I wake up and realize I am cuddling a pillow and couldn't help but smile. Alex knows I will wake up when she slides out of bed so she will often replace her pillow where her body was. It's a trick she started after the accident if she needed to get up and do things around the house and wanted me to sleep longer. I glanced at the clock, and I am shocked that it is almost ten. I normally never sleep past eight on an off day but then again after the amazing massage last night Alex had talked me into taking my muscle relaxer which always makes me sleep longer. I stretch my aching body and roll out of the bed and into the living room to find her.

I was shocked not to see her in the living room and was about to head to her office when I noticed something by the coffee pot. I pick the white piece of paper up which states she has gone to see her parents and will be home shortly. I pour myself a cup of hot coffee and make my way to the living room to watch the news while I wait on her to return. I smile to myself as I remember the first time I had met her parents.

Alex had just started with the unit and when Thanksgiving came around, she learned not only would I be alone, but it would be the first one without my mother who had died earlier that year. I had declined at first, but she wouldn't let up and swore to me that it would not be an intrusion, and she would love for me to join her. She had already spoken to her parents, and they were already setting a plate for me. It was about halfway through dinner that her father, Alexander, asked how long I had been dating Alex. I don't know how I managed to not spew my mouth full of food out much less avoided choking on it, but I did. I'm not going to lie I had fantasized about her in ways that would make a sailor blush with shame but never made a move always under the impression that she was straight. Alex, who had turned a shade of red I had never seen from her, explained that we were simply coworkers and good friends.

Later that evening in the cab on the way home Alex had apologized profusely for her father's question, and I assured her not to worry about it. I did ask her why her father would assume she was dating a woman much less me. She smiled the shyest smile I had ever seen when she informed me that she was gay and never hid it from her parents. She informed them her first year of college and despite not fully understanding it and despite it going against their Catholic beliefs they supported her no matter what. As any other parent in the world, they only wanted their daughter to be happy and taken care of. I leaned over and placed my hand on hers and told her I was flattered they thought I was in a league to date her. She had started laughing and informed me I was in her league and her type of woman. Needless to say, the following year at Thanksgiving I was not just her friend but her lover and partner.

I am pulled from my memories when I hear her key in the door.

"Hey, how's your parents?" I ask as she walks in and closes the door.

"They are doing great they want us to come over for family dinner sometime soon. Mom says it's been too long since she has seen you." She responds shrugging out of her coat and hanging it up "Need a refill?

"If you don't mind" I answer as I hold my cup out for her. She takes it and heads into the kitchen and refills my cup and pours herself one before coming back to the living room. "I'm catching next weekend but I'm free for the following weekend to have dinner with your parents if that works with your schedule." I am shocked that she simply nodded but I figured her head was on the campaign.

We settle into a comfortable silence while we drink our coffee, and I finish watching the news. One would think I have enough of the horrors of the world in my line of work, but I have always watched the news since I was a young child. Once I had watched the weather report for the week so I would know how cold I will be I turn the TV to the Hallmark Channel. Alex would never admit it to anyone, but she loves these mindless romantic movies. I on the other hand find them funny simply because everyone has the same plot. A big city lawyer or doctor goes home for the holidays and run into the man or woman of their dreams. Then they spend the next hour of the show denying their feelings finally giving in the last fifteen minutes of the movie and leaves all viewers feeling as if they went on to live happily ever after.

I stretch out on the couch, and she leans back against me pulling the blanket off the back of the couch to cover us. I entwine our fingers under the blanket and lean my head back happy and content to lay here with my wife wrapped in my arms. She is rubbing her hand up and down my leg a habit she has begun since we have reconnected. I am lost in the mindless movie when she takes the remote and mutes the television.

"Honey, I need to talk to you about something." She states as she sits up and faces me.

"What's wrong?" I ask as I take the remote from her and turn the television off so there are no distractions. I can tell by the look on her face and the way she is biting her bottom lip that she is nervous to say what she has to say. I reach forward and take her hands in mine "Alex what is it?"

"What would you say if I told you I want to drop out of the running for District Attorney." She finally says after what seems like an eternity.

I shake my head at what I am hearing "I don't understand that has always been your dream"

"That was a goal and dream I made for myself when I was in my teens. As I've grown and realized over the past few weeks that is no longer my dream or career goal now."

"OK so what is the new goal? Because whatever it is I am behind you a hundred percent." I say ready to support her no matter what it is.

"I hope so" Alex states as she takes a deep breath "Because I have come to realize that I want to do what my mom did. I want my job to become a homemaker, care for the house and…" after a long pause Alex continued "a child or children."

I stare at her shocked did she say she wanted to quit to be a homemaker. Alex the woman who strived to stay busy, who's love for the law and the need for justice outdid anyone I have ever met in my career. Most importantly did I hear right she wanted to have children, a family, with me?

"Olivia please say something because the silence is deafening here."

"Sorry I was in a state of shock." I answer as I take a deep breath and steady my pounding heart "You…you want to have children?

"I do Olivia. I want a family, and I want that family to be with you. Do you not feel the same?" Alex asks biting her lower lip again.

"Oh Alex" I breath as I place my hands in hers and I can feel her shaking with nervousness "I have always wanted children and most certainly a family with you. This was just something we never discussed and with your career goals of making it to senate one day and with the hours I work I just never said anything. Sometimes its hard enough to find time for us I didn't want to have children, and our busy schedules made them feel ignored or as a second thought. It wouldn't be fair to either of us if we felt like the other was made to sacrifice our careers or goals. If there is one thing, I have learned in this line of work that is when the spouse becomes resentful, and more problems arise."

"Oh honey," She answers as she scoots back to me "I don't want you thinking that I am sacrificing anything or that you are or would be. For about the last month I had been feeling like something was missing, I couldn't put my finger on it. Then when you rescued the little boy, and I watched you hold him and comfort him it hit me. I wanted to watch you hold and comfort our children. I want to stand in the doorway and watch you tuck them in and read them a bedtime story. Like you I also didn't want them to feel like they were being left out. Which I think was probably about the time I realized I didn't want to work out of the home I wanted to work in the home, like my mother has always done."

"Alex" I whisper as I lean forward "you have no clue how much I love you. Yes, the answer is yes. If you want to have children and become the homemaker, I am standing behind you one hundred and ten percent."

Thank you to everyone who has been reading this story and the new one I have recently written called One Night. There will be no more updates till after Dec. 17 I will be spending the rest of today and tonight studying for my national certification. But there is more to come for our beautiful lades (That Dick Wolf should have put together LOL).