Back to the Start Chapter 17: Bad Medicine, a glee fanfic

I walked into the choir room and I couldn't help but notice that people seemed to be watching an embarrassing of…Justin Bieber. I supposed since Sue was a vegetable now, there really wasn't any point to that. It still took me a lot of getting used to every time I remembered that Sue wasn't around anymore. It seemed like there were less obstacles, but none of Sue's attempts to get rid of the Glee club ever went anywhere, so it was kind of pointless to even have her around. She really wasn't an enemy. She was more of just an annoyance…who abused children. I didn't know how she ever got hired at a school in the first place.

"You guys aren't watching of me falling off the stage at my first beauty pageant, are you?" Rachel asked. I couldn't help but wonder if I could find such a video. It was then that I noticed Sadie seemed to be watching something else.

"What are you watching?" I responded.

"It's Olivia Newton John's 'Physical'" She explained. "It's one of the most groundbreaking songs ever, despite its depiction of fluid sexuality."

What was funny was that video really didn't seem all that sexy, unless it was trying to be simultaneously sexy and funny. At that point, Sadie started to rub me a little. I had to resist the urge to moan because it turned me on. At that point, I couldn't help but remember what else happened this week. This was the same week that we had the glist. The thing was I wasn't entirely sure how that was going to work either. We didn't have the same group as before and the only virgins that I knew were Katie and Chrissy. Though, I didn't know if Jasmine, Ben, or James had done anything. Then there was Rachel who acted like she had, but I didn't know anyone who had done anything with her. Not to mention, it didn't seem like something this Quinn would do.

"You know we should do some songs like this." Rachel suggested.

"I don't know if it's that such a good idea." Katie remarked. I could see how she might be uncomfortable with sexuality.

"I don't think Mr. Schue would even go for it." Jasmine added. I don't know if he would either, but he was a little inconsistent, even getting a little too close to us at times, which I was pretty sure he wasn't doing on purpose.

"I'm with Rachel on this one." Sadie remarked. "And besides, not every song has to be sexual, it just has to be songs for whatever reason are considered to be controversial."

That basically was the same thing that Mr. Schue assigned to us. I couldn't help but wonder if that was going to have any impact on what we were doing. I wasn't entirely sure what kind of controversial song I would want to sing. I had to make sure that I didn't do anything to make me uncomfortable, even though I was a lot more comfortable in my body than when I first got here.

After we were done there, Quinn and I were walking to class together.

"So how are things with Sadie?" She asked me.

"They're good." I answered.

"I know that I've said this before, but I really don't know what I would do without a friend like you." She told me. "I'm really glad that you're in a happy relationship. At least one of us is."

"You're not jealous at all, are you?" I asked. Part of me wondered if she had a crush on me, but that was something that I really didn't want to talk about. It would be hard for me to be in a relationship with Quinn after all she did, despite the fact that this Quinn hadn't done any of that.

It was then I noticed it: the glist. I wasn't sure if she had made it because it could have been made by anyone. I looked at the rankings on it. One thing I noticed was there didn't seem to be scores at all. Quinn was still at the top, then for some reason I was right behind her. Next were Santana and Brittany, which was not surprising at all. Then Sadie, Mike and James, Jasmine, Ben, Adonis, Rachel, Katie and Chrissy was at the bottom for some reason. Okay, some of the placements didn't really make sense.

"What is this?" Quinn asked. I wasn't sure if she was genuinely surprised or if she was just acting that way since I didn't have any proof that she had made it.

When we got to Glee club, Mr. Schue was holding up the list.

"Alright, I need to know which one of you did this." He declared. "This is serious. Principal Figgins is threatening to disband the club.

"Why are we even doing this?" Santana asked. "We all know it was one of the guys, either Ben or James."

"How do we know you didn't do it?" Ben challenged.

"This sounds like something that a traitor would do." Rachel remarked, looking at Sadie.

"I don't have anything to do with this." Sadie argued. "And I am not a traitor."

I still wonder if she would betray us and I also wondered if it would be my fault. I didn't know what I could do to hurt her, but I really didn't want to find out. I didn't want to break up with her just because she was supposed to go back to Vocal Adrenaline, but I also couldn't control the future.

"Then why did you put your girlfriend 2nd and her best friend at the top?" Rachel remarked.

"Even if that was true, I wouldn't put her sister at the bottom." Sadie pointed out. I did note that Sadie's placement at the bottom was very interesting.

"Enough, no one is accusing anyone of anything." Mr. Schue replied. "But if anyone wants to confess, now is the time to do that."

"Why is this even a big deal?" I asked. It did seem like the school was trying to make something out of nothing.

"The big deal is this is giving you such a bad reputation." Mr. Schue declared.

"Wouldn't that mean less people are likely to mess with us?" Rachel asked. I was pretty sure that it didn't help her at all.

"I know that you're under a lot of pressure, but you don't want a bad reputation. So this week, we going to sing songs by artists who perform like they're bad people but actually aren't." Mr. Schue explained. I couldn't help but wonder what that would mean. Well I was pretty sure that ruled out Vanilla Ice because no one thought his music was cool and I was also pretty sure that he was a bad person as well.

"So I need to go get a prop for this." Sadie replied. "I'll be back in a minute."

She walked out of the room and I was a little bit confused. While we were waiting, I tried to think who could have made the glist. Quinn was still my top suspect, even though I didn't know if it would make sense for her to do so. Not to mention, this universe was very different, so I probably couldn't rule out anyone except myself, Chrissy and probably Katie. I watched as Sadie returned to the room. She was holding a baseball bat and wearing a leather jacket. As soon as the music started playing, I immediately understood why she had the bat

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp
And she's probably getting frisky
Right now he's probably buying her some fruity little drink
Cause she can't shoot whisky
Right now he's probably up behind her with a pool stick
Showing her how to shoot a combo, but he don't know

That I dug my key into the side
Of his pretty little suped-up four wheel drive
Carved my name into his leather seats
I took a Louisville Slugger to both headlights
Slashed a hole in all four tires
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats

I might have saved a little trouble for the next girl
Cause the next time that he cheats oh you know it won't be on me
Oh not on me

"Now that's what I'm talking about. You did a really good job on that Miranda Lambert song, Sadie." Mr. Schue stated. What? I supposed a song could be by a different artist, but I couldn't help but wonder why. I then looked up something and found out that Bo Bice had won American Idol and not Carrie Underwood. Okay that was kind of random.

Later at football practice, Coach Tweedy called me and Jasmine aside. We were about to restart our season, but I didn't know why she needed to talk to both of us.

"What's going on, Coach?" I asked.

"Principal Figgins is going mad about this glist and I need to know if either of you know anything about who did it." She explained. Oh I really didn't expect this to go beyond Glee. It seemed like this was becoming an even bigger deal.

"I don't know who did it." I answered. I really didn't.

"I don't know either." Jasmine replied. It was then that I saw the concern. Coach Tweedy didn't want her star player to be expelled and I felt that she would try to do whatever she could to protect me.

"Well if you know anything, you need to tell me and I will deal with it." She promised. "Now let's get to practice. We need to be at best during our next game and we cannot let any rust show. We need to repeat at the state championship this year and I don't expect anything less from you girls."

It felt good to be playing anything. It felt like I used a lot more energy playing football as opposed to…. football. Yes that was a little bit confusing, but I was pretty sure that I liked this version better. I also didn't have to worry about getting sacked, which was also a major plus.

Once I got done, I went over to the stands where Quinn was sitting. I was pretty sure that she liked to watch me practice. I told her that she could wait inside, but she didn't want to. I was pretty sure that she also watch the Cheerios practice, but she didn't seem to want to do that either. While the two of us went to meet Chrissy, I decided to bring something up.

"So what do you think of this whole glist thing?" I asked her.

"I really hate it." She answered. Okay, that was not the reaction that I expected from her. She was the one who did it before, but she seemed more neutral to it when she talked about it, even though I hadn't actually talked to her because the two of us weren't talking at the time. "I'm already pregnant and now everyone thinks that I'm an even bigger slut than before. People are saying the most disgusting things to me. I only did it one time and I know it was a mistake."

"Well maybe you should do something about it." I offered. "Maybe it would be a good idea to try to own that."

"What do you mean?" She asked.

"I mean if you can't control the narrative that you're this good girl anymore, maybe you should feed into it for a performance. Show people that you shouldn't be messed with and you won't take any of it." I offered.

"Are you going to help me with it?" She inquired.

"Of course." I agreed with a smile. I would have to figure out what song we were going to be being though.

So after spending the night deliberating a little bit, I managed to figure out what song the two of us were going to sing together. It required me to dress up a little bit and she was at least wearing a leather jacket. For some reason, I decided to wear a thong and I quickly found out that it was uncomfortable, but I felt like I still wear it for the performance. I was always wearing a leather jacket and leather pants.

"What's with this look?" Sadie asked me.

"It's for the song that I'm going to be singing later." I told her. I was also glad that I didn't have football practice today because it wasn't exactly the easiest thing to change out of.

"Are you okay?" She questioned. I assumed that she noticed that I was walking a little funny.

"Yeah, just remind me to never wear a thong again." I told her as I made my way to class. I hoped that it wouldn't make my classes too difficult to focus on.

I was feeling relieved when it finally came time for our performance. My mom would be taking Quinn for a doctor's appointment and Chrissy had practice, so I would be going home by myself afterwards. Anyway Quinn was going to be leading and I would be doing background vocals.

Midnight getting uptight where are you
You said you'd meet me now it's quarter to 2:00
I know I'm hanging but I'm still wanting you

Hey Jack, it's a fact they're talking in town
I turn my back and you're messing around
I'm not really jealous, don't like looking like a clown

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart and you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you

From there the two of us started to dance together. I knew it could probably be construed as sexy, but I was doing it to help my friend out and I hoped that Sadie would be okay with it because I was barely touching her.

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart and you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you

I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself I hate myself for loving you

I had to say that I was a little hot when I got done, but I was also a little bit embarrassed by it and that was why I didn't talk to Sadie about it. Instead, I went home and decided to spend some time by myself. The only downside to that was I wasn't really paying attention to what was going on around me and I didn't notice that my mom had gotten home, nor did I notice her opening the door until it was too late.

That led to her giving me and Quinn the talk. I couldn't believe how embarrassing it was. That had never happened to me as a guy and I had to say that I was relieved. It also seemed a little bit silly to include Quinn in the discussion considering that she was already pregnant. I was pretty sure that I would have just preferred that we moved on like it had never happened. At least Quinn or Chrissy hadn't seen me like that.

The next day, Mr. Schue started to interview us one-on-one to see if he could figure out who had made the glist. I was pretty sure that just like before no one was going to admit to it. As far as I knew, no one even knew who made it. I had only figured out later when Quinn told me.

"I didn't make the glist." I told him. "I don't know who did it and I don't know why we're making such a big deal about it."

"It's because Principal Figgins doesn't want anyone at the school to be treated this way." He answered. I was pretty sure that he wasn't doing a very good at it. I had only gotten away from Jacob Ben Israel because of Coach Kiernan.

"What's going to happen if no one admits to making it?" I questioned.

"I don't know." He admitted. "There might not be a Glee club anymore." He stated. I was pretty sure that that was not going to happen.

On thing that I was surprised didn't happen was there was no weird performance in the library this time. I was pretty sure it was because people understood what the glist was about more this time around. Except for maybe Katie, I was pretty sure that we understood that it was not about actual reputation, but more about what we had done. I was also pretty sure that Katie would not want to sing a song in the library by herself.

I was also glad to learn that there really wouldn't be any repercussions for what happened to me other than my embarrassment. I wasn't going to talk about it with anyone, not even my sister or my girlfriend. Speaking of my girlfriend, she found me before class.

"So I wanna talk to you about that performance you and Quinn did yesterday." She declared. It looked like she was jealous. "It looked kind of intimate."

"It wasn't." I remarked. "The two of us were just performing together."

"You were rubbing against each other." She declared.

"It was nothing." I assured her. "You have nothing to worry about. Quinn and I just friends."

It seemed like she hadn't taken it as well as I thought that she would. I really hoped that this wasn't going to cause problems for us. Of all of the things that I thought that I could do to possibly screw things up, doing a slightly sensual performance with my best friend was not one of them.

It was that afternoon that I realized that it made her want to get back at me. In fact, she decided to perform a number with Rachel, which probably even more sensual than the one that I had done with Quinn. I couldn't believe that she decided to do it and what made matters worse was that she decided to do it with Rachel. Out of all of the people in the club, she had chosen the one that would make me most upset and I was crying when I left the choir room. I was pretty sure that she noticed because she followed me.

"You don't need to be so upset." She declared. "The two of us were just performing together."

She had used my own words against me, which only really made me mad.

"First off, you did that on purpose because you knew that it would upset, which I wasn't trying to do to you." I pointed out. "And second, you did it with Rachel, who I've told you about my history with. I didn't do anything with Quinn. Did you want me to say I'm sorry? Fine I'm sorry. I'm sorry for thinking that you were better than that."

At that point, she did look hurt. I was pretty sure that I had struck a nerve. However, I didn't want to talk to her. I was mad at her, but I knew that I would still give her a chance to make things up to me.

I knew that I still had work to do. I needed to figure out who had made the glist and I was fairly certain at this point that it wasn't Quinn. It was then that I was hit with a realization. I knew who made the glist and I couldn't believe how obvious it was. I mean there was only one person who knew about it beforehand and she had been focused on things happening the way that they did before.

I took her outside because I needed to talk to her.

"Quinn didn't make the glist." I stated. "You did."

"This was something important that we needed to have happen." Chrissy declared.

"Yeah, but what if things don't go the same way that they did before?" I challenged. "You could get expelled for this. What if Mr. Schue doesn't turn a blind eye this time?"

"Well at least I'll know that I did my part." She replied.

I sighed because I knew what I had to do. I knew that Coach Tweedy wouldn't want me to do this, but I felt like I needed to because I didn't want Chrissy to be punished.

"I made the glist." I told him. "It was just supposed to be something fun and I didn't want it to get out of control the way that it did."

"I don't believe you." He stated. "I know you didn't make it, but I think it doesn't really matter as long as there aren't any more of them."

"William, I assume you know the identity of the perpetrator." Principal Figgins interrupted.

"I don't, Principal Figgins. No one was willing to come forward, but there also haven't been any more glists posted. Maybe we should just treat this as a one-off thing and not do anything." Mr. Schue suggested

"Alright." The principal agreed. I was starting to see how Sue managed to get away with so many things and I was once again glad that she was not around anymore. He then started to walk out of the room. "I'm still praying for you, William."

At the end of the week, I knew that I needed to perform something. I had a game later that evening but there was something that I needed to get off of my chest. Rachel had sung the song before, but this time it was my turn.

(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round
(Turn around )Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of the all the years have gone by
(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eye

(Turn around bright eyes) Every now and then I fall apart
(Turn around bright eyes) Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight and I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight we'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right cause we'll never be wrong
Together we can take it to the end of line your love is like a shadow on me all the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark we're living in a powder keg and we're giving off sparks
I really need you tonight and forever's gonna start tonight forever's gonna start

Once upon a time I was falling in love but now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do a total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life but there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can do a total eclipse of the heart

I walked out of the room and I was suddenly ambushed by Sadie kissing me. I quickly pulled away from her.

"What are you doing?" I asked. "You can't just kiss me and expect everything to be better."

"I know." She admitted. "In fact I prepared a speech. I'm sorry. I fucked up. I was jealous and insecure and I made a bad decision and it wasn't until I heard you singing that song that I really figured out why. I love you, Faith."

"Oh." I responded. I was not expecting her to say that. I didn't know what to do.

So Chrissy was the one who made the glist, but she didn't get in trouble for it. Also the bigger story was it was Sadie who made the mistake and then she said that she loved her. Please don't forget to review.