AUTHOR'S NOTE:

So I have over ten chapters of this fiction outlined which isn't something I have done with any of my others before this. Its something new I'm trying to see if I like it.

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DISCLAIMER:

I DO NOT OWN NARUTO

Last time:

She loved him.

And she needed to find him. She needed to bring him home.

Chapter 1: Why?

It's been two years since Naruto's seal wore off and she had to get used to her 'new' body. It was hard at first since she didn't know anything about being a girl other than that they annoyed the fuck out of her. The first thing she did after coming to terms with being a female was have Tsunade cut her hair so that it stopped at the middle of her back instead of at her ankles. She never had to worry about it before since her hair never seemed to grow.

Everyone else seemed to get used to the 'new' Naruto before she did which was just sad in her opinion. What did that say for her past as a boy?

Naruto thought of Sasuke almost everyday. Especially when they got a new team mate, Sai. He looked like a pale imitation of Sasuke, literally. And he always seemed to be staring at her. Sometimes it creeped her out and Sakura would point it out a few times here and there and he would stop for a while.

Sakura was the first person to accept Naruto suddenly being a girl and helped her get used to the idea. She never let anyone give her shit for it either, and for that the blonde was glad.

Now she was standing in the Hokage's office waiting for Tsunade to give her an answer to whether or not she could go find Sasuke again.

Tsunade sat at her desk with her elbows propped up on her desk and her hands together resting against her chin. She looked at Naruto for a long time before sighing and turning around. "I need you here Naruto. You're one of our best Ninja and I can't afford to have you leaving to find Sasuke Uchiha all the time. So my answer is no. You can't do it anymore."

Naruto's face grew red with anger. "That's not fair! Granny Tsunade you know what this means to me!" How could she say no? It's been over two years since she last went to find him, or had heard any news about him. She wanted to go, no, she needed to go. She smacked her hands down on the desk in front of her causing papers to flutter to the floor.

She could hear the other woman sigh. "I am sorry Naruto but that is my final decision on the matter." She knew that Naruto might not forgive her for telling her no, but she really had no other choice. Naruto was need in the village, and if anyone out side the village found out that Naruto Uzumaki was not a boy, hell would break loose. It was hard enough to send her on the few missions she had gone on the past couple of years. But to let her go off in search of Sasuke Uchiha alone? Impossible.

Naruto couldn't believe this. She had waited so long for a chance to go, only to be told no. It made her want to cry out in anger and frustration. She stormed out of the Hokage's office and down the steps leaving Tsunade questioning if she had done the right thing.

Shikamaru saw her coming and quickly got out of her way. The blonde looked to be in a bad mood and he didn't want to be on the other end of it. He felt sorry for whoever caused the bad mood.

Naruto made it back to her apartment and began to pack her bag of things she would need. She had already decided on her way back to her apartment that she was going to leave tonight. With or without Tsunade's permission. She just needed to wait a few hours.

Little did Naruto know that Tsunade anticipated her leaving and placed her apartment under the watch of her team mates, Sai and Sakura. Sakura didn't like the idea of keeping an eye on her friend and reporting back to Tsunade with out her knowing. It felt like she was betraying Naruto, even if she half agreed with Tsunade about the keeping Naruto safe part. She gave up hopes of being with Sasuke a long time ago. When she realized that the only person Sasuke paid any attention to was Naruto. It got to the point before they found out that Naruto was actually a girl that she thought Sasuke might be gay.

Now it might have just been his Uchiha genes seeing something through the seal without him noticing, and he just went with it. Hell he might have even been confused by the whole thing which might be why he was always glaring at Naruto. And Naruto, who knows what went through that mind when they were younger. Thinking about it caused Sakura to giggle sometimes.

Night was coming closer and still there was no movement from Naruto's apartment, which in all reality was odd. So Sakura signaled to Sai that she was going in to check. As she got closer to the door the more she felt like she should just let Naruto go. For five years now that's all she's ever wanted was Sasuke back, whether she was doing it because she knew she loved him or not.

When Sakura got to the door she raised her hand to knock, but found she couldn't. She couldn't stand in her friend's way this time. It might be the last chance she got to get what she wanted. Naruto's last chance to bring him home. And if she didn't get the chance she would come to hate her for it if she were the one to stop her. Naruto needed to do this even if she failed, cause Sasuke didn't know that Naruto was a girl, and he didn't know that she loved him.

So she lowered her hand and backed away.

The crackle of the radio in her ear reminded her about Sai. "What are you doing Sakura?"

She placed her left hand to her ear. "I can't do it."

"Why not?" He sounded annoyed which was impressive considering he was still working on facial expressions.

"Because I can't be the on to stop her from finding him. She loves-" She heard him curse about the stupidity of not following orders before the radio cut off.

From the corner of her eye she watched as Sai suddenly left his post to chase after something down the road. Probably Naruto. Sakura decided it would be best if she just went home and waited for Naruto to return on her own. There was no way Sai was going to be able to get her to come back. The only one that could get her to listen now was Sasuke.

Sai raced down the road after the blonde streak he saw for only a moment. But he did see it. It had to be Naruto. Sai pushed himself faster knowing that if he wanted to catch her he needed to go faster. He catches up with her as she's about to walk through the southern gate out of the village.

"Naruto, wait." He calls out and she stops but doesn't turn around. He walks over to her and places a hand on her shoulder as he comes around in front blocking her way. "Please don't go."

She cocks her head to the side confused. "Why do you care if I leave?" and shrugs off his hand, missing the look of hurt in his eyes.

Sai looks at the ground knowing that Naruto won't wait long for an answer but knows also he must think of a good reason to give her. "Because I love you, Naruto." And it was true, over the past two and years since he's met her he had fallen in love with her. At first when he was in Root he had heard amazing tales of the Host of the Nine Tailed Fox he had admired her not knowing like everyone else that she was a girl. Boy was he shocked when he found out Naruto was a girl.

When he learned of Sasuke he was annoyed that a person who left was still so much on everyone's mind and that he was compared to this absent person. He grew even more annoyed when he figured out that Naruto was in love with the Ninja. He couldn't figure out what was so great about the guy. From what he ould gather the guy had left when Sakura and Naruto were thirteen, but for some reason they were strongly attached to him and wouldn't let him go. Why couldn't she love him instead? He wanted Naruto for himself.

Sai watches as her eyes widened in shock before he leans in and presses his lips against hers and holds her to his chest. He didn't expect her not to react at all, he wanted her to be shocked or to gasp or something. But she just stands there as he kisses her.

Naruto doesn't respond as Sai pulls away, she doesn't know how. She knows she doesn't feel the same way as he does, which just makes her feel awkward as he stares at her for some reaction. Part of her wants to wipe the feeling of his lips on hers away with her hand and another wants to cry cause someone besides Sasuke kissed her. Without her permission. So she did neither.

"I am sorry Sai, but I love Sasuke." She whispers looking away from him.

"Why?" He demands. "Why him?"

Naruto smiled sadly to herself before looking at Sai. "When I figure that out I will let you know."

As she makes to go around him to go through the gate he grabs a hold of her wrist causing her to get annoyed. "Let me go Sai." Naruto looks down at the hand around her wrist, giving him a chance to do it himself before she removed him herself.

He shakes his head, "I can't do that. Tsunade's orders."

Figures Tsunade would use her team mates to keep an eye on her so she wouldn't ask questions about why they were around.

Naruto tugged on her arm trying to just shake him loose without hurting him. "If you don't let go of me right now Sai you will regret it later." She growled out getting angrier when his grip only tightened. "Suit yourself."

A Rasengan formed in her hand, a small one since she didn't want to hurt him too bad, just get him to leave her alone, before she launched it at his stomach. He quickly let go of her wrist as he was sent flying a few feet away.

"Do not follow me." With that as her last words she left Konoha and Sai behind as she went to go find Sasuke.

Author's note... again.

here is the first actual chapter, I hope you enjoyed it! please review?