Percy knew it was a anxiety day the moment he woke up. The way a ball felt like it was lodged in his throught and disnt stop buzzing even after taking his ADHD meds. He could feel the panic attack awhile before it came. 30 mins untill leo was normaly done with breakfast. I geuss i'll just skip percy thought. He felt lungs start to hurt snd his breathing became more scatterd and hard. Percy moved his desk chair agisnt the door to keeo people out sliantly cursing leo for not adding locks on the doors. He didnt need the rest of the argo to see him like this, vulnerable and unavaliable. Only Annabeth had seen him and that attack was more melow then the one he could feel rising. Percy started to walk towards his bed when his legs collapsed. He felt as if he was breathing in metal whilst drowning. His legs vilantly started shaking and he cloudnt foucus on anything (even less fhen his normla adhd brain could) poisn started dripping and flodding him like it had in tartarus claws dug maks onto his back. Trying to take deep breaths Percy felt around him for anything to make this stop, anything to ground him

-Im worthless no one would want to be with me-

Percy slipped his hand under his bed and grasped onto a familiar object. A pocket knife.

He'd tried to keep clean for annabeths sake even though she knew nothing aboit it.

-I deserve this how can anyone stand me im such a bad person-

Fliping the familar blade down he stroked his fingers along the edge of the blade. He knew better then to cut his wrists. He pulled his pants of revealing his inner thigh. Looking like he'd been munted by a bear.

Percy started slowly taking the blade to his skin but with his out of sync breaths,shaking legs and disorientated self the blade dug deeper then it normly would, coating his thigh in thick blood. It felt good, grounding himself and slowing his breaths down. He didnt know when he started crying but his tears fell onto his leg pushing the blood away. Percy took the knife to his skin again.

and again

and again

"percy its time for breakfast"

and again

"perce? Your normaly up by now, why dose your door feel locked?

another time for good mesure that one was for charles

another time for bianca

Slam

Annabeth brust through the door a smile plastered on her face

"Perc-"

she started

Percy looked up and tried to hide his mistakes and deaths but his blood was seeping through his carpet

Annabeth and him locked eyeconact before percy quiclt broke it looking at the floor.

Annabeth stood, shocked tears starting to well his her eyes.

"Percy?"

she asked

"PERCY"

she spoke louder makeing percy flinch and curl into a ball struggling to breath.

Annabeth not knowing what to do walked up to him,"Why percy? Why?!"

She spoke as tears joint percys on the floor. "percy please let me see your leg please!" She asked with more force.

Percy stayed in a ball.

"Percy can I touch you?"

Percy nodded slowly looking up meating annabeths eyes

Annabeth pulled him up to sitting embracing percy in a hug.

Annabeth started crying into percys sholder. To her her most amazing kind careing and brave boyfreind was hurting himself over and over for no reason.

"why?" She asked in tears.

"I" percy sniffed "i had a attack and I I needed to ground myself, i deserved it"

Annabeth herself had had a fair share of panic attacks but none had ended in cutting herself and she didnt even know percys got this bad

" Perce i know your not going to belive this now hut you've done nothing to deserve this you've done nothing thats made you need to hurt yourself I wish you coulld see this." Annabeth said tears stil welling in her eyes.

A voice meeted hers from the stairwell

"Hey my peeps Pece and Anna? Were ya at breakfast is nearly done!"

"Just a bit leo we have um percys not feeling that great!" Annabeth yelled out and leos footsteps disappeared.

"Honey it hurts me knowing that you do this to yourself please please dont, how long has this been going on for? Since the fall?"

Thinking back Percy could rember self harming since he was with gabe. Though he used to use a lighter on his other thigh as he dudnt start the cutting till he was 14.

"8 or 9 "Percy replied in a small voice

Annabeth just stared back. The hole time shed known percy he'd been doing this to himself, punishing himself for no reason.

"How offten are your attcks?" Annabeth asked

Perfy tried to think but he couldnt give a specific answer.

"sometimes i have multiple a day sometimes i only have like one very few days." Annabeth nodded.

"Please please try not to do this again i know its hard to stop strait away but this hurts me so much and I can see it hurts you please baby" Annabeth says with tears still welling in her eyes

Percy nodds not knowing if he can keep the prommis but he dosnt want to hurt annabeth anymore.

"Can you walk?" Annabeth asks, Percy shakes his head as hes legs feel like hes just run a marathon and he basicly had, a mind marathon.

Annabeth carried the limp percy up wich wasnt hard beacuse annabeth was very strong. She took him to the bathroom attached to his room. She ran the tap and started dabbing his cuts along his thigh "pl please dont tell anyone" percy mumbles "honey I wont tell a sole i can tell you the amount of adhd and autistic depressed demigods with way to much trama im sure there going through similar times". Annabeth reasures him.

Eventually annabeth and Percy make there way upstars. Percys puffy tearstained face made the rest of the argo know they disnt wnat to talk about why they were late