I woke up this morning feeling the same amount of guilt and regret I've been feeling for the past two

weeks; if not worse. I'm fully aware that I initiated the break-up, but the days that followed were truly

miserable. It felt like I had completely forgotten how to function as a human being. My weekends were

spent lying down in my bed, occasionally getting up to use the bathroom or take a shower. I hardly even

ate these days, and it wasn't until the second week that my mother had enough that she made me come

down to eat.

I was not the only one that was affected by the break-up. My mother; Esmé, and father; Carlisle, were

understandably upset; they liked Bella and considered her a second daughter. Alice took our break-up

harder than anyone else which, just like Esme and Carlisle, is understandable. Bella is her best friend, and

from what I've heard, she's struggling with the break-up as much as I am. I may or may not have listened

in on their conversation when she spent the night last weekend with Rosalie and Alice.

Flashback:

"So how do you feel about the whole breakup?" Rosalie questioned.

The room fell silent before Bella finally responded. I almost wished she hadn't.

"Honestly? It's hard. I spent the past two years of my life with Edward. We spent every holiday, birthday,

summer, etc. together. What am I supposed to do now? He made me feel real love, and he distracted me

from everything. Aside from you two, he was the only one that made me feel alive. I miss him."

Alice pulled Bella into her arms. "I know, honey. I'm so mad at him. You guys were perfect. It'll get better."

"Will it?" Bella scoffed. "It's been so hard seeing him at school. I try my best to avoid him here."

"If it makes you feel any better, Emmett said Edward has been the same way. He's barely himself these

days." Rosalie sighed.

I eventually walked away after I've heard enough. Hearing Bella cry knowing I was the cause of it hurt

worse than anything I've ever felt.

Present day:

A gentle knock on my door pulled me from my thoughts. "Good morning, Edward. There's breakfast

downstairs waiting for you. I don't want it to get cold." My mother's voice broke through the silence from

behind my thick black door.

"I'll be down in a minute."

Once I heard her footsteps fade, I tossed my blanket aside and swung my legs over my bed. The day

wasn't going to pause, and I had school. I opened up my closet door and pulled out a pair of dark wash

jeans and a simple plain black tee. I tossed them onto the love seat in the corner of my room before

heading to the bathroom for a quick shower.

I thoroughly scrubbed every inch of my body, letting the steam hit the air. After I quickly washed my hair,

I stepped out and glanced at my phone. It was 6:39AM and I needed to be at school at 7:30AM.

I

grabbed my towel from the hook on my bathroom door and quickly dried off. Once I was dry enough, I

quickly slipped on my clothes and headed downstairs to eat. I was greeted with the presence of my sister

and father. Alice's presence didn't last long. As soon as she laid her eyes on me, she grabbed her keys and

slipped out of the front door, slamming it on her way out.

"She's still ignoring you?" My dad chuckled.

I shrugged in response.

"Listen, son," he said, leaning against the counter, "Your mother and I were very young when we started

dating. People tried to break us up all the time. We've had her friends who disapproved of each other, and

there were always temptations to stray. But what I want you to know is that if you truly love someone, no

one can tear you apart."

He patted my shoulder before heading upstairs with his mug of coffee. I ended up leaving out the kitchen

a moment after him and before I shut the front door I heard, "Think about what I said."

School was miserable and I hadn't even made it to second period yet. All throughout my first period, I

would catch myself lost in my thoughts about Bella. I don't know why, but nothing could shake my mind

from Bella.

"Hey, man," Emmett's voice cut through my thoughts. He walked up to me and slapped his large hand

onto my shoulder. "You okay?" He questioned, sitting in the empty chair beside me.

I sighed, running a hand through my messy hair. "No." There's no point in lying. Everyone knows I

haven't been myself since I broke up with Bella.

"I know Bella is my sister and all, but do you wanna talk about it? Together or not, you'll always be my

brother. I'm here for you," he said, stepping back to examine my face.

"I don't know, Emmett. I thought I was doing what was best for me, but I think Bella IS what's best for

me," I scoffed, "She was the best part of me."

He nodded, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his knees, "I get it. She hasn't been holding up well

either. I'm lucky if I can even catch her using the bathroom." Of course, I knew this already.

Leaning forward in my chair, I placed my arms on my desk and laid my head there. I felt like the biggest

idiot in the world. Part of my feelings came from letting people that aren't even important get into my

head, but most of them came from the guilt I felt. My Bella is hurting and it's all my fault.

"Look, Ed," Emmett said, getting up from his seat, "I'm not sure what the future holds, but I want my

family back." And with that, he grabbed his bag and walked to the door; the bell ringing right before he

stepped out.

The day dragged by feeling longer as each class passed. During lunch I ended up going to the library.

Since the breakup, I would join Mike and some other guys from my classes, but today I was not in the

mood. I couldn't shake off the heavy feelings weighing on me.

I didn't eat anything during lunch, mainly because it was a rule that food was prohibited in the library. I

was definitely hungry- my stomach being the main indicator, but there was no way I was going to the

cafeteria where Bella was currently eating with our friends and family. Not that I don't want to be around

her. I just don't think I can bear to see the hurt on her face.

For the remaining time, I scrolled through each app on my phone. I was currently scrolling on Facebook

reading some of my classmates'

statuses. None of it sparked my interest, but for some reason I couldn't

stop scrolling. A small chuckled escaped me when I saw Jessica Stanley sent me a friend request. Jessica

has been trying to get my attention for years, and despite me constantly telling her I wasn't interested, she

still tried. I hit the decline button and shoved my phone into my back pocked.

"Hey, Edward," I heard a voice behind me. Turning around, I spotted Lauren Mallory making her way

toward me.

I pursed my lips, "What's up?" Lauren Mallory was the average high school girl. She was 5 feet and 6

inches in height. She usually came to school in tight jeans and a shirt that accentuated her breasts.

Definitely not my type.

"I was wondering...," She bit her lip, "would you be interested in going to the movies with me? Like a

date."

"Sorry, I'm not interested." I moved around her and walked out of the library, dismissing her. I should

have been paying attention because as I rounded the corner, I bumped into something small and solid.

A rush of familiarity hit me, the strawberry scent immediately filling my nose. "Bella." My gaze shifted

down. She looked beautiful as always, but this wasn't my Bella. Her long hair was thrown into a messy

bun- a few strands framing her face. She wore a white Nike hoodie and black sweatpants, casual yet

breathtaking on her. On her feet were ankle length UGG boots. To strangers they would most likely thing

she's dressed comfortable, especially in the rainy town of Forks. To me though, I knew she barely had the

energy to dress herself up.

"Hi, Edward," she greeted, the familiar pink blush immediately spreading across her cheeks, "How are

you?"

I shrugged, attempting to appear nonchalant, "I'm living, you?"

"I'm..." She looked down at her feet, "I'm not okay." Without thinking, I raised my hand, gently caressing

her cheek. I stepped closer, hovering my lips just above hers. I had been longing to be this close to her for

weeks.

"I miss you, Bella. I love you."

Hi, everyone! Thank you for reading and reviewing my first chapter. This is my first time writing a

story with multiple chapters so please be patient with me. I may make some changes in the future.

SN: This is not a story where Edward or Bella dates around and then eventually gets back together.

This will always be Bella and Edward.

ALL CHARACTERS BELONG TO STEPHANIE MEYERS.