The moon was at the top of the sky, and its light was hiding the stars around it. Eren had been staring at it for the last three hours. He remembered that once in his childhood, before all this started, he was stargazing at Armin. He remembered that when they were doing their usual discussion about the outside world, the one in Armin's book, they talked about how the moon could be. It also had valleys, canyons, and rivers. It always felt good to discuss such things. Maybe in the future, someone will go there to find out.
His eyes finally shifted back to Gabi, and the girl moved away from her initial position to sit beside a sleeping Falco. She was scribbling something on the ground with her fingers.
"What are you drawing?" Eren asked her. She looked up at him.
"It is nothing, just a stupid game." Gabi told him before continuing on. Eren got up from his seat and walked up to Gabi.
"What is this game?" He asked her. Gabi looked up at him, terrified.
"Stay away, please." Gabi said before moving her hands to Falco, clutching his arm. "Don't use the founder on me again."
"Relax, relax." Eren took some steps back and said, "I won't. Just tell me what you are doing."
Gabi sighed. "Don't be friendly with me. I am not Falco."
"I am just..."
"You know what?" she said, letting his hand go. "Fine, I was bored anyway. Sit." Eren did what she asked him to do. Gabi rubs the scribbles away before beginning to make new ones. "It is not really a game, just a sand show." She started scribbling a few figures. "This is you." Eren looked at the drawing. It was a simple stick drawing of a person.
"Okay." Gabi continued to scribble, making a few more stick figures around him. "And these are everyone else, beating the hell out of you when we dragged you out of the titan." Her voice suddenly rose up: "Then we dragged you to a pole, and..." She rubbed the drawing before drawing a new one. Eren was tied to a pole while a man with a rifle aimed at him.
"Let me guess: I die by firing squad."
"Yes! This is how this should have ended." Gabi lashed out at him. "You die, and everyone would have lived happily, but no, when you started to lose, you turned everyone in the fort into a titan." Fresh tears started to form in her eyes as she continued, "Everyone is dead because of you. You killed them, and now I am stuck here with you."
"I didn't do that," Eren shrugged off.
"You didn't do that, huh? Care to explain?"
"As you had already seen, it was the worm who did that." Eren put his finger on the sand and started drawing. "That thing's nature is beyond me. It and Ymir are the same, but at the same time, they are not. It has no will of its own; it just has primal urges. I had it chained, like all the founders before me, but when it detached from me, it reverted back to its primitive nature. I think it was an act of self-defense." Eren pulled his finger up, leaving a drawing of the worm on the sand. "I would have never done it; I would have never turned Jean and Connie into titans."
Her eyes examined the drawing. "But..."
Suddenly, she felt a tight grip around her wrist. She looked down. Falco, still asleep, was clutching her hand.
"God, that's why I never get close to him when he sleeps." Gabi said, though she didn't pull her hand away.
Eren chuckled. "What is so funny?" Gabi asked, disgusted.
"Do you remember that day at the training center?" It was raining so heavily that the people there housed all the candidates in an empty warehouse for the night. You and Falco were given the same bunk. Do you remember when he hugged you so hard that you were crying? I think he wants to do it again."
Gabi jerked her hand off before standing up. "Don't look into my memories."
"Why not? I am free to do that. I can access anyone's memories, dead or alive. I saw your and Falco's memories." His face drained, and his gaze slowly lowered.
"Those are our memories; you have no right to..."
"I even saw the memories of his brother as he embraced him for the last time, his uncle as he was ripped apart by the titans, your mother as she cried holding you, or my mother as she was eaten by a titan, or Tyber giving his speech. Hell, even I saw Karl Fritz as he turned innocent into wall titans for his paradise. I can see every Eldians memory dead or alive." He extended his hand to grab the bag. "No use talking about the past now. Sigh. Here, you must be hungry." He took out an apple and threw it at Gabi.
Gabi caught the apple before throwing it away with her full strength. Eren watched it drop several steps away. "Are you mad?" He got up and walked to the spot before picking up the apple. "We barely have food, and you are throwing it away." He scolded her. "Do you want to starve?"
"Yes, it is better to starve here. What is even the point for me to live now?"
"There is no point in living. Your brother sacrificed himself so that you can live a happy life; at least be grateful for this second chance." Eren clutched the apple hard in his fist. "Jean, Connie died the worst death ever. They could have used the armoured titan. Reiner could have saved his mother, but he chose you."
"Wow, are you gaslighting me? 'Aw Gabi, you should be grateful you lived through the mass genocide I did; now eat your food.' You," Gabi raised an accusing finger at Eren, "are the reason everyone died. You are a monster; you killed everyone."
"I had no choice; it was either Paradis or the rest of the world. I chose my people."
"I don't care. There were innocents like Kaya, Mr. Arlet, and others. There were so many ways to save Paradis, yet for you, this was the only way for you." Gabi began breathing heavily; rage and sorrow were slowly taking over.
"Gabi, there was no other way to..."
"Now I know why you did it. You are sick in your mind."
"Gabi," Eren took a step back, "I warn you, don't say anything next."
"Or what? Use the founder to erase my mouth. I will say whatever the hell I want. Picture this Eren; two boys lived in a town."
"Gabi, stop." Eren yelled, only for her to smirk. His pleadings were music to her ears.
"They lived happily in the town till you showed up. They were running away as your eyes fell on them. 'Ooh, two bugs for me to crush. Let me walk over you and squish...'"
"I didn't kill you for fun." Eren cried out, tears falling down. All the joy on her face drained. Eren looked at them behind her. "I never wanted to kill you." She looked back, only to find an empty horizon.
"Are you losing your mind now?" Gabi muttered before looking at the front again, only to find two pairs of green eyes staring at her, just a hair breadth from her face. Gabi fell on her back as Eren looked at her, menacing. His sobbing slowly turned into laughter. "Stay away from me." Gabi tried to crawl back from him.
"Hey, brat who killed Sasha, let me show something." His eyes started turning purple again.
"No." Gabi screamed, immediately getting up and sprinting away from him. The space around her started to distort before the night sky became a sunny day. She was no longer running but standing still. Eren stood in front of her. However, he was shorter with shorter hair, wearing the training uniform. "Wh-what?"
"Do you know Gabi?" Eren stood next to her, both looking at the younger one. "Before the whole Eldian and Marley bullshit, my, no, our world was so simple. Humanity vs. Titans." The scenery changed to them standing on the roof of a house. Gabi watched as some Paradisians were fighting Titans with their ODM gear. "This is Trost, another town your brother tried to destroy to lure the founder out." She watched a person get caught by a titan. His screams reached her ears as the titan prepared to eat him. She shuts her eyes. "Open them up."
"No." Gabi screams as her eyes open again, watching as the titan takes its prey's head off.
"Our enemy was mindless; humanity was together. After all that big talk about humanity here and there, I swore to end this plague for once and for all, and then." The surrounding area distorts again, turning into a basement. Gabi was now standing side by side with the younger Eren as he was reading a book placed on a table. Mikasa, Armin, and Levi were surrounding them. "Came the truth, the titans, our enemies were anything but enemies. They were our people."
Gabi watched as Marleyan officers kicked Eldian prisoners down, only for them to turn into titans.
"And humanity, for whom we fought and for whom we sacrificed everything, wanted us dead."
Gabi and he were now standing in the middle of somewhere. She looked around, only to find ruins overgrown by trees. Skeletons lay everywhere, and the walls stood tall, dominating the sky.
"This humanity you want to defend so much, Marley, and every nation that hated Eldians killed my parents, my friends, and all those innocents." He kneeled down, looking at a nervous Gabi, eye to eye. "We were happy, Gabi. We were content with our walls. We may never have made it to the coast, and yet you all, so-called 'humans', could not leave us alone. Yes, I butchered most of humanity outside the walls. But I never, ever felt joy in it."
Gabi remained silent; she was scared as Eren's eyes began to glow.
"Tell me, Gabi, what was the purpose of Marley's global alliance?" She still remained silent. "Tell me."
"To raze Paradis and kill every island dweller," she muttered.
"Why?"
"Because you had a founder, the island had resources Marley needed,"
"And what, Gabi?"
"Please stop." She started sobbing. "I can't take it anymore."
"And what?" Eren asked sternly.
"And you were evil; all of you were for them. Remains of an evil empire. Most of the world saw you that way." she says, knowing that her words were false.
"Right, most of them saw us as nothing more than rabid animals to be slaughtered, even some of our former allies. So, they weren't going to differentiate between innocent and guilty. After all, the guilty arise from the innocents."
"Yes, yes." Gabi gulped.
"Heh, so Gabi." He suddenly grabs Gabi by her collar, raising her up.
"Please, let me go." Gabi clawed her nails into his hands, trying to free herself. She could see Eren's green eyes, drunk in rage.
"How can you then even expect me to do that same thing that my enemies would not do?" He slammed her on the ground before turning his back on her. Without saying a word, he left. He was walking his way to the horizon. Gabi got up, traumatized. With wet eyes, she walked to Falco, still asleep. She laid down next to him.
She started sobbing again. "I just want my family back. Mom, Dad, Reiner." She suddenly felt a tingle in her hand. It was Falco, still asleep, holding her hand. She turns her face towards him. "At least, I still have you." She gave a weak smile before taking his hand, wrapping herself around it.
