CHAPTER FIVE
I slugged down another bottle of whiskey before throwing it against my wall. It was my third bottle and it was doing me no mercy. Lucifer wasn't too fond of me when he discovered I had been hanging around an angel and my punishment was to be stretched... except not by horses , but this time but on the rack. My wings were also cut from him whipping me. I fumbled my hand below my bed and grabbed another bottle. My movements were deteriorated, but my voice was still the same, no slurring, no skipping words, only slower movements and not knowing how to walk anymore were my issues. I opened up the bottle and took a chug before Xion opened my door to see me only in my pants.
"Greetings, Xion," I announced and she smiled and shut my door before asking, "Axel... why were you hanging out with an angel?" My eyes shifted to her and I asked, "Did Lucifer say that?"
"Yes, he did... and I'm curious" she remarked sitting on my bed. I sighed and looked at the liquid in the bottle saying, "He was someone who died because he saw my death and the farmers who killed me didn't like witnesses. I assume that my death was one that was proclaimed as a mystery even to this day. Although, the humans know of my existence thanks to, I'll admit, a very stupid act." I used both of my unsteady arms to raise the bottle to my mouth and drink some before continuing, "He saved me, as a matter of fact, and I ended up relating to him." Xion rose a brow asking, "You? Relating to an angel? A being that has done nothing wrong in their life or if so was relieved of their sins?"
"Yes, and it was a rather interesting experience I might add," I insisted. I then explained to her that day and at the end of my explanation she bluntly announced with a grin, "Axel, I think I know your problem. You fell in love." I glanced to her, looking her dead in the eyes and warned, "Don't insult me."
"Fine. But I found true love down here and how you talk about Saix and what you said about him sure makes me believe you found it too," Xion bluntly pointed out to me.
"That's never going to be, so you can just drop that little fantasy of me actually finding someone to love me," I nearly yelled, but maybe I just didn't want to admit that I had, maybe, accidentally fallen in love with an angel... Xion hissed, "You fucking know you fell for him, Axel. Don't deny it." I quickly glared at her before a gentle rap was heard at my door and Lucy opened it handing me an envelope. Xion grabbed it and gave it to me which I traded her the whiskey for. I gave Lucifer a nod before I sloppily opened it and read the note inside.
"Pick up?" she asked and I nodded before reaching my hand out posing, "Can you give a drunken demon a hand?" She smiled and helped pull me up and stood there for a few moments, resting before vanishing and reappearing in a back alleyway where some kids were having a fight. I leaned against the wall trying to get myself to belch as much as possible hoping it would help sober me up. I also watched the fight before one of the kids got knocked so hard into the wall that his head cracked, killing him instantly and revealing a black mist. He eyed me up and walked over to me which I greeted him with a loud burp.
"You kay, yo?" he asked and I burped one more time before opening up a portal to Hell and answering, "Drunk off my ass, just get into the darkness, kid." He glared me and seemed as if he really didn't want to. I sighed and threatened, "I know your life, you're an eighteen year old with no fucking respect for anyone, not even your girlfriend who you don't even love and are just using her so you have a fucking status. You cock off your supposed to be friends, you cock off your parents, and you shoved your infantile brother down a flight of stairs, and killed him out of jealousy. Now, get in the portal before I throw you in myself." His eyes widened and he listened leaving me to see the mess that was created and to watched as his blood trickled towards me. I murmured, "Fucktard" under my breathe before closing the portal and stumbling down the sidewalk just overall feeling awful. I didn't feel like going back to Hell and I figured I'd let Lucy deal with the new kid for a hour or two. I then noticed a couple stumbling out of a bar and heading into traffic.
"Goodbye," I spoke as a bus hit them causing an instant stir of cries and screams along with car horns beeping and screeching to halts. Tragic really, how many people die everyday and in the same town even. I noticed Saix then coming to his side seeming much less of an ass than when I first saw him take a soul to Heaven. Though, the male of the relationship pointed at me yelling, "You caused this! Didn't you?!" Saix looked to me and I felt his emotions soar as he noticed me. I shook my head to the man and replied, "Nope, I only watched your demise play out like a curious, little bird. I had nothing to do with you two drunken dumb-asses dying."
"You're one to speak. Anyone could smell the whiskey on you from a mile away!" he shouted. I answered calmly, "That may be so that I am drunk, but my drunkenness didn't make me dead, now did it? Now, I suggest you head into that light portal before my eyes burn out." He huffed at me and went back to his woman and went into the light from Saix. He closed the portal and walked up to me, "I didn't expect to see you so soon."
"Yeah, well, I had a pick up in the back alley over there. I didn't expect to see anyone else die today either," I informed. Saix smiled softly before he asked, "What happened when you got home?" I sighed and replied glancing to the cement below me, "Lucifer strapped me to the rack and stretched me until it was painful and then left me there for a good, oh, four hours. I headed back to my room and drank three full bottles of whiskey."
"I'm surprised your still talking..."
"I'm surprised I'm able to walk at all, I'm not even going to try and fly though..."
"That's probably, wise, Axel... I'm sorry I got you in so much trouble..." Saix mentioned and I shrugged the best I could, but in the process I nearly collapsed from lack of balance, but luckily the angel caught me. I smiled the best I could to him before he rolled his eyes and claimed, "You're too drunk, Axel. Come on, let's get you to that barn so you can rest there for the night. You'd probably materialize yourself somewhere unsafe at this rate." I smiled, happy he was so concerned for me at least. I leaned in his arms and let him get us to the barn before I laid down in the rough hay which actually stung my wings a little, but as Saix made himself comfortable on my body, I forgot about the sting. I stared him with a smile and he stroked my cheek, smiling back at me. Saix apologized "I'm sorry... for laying on you again... I just… I need to. I missed you for the hours you were gone from my side and I don't know why."
"And I couldn't stop thinking about you. You hypnotize me," I remarked before closing my eyes. I added "Maybe I can get some sleep." I heard a giggle from the angel as he stated "Maybe you can. Goodnight, my demon." I smiled and answered "Goodnight, my angel." I then took a deep sigh and found myself being taken over by sleep much faster than I normally did and honestly, it was the best feeling in the world to fall asleep so fast.
When I woke up though, Saix had rolled off me and saw him now beside me. I smiled feeling sober again. It was still dark out and seeing Saix asleep still made me curious of how much angels sleep, I heard they sleep more than humans which amazed me of how they even got any work done at all. I shrugged the thought off though and flew over to the other side of the loft and laid on my stomach as I gazed at the sleeping angel. He looked so beautiful and peaceful taking his light breathes in and out, just as if nothing was ever done wrong to him and I sighed with a smile. I then let my eyes cross over his body. He wasn't as thin as I was, but he wasn't fat, no, he had more powerful muscles than me, but he wasn't a beefcake either which I really liked. A little more muscle than me, that easily turned me on. He was everything I wanted in a man. I saw the sun begin to come up and I smiled and decided to wake his sleepy ass. I stayed laid down, but formed a heart in fire and levitated it over to him and I noticed the warmth make him stir awake and he looked at the heart and then to me and I waved. Saix smiled and questioned, "Let me guess, over there so you don't catch my scent?" I nodded and added "To rid myself of your scent before I head back to Hell and you of my scent before you go back to Heaven."
"Thank you then, Axel. What's with the heart?" Saix asked sweetly and I mentioned burning it out into embers and let them fall to the ground below, "For you because I think I've fallen in love with you. It's an odd feeling you know, to fall in love. I never once had. I have fallen into lust, but never love." Saix asked as he laid on his stomach and posed "What do you feel?" I smiled and giggled as I remarked, "Bubbly and happy when I'm with you or think of you. When I'm away, it hurts... Even now, I so much rather be laying down and have you cuddling up to me, but I know I can't." Saix sighed as he responded by saying "That is exactly how I felt about you when we were alive... You were so attractive to me and I felt so ashamed to love you, but I did... I wanted to touch you just once..."
"How do you feel now?" I asked curiously and Saix shook his head with a small grin. He replied, "I don't know... I still find you unearthly attractive..." I smirked and mentioned, "Good thing I don't live on Earth then." We shared a smile before the sun filtered its glow into the barn. I heard Saix remark, "Axel, I just have to get my feelings out for you… The feelings I had when we were alive.…" I was curious and stayed silent, only nodding for him to proceed.
"Of course, me loving you was forbidden. The only reason why I ever saw you in the first place was because of a drawing in the news telling everyone you were wanted for rape and murder. I could never rid myself of the sin of loving you and I could never tell anyone how I felt. When someone found out, like my sister, she called me insane and said for simply letting my heart love such an evil person, I should be hanged. For the longest time, I thought so too…" he explained. As he did, I felt my heart race from knowing that. I hadn't realized that I made someone fall for me so quickly or at all for that matter. The only ones I ever expected to fall for me were the ones I seduced, but knowing Saix didn't even need that? It was pretty shocking to say the least.
"When did you stop thinking you should hanged for loving me?" I had to ask and he sighed and shook his head.
"When I was shot… I figured it wasn't the way I thought I was going to die, but loving you was going to kill me somehow one day," he informed and I glanced away.
"You should have ran when you realized what was happening…"
"Don't you think I wanted to?! That was traumatizing to watch! Hearing your bloodcurdling scream for help? Your voice echoed on for miles, no doubt. I didn't want to witness it, but I couldn't move… My feet wouldn't take me anywhere else and I knew when I saw that rifle aimed at me that I mind as well not even try and move then." The angel was glancing away from me now and I sighed. I didn't know how I felt knowing Saix watched my demise play out, at the time, I didn't believe anyone would care and up until hearing this, I still thought not a soul would have cared. Now knowing differently, that Saix cared that I had died, it was such an odd feeling, I couldn't even explain it.
"Till now, I didn't think that anyone would ever care if I died and I certainly didn't think anyone, if given the chance, would watch me die and he sad about it. Be celebratory that I was finally gone, yes, but…."
"Just so you know, there was more fear that would haunt people as the demon everyone knew you'd become would begin to haunt people. Priests everywhere were told to be prepared and given where we lived, most believed that it wasn't something they should forget. I think that's why that priest wasn't scared of you when you came into the church," Saix explained and my eyes widened to hearing that. I questioned curiously, "They prophesied I would return?" I watched as the blue haired angel nodded. He mentioned, "If there's any demon that people talk about here, it's you. You made yourself a living legend even after your horrific death." I didn't know how I felt about that… It felt, honestly, great to be so vividly remembered. Yet there was still a part of me that wished they'd all forget. I simply sighed, flying up a bit, "I should be going. Thank you for last night, Saix. I can't wait to see you again." He nodded and I smiled and flew though the crack before sniffing myself and noticing I smelt like myself and I then snapped my fingers and appeared back in Hell. After hearing all of that, I needed to gather my thoughts. Right now, my head was so jumbled.