All Roads Lead Back Home

by Charah

Chuck and Sarah share that magical breathtaking kiss at the beach. But what happens next? Will Sarah walk away from the love of her life who she can't remember? Or will she fight to recover what was taken from her, and find herself again once more? Join me and find out :)

2. Chapter 2

AN Thank you all for the reviews for the first chapter. Keep reviewing! You wonderful people :)

Shoutout to WillieGarvin. His short little post-finale tale has helped me to explain something that will be touched upon in this chapter (though it will only be expanded in further detail later on in this fiction )

*Edit* Thank you to Chuckster2016 for informing me of the situation concerning the Porsche and the Lotus. I really did have no idea what happened and it was purely guesswork as it's been a few years since I last watched Chuck because the final two episodes are just too unbearable for me.

This chapter is going to be a long one. I wasn't going to show Chuck telling Sarah their story. But I saw an opening for it and decided to go with it. None of us know exactly what Chuck told Sarah about their lives together, so I'll just go with the flow and see where it takes me. Post-finale stories are our own interpretations after all :)

Word count for this chapter: 15,775. My longest ever chapter in all of my fictions :) So please review with your feedback on it.

Disclaimer: I don't own Chuck. And this chapter contains full series spoilers.

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All Roads Lead Back Home

Chapter Two

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Sarah has just pulled her Lotus to a stop that she cannot even remember acquiring. The documents inside of the dashboard however tell a completely different story, as those papers prove ownership to a one 'Sarah Lisa Bartowski' What happened to my Porsche? Where is it? Did I get rid of it?

Sarah moves her hand to shut down the engine of the vehicle as she then begins to take a moment of reflection and pause outside of her destination: the home of her mother. The drive had taken her a few hours to get here and throughout the entire journey, Chuck had been in the centre of her mind for the whole distance. Sarah can't explain why she feels like this, but leaving Chuck at that beach after everything they had done on it was one of the hardest decisions that she has ever had to make at least in the time before the past five years of her life that has been wiped out. Their story that he had told her for however long they had spoke had filled her up a wide multitude of emotions towards him that she had not experienced in the only two weeks that she can remember knowing him and that kiss they had shared together had sealed it and had made her realize: she loves Chuck Bartowski. And she doesn't know what to do about it...

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Earlier that day...

Sarah Lisa Bartowski, though she presently knows herself only as 'Sarah Walker' is presently sitting on a beach in Malibu that feels so familiar to her, even if she does not remember the first thing about it. She had driven around in a car that is also not familiar to her. She had drove and as she had drove, she had thought and as she had thought, she tried to find herself and who she is once more, until the road had led her to here in this exact spot. There was just something so powerful about this place to her, though she couldn't for the life of her recall what. Sarah was still in deep thought when she becomes acutely aware of the presence of somebody else to the side of her. Her eyes move and fix to connect onto Chuck, her husband that she cannot remember. She watches as he moves to take a seat next to her and they begin to gaze at each other.

"I was hoping you would be here," he says to her after a moment of pause.

"This place is important, isn't it?" she asks him. How did I remember this beach? How do I know it's important to us? What led me to here?

He nods his head. "Yeah. Yeah, very much. This is actually where you told me that I was gonna be okay," he pauses, as he turns slightly to gaze into his wife's eyes. "That I could trust you. And that's exactly what I'm doing now. I'm asking you to trust me."

On hearing his words, she makes eye contact with him once more.

"Sarah, I don't," he stutters." I don't want anything from you. I," he pauses. "I just need you to know that wherever you go, I'll always be there to help you."

Sarah nods her head at his words to her as her eyes become a little glossy. Why do I feel so emotional with him when I have no memories of our life that we lived together for five years?

"Someone you can call," he pauses as he begins to choke up, his tone sounding hoarse. "Whenever."

Hearing his words, and his tone used makes her stare into his eyes as her own eyes suddenly now begin to get very glossy. Why can't I remember him? What's wrong with me? Why do I feel such strong emotion on seeing him upset and him suffering?

"Trust me, Sarah," he pauses, as the husband and wife stare at each other, their eyes both glossy. "I'm here for you always."

Why are his words so overpowering and so emotional to me? I feel like somebody I love has just died and has ripped out my heart.

Sarah breathes out a deep audible sigh as her emotional wellbeing and his words to her completely overwhelms her.

The husband and wife then pause, as they gaze out into the water and they watch the waves crash into the sand and the sun hidden between the clouds off into the distance.

I want to remember him. Oh please, let me remember him!

"Chuck?" she asks and she waits to continue until he looks at her once more.

"Tell me our story," she says and they smile at each other and she gazes into her husband's warm inviting eyes.

"Yeah, Yeah," he stutters. "Uh, where to begin? Well uh, it started with a guy who worked at Buy More."

A bright smile forms on Sarah's face on hearing his words. Why do his words make me feel so happy? Why do I feel him in the deepest corner of my heart even though I have no memory of him?

"And then one day, an old college friend of his sent him an email that was filled with secrets," he pauses. "And then the next day, his life really changed when he met a spy named Sarah," he pauses. "And he fell in love," he declares.

Two tears now begin to fall down her cheeks on hearing his words to him. Why do I feel so lost, so empty, so half complete, so broken, so loved? I cannot remember ever feeling like this before...

"So we met at the Buy More?" she asks as she swallows back her emotions.

Chuck grins and nods his head. "Yeah, you walked into the Buy More. I was busy on the phone and Morgan made a joke which caused me to mumble the words to some silly song until I saw you and I dropped the phone because of how breathtakingly beautiful you were, and still are, by the way," he declares with his continued grin.

Sarah laughs on hearing his response. "What was the joke?" she asks.

Chuck winces immediately on hearing his wife's question to him as he recalls back to the joke Morgan had made all those years ago. "Are you sure?" he asks apprehensively.

"Chuck, I want to remember. It's why I asked you," she says with a smile.

Chuck nods his head in acceptance. "Well, uh," he coughs. "Morgan saw you enter the Buy More first, and he said 'Stop the presses' and then he referenced you to a Batman character called Vicki Vale," he admits sheepishly.

Sarah quirks her eyebrows on hearing his comment as she does not catch the reference. "Is it offensive?"

"What?" he pauses to contemplate her question before shaking his head sideways. "No. Vicki Vale is absolutely beautiful and she is also blonde which is why he referenced you. It caused me to mumble a silly song about her, as I hadn't encountered you yet," he admits as he feels quite immature on looking back at himself five years ago, he has came a long way. His Sarah has made him a better person.

"What happened then?" she asks with a smirk.

"Then I fixed your cell phone that you came into the Buy More with as an excuse to meet me for your job. You began to engage in some small talk slash flirting but we were interrupted by a father and his daughter," he pauses for a moment to smile at her and she gives him one back. "It turned out that the father had filmed his daughter's ballerina performance on his video recorder but he didn't have tape as he thought it was digital so I helped him out because I felt bad for the poor girl and her dad and I wanted to make their lives a bit better and to help in any way that I could." he admits truthfully.

A bright smile forms on Sarah's face on hearing his words as she gazes at her husband and her heart begins to fill up with warmth and affection as she begins to paint the picture inside of her brain that her husband is describing to her.

"So you abandoned talking to me in favour of helping a little girl and her distraught father?" she asks him with her continued smile and he nods his head affirmatively.

"That was sweet of you," she says as she begins to feel her heartstrings pull. "Many men would have been focused on trying to get the girl's number who was flirting with him."

"Heh, well I'm not many men, Sarah," he says sincerely and pauses briefly.

Clearly. I can't recall a single man that I've ever known in my life that would have done that.

"As much as I wanted to talk to you I did feel you were out of my league. But even if I didn't feel that way, I'd have still gone off and helped them. That's just who I am I guess," he admits with a continued grin.

Sarah swallows hard on hearing his words. She has never quite met a guy like Chuck Bartowski before. That much is certain.

"Was the girl a good dancer?" she asks with a loving smile.

"Sarah, she was great. Everybody in the store loved it including you, well all except Harry Tang."

"Who's that?" she asks with a quirked eyebrow as she tries to recall this mysterious Harry Tang whom she has heard of for the first time in her lost memory.

"Oh another Buy More employee at the time. A real pain in the ass, excuse my French," he laughs and Sarah joins in the laughter along with him.

"You know, after we got together for real much later on in our story, you told me that you fell for me after I fixed your phone and before I started diffusing bombs with computer viruses which was when I helped the little ballerina." he admits.

On hearing his words to her, a bright sparkle begins to form inside Sarah's eye. I can see why I did. Why can't I remember this heart warming moment? Screw you Graham for recruiting me into the CIA and for robbing me of this powerful memory!

"Then what happened?" she asks.

"After the performance, I was interrupted on my way back to you by the very same man who proceeded to grill me for using up precious Buy More time on the poor girl and her dad."

Hearing his words causes her to shake her head in disbelief. "Wow, what a total douche."

Chuck nods his head. "Yeah. So then by the time I got back to the Nerd Herd, you were gone. But you had left me your card."

A smile forms on Sarah's face as she continues to paint a picture of her husband's words to her. "Did you call me?" she asks inquisitively.

Chuck shakes his head no. "No," he laughs to her.

"Why not?" She asks as she begins to pout. Now undeniably feeling disappointed that he hadn't called her.

Chuck chuckles for a brief moment at his wife's question to him. "Um, because you're beautiful. And I thought you were so far out of my league for a nerdy guy like me working at a Buy More. You came back the next day. Somebody had broken into my home the previous night and had smashed up my computer which turned out to be you."

On hearing his declaration, Sarah emits a suppressed chuckle at the revelation. "Sorry,"

A grin forms on Chuck's face as he continues on with their story. "I had a headache from hell and I had my head in my hands at the Nerd Herd desk when you rang the bell."

"I remember that," she admits to him with a bright smile now formed.

On hearing his wife's words, a wide grin forms on Chuck's face. "You do?" he asks with renewed hope.

"Only the bell," she admits with a sympathetic smile. "I don't remember anything else though. When I came to the Buy More looking for help to take out Quinn, there was just something about the bell that seemed so familiar and I became so fixated on it trying to remember something that seemed so familiar to me."

Chuck lowers his head in sadness for a brief moment as it would have been her first actual memory of him if she would have remembered him at the Buy More desk with his head in his hands. "I see. So anyway, you had came back because I didn't call you."

A wide smile forms on Sarah's face. "I don't take no for an answer," she admits.

Chuck begins to chuckle once more. "Oh Sarah, I know that. I know everything about you. You're my wife," he admits with a wide loving grin.

"You know a thousand times more about me than I do about myself right now, Chuck," Sarah admits.

A sad frown forms on Chuck's face on hearing his wife's admission to him. "So anyway, I asked you if you had phone trouble again and you told me that you weren't able to receive calls because you never got one for me. Heh."

On hearing his latest revelation, Sarah bursts into hysterical laughter on hearing her chat up line and Chuck joins in with his wife.

"That was a good line. I'm quite proud of that," she says mid laughter.

Chuck nods his head in complete agreement. "Yeah, it was. Even Morgan loved that one as he was standing in the vicinity. So then we went out on a date after Morgan had told you that my schedule was wide open. Sadly it wasn't a real date which I was about to find out." he admits.

Yet another smile forms on Sarah's face. "What happened on our date?" she inquires with great interest.

"We headed to a club and you told me that you'd just gotten out of a bad relationship and that you came with baggage and I told you I could be your very own baggage handler," He admits sheepishly as a huge grin forms on his face on thinking back to that moment shared with his wife five years ago.

Sarah shakes her head with a wide smile now present on her own face. "You didn't?!" she asks gobsmacked.

"I did," he chuckles shamefully, nodding his head affirmatively.

On hearing her husband's words, Sarah starts to giggle for a brief moment.

he continues, "Sadly it didn't last long because we were rudely interrupted by an NSA hit team led by John Casey who had orders to eliminate you and to keep me alive until they found out what I knew. You protected me and took out the hit team like the amazing Sarah you are and then we fled. I had no idea what the hell was going on and I had never been more confused in my life." he admits.

Sarah laughs once more on hearing the latest part of their story.

"You then revealed yourself to be CIA and you told me all about Bryce Larkin. I knew him too by the way, I was with him at Stanford until he had me kicked out," he says with a bit of venom still attached to his tone.

Hearing her husband's latest revelations causes a sudden feeling of anger for Sarah on hearing that somebody had done something to her husband.

Bryce did that to my husband? What else has he done to him?

"Bryce did that to you?" she asks in disbelief.

Chuck nods his head. "Yeah, but more on that later. It's a long story. Trust me."

Sarah smiles warmly at his words to her. "Chuck, I have time. I turned down Beckman's offer along with you so as of now, I am unemployed and I have nothing in my life that I remember so I have all the time in the world," she admits glumly over the present mess that is the life of Sarah Lisa Bartowski.

Chuck smiles sympathetically at his wife's admissions. "Sarah, you have me. I hope you remember me one day. And if you allow me then I will fight for you every single day until you do," he declares powerfully with absolute conviction.

Sarah's warm smile continues on hearing her husband's reassurances to her. I hope I remember. I want to remember you.

Chuck then continues on with their story on his wife staying silent. "So then after finding out you were CIA we headed to a rooftop for extraction when Casey showed up. You were pointing guns at each other and at me before I revealed that I had the intersect in my head and that I could see abnormal things. I then revealed that there was a bomb set to go off to kill General Stanfield. You and Casey then both put your differences aside for the greater good and our newly formed team then headed to diffuse our first of many bombs together. However, none of us knew how to diffuse it, not even the intersect in my head but then Morgan phoned me up and it triggered something in my brain because Morgan's own computer had fell victim to the Irene Demova virus, and I proceeded to disarm the bomb by uploading the computer virus onto the prism express laptop after you had persuaded Casey to let me do it."

"So that's how I remember the virus. We had already done it together," she states as a smile forms on her face once more.

Chuck nods his head and a grin forms on his face on hearing his wife's words. "Yeah, we had."

"After that, I spent the night at the beach, this exact same beach. You had been watching me all night and this is where you told me to trust you."

Sarah nods her head. That's why it's important. I was his protector. "What happened to us after the beach?"

"You and Casey began to protect me. Though you were always at each others throats for a while and you didn't trust each other. I wanted the intersect out of my head desperately so that I could go back to my normal life. I wasn't a spy. I was just a nerdy guy with a lousy job," he admits sadly.

"That must have been hard for you," Sarah replies sympathetically to her husband's words.

Chuck nods his head. "It was, but Sarah, you made it ok. Being with you kept me sane. You were the best handler that they could ever have sent me," he declares lovingly.

Sarah smiles warmly on hearing her husband's words once more.

"I can't tell you every single mission or we would be here for months so I'll skip through most of them quickly. Our second big mission together was concerning an NSA doctor called Zarnow. You and Casey had arranged to see if he could get the secrets out of my head. I wanted them gone but I was disappointed that I wouldn't get to see you again," he declares and he grins at his wife, which she returns.

"He then ran all kinds of tests on me but he faked his own death and it turned out that he was a rogue operative and he had been selling secrets to North Korea."

"Was he apprehended?" she asks inquisitively. She may not be a spy any more. But she will always love a good spy story.

"Yeah. You and Casey both suspected each other and you both tried to convince me that you had each killed him and I didn't know who to trust. It led to you getting captured by Zarnow who was planning to torture you to find out about me. I helped Casey to find and rescue you, only I got caught in the process. I was then in the process of being ex-filtrated by helicopter but I took control of it."

A look of amazement forms on Sarah's face on hearing his storytelling. "You flew a helicopter?"

Chuck's grin continues on his face and he nods his head. "With your help, yeah. You were very comforting and guided me down. On touching down you were very angry with me though," he admits.

Sarah quirks her eyebrow. "Why?" she asks.

"Because I hadn't trusted you. It was just so hard with Casey also in my ear. We made up though after me apologizing for my behaviour. On our next mission we apprehended an international arms smuggler called La Ciudad."

Another look of amazement forms on Sarah's face. "We took La Ciudad out?"

Chuck nods his head. "Yeah, it was a woman. We were the A Team, Sarah," he declares with a wide grin.

A wide smile forms on Sarah's face once more on hearing her husband's latest words.

"But then things got rocky for us again. Your friend Carina was back in town." he admits.

"You've met her?" She enquires with yet more amazement upon learning things that had been forcibly suppressed.

Chuck nods his head. "Yeah, a few times. She was a bridesmaid at our wedding," he pauses on a very sore topic.

Sarah smiles sympathetically on hearing her husband's words and she touches his arm briefly with her hand. "What happened to us?" she asks.

"Carina wanted us to steal a diamond and she used and played us all. She tried to seduce me and she told me that she liked taking what you wanted, even if you didn't know it yourself yet. It was actually the first real sign for me that you felt something real for me. She also told me that you and Bryce were together before he went rogue which caused me to lose my trust in you once more," Chuck admits.

Anger begins to form inside of Sarah and she feels her blood start to boil on learning about her friend's betrayal of her. Bitch!

"Anyway, we went on our mission together and we got back the diamond. But Carina made me hand it over to her and she escaped leaving us trapped and Casey had to rescue and bail us out. Casey then went after Carina in the hunt for the diamond and she hid it in Morgan's bag who had shown up as he had the hots for her as you had decided to introduce him to her," he says as he begins to chuckle and Sarah begins to snort on hearing what she'd done.

"I found the diamond and I phoned you but you had been captured by the man we were sent to get it from. Carina then showed up demanding the diamond but I convinced her to help you instead."

Sarah quirks her eyebrow on hearing her husband's words. "Carina always thinks of herself. How did you convince her?" she asks inquisitively.

Chuck shrugs his shoulders non-nonchalantly . "I don't know. I appealed to her emotions and to her feelings I guess," he says with a wide grin.

My husband can make CARINA feel emotions? Wow, he really is good! You found a good one, Sarah!

"Anyway, we rescue you and post mission I come to your hotel room to discuss my latest trust issues over what Carina had said about Bryce. I brought you a vegetarian pizza with no olives, as it was the only thing I knew about you that was real," he admits with a sad smile.

Sarah smiles sympathetically on hearing his admission. Poor guy. I must have hurt him for a long time in not letting him in. But it was my job.

"I asked you if you could tell me something real about yourself, such as your real name or where you grew up or even your middle name. You remained silent and I gave up and went to get napkins, only for you to tell me your middle name was Lisa after I'd walked away," he says with a wide grin formed on his face once more.

"So if you'd walked away, how did you find out?" she inquires very interestedly.

"You told me what you had done after we'd gotten together for real," he admits. "Our next big mission was turning a Chinese agent and making her defect because her brother had been taken by triads. I screwed up the mission somehow like I seem to do a lot," he chuckles briefly. "But I made up for it and we complete the mission and she successfully defects. In doing so, I repeatedly broke my promises with Morgan and Ellie and I hurt them both by lying and deceiving to them. The government and spying and the lies from it were already coming between my new life, and my real family life. I missed mothers day with Ellie while on this mission. Mothers day for me and El was the day that my mom walked out on us and that mission got in the way of that," he admits with a sad smile.

Sarah moves to touch his arm once more and she begins to feel deep sorrow for him. "I'm so sorry. That must have been a hard moment in your life."

Chuck nods his head. "It was, but you made it better," He admits and the husband and wife share an affectionate smile once more.

"Anyway, another mission passes of Team Bartowski saving the day until we get to our next big relationship moment together. You took a picture together with me at my sister's home. You wanted me to have something of us that was real," he reveals.

Sarah breathes out a deep sigh on hearing his words. After all of the hurt and turmoil in his life. At least I could give him something of me that was real.

"I'm glad you had something real of me," she says with a warm smile.

"Me too," Chuck admits with a loving grin. "Soon after I was forced to reconnect with my old life and I went back to Stanford and I learnt the real reason of why I got kicked out of Stanford."

"Which was?" Sarah inquires deeply interested in learning all about the man she's spent five years of her life with once more.

"My professor at Stanford was forwarding me as a recruit for the CIA. Bryce didn't want me there as he didn't think I would survive in the field as an agent. So he planted evidence in my dorm that had me guilty of cheating and I got kicked out which is why I ended up at the Buy More, and not be running my own tech company."

Another tear begins to leave her eye on hearing her husband's words. "I'm sorry Bryce did that to you."

"It wasn't the only thing Bryce did to mess up my life. But more on that later. On our next mission we were out fake double dating with Ellie and Awesome and Ellie comes across a very sick person. It later turns out he'd been infected by a toxic derivative of pentothal. You took comments that Devon had made to you about our fake relationship seriously and you told me it was time for us to make love," he reveals with a wide grin.

Sarah begins to snort with laughter on hearing Chuck's comments. "So, did we?" she then asks with a cheeky smile. I hope we did.

Chuck shakes his head no."No, we broke up," he admits.

Sarah begins to frown once more. "Huh?" she asks, now feeling rather undeniably disappointed once more.

"Events escalated and Ellie ended up getting poisoned herself with pentothal, and subsequently ourselves. I obtained just one vial of antidote and you and Casey tried to have me use it on myself but I ran off and used it on Ellie as she was in a coma and she was about to die."

Sarah involuntarily moves to shrug her shoulder on hearing what a hero her husband is. You found a keeper, Sarah!

"Anyway, we then went looking for more antidotes for ourselves and we obtained it. I didn't let you take yours yet though because It was my only chance to find out if what we had could ever be real and not just a cover."

"But I'm trained to withstand pentothal," Sarah interrupts his story telling.

Chuck chuckles for a moment as he nods his head in agreement. "I know that now. You told me later on when things were more clearer between us. But at the time, I didn't know. And thinking our relationship would never go anywhere because you told me yourself, I broke up with you," he admits with a sympathetic smile.

On hearing her husband's admission, Sarah feels a tear in her eye once more.

"I'm sorry again about that by the way. I can't imagine how that must have felt me doing that to you knowing you couldn't tell me how you truly felt." he says remorsefully.

I can. Because I can feel it right now. I can imagine how I must have felt at the time. Knowing that I'd fallen for you, and being unable to tell you. Having to lie to you. And then you breaking up with me because I had lied and said that we could never have had anything.

"What happened next?" Sarah asks depressively after Chuck's revelation had now caused her to feel sorrow.

"I entered a relationship with another girl called Lou," he admits to his wife.

Sarah quirks her eyebrow on hearing his response.

"But it didn't work out or last very long at all. One of our missions came between the relationship as her ex boyfriend was a target of our mission and everything just began to spiral out of control. I was in the club getting close to our target and you came in after me worried that he would hurt me. You told me later on that Casey had pulled you and had said you had fallen for me which is why you rushed in to my aid once I was threatened. We find out that Lou's ex boyfriend was involved in all kinds of criminal dealings and we end up being captured on a dock together. Casey rescued us and we escaped to find a container. On opening it, it appeared to be some kind of bomb. I couldn't flash on it and so you ordered me to run. It turned out later that the bomb was fake though."

"What did you do?" she inquires with a wide smile.

"I refused to leave you in a moment of courage and you pulled out your gun on me," Chuck admits with a chuckle.

"I didn't!" she says as she shakes her head in disbelief on learning what she did all those years ago.

"Oh yes you did!" Chuck laughs back to her.

"So I was going to shoot you to stop you from getting blown up?" Sarah asks as she begins to laugh deeply.

"That's exactly what I said to you. Did you remember?" Chuck asks hopeful.

Sarah shakes her head no sympathetically. "No, we must just think alike. Or maybe I can subconsciously remember it like the virus and the bell," she says with a warm smile to him. "What happened then?"

"The timer kept ticking and we thought we were about to die so that's when you kissed me," he declares.

"What was it like?" she asks with a bright smile and she stares into her husband's eyes as a fire begins building up inside her as she begins to imagine herself kissing Chuck.

"It was the best kiss and the best moment of my life, Sarah. You attacked me with such an intense passion. I felt violated" he says with a wide grin which causes Sarah to snort with laughter on hearing his words.

"What about you? Did you attack me?" she asks with her continued formed smile of happiness caused by hearing their story.

"Oh you bet I did," he chuckles gleefully. "But I was so confused with mixed signals because of what had happened to us with the pentothal and then after our kiss there was a lot of pretending from you that it didn't happen and it was one of the hardest periods of my life as I didn't know how to deal with it." he admits.

I did a lot to this poor guy. He didn't deserve any of this. I shouldn't have led and played with his feelings like this for so long. I would have known that assets and handlers could not have personal relationships.

"And then Bryce Larkin resurfaced alive once more. It turns out that he was inside the bomb."

"Jesus!" Sarah gasps in complete shock at her husband's revelation as her mind adds Bryce Larkin into the picture of the bomb and her husband that she had painted.

Chuck nods his head. "I know right. I didn't find out about that as I had already left but you and Casey did, and then we all had one big reunion inside of a CIA medical facility. It turned out that Bryce wasn't rogue and that he was working undercover against a rogue CIA organization known as Fulcrum. I also seen you making out with him in my room," he admits.

Sarah gasps and she begins to find it difficult to look at him in shame. "Oh Chuck, I'm sorry. That is a disgraceful thing," she says shamefully.

"It's okay," Chuck says with a loving smile.

Sarah shakes her head no. "No Chuck, it's not. That must have hurt you."

"It did," he admits and he pauses for the briefest of moments. "But you shown how you really felt towards me almost immediately after. Bryce was going back undercover, and he invited you with him by telling you that you'd have Omaha. I was sure that you'd go with him and I phoned you a lot that evening but you didn't answer. Anyway, the next day you turned up and you chose to stay with me and not go with Bryce," he says with a huge grin formed on his face.

A bright smile forms on Sarah's face on hearing the latest part of their story. Good girl, Sarah! Bryce could never have offered me what Chuck has already told me. My relationship with Bryce was nothing like this one that is now being described to me.

"Our relationship was far from being steady yet though. It was still strained and it didn't help when I lost one hundred thousand dollars at roulette thinking it was one hundred dollars and they had to send you instead."

Sarah bursts into laughter once more.

"You had to get close to some bad guy and I became extremely jealous and kind of hurt," he admits.

"Chuck, seduction missions mean nothing on a personal aspect. It's just a way to get information," she says reassuringly.

Chuck nods his head. "I know, Sarah, but it hurt me."

Sarah suddenly begins to feel like a little schoolgirl being scolded by a teacher on hearing his blunt sincerity to her and she averts her eyes away from her husband in shame.

"Our relationship recovered at the end of the mission and we agreed to remain friends and you continued to pretend like the kiss didn't happen and you said it was a mistake at the time."

"Wow, I really hurt you early on, didn't I?" she asks sympathetically.

"Sarah, I hurt you too. I also did some things and besides, it wasn't easy for you. I was just an asset, you were an agent and you had a duty to protect me. I could have been more considerate of your situation and stopped trying to press you at every juncture and opportunity," he says compassionately. "Our next mission was mostly helping Casey with a former lover of his."

"Casey had a lover?" Sarah asks him gobsmacked.

"Oh yes, and you won't believe what she used to call him as an endearment," he grins.

"What was it?" Sarah asks with intense anticipation.

"Sugar bear," he says with a huge grin.

Sarah bursts into roaring laughter on hearing his words. "No way!" she says in disbelief.

"I had the same reaction as you and I confronted him about it and he almost strangled me to death against a wall in a fit of rage. My throat still hurts," he jokes as he shows his wife the motion of being choked by his friend all those years ago.

Anger immediately begins building up inside of Sarah once more on hearing his revelation. Somebody hurt my husband?

"Who was his lover?"

"It turned out she was some kind of French spy. I can't remember what as it's been so many years," Chuck admits. "I tried to help Casey get her back as a friend."

He's such a heart warming, kind and compassionate guy. He didn't deserve this life he now lives. To have a wife as a spy that can't even remember anything about him.

"Some time then passes and Fulcrum were getting real close to me. I discovered a bug at the Buy More that wasn't one of yours or Casey's and things got very serious. I can't remember how many but there were a lot of short range bugs that were found inside the Buy More and you and Casey told me that if the receiver wasn't recovered then I would be taken into protective custody."

"Wow! Things really did get serious." she admits.

"Yeah. I managed to identify the fulcrum agent responsible for planting the bugs but it was too late. The CIA had already ordered that I be taken into protective custody."

"What stopped you from being taken in?"

"I was waiting on a rooftop for extraction with a CIA agent. Much like on our first cover date when you appeared on the roof top."

A smile forms on Sarah's face. "I stopped him from taking you in?"

"No," Chuck admits. "You looked like you were about to though. I just seen that look in your eye that I have seen a few times in the years gone by. You looked like a wrecking ball. You asked Longshore to give you a few minutes with me. You told him that I was your guy," another smile forms on Sarah's face on hearing the latest part to their story. "It's also the first real time that we had actually talked about how we really felt about each other. Though I did all of the talking really, as you were an emotional mess," he says as he begins to chuckle.

Tears begin to stream down Sarah's already wet face once more. "What did we talk about?"

"Among other things that I can't remember, I told you that maybe there was a silver lining to me being taken in. I wouldn't be your asset any more. So we could date for real. I told you that you could come by my cell and we could hang out and you could tell me who the president was," he says to her with a wide grin.

On hearing his admission, Sarah begins to laugh deeply for a long moment.

Screw you, Quinn! Screw you, CIA, for making me lose my memories of my husband!

"Then the Fulcrum agent appeared and took out Longshore and there was a struggle between you and her. You managed to neutralize her because of the kickass Sarah that you are and the day ended with us searching for an engagement ring for several hours for Devon and Ellie that we had been looking for, for several days. We stood at the window to Ellie's apartment and watched as Devon proposed and my sister became engaged," he says with a bright smile.

On hearing his latest words, a huge smile erupts on Sarah's face as she imagines and plays out the scenario that he has just described inside her mind.

"What happened with the protective custody?"

"You told me it had been cancelled and that I was safe for now. I asked you to come inside to congratulate Ellie, but you told me it was a family moment. I told you I knew, because you were already my life," he declares powerfully.

And I wish I could remember you being mine, Chuck...

"Some time then passed, and I was finally about to be able to return to my normal life as the government's new intersect was due to go online. The first thing I wanted to do in my plans for the future was to ask you on a real date, which you accepted," he says with a huge grin and a bright smile forms on Sarah's face.

"How was it?" she asks as she tries so desperately hard to remember this moment shared with her husband all those years ago.

"It was perfect," he admits with a wide grin. "But we didn't get to enjoy it as people were waiting to capture and apprehend us."

"Wow, we had nothing going our way, did we?" Sarah asks with a sad smile on hearing about Chuck and her own's misfortunes.

"Tell me about it," Chuck sighs deeply in agreement with his wife.

"Then what?" she asks enthusiastically as she is really enjoying recalling the past few years of her life with the man that she cannot remember marrying.

"Then Graham was blown up and the new intersect destroyed. My life went back to how it was. I was still the only working intersect. We could no longer date and you told me we couldn't be together as it was unprofessional and the frustration began to build once more as I went from having life plans with you, to back at working at the Buy More."

"Wow, you went back there?" she asks amazed.

"That place just didn't want to let me go," he grins.

Sarah laughs sweetly on hearing his words.

"I was then sent on my first seduction mission," he reveals.

Sarah quirks an eyebrow. That doesn't sound like the Chuck of our story.

"I had to get advice from Roan Montgomery on seduction. He stirred me up into kissing you to see what I was capable of," he admits.

Sarah begins to laugh hard once more for a long moment. "How did he do that?"

"He wound me up by saying that a guy like me could never get a woman like you interested in me."

I vehemently disagree. I already feel an attraction to you just from however long we've been here. You're an easily approachable and funny guy.

"You interjected and said I was passionate, sweet and caring and you said I had a lot to offer. Which caused Roan to demand that you kiss me to see that passion," he says with a chuckle for a long moment and Sarah begins to laugh hysterically once more.

"How was this kiss? As good as our first?" she inquires as she feels a fire build up inside of herself for him once more.

"Better," Chuck admits. "I wish you could remember it, Sarah," he says dejectedly to her.

"Me too," Sarah concedes as she stares sympathetically into her husband's eyes.

"He also kind of told me about the Montgomery which was a white dinner jacket, a bottle of wine and a single red rose I think. Though I regret hearing that stupid suggestion of his now."

Sarah quirks her eyebrow once more. "Why, didn't it work?" she asks. I don't think I would have been able to turn him down if he shown up like that. I was obviously already immensely attracted to him based on everything he's told me.

"I will never know because I did as he suggested and I turned up at your hotel room, only for Bryce freaking Larkin to open the door with you. I have never felt so embarrassed as that day," he admits.

"Bryce was inside my hotel room?" she asks as she begins to feel slightly sick inside. What was he doing in there? I was obviously in a committed relationship with Chuck already, even if we couldn't tell each other how we felt.

"Yeah," Chuck admits and he coughs on the sore topic. "Our mission with Roan had just ended. I had saved you outside the Buy More from my mark who was a ruthless KGB operative and had taken you hostage. I leapt off the top of the Buy More roof and swung down on some kind of banner and kicked right into her. I was quite proud of that one!" he declares and begins to chuckle at the fond memory he had just recalled.

Sarah laughs hard for a long moment on hearing her husband's words. "No way!" she says with immense pride and respect and affinity on hearing he had saved her.

"Anyway, I arrived at your room and there was Bryce. I hated life and wanted the ground to swallow me whole. I thought I had lost you to him again."

"But you didn't?" she asks hopeful. You better not have. You already did so much more and gave me more than Bryce ever could.

"No. He was back in town for a mission. You were injured during it and I visited you at the hospital. I was dismayed at how many flowers Bryce had bought compared to just a bunch of gardenias from me. I said no matter what I did I would always come second best to him," he reveals.

"What did I say?" she asks in strong anticipation.

"You said 'not always'."

A smile then forms on Sarah's face once more. Good girl.

"Bryce then confronted me. And he said that your feelings for me would get you killed," he reveals.

On hearing his latest revelation, shock begins to fill up on Sarah's face. She feels angry that somebody else was making a decision for her and telling her who she could and could not like. "What did you say?" she asks.

"I said you knew what you were doing. But then something else happened in the final part of the mission. Somebody had me at gunpoint and you had the target in your sights. Bryce was imploring you to take the shot," he reveals.

Hmm. Like Bogota with Bryce.

"Did I?" she asks inquisitively.

Chuck shakes his head no. "No. You couldn't do it and you were extremely hesitant and panicky."

On hearing his revelation, Sarah flings a hand over her mouth as she begins to gasp over the implications of his words.

"I had fallen for you and I couldn't risk shooting you instead in case I lost you," Sarah admits to him.

Chuck nods his head in agreement. "Yeah, that was my interpretation, as well as Bryce and Casey's who were also present."

"So what happened then?"

"Then I took Bryce's advice and I broke your heart to try and protect you and keep you safe. I couldn't ever let anything happen to you," he says with a sympathetic smile on seeing Sarah's face fill up with sorrow and hurt.

"What did you say?" she asks depressively.

"I told you we could never have a future together because as amazing as you are, you would never be normal."

"How did I take it?" If it's anything like what I'm feeling right now on hearing this, then I'd say heartbroken.

"You took it really bad I could feel it. It wasn't one of my best moments in our relationship," he admits shamefully.

"Please tell me our story gets better." Sarah says apprehensively with a look of concern now present on her face.

"Oh it does," he says with a bright grin. "Though I did two more bad moments later on that was worse than this. But next up in our life, I met Jenny Burton."

Sarah looks at him anxiously. "You saw my childhood?"

Chuck grins deeply. "Oh yes. We attended your high school reunion together. It had all came about when Heather Chandler sighted you at the Buy More. She followed you into the Orange, Orange where you worked as cover. I wanted to know everything about you, which is kind of a contradiction because I had recently only just told you that you would never be real and we could never have a future. But I carried on prying and prying until you snapped at me," he admits.

"What did I do?" she asks him with a smirk.

"You threw a pencil at a framed photograph of ours and said something like 'All Jenny's boyfriend needs to know is that she hates being asked questions of her past'"

Chuck then watches on as a wide grin begins to form on his wife's face.

"You're still proud of that, huh?" he asks her with his own continued grin.

Sarah laughs and nods her head on hearing his question.

"That still scares me, even till this day. I was so awed how you did that. We then went on a double date with Heather and her husband, Mark Ratner and you spilt wine on me when I tried to pry into your past and to learn more about you."

Sarah laughs once more and she takes a long moment as she begins to think back to her childhood.

"Heather Chandler married Mark Ratner?" Sarah then asks in shock and disbelief.

"Yeah. I can't really recall why now, but I think it was to further the purpose of her needs," he reveals.

Sarah nods her head strongly in agreement with her husband's words. "That sounds like her. She always was conniving like that. So what happened at the reunion?"

"Everything, Sarah. Firstly, you knocked out Dick Duffy for trying to flirt with you." he says and he begins to chuckle.

Sarah begins to snort with laughter on hearing her husband's revelation.

"Team Bartowski had believed that Mark Ratner was in league with the Russian mob over blueprints for something he had designed. But it was revealed that it was in fact Heather, who was connected to the mob and she planned to kill him and steal the blueprints."

"Ok, now that definitely is Heather! What happened to her?" she asks.

"You beat her down," Chuck says with pride.

Sarah smiles on hearing his response. That bitch had that coming.

"She's now in a federal penitentiary and you were crowned reunion queen," he says with his continued wide Bartowski grin.

"No way!" Sarah laughs to him in disbelief.

"Yes way, it happened," he grinned. "I then went back to your hotel room and you told me that I had earnt one question about your past and you would answer it."

"What did you ask me?" she asks with strong anticipation as she excitedly waits to hear what she had told him.

"I didn't. I said I didn't need to know anything about your past, because as much as you didn't think so, I knew who you were. I told you that you were a girl I wanted to share a cheeseburger with," he says and on finishing he begins to chuckle.

Sarah begins to laugh once more. He's so funny. I like him. I like him a lot.

"I still believe what I said even to this day, by the way," he smiles. "Sadly though, our relationship hit a rock once more."

Sarah instantly begins to feel yet more dread on hearing her husband's words. Just how much more hurt did we have in our lives before we officially got together?

"My old girlfriend from when I was at Stanford was back in town. Oh, I also graduated thanks to you and Casey. I was twelve credits shy of graduation when Bryce had me expelled, but you and Casey got me my diploma, so thank you again for that. Anyway, I regressed. My ex girlfriend Jill had came back and Beckman ordered me to reconnect with her."

"Is she somebody I need to be jealous of?" Sarah asks as she begins to glare at Chuck as a feeling of jealously and protectiveness of Chuck immediately hits and forms deep inside of her.

"What? No!" Chuck shoots back quickly as he sees a jealous Sarah come back to life that instantly reminds him of a few previous occasions he had seen his wife glare at him like that. "I have only ever dated another woman because I felt like I could never have you and that our relationship would not lead anywhere. Sarah, if I never get you back after what has now happened to you then I probably won't ever look at another woman ever again," he admits.

Then we'll have to make sure that you get me back. Because you're too nice to be single.

"Besides, you told me to reconnect with her," he reveals.

Sarah quirks her eyebrow. "Why on earth would I do that?" she asks in complete disbelief.

"Because you told me it would give me closure," he admits. "Anyway, I go on the forced date with Jill. And we kind of begin dating for real again," he squeals as he sees frustration begin to build on Sarah's face and she glares at him once more.

"That look you're giving me right now is similar to the one all those years ago," Chuck admits. "It was wrong and I'm not going to excuse myself. I should never have gotten back with her. But I just wanted a normal life. I wanted a girlfriend that could love me at that exact moment in time. I was lonely," he confesses.

"What about how lonely I was, Chuck? Knowing how I felt about you but unable to act on it because of my job in the CIA?" Sarah asks as she begins to feel hurt and betrayal over something that happened several years ago because she now remembers it freshly once more.

"You're right. And I was kind of a douche back then. But it turned out she was Fulcrum, Sarah. And there was a moment when she was about to kill you and I saw it and I had her locked up and arrested because I could never let anything happen to you," he declares powerfully. "Sarah, we had some bad moments in our life. Not gonna dispute that. But what couple doesn't? The good far, FAR outweighs the bad. If it weren't for the CIA, none of this would have happened. So I blame them," he admits with strong malice.

Sarah nods her head in agreement. "If it weren't for the CIA, I would never have lost my memory. So I know exactly how you feel. Tell me something happier about us," she demands.

"Happy, ok. Good, I can do that!" he grins.

"Let's see… Oh! Your reunions with old people were not done yet."

"Who did you meet next?" Sarah asks in strong anticipation with a wide smile.

"Your dad," he admits.

On hearing her husband's response to her, Sarah begins to cough as she almost chokes and she loses breath on hearing his admission. "You met him?"

"Indeed," Chuck nods his head. "He came back to town for his latest con and we became involved on Beckman's orders and he called me a Schnuck."

Sarah bursts into a fit of laughter once more on hearing her husband's revelations.

"I'm still upset about that," he admits. "But I've forgiven him as he paid for our wedding."

Sarah strongly shakes her head as she gazes at her husband "No way!" she says in complete disbelief.

"It's true. We kind of got conned by our wedding planner and your dad came through massively for us."

"How did we get conned?" Sarah inquires as she begins to recall her fathers words of once you know all the cons, you can never be a sucker.

"We were too trusting," he admits.

"Wow, you really did change me. Didn't you?" she asks him with a loving smile.

"Sarah, you changed yourself. You learnt how to love and how to trust. You are the most beautiful person I have ever seen," he says emotionally to her.

More tears begin to form in Sarah's eyes on hearing her husband's words to her. She breathes out a deep whimper as his words affect her so deep inside. She moves her hand to affectionately touch his arm for a brief moment.

"So tell me more about why he came back."

Chuck nods his head. "It was a job. He kind of played us and stole ten million from somebody very powerful and he left the money in my bank account. At the end of it he told us both that he had made a ten million bet that I loved you. And I guess he was right. Because I do," he says as he smiles adoringly at his wife.

A bright smile erupts on Sarah's face on hearing her husband's words to her.

"Was that a happy enough memory for you?" he asks.

"Yeah," she says with her continued adoring smile. "Chuck?"

"Yeah? He asks as he gazes at his wife.

"Tell me how we got together and our first time," she demands with her continued adoring smile.

"You don't want to hear about things before then?" Chuck inquires.

Sarah shakes her head no. "Chuck, it's just going to make me sad. And because I can't remember it, I might misjudge the situation. Let's leave out all further sad parts to our story and relive our happy ones."

Chuck nods his head in acceptance of his wife's demands.

"Ok, well bear in mind that we still worked for the CIA so there is some sadness in it. For example: when we became official, I was sitting at my apartment in my shorts with a stupid guitar around me after drinking lots of whisky and eating ice cream because I thought I had lost you and I asked you if you love me and you said yes," he declares with his continued wide grin of happiness as he enjoys telling their story to his wife once more.

"So did we get together that night?" she asks him hopefully as she smiles adoringly at him.

Chuck shakes his head no. "No, we got called on a mission," he admits.

"What was the mission?" she asks.

"There was a CIA agent, called Daniel Shaw. And this is the sad part I spoke about. He was the husband of your red test," Chuck admits and he winces as he sees his wife gasp in immense shock.

"Oh my god!" Sarah says in disbelief as she flings a hand to cover her mouth to try and stem the shock of her husband's declarations to her.

Chuck nods his head. "I know. It was a real shock to us both. And he found out that you had killed his wife and he came so close to killing you but I stopped him. I shot him and I thought I'd killed him but he later resurfaced to haunt us once more."

An adoring smile forms on Sarah's face once more. He saved me.

"So then what happened?" she inquires in her continued excited frame of mind.

"You woke up in Paris after being drugged by him. And that was our first time," he says with a bright smile, Sarah likewise, has the same facial expressions. "We were official from that moment on. I had panicked because I thought I'd killed Shaw and when you thought I had completed my red test earlier just before all of this you told me I wasn't the same guy that you fell for. But you told me I saved you and then you absolutely blew my mind and I've been smitten by you ever since," he says with a deep loving grin.

Sarah laughs sweetly. "Was it worth the wait?" she inquires as she begins to picture making love with Chuck and tries to desperately remember it.

"Oh yes. We had came so close less than a year earlier," he admits.

"What happened?" she asks as strong excitement to hear their story builds up once more.

"You had orders to bring me in but you turned your back on the CIA, and we ran together. We ended up staying in some crappy motel in Barstow and we woke up in the same bed and we came this close," he says as he shows his wife his fingers.

Sarah frowns on hearing his admission. "What stopped us?" she inquires.

"Morgan freaking Grimes!" Chuck says as he chuckles and shakes his head in disapproval over Morgan's actions on that day he came close to making love with Sarah.

Sarah begins to laugh on hearing his words. "What did he do?"

"Are you sure you want to know?" Chuck asks apprehensively as he doesn't want to scare or spook Sarah away from him if he starts talking about their intimate moments.

Sarah nods her head and she smiles warm and invitingly at him. I want to remember you, Chuck. I like you.

"We paused so that I could get protection. I always kept one in my wallet but Morgan had replaced it with an iou note."

Sarah shakes her head in disapproval. "That is so not cool."

Chuck nods his head in agreement with his wife. "Tell me about it."

"Do I need to have words and pull him over this?" she asks as she gazes at her husband with a smirk.

"No, we both did afterwards," Chuck admits.

"Good. I can't imagine what that must have been like for us. I still might pull him again. How long had we known each other?"

"Almost two years. But even if we hadn't have been interrupted by that, we would have been anyway. Casey was hunting us and also Fulcrum and I ran them over to protect you from harm."

He saved me again.

"And what happened after we got together?" she asks as she begins to vividly paint a picture of her being with Chuck once more.

"We ran away and boarded a train. We certainly made up for lost time as we didn't leave our compartment once," he reveals with a loving smile.

Sarah smirks on hearing his revelation. "Why did we run?"

"We were afraid of losing each other if we remained in the spy life I guess. After so long of wanting each other, we didn't want to lose each other again. We didn't want to go back to how it was before. About nine months earlier and just after Barstow you had already tried to get me to run away with you," he reveals.

"Why didn't you?"

"I wanted to be a spy, Sarah. I did it so that we could be together for real. I wanted to be your equal, to make you love me," he admits as he smiles lovingly at his wife.

"I would have loved you regardless," she interrupts him.

Chuck nods his head. "I know, and it was the biggest mistake of my life. I should have gotten on the train with you and we could have talked about it on the train but instead, I didn't and it broke your heart once more. We met again six months later and it was the most difficult challenge of our relationship and if I could take those nine months back, Sarah, then I would, in an instant!"

"What made us go back to the CIA? Why didn't we leave behind that life for good? I would never have lost my memory then," she asks him despondently.

Chuck smiles sympathetically at his wife's words to him.

"We decided that we wanted to be spies, but also to have each other. We wanted to have our cake and to eat it. And on arriving back in castle, you told Beckman that we were dating, exclusively. I grabbed your hand and Beckman scolded me," Chuck laughs out to his wife.

Sarah begins to gasp on hearing his revelation. "No way! I said that to Beckman?" she asks amazed.

"You sure did," Chuck continues to laugh.

"Was their any more deep angst in our relationship after we became official?"

"Nope," he says with a wide grin which causes a bright smile to form on Sarah's face. "It was smooth sailing from there until the day I married you. It was the happiest day of both of our lives, Sarah," he declares emotionally in a cracked tone of voice as he breaks up and begins to cry because the emotion of what he had just said was too much for the young man.

On seeing him start to cry, Sarah moves her hand to stroke his arm comfortingly. I can feel his deep grief and sorrow. It hurts and pains me so freaking much. I can't remember him, but I can now feel him… I didn't feel anywhere close to this when he told me the story inside of the home with the white picket fence… It must have been because I have reconnected with him emotionally here at the beach for however long we have been out here.

"So what happened to us after we became official?" she says in an attempt to help him out of his grief that he is now experiencing.

"Shaw came back. He killed my dad," he reveals as tears continue to leave his eyes.

"Oh Chuck, I'm so sorry! I wouldn't have asked if I could remember," Sarah says as she moves closer to nestle into the side of him from where they sat.

Please don't cry! It suddenly feels like somebody is stabbing me in my heart! I didn't feel as strongly as this before the beach! What is happening to me?

On recovering from his outburst, they recover back into the positions that the husband and wife have been in for however long they have been out here on this beach together.

"I am scared to ask you something else now, Chuck. In case I say the wrong thing to you," she says sympathetically.

"Sarah, it's ok. I'm just so emotional right now," he says as he smiles lovingly at his wife.

"Chuck, it's understandable. Your wife was taken away from you. You have every right to be hurting. I'm hurting too, Chuck," she declares as she wipes her own wet eyes.

Chuck raises his gaze up from the sand to make eye contact with his wife once more.

I want to kiss him right now. Why do I want to comfort him so intimately when I still can't remember anything about him other than what he's told me?

"So is there anything that you want to ask, about us?" he says.

"Tell me how we got engaged," she says to him with a bright smile. That isn't a sad topic, surely….

His loving grin returns to his face once more. "Yeah. Yeah, well I had been planning it for quite some time actually. I found it much easier to express myself than you, which is understandable, because I had only recently became a fully fledged CIA agent, whereas it was all that you knew. So you didn't know how to love," he pauses to smile adoringly at her. "So anyway, I had been working on my proposal plan for how to ask you. I was pulling out all of the stops to make it perfect. Morgan was helping too. But as I was working on it, I got captured and you found the proposal plan in our home."

"What did I do when I found it?" she asks as she smiles warmly at him.

"You tore up half of Thailand coming to rescue me," he says as he begins to laugh deeply causing Sarah to join in it with him.

"You always were my protector. You saved me more times than I can count," he declares affectionately.

"It sounds like you did the same to me too, Chuck," she responds in the same loving tone.

"But not when it mattered most I didn't," He says as his tears threaten him once more.

"What happened once I saved you?" Sarah asks as she diverts the topic once more to provide him with some respite from his depressive thoughts.

"I started the plan all over again and I was preparing to ask you. You kind of helped out with it actually," he admits.

Sarah laughs on hearing his admission. "How?" she inquires as she eagerly awaits his response.

"You found out that I was planning to propose and you tried your best to make it happen. We were at a restaurant together and I had arranged the full works from balloons to flowers to a horse carriage. I had even arranged champagne and a string quartet," he laughs.

Sarah laughs deeply. "That sounds perfect," she admits with a bright smile.

"I thought so too. I came literally within seconds of asking you as I already had the ring box open in my hand when you told me something."

"I told you about my parents nightmare proposal?" she offers with her continued adoring smile on picturing the moment that Chuck has just described to her.

"Yes you did," he laughs out to her causing Sarah to snort in return.

"I immediately freaked out and cancelled the whole thing. I've never felt more anxious," he admits with a wide grin.

"Sorry," Sarah says sheepishly and she laughs a suppressed laugh.

"I then started it all over again once more and attempted to find a new location. And then we were on a mission in a French vineyard and it was so beautiful. And that's when I became convinced that it was the perfect spot. I must have came close to proposing half a dozen times on that day but I was rudely interrupted by Casey each time. This is when you found out and you did all you could to make it happen," he admits with his continued grin.

"That sounds like me," Sarah admits as the husband and wife share laughter together. "So, did it happen?"

"No," he admits. "I was within seconds of proposing once again but we were arrested. It later turned out that the whole thing was a setup to cement your cover."

Sarah quirks her eyebrows. "My cover for what?"

"You were going deep undercover against Volkoff Industries, which is how we eventually came into our wealth by the way. But anyway, you wanted to rescue my mom for me. You probably wanted to make up for what caused our first real fight as a committed couple in where you had her arrested."

"Wow. We certainly didn't have it easy did we, Chuck?" Sarah laughs.

"No, we didn't. But I wouldn't trade any of it for a single second though. It has all been worth it. Because I got to love you, and you got to love me," he declares emotionally in a cracked tone of voice.

I want to love you again. You sound absolutely perfect to me. I already feel deep emotions towards you just from hearing our perfect story and the life that we have shared together.

"So, where did your proposal actually happen?" she asks with a bright smile.

Chuck grins on hearing her question. "I eventually ended up asking you in the hospital when Ellie had just given birth to her daughter. And you didn't even need to say yes because we knew we would spend the rest of our lives together," he declares as the husband and wife make intimate eye contact together.

"Wow, after all that trouble you went through we got engaged in a hospital?" she asks him with a bright smile.

Chuck nods his head and he begins to chuckle for a brief moment and Sarah smiles at him. "Yeah, it sounds plain but I had came within seconds of doing it first in the restaurant and then numerous times on that beautiful balcony. I couldn't wait any longer," he admits.

"I'm so, so sorry that I can't remember it, Chuck," she says as tears drip out of her eyes. "You don't deserve this to happen to you."

"Neither do you, Sarah," he declares as they connect emotionally together.

"What happened to Bryce, Chuck?" Sarah then asks.

"He died. For real this time. Just after Barstow and just before you wanted me to run. I had uploaded the newest intersect that came with all kinds of powerful abilities. It was meant for Bryce. It's why you wanted me to run, it would have changed me. Bryce wanted you to leave with him on a new mission. You told me at my sisters wedding that you were leaving but then afterwards Bryce told me that you weren't going to go with him. And you were going to stay with me, to pursue a normal life with me being intersectless and safe. But if I hadn't have uploaded it, we would have all died. So I don't regret that."

"Wow, Chuck. Our life together was explosive," Sarah admits as she begins to feel quite mind blown on his latest revelation over their life that they have shared together.

"It was," he admits. "Is there anything else you want to know about our life?"

"What happened to me to make me forget all of this?" she asks him as she stares into her husband's eyes.

"Sarah, I don't know if I can go through it again. For either of us," he admits as he becomes deeply emotional once more.

"Chuck, please. I need to know how my life was taken from me, from us," she pleads with him.

Chuck breathes out a long deep sigh before finally relenting. "You had downloaded an intersect through the intersect glasses. It turned out to be a faulty one and you had uploaded the same one that Morgan did a few months earlier. It caused memory loss for Morgan at the time just like yourself. I was so worried it would happen to you but you assured me it would be gone. We were on a bullet train in Japan and you continued to assure me that it would be removed in just a few days. I became more at ease and then we distracted ourselves by talking about the family that we were planning together,"

"We were starting a family?" Sarah interrupts his emotional revelation and she begins to feel dead inside once more over what herself and Chuck have both lost.

"Yeah," Chuck admits to her in a cracked, hoarse tone of voice as he rubs his watery eyes with his hand.

On hearing her husband's admissions and seeing him emotionally devastated, Sarah begins to cry herself as tears leave both the husband and wife's eyes.

"We were in the advanced stages. And that's when Quinn got you. On the train I watched as our carriages separated and the next time I saw you again was when you returned home to me forgetting our whole perfect five years that we have spent together," he reveals as he continues to break up and sob.

Sarah has a sudden urge to comfort him intimately. She doesn't know why she's feeling like this. Actually, she knows exactly why she is feeling like this. Because he is her husband and it is so cruel and horrifying that she cant remember him because he needs her right now. He needs his wife. But it's not fair on him. She could comfort him, as she so desperately wants to do. But it would be a stranger comforting him. She does not remember him. He deserves and needs to have a wife who loves him unconditionally, and not one that can't even remember the slightest thing about him. But she wants to remember. She wants to remember him. She wants to remember everything about their life that they had lived together. It all sounds so perfect. She continues to sit in the sand as she stares at him with tears flowing down her cheeks willing herself to remember him. Willing to remember him so that she can comfort him, as a wife should her husband.

"I'm so sorry, Chuck, for what we lost," Sarah says comfortingly to him.

"It was perfect," he declares emotionally to her.

"It sounds it. Obviously we had our difficulties but like you said earlier, what couple doesn't? I wish could remember you, Chuck. Believe me, you don't wish it any more than I do," she finishes as she touches his arm with her hand briefly and she begins to wipe her eyes.

On hearing her words, Chuck begins to gaze at her from his own watery eyes with his cheeks still wet from his own tears.

"You know, Morgan has this crazy idea," he says nervously.

"What is it?" she asks affectionately.

"He thinks that with one kiss you will remember everything."

Sarah giggles briefly. "One magical kiss?" she asks as she continues to giggle.

"Yeah," he says as he begins to chuckle.

Sarah begins to laugh once more on hearing his response.

"I know, it's,"

"Chuck?" Sarah asks as she interrupts him.

"Yeah?"

"Kiss me," she demands as she stares into her husband's eyes and she waits for him to move in motion to kiss her before quickly meeting him half way…

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Inside Sarah's Lotus

Sarah felt an overwhelming attraction to him on leaving him. She didn't want to leave him, and when his tears came she wanted to comfort him so desperately, as if it was her herself that was hurting inside. So she didn't want to leave him when she did a few hours ago, but she had to. It wasn't fair on him to have a wife that cannot remember him. Quinn didn't just take her life away, he took Chuck's life away too. Sarah owes it to herself, and to Chuck My husband. To find herself, and to find how she truly feels about him before she can return to him.

Sarah moves to take out her mobile phone and she places it into the palm of her hand as she then swipes and unlocks the device. Scrolling through the device, she ends up inside the pictures section and she swipes through them for a long moment before settling and jabbing her finger on the location of one of them, a picture then appears of Chuck which she has no recollection of, and as she begins to study his picture and think of her husband, a flashback hits her...

~~~ Sarah Lisa Bartowski was sitting inside this exact same car. She had her phone inside her right hand and she was dressed in a beige blouse and she had her left leg raised up onto the wheel of the car and she was wearing a black stiletto. Only Chuck was also present with her inside of the car. He was between her raised left leg. ~~~

What does this memory mean? Why were we there? What were we doing? I can't remember!

On her powerful memory hitting her, Sarah attempts desperately hard for the next few minutes to try and recollect further about the memory that had just flashed through her mind. She is certain that it is a memory. It felt so real. Sarah moves to unbuckle her seatbelt, before immediately moving her leg up onto the wheel exactly like it was positioned in the memory that she has just had hoping to spark further recollection back to this moment that had formerly occurred with her husband. Anybody outside on the street or in a home that has her car in view will think that she's insane. Not that she would even register their presence or care, as right now, Sarah is oblivious and she is in a complete world of her own as she tries so desperately hard to remember more of the memory of her being with Chuck that had just hit her.

Please remember, Sarah! Oh god, please let me remember!

Sarah continues to openly will and beg for further recollection to come of her being together with her husband but nothing materializes. Breathing out a long deep sigh, she lowers her leg and she then hits her hand into the dashboard of her car in an extreme moment of frustration on her being unable to trigger any further recollection.

Sarah then begins to play around with the screen of her mobile phone once more and she navigates her way to her contacts book and she scrolls through her contacts until finding her husband's name. Her hand then lingers over 'Call' for a brief moment in pause, and she breathes out a deep sigh to control her frustrations over not being able to remember anything more than what she had. On restoring her composure, she jabs her finger onto the screen and then brings her phone up to her ear...

It takes a few rings until she finally hears a response and the call connects with Chuck.

"Sarah, hi," he says affectionately. She can feel him smiling into the phone based on his tone of voice with her.

She smiles back. "I'm sorry, did I wake you?" she asks sincerely.

"No, Morgan is over. We're having a bit of a geek night."

Sarah begins to laugh on hearing his words as a feeling of euphoria hits her on hearing Chuck's soothing voice and his words to her.

"Where are you?" he then asks.

"I've just arrived," She says, her mind in conflict. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left you. But you deserve to have a wife that knows who you are and loves you, not some stranger that can't remember anything about you.

"Ok, great. I'm glad your journey was safe," he says in a deeply sincere tone which makes Sarah feel butterflies in her stomach hearing his heartfelt sincerity and her face begins to blush slightly.

"Thank you. Chuck, the real reason I'm calling this late is because I think I remember something about us being together. Well either that or I'm going insane and I'm imagining it," she laughs briefly. "I don't know if it's significant?"

"What did you remember?" He asks, she can hear the hope in his tone.

"I remember being inside this Lotus. And you were also in it with me," she reveals.

Chuck chuckles into the conversation for a brief moment.

"I was between your legs, right?"

"YES!" Sarah screams out into her car and into the phone in extreme excitement and overwhelming relief as a bright smile begins to form on her face and a sparkle in her eye. IT WAS A MEMORY! AND IT WAS ONE OF ME TOGETHER WITH HIM!

"Obviously I've been inside the car with you a lot. But if you were going to have a memory, then it would definitely be the time that I was between your legs," she hears him chuckle once more as a wide grin forms on her face.

"What were we doing?" Sarah asks inquisitively for more information.

"I found out that there was a bomb in the car. You had been betrayed by somebody you thought was a real friend that wasn't a spy but sadly, she wasn't. We had met her at a Buy More convention. And you just wanted a real friend as you had become very disillusioned with the spy life." he admits.

"She planted a bomb on me?" Sarah asks as she fills up with anger on being betrayed by somebody she wanted to be her real friend.

"Yeah," he admits.

"What happened to her?" Sarah asks with malice.

"Um, the short story is that you took her down. Like the amazing Sarah you are," he declares.

Sarah's bright smile continues on hearing her husband's words.

"What about the long story?"

"The long story is that she was an assassin sent to kill Team Bartowski and Casey killed her."

"Well, I wish I could say I'm sorry she's dead. But I'm not."

Sarah immediately hears her husband audibly wince on his hearing his wife's bluntness.

"So, what made you remember it?" he asks.

"I don't know. I was just sitting in the car with my phone in my hand," she deflects, unable to share all of her emotions with him. I was looking at you. Pictures of you.

There is a moment of pause and Sarah waits patiently for him to speak again as Chuck is probably trying to recall that memory himself.

"You had your phone in your hand when I was working on the bomb. Maybe that's what made you recall it. Sarah, I think your memories are just suppressed, not erased. It seems like you remember things if you have a trigger to remember them. You mentioned the bell at the Buy More at the beach to me. Looking at the bell when you came to ask me for help with Quinn caused you to feel something. And then the situation with the bomb inside the Orchestra and Quinn, looking at the prism express laptop made you think about Irene Demova. And then when you were at the beach you remembered that it was important just by sitting on it. And then when you seen our names engraved in your dream home you remembered that you wrote them." he says with renewed hope that Sarah may well get her memories and their lives back.

On hearing his words, an enormous smile forms on Sarah's face that would rival one of her husband's who is a master of them. "I think you might be right, Chuck," Sarah says enthusiastically with strong hope herself.

"So, do you remember anything else?" he asks, his tone continuing to sound filled with hope.

Sarah's smile fades and she fills up with despondence over her situation.

"No," she admits depressively.

"They will come back Sarah, with time," he says and she hears his tone oozing with confidence.

"How do you know that? What If I never remember what I have lost?" she asks, feeling glum and depressed.

"Because you're Sarah. You can do anything. And that's why you will remember. You will beat this, Sarah," he says in his continued confident tone of voice.

"I like your positivity," she says as a smile begins to form once more. I like it a lot. I love it, actually.

"It's all I have to hold onto," he says in resignation.

Sarah's breath caught on hearing his response to her. Why do his words impact and effect me so much?

"I'm sorry, Chuck. That I can't remember. That I can't remember you and our lives," she says sympathetically.

"Sarah, don't be. It's not your fault. Quinn took away your life."

And I am going to get it back. I won't allow the CIA and the spy life to take a single thing more from me. I've sacrificed and given it so much. I am done. I am through with spying. I will find myself again.

"He took away yours too, Chuck," she says sympathetically to her husband.

Sarah then didn't receive a response from Chuck for several seconds and she immediately begins to worry that she had said something that was too much for her husband.

"Are you ok?" Sarah asks concerned as she continues to experience deep sorrow knowing that he may be hurting right now.

"Sarah, I don't want to burden you with any more than what you're already going through. You have enough going on without having to worry about me right now,"

"I want to worry. Talk to me, Chuck," she replies instantly without any thought of her words. She just spoke out what she feels for him inside.

She then hears him breathe out a deep sigh into the phone.

"I miss you, Sarah," he declares in a low pitched affectionate tone.

A bright smile begins to form on Sarah's face and she shrugs her shoulder in a feeling of euphoria. I miss you too. I just can't recall why I feel like this. I feel so conflicted and confused...

"I'm coming back, Chuck. I'll see you in a few days. I don't have a job any more. You are all I have in my life, even if I can't remember you right now, so I'll come back. I just need a few days. I feel so conflicted and confused over how I feel. Ok?" she says reassuringly.

"Sarah, your health and condition comes before everything. I get that your feelings are all over the place right now. I wont push you."

Sarah's smiles grows larger on hearing his words. "Thank you for being so understanding. It must not be easy for you, Chuck."

"Nothing is easy in life, Sarah. This is just another challenge life is throwing at me and at us."

"I wish I could be as strong as you. I feel close to breaking apart right now," she admits as a sad smile forms on her face as she continues to talk to her husband.

He responds to her instantly. "If you need to talk. Then I am here. Whenever," he declares powerfully.

A bright smile forms instantly on her face once more on hearing his words to her. He makes me feel so loved!

"Thank you, Chuck. Oh, I just remembered. Can I ask you something?"

"Sarah, you could ask me anything you ever wanted and I'd answer," he declares powerfully.

"Anything?" Sarah says flirtatiously with a wide smirk as she eagerly awaits his response.

"Anything," he responds instantly.

Sarah giggles into the phone happily on hearing his response. "What happened to my Porsche and why do I have the Lotus?"

"The Porsche got blown up."

"By who?"

"Amy. It turned out that she was the mole in your CAT squad all along and not Zondra. Zondra was even a bridesmaid at our wedding, just like Carina," he reveals.

A bright smile forms once more on Sarah's face on hearing her husband's revelations.

"Wow. We all suspected Zondra for so long. I can't believe it was Amy," she says in disbelief.

She then hears him chuckling into the phone and her continued smile remains as his laughter warms her heart.

"How did I get the Lotus, though?" she then asks.

Chuck chuckles for a long moment once more at his wife's trademark inquisitive nature. "You bought yourself the Lotus sometime after you lost the Porsche. I came with you and you were just so awed by it. I convinced you to buy it and to treat yourself," he reveals in a warm loving tone.

A bright smile forms on Sarah's face. "It's a good car. It drives so well," she admits.

"Yeah, it does," he agrees.

The conversation then enters into a moment of silence between the husband and wife.

"I need to go now, Chuck. Before it's too late and Mom heads to bed. I'll call you." she says eventually.

"Ok, Sarah. Thank you for calling me tonight. Sleep well."

"You too, Chuck," she says warmly.

"Goodnight."

"Goodnight," she says, as the husband and wife pause for a long moment in silence for at least ten seconds, before Sarah reluctantly ends the call.

On ending the call, she stares at the screen, feeling so lost and empty once more. Talking to him made her feel complete. And now she suddenly feels very empty once more.

Sighing deeply, she exits her car that she can't remember buying for herself. Just one of likely tens of thousands of things forgotten. And all of it happened because she had became a spy. I should have told Graham where to stick it all those years ago. Then this would never have happened. I wouldn't have lost my memory. I wouldn't have lost my life. And I wouldn't have lost my memory of my husband.

Sarah begins to walk down the pathway of her mother's home. Arriving at the porch, she takes a long moment in reflection, before ringing the doorbell to her mother's home...

Sarah begins to see activity less than a minute later. She watches as the light turns on, and her mother then opens the door.

Sarah smiles at her mother on them making eye contact with each other.

"Hi, Mom, I hope you don't mind me being here. I just…" she pauses for a long moment to sigh. "I have nothing else in my life left that's real. He is very real. But I can't remember him," she admits, feeling so lost, so empty, so confused. She feels so dull and void.

Emma moves to compassionately hug her daughter who she is now seeing for the first time since her daughter lost her memory of the past five happy years of her life and of her husband.

"I don't mind at all sweetheart. I knew you were coming. Chuck rang me and told me you were coming. I put Molly to bed a few hours ago because I didn't want to overwhelm you," she says affectionately into the embrace with her daughter.

"How is she?" Sarah asks her mother.

"She's growing up so well."

Sarah smiles faintly. "That's um, that's good."

"What about you. How are you?" Emma asks as she stares compassionately into her daughter's eyes.

"I don't know, Mom. I don't know what's wrong with me," she replies as tears begin to leave her eyes.

"Sweetheart, I'm so sorry," Emma says compassionately as she moves to embrace her broken daughter once more.

"Mom, I feel so empty and broken and lost," Sarah cries into her mother's arms...

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Echo Park

"Chuck, are you sure you'll be ok tonight man?" Morgan asks sympathetically as he begins to eye up his best friend warily feeling very concerned for the wellbeing of his best friend.

"I'll be fine, Morgan," Chuck says reassuringly to his best friend with a nod of his head.

"I can't believe that the kiss didn't work man," Morgan says despondently.

Chuck sighs deeply. "Morgan, fairy tales don't just happen like that."

"Yes they do buddy. Because you met her. You met her and you made her fall for you. You made her love you with all of her heart, and she will again, I'm sure of it," he says with conviction.

"How do I get her to Morgan?" he asks his best friend for help and guidance.

"You make her love you all over again Chuck. Show her and give her exactly what you gave her before her memory was suppressed. It has already worked once. She may even recover her memories, like me."

"Morgan, you didn't remember everything either. And Sarah lost a lot more than you. She forgot everybody. You still remembered who we were." Chuck retorts despondently over his present situation.

"Chuck, you've came through worse than this man. Sarah will come back to you. I told you to follow your heart and you found her. And now Sarah is going to follow her heart and she will find you, as you found her. You belong together. And nothing is going to take that away from you both. It's too powerful," he declares confidently to his best friend.

"I hope that you're right buddy." Chuck says dejectedly.

"I am Chuck, I am," Morgan replies to his best friend as they move to embrace. "If you need anything, then don't hesitate to call me or Alex."

"Thanks Morgan. I love you man."

"I love you too Chuck. Goodnight."

"Goodnight." Chuck says as he watches Morgan walk away.

Once Morgan is out from sight, Chuck turns and enters into his and Sarah's apartment once more. Closing the door after him, he collapses down against the doorframe and sits into a ball. "Please come back to me, Sarah," he says as he puts aside his brave face and he starts to cry feeling so empty and broken and lost…

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AN/ So because Chuck telling Sarah their story went on so long, I needed to end the chapter because 16,000 is already a massive monstrosity so the conversations I promised with Emma and Molly will happen in Chapter 3. Sarah and Chuck will also share another conversation.

I intentionally left some Charah moments out when Chuck told Sarah their story because the fun will be in remembering them together once more, like she remembered the Lotus scene :)

There was so much in this chapter to digest. The emotional telling of their story. Sarah's first actual memory of Chuck. And then the final parts to the chapter. So I hope you enjoyed today's chapter and please review on your way out.