out-" the words were spoken quick, somewhat hoarse- and with that the apartment was left.

Shizuo on the other hand had been a little busy.

Having called earlier Tom had been anything but amused that he for one thing- chased after the flea again without even thinking about their shift that needed to be finished today, and second how he knocked one of said clients out to the point he couldn't even ask him about the money anymore.

Well- his shift was now finally over. Way later than usual for both him as well as Tom.

Sending him another apologetic glance his friend waved at him with a sigh before turning around into the other direction.

Usually Tom-san was more forgiving, considering Shizuo´s temper- but today.

Well- he had been gone for way longer than usual.

…. and for different reasons as well.

Not like Tom knew about it, but yeah...

Well.

And now he was on his way home.

Extremely turned on. Thoughts only revolving around the flea.

Hell he has had sex with the flea often enough by now and yet... he couldn't stop thinking about Izaya's hands burried in his hair. Izaya's voice- Izaya's … thoughts.

Yes.

Thoughts.

He wasn't stupid.

Last time when the flea called him the effect had caught him by surprise but today- during their meeting in the alley-

He had heard him.

Without saying a word.

Seeing how Izaya developed some kind of time stopping ability it only took the blond a day to realize that he himself seemed to have developed some kind of skill.

Thought reading came to mind.

Although he wasn't quite sure about its exact function. Or how to use it to say the least.

Glancing at a man walking towards him on the pavement, Shizuo frowned a little, trying to figure out what the guy was thinking about.

But nothing happened- nothing except for the man quickly changing sides. He obviously got scared being stared at by the fortissimo of Ikebukuro.

Frown growing deeper the blond sighed.

Did it even work on other people?

Maybe it only worked on Izaya.

Well there were enough ways to figure that out. But he had to be careful- one word to Izaya about him being able to read thoughts and the flea would probably keep his distance.

Shizuo didn't need to be a genius to know that Izaya was probably not always thinking exactly what he was saying he did. No matter if it was about opinions, facts- ... feelings.

…

Emotions, huh?

Feeling his stomach do a little backflip at the mere thought of what it was that Izaya felt the blond sped his steps up.

The raging hard on still present up until now was making that quite hard though.

But that wasn't the feeling he had been thinking about.

He wanted Izaya really bad.

But not just for sex- that too, but-... he couldn't put it in words.

The only thought that crossed his mind was-

That Izaya was solely his.

His.

His alone.

Fuck he desired the flea to the point it drove him crazy.

God and that more- that single word Izaya had thought before- was repeating like nonstop inside his mind.

How the hell could a single person be this erotic?

Just one word from those lips?

It was- dangerous.

Today Izaya had been wanting him just as much as he did- and if Tom-san hadn't called-

Shizuo wasn't sure what would have happened.

Would they even have stopped?

A dark thought emerged from the back of his mind as he lit a cigarette that quickly found its way to his lips.

…

… what if he lost control?

The thought gnawed on him. Almost as much as the desire to see the flea did.

He was longing for the flea- he knew it. He wasn't stupid.

The dream he had had a couple days ago- hell even before that-

He knew what was going on.

He knew it.

The moment he smashed that bastard´s face into the wall back at the bar, finding out what Hachiro had done to the flea for years-

It was clear- It should have been as clear as daylight from then onwards-

He-

A sudden sound tore the man from his thoughts as his head shot up.

He was almost home.

The apartment he rented just a few steps ahead- the noise however had come from an alley across from it.

Shizuo felt his body twitch and his eyes widen as he noticed what it was that had given it off.

Izaya.

"Oi, what are you lurking around here for?"

Turning around quickly the flea faced the blond. He was still wearing the same clothes as before. Shizuo could tell. Did he even go home to change?

No answer was given as Izaya merely looked at the blond for what felt like a millenia to him.

Only then his lips suddenly curled into a mocking grin.

"Hm, what if I said I need you right now~?"

Fuck.

Shizuo knew he was joking.

And yet- that shot right to his groin.

The flea was laughing almost instantly, no words of the blond needed as his expression seemed to be enough.

"You should see your face-" Izaya wheezed, gallantly moving up those stairs to Shizuo's apartment.

"Well excuse me- it's your fault if you say shit like that," the blond grumbled under his breath as he followed right up.

Keys were pulled out, the front door quickly unlocked as he stepped inside his home. The fact that Izaya had just followed him inside without even asking didn't seem to matter at the moment as Shizuo tried to keep his face straight.

"That shit got you pretty excited though."

Yeah, damn right.

"Shut up, flea." The thought drove the blond mad.

Izaya's entire presence right here right now, drove him mad to be precise.

He wanted to fuck the flea.

He wanted to make him scream

Right now.

He didn't want to let him go.

That thought only intensified with each second that passed.

And Izaya had no idea as he approached the blond further and further.

"Not going to act on your urges like you usually do?" The flea hummed, and Shizuo made it a point to not reply to anything right now. He had to calm down. Get his urges under control. "I got some time on hand actually. We could move the next appointment to the day after tomorrow, wouldn't that be convenient? I got some stuff tomorrow to do anyway."

Shizuo knew what the raven was implying.

Using him as a charger- again.

In a more efficient, or rather convenient way.

Somehow the thought did both to the blond- on the one hand it only caused the need to touch Izaya to triple- and on the other it made him angry.

Angry that it was only that he was good for.

Only that.

And yet at the same time he was also relieved. Relieved that it was him the flea came to. Not some asshole- not some stranger.

Him. Him alone.

But this cocktail of emotions was anything but safe right now. Not with Shizuo´s temper.

Too well he remembered Izaya's concerns during their first… appointment.

He could break the flea.

Easily.

Snap him in half if something got him mad at the wrong point in time. And right now- he wasn't so sure what it was that he would do to the flea.

Calm down.

Inhaling deeply the last third of the cigarette lit up as the soothing nicotine filled his lungs.

"And what if I'm not in the mood?"

Wrong question.

So wrong-

Shizuo didn't realize what it would result in.

Before he knew it Izaya had inched closer, that cigarette suddenly snatched from his lips before another pair ghosted above them so close they could kiss.

"Fuck me. Right now." The words were a low whisper.

Sultry.

Quiet.

Somewhat hoarse-

And just so- so- hot.

They shot right to his groin. His hand, having leaned onto the kitchen counter grasped the material just a bit too hard as it protested with a screech.

Fuck.

"Does this change your mood?" Izaya questioned- having obviously no idea what he just did.

"What if I don't want to?"

"Your eyes already gave you away Shizu-chan~"

The flea only kept making it worse, suddenly moving those hands up Shizuo´s shoulders. Slowly- as if to fucking tease him. "They turn black when you are aroused you know~" And suddenly the flea used those hands to lean up- those mesmerizing eyes locked onto his. "And right now they are really, really dark."

That´s it.

A soft gasp escaped the raven´s lips as he suddenly found himself being pulled forward. Expecting to be thrown somewhere Izaya squeezed his eyes shut- after all he had practically thrown himself onto the blond who said no, more than a couple times by now.

No matter how much he really turned him on, there was no saying the brute wouldn't fling him out of the window if he deemed him too annoying.

He couldn't have been more wrong.

Finding his back met the kitchen counter, his head pressed into the wall behind it, the blond way closer than he would have expected as his eyes snapped back open, Shizu-chan´s eyes locked onto his own. Eyes filled with lust and a hint of what Izaya could only define that passion Shizuo held in them on their chases.

"Izaya, I will warn you, I'm kind of losing control around you."

An intelligent: "Huh?" left his throat as his hands searched for something to hold onto. It was pure coincidence that led his fingertips to the counterledge- and exactly the spot Shizuo´s hands had been in.

The ledge was crushed partly. Or at least dent in quite remarkably- it pulled a whole 180 on the blond´s words.

"Don't turn me on too much."

The words sounded like a threat.

Dangerous.

Like he was playing with a beast.

And the weirdest part of it was- it turned the flea on even more.

"It's not like you getting aroused, isn't beneficial to me," Izaya breathed slowly, his eyes casting towards those lips.

How badly he wanted them on his body.

"I don't think you understand-" Shizuo repeated, hands bracing themselves left and right of the raven´s body as his predatory glance only intensified.

And yet it didn't scare the flea off.

The opposite.

"Then explain." Izaya challenged- eyes dark pink- holding not the slightest hint of fear.

"Izaya-" Shizuo´s voice was a low growl.

His thread of sanity on the verge of ripping.

Moving closer the blond was about to warn the flea again- but the raven´s own boner now obviously pressing into his thigh stopped him quite efficiently from mumbling anything at all.

"What is it that you want to do?" Izaya suddenly questioned instead- his voice low.

With a groan the blond took a deep breath.

"Izaya, I want to fuck you senseless."

It was the last straw he was holding onto here, really- but that damned flea-

That damn flea just chuckled.

"That's all? That's not-" he didn't get very far. Interrupted by a harsh kiss the blond shut the raven up- palm at the back of Izaya's head the raven found his head tilted backwards by force before those lips left, latching onto his neck instead. He expected a kiss- he expected a kiss mark- instead it was a bite. Choking on a soft complaint of a mixture of unexpected pain and lust, the raven winced- he reached for the blond, only to find his hands forced backwards onto the counter.

Shizu-chan was rough. Rougher than usual.

And yet- it was hot.

Shortly leaving off the raven the blond halted.

Those eyes, fixed on Izaya.

It was then that the raven realized what this was about- it was a warning. The darkness in Shizu-chan´s eyes. The way he deliberately, yet controlled showed him what he meant with actions instead of words caused a kind of warmth to spread across the raven´s chest. And it caused him to understand one thing.

The blond was scared of his own desires- scared of losing control.

Control, he obviously didn't realize he had.

"I want to fuck you to the point you can´t even speak anymore, can´t walk, not even think-" Shizu-chan went on- their hips forced close. "I feel like I want to break you."

Fuck.

It should have been obvious from the blond´s behavior on everyday situations

Izaya had wondered how he was able to be so gentle when usually he was not

How he could be so in control.

There was no flaw in him losing it now.

It was just that, Shizu-chan´s trait. A trait that Izaya had always loved.

He could feel the tension in Shizu-chan´s arms- ready to fling him out of the apartment or fuck him to oblivion on his command.

It was the second option he chose, causing the structure to crumble to pieces.

"Then what are you waiting for, Shizu-chan?"

to be continued~

Oh my- oh myyyy

Shizu-chan turning wild xD Be prepared for a rather- wild chapter C: In more sense than one xD

fun fact i wrote this at 4am when i couldn't sleep in one go lmao

the next chapter is almost done too due to that and hell- it's one spicey as fuck chapter I can promise that much xDDD

Happy Halloween my friends 3 I was a little to slow for sotd and sns, but those two will come out tomorrow/the day after tomorrow :3

Anyway~ Regarding the next chapter on SD, See you on November the 30th~!