I am sitting on the couch nervous as I can be. I have finally been released from the doctor and can go back to moderate desk duty. Which in my language means I will be losing my mind while the guys get to have all the fun. It's not ideal but it will at least get me out of the house and working again. I have enjoyed being at home, well at Alex's, and reconnecting with her but I am not made to just sit at home. I hope Alex understands this when I tell her that I am released. My rambling thoughts are brought to a halt as I hear her key in the door.

"Hey honey" I hear her say as she shrugs her shoulders out of her jacket and hangs it up. "I'm sorry I missed your doctor's appointment this afternoon, what did they say?"

I take a deep breath and slowly let it out. I was hoping that she would wait or forget but I knew better. She had always been blunt and to the point. It was one of the things that has made her such a great lawyer. It was also one of the things that lead to our demise as well.

I stand and turn to face her "He said I'm cleared for duty, well moderate desk duty at least."

As soon as the words are out of my mouth I see the worry cross her face. I hate myself so much that I am in a career that she has to worry about me constantly. I also can't help but wonder why has she fought so hard for me if I cause her so much pain.

"When will you return to work?" She asks as she takes a step closer to me.

"Next week." I struggle to answer seeing the pain she's trying to hide.

"Ok so over the weekend we need to go to your apartment and get your suits and whatever else you will need for work." She tells me with a smile crossing her face. "It's been a long time since I've seen you in one of them and personally I can't wait to see you in one again."

I shake my head in confusion. "Well this is the opposite of what I was expecting from you."

"And when have I ever done what you expected me to do?" She asks as she wraps her arms around my shoulders and pulls me to her "Am I worried? Yes, I am. Am I going to stop you from doing what you love, what is a part of you? Never."

I can't help but smile and place a quick kiss on her lips. I wrap my hands around her miniature waist, in comparison to mine, and let my hands settle at the small of her back. If there was music playing I would start swaying with her in my arms. I'm realizing that I'm falling more and more in love with her every day and it terrifies me more than the first time.

"I was thinking instead of moving my clothes over here I would just go back to my apartment." I tell her unable to look at her because in truth the last thing I want to do is leave. Despite how far we've come we've never discussed me moving back in. "The doctor has released me so I can stay on my own and I'm sure you can't wait to get your apartment back."

"I don't want an empty apartment to come home to Liv." She tells me as she pulls back some so she can look at me "I want you here. That's the one constant that has remained other than my love for you. Even on the nights Shane was here I wanted you here, not her. Please don't think you have to leave because I'll be honest I want nothing more than to call a moving company and buy out your lease."

I can't help but laugh as I hear her tell me how much she wants me here. It's refreshing to know that I am wanted that much in every way possible. "Alex, I want to stay here, I do. But I don't think we're ready for that."

She throws her head back and laughs as she pulls me closer to her. I can feel her body relax against mine and I can't help but smile knowing I can bring her that type of peace.

"In case you've forgotten you've shared my bed for the last few months while you've been recovering."

"That was different" I say as I step away from her and run my hands through my hair. I turn away from her and my eyes fall upon our wedding picture. I can't help but smile as I walk over to it. After a few minutes of staring at it I turn back to face her "I want to replace that picture with a new."

She cocks her head to the side and raises an eyebrow at me. She knows me well enough to know that if she doesn't question me at the moment I will open up to her.

"With a picture of us renewing our vows and recommitting ourselves to one another." I finally say once I've figured out how to word what I want to say "I don't think me moving back in and immediately sharing your bed"

"Our bed"

"Our bed is the right thing to do." I walk back toward her as I look her up and down not bothering to hide the desire I feel for her at that moment. Hell every moment of every day "Now that I am feeling better and I am able to do more, lying next to you at night is one of the hardest things I've had to do. It has nothing to do with what has happened it has to do with the fact that I want to make love to you so bad that it hurts." I reach out and take her hands in mine "we've come too far to mess it up by jumping in the bed."

She leans forward and captures my lips in hers and traces my lips with her tongue. I instantly part them and allow her the entrance she desires and before I can stop myself I have pulled her closer to me. I can feel the love she has for me in the kiss and it takes my breath away. Just when I start to feel as if I am going to pass out from the lack of oxygen she pulls away.

"Just so you know it's not easy on me either but I do understand where you are coming from and what you are saying. So do you think you could stay in the guest room at least or do you really feel as if you need to be out of here and back in your apartment?"

"I guess I need to spend tomorrow working on what will be my room and we can go on Saturday and bring what I need over." I tell her as I cup her face with my hands and bring her lips to mine for a gentle kiss once more. The sigh that escapes her mouth tells me I've made the right decision and my heart is telling me it's the best decision I could have ever made. The only question that is lingering in my mind is can we overcome what destroyed us before? My job.

A/N: Now it's time to mix work and life in while trying to rebuild the relationship. Will their relationship continue to strengthen or will it crumble as before and the divorce papers will finally be signed? (No they haven't been destroyed yet.) Don't hate me yet you never know where I will take you on this roller coaster ride.