And with that she was gone. I began to try to chase after her, but I knew that I couldn't possibly keep up with her because she was much faster than me. I eventually just gave up and collapsed, I think I might have sprained my ankle. I decided that I would let whatever was after those hikers just come and get me. I was probably being a little bit dramatic, but I was a little bit in shock after just being broken up with.
"Alice!" I heard a voice called my name. It took me a second to register that it was Jessica. I didn't say anything, but I was pretty sure she saw me anyway. I wasn't entirely sure what to do or say. I didn't know how to react. She ran over to me.
"Alice, what the hell are you doing out here?" Jessica asked. I couldn't help but wonder what she was doing out here. I also wasn't sure how long I had been out there.
"Bella broke up with me." I remarked, full of sorrow. "How did you find me?"
"Charlie said that you went this way." She stated. I seriously needed to figure what time it was. How long had I been with Bella and how long had I not been with Bella? "Come on let's get you home. Can you walk okay?"
"I don't know." I replied. I felt like I was in a lot of pain. It probably wasn't the best time for the town doctor to leave because Carlisle could probably tell me what was wrong with it.
What she did next was kind of unexpected. She managed to pick me up and starting to walk. I was the same height as me. How was she so strong?
"How are you carrying me?" I asked in surprise.
"I work out." She explained. I still wasn't sure if she would be able to carry someone the same height as her without a lot of effort. I couldn't help but wonder if it was something more that she wasn't telling me. "And you're not that heavy either."
She ended up carrying me all of the way home. When I got there Charlie, Jacob, Billy, and Charlie's friend Harry Clearwater were outside of the house. It was dark out. How long had I been gone? It didn't feel like it had been that long.
"Charlie!" Jacob said to get my father's attention. I felt a little bit embarrassed, but the sadness was the main thing that was controlling me at the moment.
Jessica walked me over and deposited me into Charlie's arms. I kind of felt like I like I was a package being transferred between two mailmen.
"Where have you been?" He asked in concern.
"I'm sorry…I got lost." I replied. I supposed that I did technically get lost. It probably wasn't a good idea to let her take me so deep into the woods. Actually, it was a terrible idea to break up with me in the middle of the woods and leave me to get back on my own. She could have at least taken me back home first. He turned to Jessica.
"Thanks for finding her." He said to the brunette who was surprisingly stronger than she looked. I still don't know how she did that. He didn't seem to question how she was able to carry me.
"It was no problem." Jessica stated. "Alice and I are friends. I'm sure she would have done the same for me. She probably wouldn't have been able to pick me up, but you get the picture."
I considered what she had said, and I honestly don't know if I would have gone looking for, but I probably had to consider it now. I was lucky to have a friend like Jessica. I still didn't know what I was going to do. How was going to do this without Bella? What was I going to do at school?
I had found out from Harry that the Cullens had left town. Bella was really gone. All of them were gone. I also couldn't help but wonder how Harry managed to figure that out. Did he have someone near the edge watching as they packed up their things and left? Did they have to alert the Quileutes that were leaving or something?
Charlie took me inside of the house after the search party left. I still felt kind of embarrassed that all of those people looking for me.
"I think I wanna go to bed." I stated. I really didn't feel like eating or watching TV or doing anything else? Though it also could have been from the massive pain that I was in.
"Do you think you can walk?" Charlie asked. That was a good question.
"My ankle kind of hurts." I replied as I he set me down. I took a few steps before I felt the pain. "Nope."
He carried me up to bed. I didn't even want to bother changing. Well, I couldn't change with him there, but I didn't really even want to.
"What did you do?" He asked. I wasn't even that sure. I probably stepped in a hole or something.
"I don't know." I replied.
"Well, I'm not a doctor but sounds like a sprain." Charlie diagnosed. He was definitely not a doctor. I couldn't help but wonder if I should see one. "It'll probably be better by tomorrow. If it's not, then I guess you could miss some school."
I nodded before he left me alone. I hobbled to my dresser to get some makeup removing wipes before limping back to bed. I tried hard to fall asleep and ended up tossing and turning for about an hour for I was able to do it. I hadn't slept without Bella in my bed in a long time and when I first think of that, it sounds kind of dirty even though I haven't had sex with Bella.
I wanted nothing more than her to hold me…to wake up in the morning and find out this was just a dream, and it would be my birthday when I woke. That I wasn't attacked by Jasper and that Bella didn't leave me. I really hoped that I would wake up and everything would be back to normal. I wanted to go back to the day that I turned 18.
When I woke up in the morning, I got of bed and landed my ankle. Well, that was confirmation that it wasn't a dream. I slowly walked to the kitchen and decided that I shouldn't go to school. Walking on it might only make it worse. I don't know if I could go there anyway. I ate a bowl of cereal and slowly walked out into the living room. I didn't want to do things that involved standing. One of those involved showering. Climbing the stairs wasn't exactly easy but I made it up. I was pretty sure that when people make houses, they think people will never get injured. No wait the house was probably made by Mexicans who don't speak English and don't care if the houses last because it's just a paycheck to them. Though, they may have not been the case because Forks didn't seem to be hit by the immigration boom. I had yet to see a Mexican since I moved here. There were several of them in Arizona. Some of my friends were Mexican even.
After going off on that tangent, I made it to the bathroom and began filling the tub, opting to take a bath. It was probably my best option at the time. After my bath, I decided to take a short nap. It was about noon when I woke up. My clock told me that it was in fact Wednesday which meant that yesterday was Tuesday and Bella really had left me. I still couldn't believe that she was really gone.
I decided to skip lunch and watch TV. All that was on the big channels was soap operas and talk shows with people that I really didn't like. I decided to turn to the cable channels and eventually settled on Disney which was currently showing Hannah Montana. I hadn't noticed but Miley Cyrus was really getting hot, and I was still close enough to her age that I can say that. I supposed it would be better to have a celebrity crush on her than Blake Lively who was several years older than me. I also didn't have to explain my celebrity crushes to anyone.
I watched several episodes of the show and found it to actually be kind of enjoyable. I wasn't sure why they were showing several episodes in a row though. I also wondered why I had never watched this show before. Around the time that school was over, my phone started to ring. I kind hoped it would be Bella but it was Jessica.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Are you coming to practice by any chance?" She asked. I didn't think that I would be allowed to come to practice if I missed school. I was pretty sure that was against the school rules.
"My ankle still hurts.' I replied. I was also pretty sure that cheerleading was not recommended with a sprained ankle. I didn't need to be a doctor for that.
"Okay so I hope it gets better soon." She said. "So how are dealing with the whole Bella leaving thing?"
That was when it hit me. Everything began to play back and everything that happened was suddenly real. The tears began to flow. I was pretty sure that Jessica wasn't trying to do that, but she managed to make me feel worse.
"Alice, are you there?" Jessica said after I didn't answer. I forgot that I hadn't hung up.
"I need to go." I responded as I hung up the phone. I started crying and I couldn't stop crying. Bella was gone. She was really gone and not coming back. I really wished that I knew where she was because then I could go there, and we could be happy again. I could run away, and she could turn me into a vampire. I would leave everything behind just to be with her again. All I wanted was Bella to hold me in her arms and tell me that she loved me.
Charlie came home around 5:00 and found that I was crying some more. It was like it was going in cycles. I would stop for a little while but then it would start back up again. I think he realized that I wouldn't be able to cook for him because he ended up ordering pizza. I didn't blame him. If I tried to cook, I might end up burning the house down because I don't think that I could focus on the food, or I might end up accidentally cutting my finger off. That was what caused all of this to happen: a simple cut. I never knew that such a minor injury could cause so much pain.
Unfortunately for me the wound had an infection even though it had healed. The infection was them leaving me and I don't know if there was a cure for it.
I missed both Thursday and Friday blaming my ankle as well even though it was starting to heal. I just didn't want to be there. It was the place where I first met Bella and naturally it made me think of Bella. I was hard to find a place that didn't make me think of Bella. Even my own bed made me think of her. I don't think that I could get Charlie to replace it because he didn't know that Bella was there pretty much every night. I didn't know what I was going to do. There was this hole inside of me and I didn't know how to fill it.
The next few weeks weren't much better. I really didn't care about my homework. I usually sat alone at lunch at the Cullens' table even though Jessica practically begged me to come sit with my old friends. The only time that anybody noticed a smile on my face was when I was cheerleading, but I had to fake that. Jessica had told me that after missing the first game with injury and the second because "I did feel like I had enough cheer" that I would be kicked off if I missed another one. I understood her point of view that she was trying to think of the best interests of the squad. One thing that I decided was that I wasn't going to cut my hair until Bella came back so it was starting to grow longer.
On Saturday, I was home alone on the couch, watching bad movies. Charlie was doing police stuff. There was knock on the door. I knew it wasn't Charlie because he wouldn't knock.
"No one's home." I replied. Oh, real smart move Alice. Now they know that I'm here. I heard the door open and noticed Jessica walk in. Maybe I should have locked it but that would have involved getting up.
"God Alice, look at you." She commented looking at the mess I made and the mess that I was.
"I'm fine." I replied. I wasn't fine, but I really didn't want to explain to her about how I wasn't fine. She wouldn't understand the pain that I was going through. No one would.
"You're not fine but you can't keep letting her control your life." She responded. She definitely didn't understand. "Get up!"
"Why?" I asked, still laying face down on the couch. I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to do anything.
"Because we are going to La Push." She said as she pulled me to my feet. "And we're going to have fun."
So Jessica seems intent on not letting Alice suffer or wallow? Will she get our hero out of her funk? Please don't forget to review.