Warning mentions of suicide and murder

Izul Ashengrotto was currently in therapy looking out the window as the Therapist asked her specific questions "do you feel unhappy" the Therapist Dr Holt said as he was tapping his pen

"Unhappy...no...crazy...yes, though I'll leave it up for your interpretation when I spell it out for you" Izul said as she turned around to face the Therapist with a smirk on her face as Izul started singing

Izul: " Flip the switch Flip the stove World gone mad, let's start the show Get your kicks And let's go " Izul sang as she walked towards the therapist

Izul: " If you're sad, don't let it show

Say "I'm happy! I'm happy! I'm happy today!"

I'm happy! I'm happy! I'm happy today! They say, "Put on a happy face!" 'Cause we're tic tock, tic tock, ticking like a time bomb " Izul sang as she stood beside the therapist

Izul grabbed the therapist by his shoulders making him tense as she smiled in a dangerous way

Izul: " Hey! Put on a happy face Then everything's okay Put on a happy face Hey! Put on a happy face Then everything's okay

Put on a happy face " Izul sang as gave a crazed and sadistic look his way

Izul: " Say you're good Say you're fine

Tell 'em everything's alright Hollywood on your timeline Telling you what to wear and what to "Like" And how to be " Izul sang as she pulled out a box cutter knife

Izul: " Say "I'm happy! I'm happy! I'm happy today!" I'm happy! I'm happy! I'm happy today! They say, "Put on a happy face!" 'Cause we're tic tock, tic tock, ticking like a time bomb " Izul sang as she held the box cutter near his neck

Izul: " Hey! Put on a happy face Then everything's okay Put on a happy face Hey! Put on a happy face Then everything's okay

Put on a happy face " Izul sang as the Therapist looked terrified

Izul: " Ah, ah Death of my generation "Death of my generation" Ah, ah Death of my generation "Death of my generation" " Izul sang as the therapist now had a smile carved into his face and his neck was sliced open

Izul: " Hey! Put on a happy face Then everything's okay Put on a happy face " Izul sang as she walked out of the building holding a lighter

Izul: " Hey! Put on a happy face Then everything's okay Put on a happy face " Izul sang as she let the lighter drop and the building caught fire and she laughed like a psycho

Izul woke up from this sadistic dream and found that she was still in the therapists office "how long have you been having these psychotic tendencies" Dr Holt said looking very much alive

"As long as I can remember..." Izul said as she hugged herself squeezing her arms digging her nails into her skin

After that...

Izul left with a prescription written for her medication and walked out of the building unlike in her dream which was still very much in tact...

[Azreal- poor mama she must've been having such a hard time controlling her urges] Azreal said sadly as Arthur held her in his lap

Izul got the medicine and took the pills with some water she looked very tired and miserable...not to mention she was working as a doctor herself in criminal psychology

She walked to her apartment and looked at the door beside her...'apartment number 13? I thought no one lived there' Izul thought to herself as she closed the door

Later...

Izul drew a mental chart on the whiteboard she was using and thought about making a cure for herself to try and get rid of these psychotic tendencies of hers

Izul listed off some much needed ingredients for the medicine she would be making and kept tapping her pen on the paper seeing the last ingredient...lock of hair from soulmate

Izul tore out the page and crumpled it up tossing it into the trash forgetting about the whole idea of using her soulmate in that way

Izul lit herself a cigarette and leaned her head back while tapping her nails on her arms which soon dug into her flesh making blood ooze

Izul didn't feel the pain that she brought upon herself as it seemed it didn't matter to her if she took her own life or not...

Aside from the momentary lapses of psychotic dreams she kept having she would rather be dead than live on like this...she just curled up on her couch and kept smoking