Apartment of Olivia 'Liv' Margaret Benson

Manhattan, NY

Wednesday-August 3, 2011

6:15 P.M.

Olivia 'Liv' Margaret Benson's point of view

It's been an extremely long and exhausting day for me at work today and I am very much looking forward to curling up on my living room couch tonight with my 12 year-old daughter, Susan, watching one of her favorite movies while we eat takeout from the Chinese take-out place around the corner from our Manhattan apartment building.

Despite the fact that my ex-boyfriend of a year and a half, Brian Cassidy, offered earlier today via a text message to take me out for dinner tonight so that we could talk about possibly getting back together, I haven't spent an entire evening alone with my daughter in almost a week so I politely declined his invitation telling him that I am very tired and just want to relax at home with my daughter tonight.

When I walk into my pitch-black apartment, I am immediately hit with the horrible feeling that something isn't right. The light that Susan always leaves on in the kitchen for me whenever she knows that I won't be home from work until after dark isn't on. I quietly walk down the pitch black hallway towards Susan's bedroom, my hand resting on the gun holstered at my hip.

"Susan? It's me, baby. It's Mama. Please answer me, baby."

I swallow back my fear then step into Susan's bedroom but I find it empty .

I quickly check my own bedroom and then the bathroom, frantically calling my daughter's name as I search for her.

After I've searched my entire apartment without finding Susan, I consider calling my fellow SVU detective and close friend Amanda Rollins so that I can ask her if she had heard from Susan since she dropped her off at our apartment after school earlier this afternoon.

Before I can though, my phone beeps letting me that I'm receiving a text.

I pull my cell phone from my pants pocket and stare in horror at a picture someone has sent to my phone of Susan bound and gagged staring at the camera with fear in her sky-blue eyes that are the exact same color as her father, Scott Nolan, my psychotic ex that severely abused me in every way imaginable during the three years I was in a relationship with him.

The only reason that everyone on the squad believes that my ex-partner of 12 and a half years, Elliot Stabler, is my daughter's father and that's only because Elliot came up with the idea of pretending to be Susan's father so that Scott would never learn that he is the father of my beautiful little girl.

I can't deny that I wasn't too keen about lying to all my friends but as my pregnancy progressed, I eventually came to realize that El would die before he would allow Scott anywhere near me or Susan which is why I agreed to his proposition of him posing as my daughter's father in order to protect her.

Other than El and myself, my captain Donald Cragen and my best friend, Alexandra Cabot-Langan, are the only 2 people that knows that Scott is really Susan's father and not Elliot. Don and Alex have been like a father and sister to me since I began working at SVU back in '99 and I just couldn't bring myself to lie to either of them about who my baby's father really was.

After El and I told the 2 of them the truth about Scott being Susan's biological father and not El like everyone else we worked with seemed to believe, they both swore to us that they would never reveal Susan's true paternity to anyone unless El or I gave them our permission to do so first. A second or two pass before I notice the message attached to the picture.

My heart begins to beat rapidly as I read the following words:

You should've told me about Susan, Olivia and because you didn't, you will never see your precious daughter again.

I quickly dial Cragen's cell and the second he picks up, I tearfully tell him that Susan has been kidnapped by the one person I have been worried would learn of her existence and take her away from me.

He immediately tries to assure me that there is no way Scott Nolan could have found out about Susan which infuriates the hell out of me.

"For Christ's sake, Don! Scott knew where Susan and I live! He even got a hold of my cell number somehow! He sent me a picture of Susan tied up with a gag in her mouth! He swore that he would get back at me for putting him behind bars 12 and a half years ago. That son of a bitch put me through absolute hell the last year and a half of the three years he and I were together! I'm telling you Scott Nolan took my daughter and I'm going to do whatever I have to do to get her back!"

"Alright, Olivia. I'm sending Fin, Amaro and Rollins over to your apartment immediately along with CSU. I'm also calling Elliot. I know that you're still pissed at him for leaving five months ago without telling you good-bye or that he was leaving but I know that you need him there with you right now."

"I do want Elliot here with me right now, Don. I really do. I know he would want to be here for me at a time like this anyway."

"Okay. Fin, Amaro, and Rollins are already on their way. I promise you that we will find Susan and that we won't rest until we bring her home to you."

"C-could you also please call Alex for me and let her know what's happened so that she can tell Skylar? Skylar is Susan's best friend and god sister and I think she would want to know what's happened to Susan."

"Of course. I will call Alex for you the second right after I call Elliot and tell him that he needs to get over to your place as soon as possible. Just promise me that you will stay put until Fin, Amaro and Rollins get over to your apartment."

"I swear that I will stay put until Fin, Amanda, and Nick get here, Don."

I end the call with Cragen and sit on my couch and I begin praying to God asking him to not to allow Scott Nolan to hurt my daughter in any way or reveal to her the secret I've been keeping from her for the past 12 years.