Drugs. How would you describe them for Alex. Like freedom, a sense of reality of somewhat. Alex didn't have a lot , he didn't have a loving sister , a loving sister , not anymore a loving boyfriend, a loving family so what did he have?

Alex had all that once a loving sister , loving parents , loving friends and a loving boyfriend. He had it all but why not now ? What ever went to wrong.

Alex and June were close as little children. Alex's panic attacks and adhd caused him to not remember things but he remembered one time, one time him and his sister climbed up and slept in their tree house when they were little because their parents were fighting. He remembered every detail.

June and came into Alex's room and they managed to sneak out and into their tree house.

" You know, it's not going to always be like this , right ?" June said as she moved around, knowing Alex's next words.

"But it is… Mom and Dad aren't going to stop."

June had no response to that. Alex has 4 and June had just turned 6 and it was Alex's birthday soon. Were they even going to do anything for Alex's birthday? Or would they fight. Alex didn't learn anything from his parents, everything from his big sister.

Henry was the love of his life. He loved him so much but Henry couldn't handle him. He wanted to not do drugs anymore but Henry wouldn't let him cut himself so what was he gonna do? Not do anything ? He went to rehab but he relapsed every single time. Henry broke up with him 3 years ago but god does it still hurt. Henry has a new boyfriend now, his sister is married to his own sister, they also have a kid.

But Alex? He isn't in the picture, he wishes he was but he isn't. I mean, not even Bea sees Alex and she once did drugs. But in sense she did coke and Alex does MDMA, morphine etc etc you name it. He just took drugs to relieve himself but he also didn't stop the self harm when henry left. He would never stop not ever.

It was Alex's birthday, well the day after that they broke up. Alex knew he messed up , he hadn't done drugs for a while but he got scared , overstimulated and couldn't help it.

Alex just remembered Henry screaming , Henry screaming the words " I LOVE YOU ALEX , but… I can't date someone like you, someone who's a druggie, mentally draining and … self centred.. I'm sorry, I truly am." Those words he repeated in his head every single day of his life. He was a bad person , but god he loved henry with everything.

It was a week after Henry's birthday, also two weeks after him and his boyfriend's anniversary. Him, his boyfriend, June and Bea were having a picnic all together, it was a nice day , until June got a phone call. It was seconds before June could have broken down if her wife and friends weren't there she just walked to her group mumbling words.

" We're going to the hospital." June held her head low before the others looked at her, before she could even say anything " It's alex, he tried to kill himself… and they said it's bad." Not even seconds later June and Henry were the first ones rushing into the hospitals until all four of them got to Alex's room they froze.

He was asleep or maybe even dead they didn't know. He had blood , water hooked up to him , he was hooked up to so many machines, his only way of breathing was the oxygen mask he was wearing. Bandages wrapped all around his arms and there was blood , fucking blood everywhere.

The doctor walked to the room before he could let them in. " as I am going to assume you are all family." The doctor sighed as he looked down at his check board "Alex is in a bad condition I'll have to tell you that. The high possibility that Alex could not wake up is… at 70%. Alex also has multiple stab wounds, self inflicted, I'll let you in now thank you."

Bea just broke. June and Henry , kept it inside as they walked to either side of the bed.

Henry held onto his hand as June did the same. Henry loved his boyfriend a lot but. He loved Alex so much more, Alex had really attempted this time and , he REALLY tried this time. Alex really didn't want to live. Henry just sobbed as he held onto his hand.

Now June. June knew her and Alex grew apart. She knew Alex felt lonely. But this lonely ? No she had no idea. She loved Alex , her brother was the number one thing she had left besides her friends, she really loved him. " Cmon Lex… you can pull through… for your big sister..?"

3 days later He did not pull through. Alex passed away in Junes And Henry's arms on March 1st 3.00am, the exact date when henry and Alex got together. He was noted to have passed away from an overdose, and a suicide. Henry that day broke up with his boyfriend because he knew he couldn't handle it , he couldn't handle the man he loved so much just went, just like that. And henry and June blamed themselves, they could have been there, but they weren't.

At the funeral everyone showed up, even Alex's ex boyfriends and girlfriends showed up. Leo, Ellen and Oscar showed up. Henry's mother showed up, everyone showed up. Junes ex , Nora , showed up. Everyone just cried and cried and cried. The one thing that made their life's , bright, their sunshine was gone. Alexander Gabriel Claremont Diaz was gone, and this time wasn't coming back.