Yo people- so as you noticed I haven't been updating for a while now and the reason is, well…
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I just don't have any ideas anymore for Shizaya. No motivation- no inspiration nothing.
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This is it, a good bye to all of you.
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APRIL`s FOOLS GUYS XDDDDDD
As if I would stop writing Shizaya ahahahahahaha
I will never leave a story unfinished as long as I live- and I will bloody damn stick to that until hell freezes over xDDDDD
As a matter of fact I have some really sweet updates coming up right now fresh from the Shizaya backery- and HEY you know what?
I got even more news! A new Shizaya story is juuust around to corner to be started by me xD
"Impostor" -taking place in a middle aged setting C; Have a glimpse at my summary for now~
"You will marry the king, disguised as a woman, drink the poison handed to you the wedding night and die, understood?" A soft nod was given as Izaya's father circled his son wearing the dress specifically tailored for tomorrow's departure. Disgust displayed on his face as his glance hit Izaya's hips. The feeling was mutual as nausea and terror choked the raven´s throat. "At least you look the part."
I will probably start this one April the 30th~! xD (Or maybe together with the May updates not sure on that yet haha)
Now without further trolling have fun with the updates~! xD
-๑-๑ ஜ ๑-Chapter 37: The morning after -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-
Izaya had never been a fan of sunshine. It was one of the reasons thick curtains of dark gray decorated his bedroom window. And it was the first giveaway that he was not at home, when those rays met his face head on.
A frown of irritation and confusion decorated his expression as he let his eyes roam the room.
Right.
This was Shizu-chan´s bedroom.
Like hot water gushing down his face, that realization dawned on the raven. His ears felt hot. His chest too. And his throat suddenly formed a lump.
He had stayed here.
Overnight.
Whether that was a good thing or not was something his mind was currently too overwhelmed to decide. Memories of last night resurfaced from the back of his mind as if trying to mock him further. The soft tinge of pain he felt spreading from his back and waist only added to the cocktail of doom that suddenly fell upon the man.
He had no explanation.
For nothing that happened the day before.
Glad that Shizu-chan wasn't inside the bedroom for whatever reason, the raven let his head thud back into the pillow, hand following as it covered his eyes as if to make everything disappear.
God.
What the flying fuck was he supposed to say?
He could hear some clattering coming from the living room.
It seemed Shizu-chan hadn't left the apartment entirely. He was still there.
The option of quickly disappearing through a window or something came to Izaya's mind, but was scrapped the second it surfaced.
Running away was no option. It would have been if he were to never see the blond again, but like this? He had a maximum of 2 days until he had to meet up with Shizu-chan again.
… what now?
What was he supposed to say? How was he supposed to find a solution to this whole mess when he didn't even understand himself why he did what he did?
After all, coming here was no reasonable or logical decision. Choosing to have Shizu-chan have his way with him despite his warning neither-
Pictures and memories from the previous night surfaced from Izaya's mind causing his thoughts to come to a pleasant stop.
Right.
This was Shizu-chan they were talking about. Be it back when he first convinced him to become his new partner, or now- he was stupidly simple in his thoughts and actions.
And last night-
It had felt good.
Everything.
Sighing deeply the raven pushed himself off the bed. Shizu-chan must have really fucked the last bit of functioning brain capacity out of his mind when he somehow didn't feel the need to have control over what was going to happen now.
Then again-
Was that so bad?
Right now he felt good.
Warm.
Sure there was that tinge of pain in his back from their intense exercise. But there was also Shizu-chan´s bed. Shizu-chan´s clothes were neglected on the floor. The smell of something being cooked in the kitchen- noises from the neighbor who had obviously decided 8am was the perfect time to vacuum clean his flat. The ticking sound of that clock he had heard while falling asleep.
Hand brushing over the cold door knob the raven took a deep breath.
Whatever-
And opened the door.
A wave of warmth and the smell of fried rice welcomed him, coupled by a soft hint of cigarettes as he faced a certain blond haired individual in a shirt and underwear scurrying around in the kitchen.
"Good morning," Shizu-chan merely replied, the softest hint of a grin displayed on his expression as he dropped the cigarette he was smoking into an ashtray.
Of course.
Izaya had to look ridiculous. Having decided to come out wearing nothing more but his underwear and shirt they were evenly matching. Same accounted for his hair, which he expected to face various directions at the same time.
"You hungry, flea?" Was the next question that followed, causing quite the quizzical expression on Izaya's face.
"What?"
"I made some fried rice."
Dumbstruck Izaya looked at the man, now holding out one of two plates that he had obviously prepared in advance.
"And you are gonna share with me?"
"I'm not playing games like you, if I'm offering something then I mean it."
… was he not going to bring up the night before?
"Guess fried rice sounds nice," Izaya mumbled a bit perplexed while taking a seat at the kitchen counter.
The plate was set down in front of him and the blond just leaned there, already stuffing down the food he made himself.
There were no weird glances, no questioning expressions- nothing.
Izaya couldn't help but feel weird- on the one hand he wanted to know what exactly was going on in Shizu-chan´s head right now-
On the other hand… well… he had no answers he could possibly provide so the blond laying off the topic like this was very much appreciated.
Mindlessly he took a bite of the fried rice- and was even more pleasantly surprised.
"This is good." The egg was tender but not undercooked, the spring onions chopped nice and thin- something the raven hadn't really thought the brute would be capable of.
A slightly muffled hum was all that followed as the blond rose an eyebrow at the raven. "What did you expect?"
"Well, considering your temper and patience I always thought you would be the kind to burn water and destroy pans by accident," Izaya shrugged, causing a soft chuckle to escape from Shizuo´s lips.
"And how do you think I survive?"
"Take out?"
Good point. But no.
Having taken care of Kasuka a few times as a kid when their parents weren't home, Shizuo had learned to at least cook a set of dishes by himself.
Letting his eyes trace towards Izaya he noticed a couple things. For one, how he seemed to handle himself with extra care.
"You good?"
Surprise reflected in Izaya's eyes as he met his glance. For a moment the raven had thought he was trying to mock him, because of how his hips were stinging a little and yeah-
But it took just one glance at the blond to know that it had been a question of worry.
Of course.
He had passed out.
And Shizuo had carried him to bed thinking he had been at fault.
Only the moment he asked Izaya remembered that fact, causing a displeasing tinge to add to the rice´s flavor.
"Just so you know, that yesterday was my own fault, it won't happen again."
"I'm making sure of that right now," Shizuo merely shrugged, referring to the dish he had handed him earlier.
Letting his eyes travel up to the raven´s neck, Shizuo´s gaze traveled to the second aspect that had caught his attention before.
Hickeys- some of which were way too dark.
Feeling the blond´s eyes grow more intense, the raven paused. He was clearly looking at him, with eyes turning black. Suddenly getting uncomfortably hot inside his underwear the raven frowned.
"What? Is there something on my face?" Shizu-chan merely averted his gaze for a second.
"No," he paused shortly, "but on your neck, kinda."
For a second the raven was confused, instinctively reaching upwards- only for his hand to brush across the now very tender skin.
The soft hint of numb pain reminded the raven as to what the blond might be referring to.
And it only increased the pressure inside his underwear.
His eyes- they almost held something like pride in them.
Was it bad he felt like having the blond put some more of those there right now?
"Well it's not like I will see any clients for the next few days," Izaya shrugged, casually sipping from a cup of coffee Shizu-chan had been kind enough to place in front of him.
It was a hint, at least somewhat- a referral that he wouldn't mind continuing where they had left off earlier.
"I thought you said you have lots of appointments?"
Heavy coughing was what followed next, as the blond watched Izaya choke on hard on that coffee. Obvious surprise and a hint of slight hint of having been caught red handed flashed across Izaya's face as he struggled with words.
Shizuo didn't think he ever recalled Izaya losing his composure like this before. It was honestly amusing. Sitting there, hand covering his couching lips and a frown spread across a mind that was probably trying really hard right now to come up with a proper excuse.
Did he lie about having to work?
Obviously- it was the only reason the flea would act like this.
Shizuo didn't know why but somehow that knowledge made his chest feel warm. Those mesmerizing eyes meeting his own again only intensified the feeling.
He wanted to see more.
"Of course I do," Izaya started his grand explanation, a couple coughs here and there interrupting him mildly, ",but they are more of a digital nature, not meeting people face to face. I could do quick face-calls or something from here too."
Smooth, like a worm he tried to wiggle his way around his lie heavily aware that he just blew his own cover. It was amusing- seeing the flea struggle like that.
The excuse wasn't even half bad either, but Shizu-chan knew it was just that.
An excuse.
However, he wasn't going to point that out. The satisfaction of knowing the truth was already more than enough.
The flea just came for him.
Just to meet up.
He didn't have to but he still came.
Fuck it really made him feel lightheaded-
"That being said, I should leave now."
Violently being snapped out of his thoughts the blond blinked, confusion taking over as he tried to figure out what he had just missed during their conversation for Izaya to reach that conclusion.
But there was no real reason.
Not even anything the blond did to trigger the reaction. If anything- Izaya had somewhat felt like it was the proper time to take his leave.
…
And yet-
The moment those words left his lips Izaya regretted even saying them. He didn't feel like going. Not at all.
The thought of just walking outside now like some whore only booked for the night suffocated him.
It was stupid since he suggested it himself but he couldn't help the feeling taking over his chest with a cold clutch.
His hips still hurt and he felt weak beyond means. It was stupid, but the thought of stepping into the city like this it hurt. What the hell was going on with him?
"Like this?" Shizu-chan suddenly asked- Izaya hadn't even noticed the blond had approached him until he was standing right next to him, a frown decorating his forehead.
"What? You don't like the idea of finally getting some peace from me?" Izaya joked, only to be met with a way too serious expression.
"Not at all."
Ah.
Right.
This was Shizu-chan. Just so - Shizu-chan. Feeling an odd peace of warmth take over his conscience, the raven had to try hard to keep a soft smile from curling his lips.
"Stay. At least until you can walk properly again," Shizu-chan added with the same amount of vehemence that he presented when taking over Hachiro´s place.
A part of Izaya wanted to argue against the proposal- just because. He liked little bickers with Shizu-chan here and then, especially when he knew he could win them. But right now?
Was he really that keen on leaving? Not really.
"If you say so," he shrugged, despite having lost the argument feeling like he had won anyway.
A soft nod and low hum followed as the blond moved past the raven and back into the bedroom. Curious eyes rested on his movements as Izaya wondered what he was going to get.
A soft tinge of embarrassment flooded his face as he realized the blond was merely dressing for work.
Right.
His work with Tom. As a bodyguard and debt collector. What did he think Shizu-chan was going to do?
"Be good, alright?" Shizu-chan suddenly said, snapping the raven out of his thoughts.
"Wait, you want to leave me in your apartment, alone?" Izaya snorted, "You sure about that?"
Keys were taken from a cupboard and the blond merely shrugged, not even considering what the flea could do while he was gone.
"Well I have to work, and besides-" something that almost seemed like a mocking smile spread across Shizu-chan´s expression as he glanced into Izaya's direction, "I doubt you have the energy to do anythings stupid."
Ahhhh.
This was bad.
Now Izaya's pants felt even tighter.
"Who knows?" he replied playfully- but the soft ringing of Shizu-chan´s phone interrupted, immediately ceasing any offer the raven could make.
"Just pull the door shut when you leave," the blond reminded hurriedly while picking up the call. A coat was grabbed, the door opened-
"Ah, and Izaya."
Tearing his stare away from the blond´s stature and the way the coat aligned just so perfectly with his shoulders the raven met his eyes dumbfounded. "I want that plate empty when I come back."
Ah- warmth.
Loving to deny it but feeling it nonetheless Izaya suddenly felt just warm. … cared for even.
A soft complaint about who even eats nothing for a day was uttered under Shizu-chan´s breath before the door slipped shut, leaving Izaya alone in the apartment- and with his thoughts.
Exhaling deeply the raven let his head thump onto the counter.
What was that about?
Since when did Shizu-chan care that much about his well being?
Well- no, he did care about him, after all he saved his ass from disappearing. He already made clear that he didn't just want Izaya to die from his Incubus genes. It was nothing new, and yet-
Letting his finger trail the edge of the coffee cup the raven couldn't help but space out a little. What was this?
All of this?
Whether he liked to admit it or not things had gotten…. out of hand. They had hated each other. Had been at each other's throats 24/7. Then Izaya just so happened to almost disappear while Shizu-chan was there.
He saved his ass. Big time. Despite how the events had unfolded and the act itself, Izaya wasn't stupid, he had always been grateful for that.
And yet- something had just changed.
When?
During their first appointment? Later? Or from the start?
Something about the way they interacted had just taken on a dynamic of which Izaya wasn't sure he was supposed to love or hate.
Tilting his head sideways he let his eyes roam the flat.
It was just like Shizu-chan.
Honestly.
Very simple for one thing, equipped with nothing but necessities. But also a bit of a mess. Not bad, for example there was no trash laying around or anything of that sort. It was more like, not a single cupboard being aligned parallel, curtains being half closed half opened not matching each other -just a lack of general order.
Chaotic.
Just like the blond was.
Pushing himself up the raven strolled through the apartment. Curiosity had taken the best of him- he had been here before at some occasions, trying to set the blond up and stuff but he had never really cared to stop to actually explore.
… time to change that.
to be continued
Yo ho ho ho- Now to the real reason I´m late ahaha
Actually managed to get myself some Covid x'DDDD
But no worries guys I'm alive and kicking again C; Just have been sleeping like 20 hours a day lol My boyfriend too - Felt like we were hibernating for a month there x'D Still feeling way too tired most of the time but yo, not enough to stop me from writing! xD
Thank god tho I didn't lose my sense of taste, I love eating way too much, would have been the worst for me tbh x'DDD
Lung function? Fuck that-
But tasting chocolate?
#1 priority lmao
Anyway~! Enough from me, back to the shizaya~
So, the chapter ended up being cut in half xD The sad sad part is just around the corner~ but wanting to do it justice I didn't wanna cramp it into the end of this chapter xD So instead a whole chapter of Izaya suffering awaits us next time 3 C: C: C: C: xD
Why suffering, you ask? Well- cuz I'm a motherfucking bloody sadist, that's why xD
See you again on April the 30th ;3