Ally Pov
The next morning was better, despite the headache I had when I woke up. I felt crappy but my mind was at least in a better state then the past couple days. The worst of it was over and I knew that this was best for them, as much as I didn't want to miss Jonah growing up or feeling responsible for mom I knew I couldn't do that anymore. Jonah would be alright, he was strong enough to do this and mom, I wasn't enough to help her. I had tried but it wasn't enough, she needed to find that strength for herself, the way I had been forced to.
I laid quietly and listened to Seth's breathing, his chest rising and falling against my back. I was in his arms again, which was quickly becoming my favorite place to be. Some stupid independent part of my brain seemed to push at that, whispering that it was bad to get too attached, that it hurt more when he decided that you weren't enough. I shoved that stupid voice in a corner, I just needed a reprieve from myself, to shut off all the mental basket case for a while and just be.
I tried to focus back on his breathing, ignoring the thoughts and just focusing on the feeling of him. His left arm was stretched under my pillow, his right over my waist and across my body, his hand balled into a loose fist on the bed against my chest. I was curled in front of him, his knees tucked behind mine, but he still cast me nearly invisible with his big body. He was beautiful with his tan skin and his lean muscles. I cuddled farther into him, taking his hand, and holding it to my heart. I laughed internally at that mental voice, thinking it was already far too late to worry about caring too much. I felt his chest expand again with a deeper breath and knew he was waking. A moment later his arm tightened around me, and his body froze momentarily. I felt him ease back a little and I held his hand tighter.
"Don't you dare." I whispered, catching him pulling away and he chuckled.
"I didn't know you were up." He said, his voice low and scratchy. He didn't move back to where he had been though.
"Seth." I made my voice sound annoyed and threatening. He really had to stop pulling away from me every morning just because of his morning wood.
"Yeah princess." He said innocently but I wasn't fooled.
"You have two seconds to get back here, or you'll regret it."
"I was just-"
"Yeah yeah, I know. I don't care."
I cut him off and tugged on his arm, waiting until he moved back to his previous position, his body flush to mine once more. I snuggled in further and heard his quiet groan as I moved against his erection. I couldn't help the little smile that played on my lips, intentional or not hearing him make that sound because of me was exciting and I found myself shifting again, feigning trying to get comfortable. He wasn't fooled and I thought for sure he was about to pull away and scold us both, but his right hand released mine and slid down my body, coming to rest on my hip and his fingers flexed, squeezing slightly. My eyes slid closed at the feel of his hands on me, my shirt must have ridden up and I focused on not moaning out loud.
Which flew right out the window when he moved again, his hand sliding across my bare abdomen, his fingers tucking under my other hip slightly and then he tugged gently, bringing my ass tighter against him and his hard length. My eyes flew open, and the breath whooshed out of me in a tiny gasp which I immediately wished I could take back, afraid he would think it was bad. But he didn't pull away or even move, his hand just stayed there, holding me as close as we could get with clothes still on and then I felt his lips on my head, and despite the want that was trying to seize control of my body I focused on the other feelings. The ones I normally tried to ignore cause they terrified me, I pulled those ones to the front of my mind now and almost as if he felt them too his hand came up and out of my shirt before returning to my chest, his hand resting on my hammering heart as if to say 'I know, me to.'
So for once I gave in to them, grabbing his hand and holding it closer with both of mine. I didn't know how to say what I felt, I didn't know what I felt, thought that probably had to do more with my own ignorance then anything but this I could do. I could hold him to me as if he was anchor, which really he was. If he wasn't with me last night I would have floated away on my grief, which just reminded me how thankful I was to have him. Always so in tune with my emotions and mental state he didn't move or talk for a while, just laid there, and held me while I came to terms with everything I had dealt with in the past two weeks. When he finally spoke his voice was hushed and still rough with disuse.
"How are you.." He asked slowly, his thumb brushing back and forth over my shirt. It was enough to pull me out of my head, especially given how his hand was half buried between my breasts. It was also enough to remind me how close we were, though I could tell some of his early morning excitement had faded. Probably something to do with me being a head case I thought and rolled my eyes.
"Im okay. Better I think. Im sorry I've been such a mess." He was moving before I even finished, pulling away and gently rolling me so I was on my back and he was propped up beside me, his eyes warm but serious.
"You have every right to be a mess beautiful, what you've had to endure would destroy the strongest of people. Don't apologize for hurting, not to me.." He said softly and then leaned down, pressing a kiss onto my lips. I made sure to keep my mouth closed in case I had terrible morning breath, could you say mood killer.
"You go ahead and be a mess for as long as you need, I'll be here to hold you through it all." He gave me the most perfect smile and I wanted to punch myself when I felt my eyes well up. How could I seriously have any tears left in my whole body. His face saddened and he cupped my cheek.
"I didn't mean to make it worse, im sorry." His words where strained and I wiped at my face quickly will also shaking my head.
"You didn't. Im sorry, just…give me a second." I took a slow breath and held it, then slowly let it out and focused on him again. He was still worried, his eyes watchful and guarded. I laughed a little awkwardly at myself before taking his hand again.
"It's not you, well I mean you didn't make me cry." He raised a brow in disbelief and looked incredibly skeptical.
"Well yeah, I guess you did, but not in a bad way...I mean." I closed my mouth, wishing I could explain what was in my brain and heart, but there was always a disconnection when I tried to speak it.
"Im pretty sure me making you cry is always in a bad way." He said gently, his tone patient. God he was something else, he could see me struggling with words and instead of getting upset that I didn't know how to tell him how I felt he tried to walk me through it. I didn't deserve it.
"Those weren't bad tears, they were happy ones. Grateful ones." His face softened, the worry fading away.
"Im okay, really. I just need to stop friken crying and I'll be fine." I say and push myself up so im leaning against the pillows. He moves back and beside me, giving me a little more space.
"Im gonna go start breakfast." He says, leaning in to kiss my cheek before sliding off the bed. I thought about stopping him and trying to make more sense of my feelings but im to close to the emotional edge, so I let him go, then slid out of the bed myself and headed to the bathroom. I just do a quick splash of water on my face to make sure the slight puffiness is fading and then brush my teeth before leaving the room.
There all in the kitchen, Ness and Jake at the table while Seth is at the stove. All their eyes shift to me and then I remembered that wonderful super hearing they all have, meaning not just Seth was privy to my breakdown last night, they all would have heard it. Which makes me feel really fucking awkward all of a sudden and just when im about to crack and turn around to hide under my covers Jake snorts loudly.
"Nice pjs Al, really trying to test that imprint bond huh?" I look down and honestly can't help but laugh a little myself. Im wearing an oversized imagine dragons band shirt and a pair of small tan shorts with little brown horses on them.
"What can I say, Not all of us can look this good waking up." I say passing by Nessie's chair and patting her shoulder. She's wearing a matching silky pj set with light blue and pale pink stripes on it. Jake grins at her and I can see what he's thinking, and I laugh again, thankful for the jokes that eased the tension in me. I feel Seth's hand on my back as he pulls out the empty chair beside me.
"I think she looks perfect." Seth says and leans over to kiss me right there. I don't stop him, but I definitely wait for the comment from Jake, which surprisingly doesn't come, and then Seth pulls back, eyeing my shirt.
"Even if she has the worst taste in music." He says, pulling away from me. I sit but take one look behind me and give him the stink eye.
"We all have our guilty pleasure." He winks at me before taking a small piece of bacon off the plate beside him and tossing it in his mouth. I just roll my eyes and turn to Ness, ignoring the boys' laughter.
Once food is ready I wait for everybody to get some but as I go to get up Seth slides a plate in front of me and I look at him. His expression tells me he knows I wasn't expecting it but not to argue and he walks back. I glance to the stove and notice Jake pass Ness a plate before both of the guys makes there's. Ness looks at me and gives me a little smile, one that I know is indulgent of their manly behavior, but I decide I don't mind it. In fact I quite like this side of Seth. Eventually the food is gone, and the kitchens cleaned up.
"I wanna go for a run. Wanna join?" Jake asks Ness but she shakes her head, letting her palm rest briefly on his arm, I recognized her method of communicating and he nodded and turned towards Seth.
"What about you kid? Wanna race." He grins, his voice challenging. Seth smiles back but looks at me and it falters. I know he's worried that the tears might make a comeback and he won't be there, but I feel steady right now, a little tired but okay. I give him my best encouraging smile back.
"Go ahead. Im fine." I say. He hesitates but finally nods. Jake whoops and claps him on the shoulder before heading to Ness. Seth comes over, dropping his head close to me so his mouth is beside my ear.
"I won't be gone to long, if you need anything tell Ness." He pulled back and eyed me seriously. I knew what he wanted to say, he was trusting me to care for myself, which included asking for help if I needed it. I wanted to retort that I had been taking care of myself just fine for years now, but I held it back, I knew it wasn't fair to him when he was just trying to care for me, so I just nodded and this time it was me who pulled him in for a kiss. As soon as his lips left mine I heard the back door open and laughed as Jake took off out of the door.
"Thats cheating!" Seth said and bounded to the open door, taking off after him. I watched in amazement as they both exploded into huge wolves, Jake bigger and already in the lead. Seths massive head tilted to the side, eyeing the house before he threw his head back and let out a howl as he disappeared into the tree line. I was grinning at Ness as she laughed also, shaking her head at their antics and shutting the slider door.
"How come you didn't wanna go with him?" I asked.
"He's been bouncing in his seat all morning and he needs someone who can keep up. Maybe they'll wear each other out." She said and grinned. I laughed at the way she phrased it, like we had set up the two toddlers on a play date.
"Plus I wanted to check in with you. Yesterday must have been a pretty rough day for you."
"You're telling me. Did I tell you that both of my brothers showed up yesterday?"
"No! Oh man how'd that go. Did they meet Seth?"
"Oh yeah. They tried intimidating him and when that clearly didn't work they gave up. Aunty fell in love with him though." I say and smile. My Aunt was notorious for being hard when it came to anybody in my life, so the gold star from her was like a medal of honor.
"Im not surprised, who wouldn't."
Ain't that the truth. I was having a hard time not falling myself, though maybe that was wishful thinking on my part, I wasn't quite as delusional as to think I wasn't already but not ready to think on that one too much. Something on my face must have tipped me off to Ness cause she gave me a searching look.
"Do you want to talk about it?" I laughed dryly and put my head down on the table.
"Which part? My family leaving, my not being over killing my dad or the part where im magically tied to a man that I definitely don't deserve."
I said into the wood, listening to silence on her end. To be fair that was a lot to unpack, although I wouldn't take it back. Ness was always the one person I could go to in these moments, from the beginning of our friendship she was always there. I know I have Seth now, and even Jake if I needed it but Ness was probably my first choice when it came to these kind of talks. I didn't want to hurt Seth's feelings by admitting that I wasn't ready to just accept everything with him, it wasn't his fault, but I knew it would still hurt.
"Which one feels the biggest?" She asked, and I looked up. She was sitting patiently, her eyes on me but also cautious.
"Today? Probably seth. Yesterday? My family."
"Well I have some news for you, you're probably never going to feel any different about that one. Iv known Jake my whole life, I've loved him my whole life and I've been in love him for years and I still feel like I don't deserve him sometimes. I also know he thinks the same thing about me and im willing to bet Seth does to so that one your just going to have to come to terms with and move on."
I laughed at her blunt honesty and somehow it does help. It wasn't just me who felt like not enough, I wasn't the only person in the world who felt like this, weather it was for the reasons I used or maybe something deeper, some genetic makeup of humankind, I had no clue, the important thing was to not let it get in between us.
"The others?" She sighs now, and I knew why, we'd had this discussion before.
"Ally you know that wasn't your fault. The only way you're going to get past that is by accepting it. I can tell you again and again, but it won't make a difference." I let my head rest back on the table. I know she was right, but man I really didn't want to unpack myself right now. I didn't have enough will to do that today.
"Have you talked to Seth?"
"Yeah, I told him everything. Most of it he already knew though." I say and give her a little stink eye. She looks guilty but im not really mad.
"Im sorry, but in the beginning I told him to back off and he didn't understand why. We couldn't not tell him, not once he imprinted on you."
"I know, im not mad. Honestly it probably would have been harder to tell him myself, especially once we ran into Brad at the bowling alley. God he was always a douche canoe but that was something else, I can't believe I fell for it." I smacked my forehead on the table once, maybe I could break some sense into me but as I raised it again Ness slipped her hand in between the wood and me.
"We all make stupid mistakes, and it could have been a whole lot worse so let's just focus on the good. Brads gone, where almost graduating and you have a guy who's crazy for you."
"Well when you put it that way." I say and grin at her. I leave out the part where I still have no clue what to do after graduation or the part where said guy deserves someone who can actually talk about feelings but maybe for just today I can focus on the good parts.
"He is pretty great." I say and she smiles.
"How are things."
"Good."
"And the whole sharing a room thing?"
"We talked about it, and I told him how I felt, he said he was more than willing to stay on the couch but honestly I want him with me so." I say and shrug. Im happy when my face doesn't turn pink, hopefully im finally getting over that whole blushing thing. Then I laugh a little as another thought pops into my head.
"I don't know how you slept with Jake for that many weeks and didn't jump him. It's been like three days and im struggling." She laughs with me, and her face says she gets it completely.
"Trust me if it wasn't for my family so close it wouldn't have been that long. Jake's the one who wanted to wait till it was just us but im glad for that now cause it was perfect."
"Yeah?" I ask, glad to finally turn the conversation around and off of me.
"Yeah, we ended up staying in this beautiful cabin that he rented, there were candles and music and a bath." Her voice got dreamy and even I had to admit it sounded romantic. Not exactly my style but I could see the appeal for someone like Ness, she was softer then I was. I didn't really need stuff like that.
"It sounds magical." I said, and watched her eyes focus back. Her cheeks flushed and she dropped her eyes to her hands on the table.
"To be honest I wouldn't have cared where we were, as long as it was him. Everything else just kind of fades away anyways" That one I could understand, every time Seth kissed me or even touched me it all kind of drifted to the back and he was the main focus. Nothing else really seemed to matter in that moment.
"And now?" I ask and raise my brow. She smirks at me, and I can see the difference between the soft gentle Ness and the fiercer one who loves her mate so passionately.
"It all still fades when where like that, but I figured out how to hold my own." She says and grins. I laugh and just because I know it will make her blush I say.
"Huh, dominatrix Ness. Hot." And then laugh cause she does turn bright red, which only has me laughing harder until my eyes water again and she's sputtering out words trying to get me to stop. It doesn't work and its whole minutes until I can finally catch my breath and im holding my painful side. She ignores me while I try to get control of myself, but I know she's not really mad.
"So what about you guys?" She says, her little smirk appearing.
"What about us." I ask, raising my brow.
"Don't play coy with me, you know my sex life so spill." She says. This is the monster of my own creation I realize.
"I can't spill what I don't have. Obviously we haven't done anything, it's only been a couple weeks." She rolls her eyes though and just continues to give me that same look.
"I know that but we both know there's nothing normal about any of this, it's not like time really matters." She says and shrugs a little.
"Yeah, I guess that's true. He wants to make sure it's something im ready for, since what happened last time." I try to keep my tone light and casual, but her face tells me it's not working, she knows without me saying anything how much his actions mean to me. Logically I know he's not like that, obviously if he was he would have gone out long ago and found someone for that but either way it was nice to have him not expect anything. Now if I could just get my hormones to chill the fuck out that would be great.
"They really are something huh." Ness says and I can't help but smile.
"Who knew." I respond, getting just a little lost in thought over Seth. He was quite literally perfect, at least for me. Sweet but sarcastic, funny and totally inappropriate at times. He was more than happy to hold me when I needed it but was also comfortable pushing my buttons. We sat there for another moment before she pushed her chair back and stood up.
"Im gonna shower and then head to the big house for a bit." She says and then glances out of the backdoor.
"You might wanna leave out some shorts for Seth." I look to where she is, noticing the two piles of clothes strewn on the ground.
"Do they do that a lot?" I ask and get up also.
"I wish I could say no but yes, at least when they don't wanna strip down naked in front of people." She says and dam me, but I blush at the thought, thankfully she's already turned around and heading to her room.
I go to mine and close the door behind me before walking over to his dresser and pull open the top drawer. I find a bunch of socks and boxers, so I move on until the second to the bottom drawer when I finally find a bunch of shorts. I have no clue what he prefers so I just grab one and hope for the best. I walk out onto are little porch, which really is kind of perfect. It has a small wooden love seat with two end tables on either side. I leave his shorts on the steps so he'll be able to see them and then go back inside.
I decide a shower sounds pretty good, so I grab clothes before going to the bathroom, in case he's back when I get out and take my time in the hot water. I shave and deep condition my hair, then when I get out I moisturize with some lotion that I found in the cabinet that smells amazing. I get dressed, which really only consisted of underwear, a bralette, leggings and a tank top and then climb into bed after with my homework, I have to edit my English paper which really sucks cause I usually start it on paper. I don't have my own laptop, so I just transfer it onto one of the school computers to print it out when im ready.
I start with my corrections, my grammar is awful and it takes forever going through all the pages. Eventually something grabs my attention and I look out the little sliding door in time to watch Seth lope into the backyard with Jake. I can't help but stare at him, the whole thing was still incredible, the idea that the giant wolf walking towards this room was the same man that slept with his arms around me all night seemed impossible. I couldn't help myself as I slipped out of bed and onto the little private porch. His eyes immediately found me, and he bounded forward till he was close enough to touch. I let my hands sink into the warm fur at his neck and smiled when he moved his big head to my back, almost like a hug.
"I left you some shorts, I wasn't sure what you preferred so I hope it's okay." I said and then shivered as the cold January air whistled around us. He moved his head in front me and nudged me backwards.
"So pushy." I said, shoving his huge head back a little. He rolled his hazel eyes at me and shoved again.
"Yeah yeah, im going." I said and let him go, retreating to the bedroom and keeping my back to him so he had some privacy. I had barely made it through the doorway when I felt one of his arms wrap around my waist and the slider click closed behind him.
"Its cold out there, I didn't want you staying out without a sweatshirt or jacket." He explained. I turned, seeing his happy handsome face, somehow id missed it in the small time he had been gone.
"You know I might like you better as a wolf, can't talk as much." I teased him even as my arms slid around his neck, and I pressed my body to his. He gave me a mock offended look and then grinned devilishly before he moved so quickly I was disoriented as he ducked down and picked me up, hanging me over his shoulder.
"Hey!" I shouted as I swung onto his muscled back.
"Sorry I can't hear you, I must be talking too much." He said and started walking. I put my hands on his bare skin and tried to keep myself from bumping into him.
"Put me down!" I demanded but It didn't sound the least bit menacing, I was laughing to hard.
"Huh, what's that sound? Must be my smartass girlfriend again." He stopped and looked around the room, swinging me comically while he did it. I squealed when I shifted a little on his shoulder, sliding down another inch.
"Seth!" I shouted and reached forward, smacking his ass that was only inches away from my face now.
"Didn't anyone ever teach you not to hit." He asked, stepping to the edge of the bed now. I snorted and did it again.
"I have three brothers, trust me I know how to hit and make it count."
"Do it again princess, I dare you." Oh wrong words to say, I never, ever back down from a dare. This time I smack it a little harder and get ready to do it again, but suddenly his head turns, and he literally bites my ass. Not enough for any real pain, but definitely enough for me to feel it and I shriek while laughing. He leans forward and drops me onto the bed quickly so im disoriented again and by the time I can make sense of anything he's above me and im pinned will he grins down at me, flashing those teeth.
"I bite." He says and I squirm cause my ass actually does hurt from it.
"You can't dare me to and not expect me to do it." I say but im still laughing at him as I try to get out of his grasp.
"Oh I know, I was banking on it." He says and I manage to slip a wrist free so I can rub at the sore spot.
"That friken hurt." I whine but he doesn't look fooled.
"I know how hard I bit you, I didn't break the skin, maybe next time you won't be such a brat." He says and leans down to kiss my throat.
"Unlikely." I say a little breathlessly. He chuckles but just continues his path along my throat and down to the exposed part of my chest.
"Maybe you should kiss it and make it better." I suggest, no longer fighting to get away from him. My body arched into his, relishing the feel of his bare skin on me.
"Well I'd love to do that, it looks like I interrupted something important." He mumbles, his mouth now at the edge of my tank top skirting along the top of my breast.
"Huh?" He pulls away and looks over to my left, I follow his gaze and remember my English paper.
"Oh that. Not important." I say and reach for his face, pulling him to me for a kiss. He complies, his lips soft and gentle but after a couple minutes he pulls away.
"I need a shower anyways." He says, leaning in and kissing my nose before letting me go. I take a breath and try to remember what I had been doing before he got back. Oh right, homework. I try to recollect the papers that had been scattered while he walks over to the dresser.
"Were the shorts not ones you like?" I asked, looking to the cut off jean shorts he had on.
"No there fine, I just want some boxers." He says and grabs a pair and some socks from his top drawer. Im still looking at him when he turns around and realize he's only pulled the zipper up to cover himself, the buttons still undone and hanging open, which means I get a perfect view of his little happy trail disappearing. When I finally pull my eyes away from his body he's watching me with one brow sexily raised up.
"Im not apologizing for ogling you." I say, remembering yesterday morning when he felt bad for doing it to me.
"Fair enough." He says smiling. "What are you working on?" He asks and walks over to look at the papers.
"English essay." He gives me a weird look and then returns his attention to the mess.
"The only class I was ever good at. Well that and chemistry." He says and winks at me.
"Nerd." I cough into my hand and laugh at myself.
"Remind me why I talk to you again?" He says and walks over to the bathroom to put his clothes down.
"Must be cause im so pretty." I say, finally getting my papers organized again.
"Something like that." He says as he walks out again, and he's still got those dam shorts unbuttoned and can I just say its distracting as hell.
"Why is it all written on paper?"
"Cause I don't have a computer." I say like it's pretty obvious. He rolls his eyes at me but walks over to the desk beside the door and picks his up, bringing it to me and putting it in my lap. His expression says he's not arguing with me about it but I don't bother, I appreciate how much easier it will be to type it up now, especially since spellcheck, duh.
"Passcode is 071492" He says before walking over to the bathroom again and disappearing inside. He closes the door almost all the way, leaving it cracked and I hear the shower turn on. I turn my attention back to his laptop, lifting the screen and hitting the power button. It boots up in seconds and I look at his screensaver as I put in the passcode. It must be from la push, the rocky shoreline in the background with a couple walking along it. I recognized his dad from the picture on the dresser and smile. I focus on pulling up word so I can start typing up my essay but im only a couple sentences in when Seth's phone starts dinging on the nightstand. I glance over but it's not a phone call, just a bunch of texts coming through one after the other.
"Uh...Seth? Your phones dinging...like a lot." I call out as another one comes through, im worried somethings wrong but wouldn't whoever it was just call?
"Can you check it? it's the same passcode" I smile a little that he's so comfortable with me and reach over to pick it up then unlock it. I go into the messages and pull up the zillion from leah. Nothing urgent though, instead she just sent every single word as its own text message so it read like,
Hey
Loser
call
me
when
you
get
a
chance
i
want
to
talk
I couldn't help but laugh and then the shower cut off and a moment later Seth pulled the door open and can I just say holy dam? He's still damp, little water ringlets falling from his hair and down his chest as he steps out with just a towel wrapped around his hips.
"Let me guess, leah?" I hear him say it, I really do but it doesn't break through the barrier of my mind, and I can't force my eyes away from his tan sexy skin. He chuckles and suddenly he's right there, his hand under my chin and tilting it up to his face.
"My eyes are up here beautiful." He says with a smirk on his lips. I definitely blush this time around but grin back at him.
"What did you say?" I ask. His hand drifts to the side to tuck the hair behind my ear and then he leans down, one hand on his secured towel and his lips hover above mine.
"Who was it?" His words didn't make sense but then again I didn't honestly try, I just leaned in further and pressed my mouth to his. I wanted to wrap my arms around him and tug him closer but then I remembered what was in my hands, and our previous conversation so I pulled away.
"Oh yeah, that. It was leah." I said and handed him his phone. He takes it and reads over the messages before putting it up to his ear. I try to push him out of my mind and turn back to my paper.
"What's up?" He asks and heads back into the bathroom. I try not to focus on his conversation so he can have some privacy but it's so hard, I always wanna listen to his voice. A couple minutes later he's walking back into the bedroom dressed, his shorts back and thankfully-or is it unthankfully- buttoned.
"I already told you I'll let you know, I don't have an answer for you right know. " He says, pulling open one of his drawers and searching through it.
"I will. Okay. Uh huh." He pulls out a black t shirt and turns back to me, his eyes drifting down my body and I feel the blush creep into my face.
"Yeah I gotta go. I will, love you, bye." He says quickly and then hangs up. I laugh at the abruptness but when he stalks forward slightly it dies away.
"What did leah want?" I ask.
"She's asking about summer plans, she wants to bring her new husband home to meet mom." He drops his phone onto the nightstand and crawls onto the bed on his knees, giving me a shit eating grin. I reach out and snag his shirt that's still in his hands and toss it over the opposite side of the bed.
"You don't really need that." I say and smile at him. He chuckles and takes his laptop out of my lap, setting it aside on the bed.
"Have I told you how good you look today?" He asks, his body starting to tower over me. I leaned backwards and slid down a little, but he only comes closer, sliding his body between my knees.
"I don't think you have." I say and he lowers his arms beside my head, dropping his face to mine. He kisses my cheek and all I can smell is him. I don't stop my hands from finding his chest and running down his torso then around to his back.
"You look amazing, and you smell amazing, and you feel amazing." He says, his voice hushed now as his lips graze over my cheek and then capture my mouth. I can't help the low moan that comes from my chest and im not sorry, especially when he growls quietly in response. He pulls back and his eyes trail down my front again, his gaze hot and it makes my body ache for something more. His eyes linger on the exposed lace edge of my bralette peeking out from my tank top and one of his hand's lifts, his fingers trailing down the strap and across the edge.
"Promise me something?" He asks quietly. Im immediately suspicions but I'd give anything to keep him here with me like this.
"What's that?" He flashes me his best smile as his fingers follow his trail over my breasts and across to the other side.
"Promise me one day, I can see you in this. Just this." He says, his voice low and husky. That I could totally do.
"I promise and the matching bottoms." I watch as his pupils dilate and his chest rumbles again and can I just say holy fuck. How am I supposed to control myself when he's like that? how am I NOT supposed to beg him to take me right here and now until I can barely remember my own name.
"Seth." I get out and jesus does my voice sound strained.
"Yeah princess?" He whispers back, dropping his face into my neck and I feel his lips brush against the sensitive skin. My hands tighten on him, my fingers digging into his hard flesh.
"Im going to lose my mind in about five seconds." I say, thinking it was much closer to two seconds but who was counting really. He paused as my words sank in and then slowly moved back a little, his gaze still intense but more relaxed somehow. I tried to slow my breathing, but I was too worked up, my chest heaving with my breaths.
"How about I help you with your homework for a bit?" He says and even though it's quite literally the very last thing I want on earth I nod, because I know what he wants and im not sure im ready for it.
He kisses me once more softly before pushing his whole body off mine and I can't help but feel colder with him gone. He sits on the bed and after retrieving his shirt grabs his laptop and pulls it onto my lap. Turns out he actually is really helpful when it comes to writing and essays, cause in no time I have my paper typed and he's reading it through to edit. I grin a little at myself though every time I notice his eyes dart over to that lacy strap.