Author's notes
This is my first time writing and posting an entire story in english, which is not my native language, so please be indulgent ^^
Well, I myself hate this story XD and don't know why in the world I wrote such a thing, but I got the idea of it popping up in the process of writing another fanfic, and the only way to get it out of my head was to write it...
So, as I went all the way to write an entire fanfic, let's just post it ^^
WARNINGS
Explicit content, Rape, Dub-con, Violence
Some scenes might shock sensible souls
Read at your own risks
Chapter 1
Worst present ever
I'm in the the worst situation I could ever have imagined.
Today is my seventeenth birthday, and, really, I would have preferred having no present at all, rather than this one...
When I was ten, and said I will always smile when I'll see his face, that I'll fight alone and never cry anymore, I still didn't know what being his prisoner would imply as I'll grow up.
It started with words, just statements, when Arlong would tell me that I'm cute even if I'm a human, or that I started to grow and look good, or also that I was becoming more of a woman.
But he always made sure I knew what was going to come, that it wasn't going to stay just words.
And it came.
When I was about fifteen, and became enough of a woman to his taste, this day I wished would never come, came...
He had kept me locked in my room for days, to draw maps.
And at some point, he came late on the evening.
To "check on my work", that he said.
But, he was topless and wearing only loose pants, that, the minute I noticed he had locked the door behind him, I knew were going to end up on the floor real soon.
I couldn't contain the nervousness building up in me.
Growing up, I've educated myself a bit, and discussed the subject of sexuality with Nojiko, especially when I started to have my period.
She teased me when I asked questions, asking if I found the time to have crushes despite the whole situation I was in.
But, despite all of it, I was still very much a virgin. And, nothing of what I learnt could have prepared me enough for what was going to happen...
Arlong still took a few minutes to look at the new maps I made.
Time in which my brain worked endlessly to try to figure out a way out of this.
I couldn't expect being able to resist him with strength, meaning I had to get out of the room.
But how?
The door was locked, so this option was out.
The window, leading to the balcony? But, standing next to my desk, he was too close to it and would catch me before I could get to open it.
And, in the end, I realised... that I couldn't escape anyway.
He may have let the door wide open, I still couldn't have possibly escaped.
Because, if I did, he would have killed everyone in Cocoyashi...
He turned to me with a satisfied smile.
My throat felt tight, and I was already shaking from the fear of what was going to come next, which made him smile even more when he noticed.
I tried to stand from my chair and take a step back, but he grabbed my arm with his strong hand and pulled me to him, then, pushed me down on the cold floor.
"No!" I managed to scream, all the while desperately trying to push him away with my arms and legs, as he kneeled and leaned forward on top of me.
"Shush, Nami. Be a good girl." He wickedly said as he covered my mouth with his large hand.
"You're already mine anyway." He stated, trailing his fingers along the tattoo of his mark on my shoulder.
I closed my eyes, as I kept whimpering under his hand.
How did he care shutting me up anyway? That's not like the other fishmen would come for me...
He untied the sash around his trousers with his free hand.
And, I regret doing it but, I instinctively opened my eyes when I heard the sound of the fabric. Only to be met by the sight of his cock popping out, standing proudly before me.
I never saw one before, I wasn't even sure of what the average human size was, but giving the overall size of Arlong's body, I assumed that his man's attribute was bigger too.
The view of this big, blue, erected cock, terrified me.
Arlong had always looked like a beast to me, but even more at that time.
Honestly, ever since I started to know this time was going to come, I've been pondering the thought of whether or not it was possible for fishmen and humans to have sex together. And, in the end, I guessed I wouldn't have been in this situation if it was impossible...
I tried to look away, anywhere but at this thing between his legs.
I thought wrong actually, his pants didn't made it all the way to the floor, he kept it around his knees.
He quickly ripped my clothes off the way, and then grabbed both my wrists in his hand, to hold them above my head, as I instinctively kept trying to debate under him.
He got closer to my ear, and the feel of his hot breath on my face gave me shivers all the way up my spine.
"Don't worry about the clothes, I'll buy you new ones."
'Bastard! You know that's not the clothes I'm worried about here!' I thought in my mind.
He started to put all of his weight on my legs, and I was unable to keep pushing him upward.
He was so strong and heavy, that it felt like he was going to crush my legs if I stayed in that position.
I had no other choices but to spread them aside, to get them out of his way.
He freed my arms, and shoved his hand between my opened legs.
"Could be better, but you seem to be a bit wet already." He teased me with a wicked smile.
I tried to turn my head away under his strong hand, still firmly pressed on my mouth, and whimpered at the thought.
Nojiko told me that girls get wet when they're sexually aroused.
But, I wasn't aroused... I didn't want it!
I then remembered, that she added it's a way for the body to lubricate, to make penetration easier and less harmful.
So, that meant my body was just protecting itself there. And, giving the size I saw, it was better it did.
He grabbed his cock, and forced his way inside of me with no warning.
And, even if I was getting wet, it still felt unbearably painful to me.
I screamed under his hand, and clenched my knees to his sides.
I grabbed his shoulders, to desperately try to push him away.
But, when he started to move inside, my whole body tensed, and I could only dig my fingers in his rough skin.
The pain was so intense, that it made my entire body unable to move. It just kept tensing and tensing.
My back started to hurt, as each one of his trust with his hips pushed me more onto the hard floor.
I said I would never ever cry again.
But, at that very moment, I couldn't stop the tears falling down from my eyes, making their way along the shape of his hand, pressed against my face.
I closed my eyes shut.
I started to feel numb.
My heart was thundering in my chest, and quickly, the only sound I was able to hear, was the drumming of my blood in my ears.
I felt like I was going to pass out, but it never went all the way.
Even so, I lost all awareness of time, my surroundings, and even my body.
It felt like my brain had locked itself, and cut all communication with the rest of my body during that whole time.
I've been slowly brought back to full reality when he was finally over, and pulled out.
I felt hot liquids making their way outside, and I saw on his cock that it was a gross mixture of his semen and my blood.
As he put his trousers back on, I turned to my side on the floor, hugging my knees to my chest, sobbing.
"You're a genius cartographer, Nami. I'll make you an officer of the crew from now on." He declared, patting my head, before he left.
That's only when I heard the door closing behind him, that I finally lost consciousness.
I don't know how much time had passed when I woke up.
My whole body was sore, from tensing so much.
I also had bruises all over my hips, lower belly, and thighs.
And I bled.
I knew this is common for girls to bleed during their first time. But, even though I didn't know of what amount was normal, I was sure it wasn't supposed to left a whole puddle on the floor.
There were just way too much blood there, for it to only be from my lost virginity.
It also had hurt for a whole week after, which confirmed my thought that Arlong had not only bruised, hurt, and tore me outside, but inside too.
And I felt sick, awfully sick about what happened.
All I wanted was to die...
I thought about Bell-mère-san, who had the habit to say that if we keep living, good things will happen for sure.
I really hope she was right, because, right now, I feel like everything that happens to me just keeps worsening over time.
But, back then, I thought I could use this to my advantage if it happened again.
After all, Arlong was putting himself in a vulnerable state there.
Focusing only on his pleasure, he would be less attentive to his surroundings, and less on his guards.
Maybe less able to react too.
That's how I decided to always keep a knife on me.
And, when a week later he called me to his room, I discreetly hid it under the pillow, before he would take my clothes off.
When he pushed me on his bed, spread my legs open, and made his way inside for the second time, it felt awful.
I didn't want it to happen again.
And I was still hurting from the previous time.
But I tried to relax and stay focused, as I had a plan this time.
I've honed my thief's skills for a little while already, I was becoming better and quicker, I could do this.
I waited for him to start building some pleasure and get more into it.
When he closed his eyes with a growl, I saw my chance and reached under the pillow with my hand.
In a quick, precise move, I took the knife and aimed it to Arlong.
I was about to hit him... when his hand grabbed mine, the other one strongly pushing on my chest to keep me down, his fingers closing around my neck.
"What are you trying to do here, Nami?" He asked in a menacing tone. "Do you really think that, because I'm having sex, I wouldn't be able to see it coming, or stop it!?"
He snatched the knife from my hand, and turned the blade towards me.
He planted it in a quick, violent gesture in the pillow, right next to my face.
My heart had skipped a beat as I feared it would hit me.
"Hm, I like you so much better with my hand around your throat" He viciously smiled.
And, on these words, Arlong returned to his business with my body.
I didn't dare to make any more move until he was done, that knife I was seeing from the corner of my eyes, and his strong hand around my neck, both menacing me during the whole process.
Unless like the previous time, I stayed very well awake and conscious during all of it.
I know it was only minutes, but it felt like hours to me.
I felt every inch of Arlong's skin against mine.
Every breathes on my forehead.
Every moves he made inside me, stretching and tearing me appart.
And, this time, I sure felt every drop of his slick sperm coating my walls when he came, deep inside...
The first time was awfully painful and traumatic, he meant it to be.
The second time was very much the same, as he got angry that I tried to kill him.
And, as if he had triggered it, those disgusting pirates who, when they saw a kid had robbed them, wanted to kill me, now that they saw a growing up teen girl, started wanting to bang me too!
Luckily, as I grew older and became better as a thief, I missed less often than before, and escaped more easily.
At some point, Nojiko noticed I was feeling down, and questioned me.
I told her I've been raped by a pirate I tried to steal from.
I've decided to never tell her that Arlong was doing it too, that in fact, he was the one doing it the most...
Because, even if everyone from the village is treating me as a traitor and the pirate I am, I knew that if I ever told my sister something like this was happening to me, she would let everyone know, and they would stand up for me.
It had already been difficult to convince her that I was fine, and make her swear to never tell the others about this random pirate. As she claimed it was all because of Arlong. That it was because of him if I stole from pirates and put myself in dangerous situations like this.
I had to threaten her to kill her myself if she ever told them, for her to surrender.
In the end, she agreed to keep it to herself, at the only condition that I'd start taking the pill though.
Afterwards, the more it happened, the better it got, in a way.
Arlong became more considerate to me.
In bed, he started touching me in all different ways, tricking my body in thinking that it felt good.
My mind never was on board though, that's why it never stopped feeling like a rape, because, that's what it always was.
But I was determined on surviving this, I could take it for now, knowing that everything will be over once I'll have a million Belly to give him.
I kept fighting alone, for everyone in the village.
And I officially became an officer of his crew. The same rank as Chew, Kuroobi and Hachi, and above all of the others.
The days when I was just a child mistreated by all the fishmen were over. And, through the time, I grew bolder and more confident in facing them, and even him.
Arlong was also overly possessive with me, he would always stand up for me now if the rest of his crew treated me bad, and never let his men touch me in any way.
Which I'm glad for.
Of course, I would have preferred for nothing to happen in the first place, but, at least, there were only him. Because, once he had started it, my biggest fear was for all the rest of the crew to follow...
I became his mistress, his little protégée, and I no longer feared the fishmen as much as before, because I knew the crew had my back now.
I was a human, but I was special, he said, and this word meant way much more than just my genius with maps.
It was a messy, gross, disturbing, and completely unhealthy relationship, but I thought I could use it to my advantage.
Though, right now, I'm in a very delicate situation.
The worst thing I would ever have dared to imagine that could happen to me.
"You're pregnant." The doctor has told me.
I just keep repeating his words in my head, as I walk back to the boat, thinking.
Recently, I started feeling different, noticing changes in my body.
And when I started having recurring nausea, the most awful thought of all crossed my mind.
I couldn't ask Arlong's doctor to check on me, or he would have known.
And I couldn't go to the doctor in Cocoyashi either, or all the villagers would have known.
So, I went to see a random doctor, in a town I stopped by during one of my trip.
And he had confirmed what I feared.
That, after two years, the pill has failed me.
That I got pregnant...
He also said that I just finished my first month.
Which makes for no doubt about the fact that Arlong is the father.
Nothing happened with someone else recently.
And last month, I stayed for a while at Arlong Park as I drew maps.
I can't let him know!
He hates humans! He would never let me live, with his half-human baby growing inside of me.
In fact, I can't tell anyone...
I'm already lucky that Nojiko haven't told anyone yet about the rapes, and acted as if nothing was happening all this time.
What would she say, if I tell her that it wasn't just random pirates, but also Arlong, and that on top of it, I'm now pregnant with him!?
Today is my seventeenth birthday.
And a baby from Arlong is just the worst present ever.