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Chapter 5: They Still Don't Know

Cat's P.O.V.

I woke up on the couch my eyes puffy from crying myself to sleep the previous night. I smelled eggs cooking and heard something sizzling, I sat up and felt a wave of nausea the second I did. I saw a raven haired girl flipping some pancakes, it was Jade. I layed back down and closed my eyes, I was to tired to do anything. A few minutes later though I heard Jade's footsteps getting louder and louder until I felt a tap on my shoulder.

"Cat wake up," Jade said in a soft tone, well, a soft tone for Jade.

I remained still, pretending to be asleep.

"Cat I know you're awake," Jade told me.

I opened my eyes and looked at Jade, she looked tired as if she didn't sleep last night. "Where are the others?" I asked my voice weak.

"They went home Cat."

"Oh," was all I managed to say.

"Come on," Jade said grabbing my arm. "It's time for breakfast."

"I'm not hungry," I said the thought of eating making me want to vomit.

"I don't care, you have an eating disorder Cat." Jade told me in a strict tone.

"No I don't!" I shouted at her. I immediately regretted it.

"Cat I did the freaking research last night, I have no doubt in my mind your Anorexic!"

"Wel I'm not."

"Do you want to go see a doctor then?"

I didn't respond.

"That's what I thought. Now come on, I made eggs and pancakes."

I hesitantly got off the couch and followed her to the kitchen. I sat down on a bar stool as she put some eggs and pancakes on a plate, she got syrup out from the fridge and poured a cup of chocolate milk. "Now eat up," Jade told me sliding the plate across the counter. I looked at the food for a moment before picking up my fork.

"Please don't make me eat," I begged Jade.

Cat," Jade slamed her hands on the table, "Eat."

I stabbed the scramled eggs with my fork and raised it to my mouth, I hesitated but I put the food in my mouth. I wanted to vomit the second I tasted it, I looked at Jade and shook my head.

"Cat don't you dare spit it out," Jade ordered me.

I didn't listen.

I spit the food out onto my plate which made Jade groan in frustration.

"Sorry," I said though I didn't mean it.

"Cat pack up your things, your moving out," Jade told me.

"What?" Was all I could manage to say.

"Well last night we decided your going to be alternating were you live. Until you get better."

"S-so I'm not living here anymore?" I said.

"Yeah." Jade responded. "So pack up all the things you need, Beck's going to bring his trailer and we'll take your stuff to my house. But anything you need everywhere like your backpack, clothes, that needs to be in a suitcase or something like that." I nodded my head.

Jade helped me pack most everything, probably because she thought I was incabable of doing it myself. I found my suitcase and put two weeks worth of clothes, a blanket, toiletries, and my favorite stuffed animals. Except mr. purple, he would ride with me. After about two hours we were done packing and Beck pulled up with his trailer.

"You guys about ready?" Beck asked as he entered the house.

"Yeah," Jade said setting a heavy box down.

I was sitting on the couch and Beck walked over to me, "How you doing kid?"

I didn't look at him, instead I put my head down and remained silent.

"Okay," he said patting my shoulder.

Jade and Beck loaded everything into the trailer which was also his home.

"Alright that's it," Jade said as she handed Beck the last box of Cat's stuff.

"Okay, go get Cat and tell her its time to go."

"Okay." Jade walked inside. I was sitting on my Nona's bed, the same one I found her dead on. Jade tapped me on my shoulder, "Come on Cat, its time to go," she said.

I got up and followed her as a tear escaped from my eyes. Beck and Jade hoped in the truck and I went in the trailer, I was sorrounded by all my belongings in boxes. I cried knowing I probably wasn't going to see the only place I called home. Then I saw it, a pocket knife was lying on the floor, I walked over and picked it up. I knew I wasn't supposed to cut anymore but just one more time wouldn't hurt anyone. Right? I picked took oit the blade and rolled up my shirt, then I cut my stomach. I watched as blood trickled down my stomach, I grabbed a red shirt from a box to make sure the blood didn't stain my shirt. I put the knife in my pocket, I don't know why, I just did.

When the trailer stopped I knew we were at Jade's house, Beck opened the door and smiled at me, he was like the sane big brother I never had.

Jade followed after Beck, "Cat were gonna put your stuff in the guest bedroom, that's were you'll stay when you're with me."

"KK," I responded sadly.

I grabbed my suitcase, mr purple, and my backpack. I carried it all up the stairs and entered the guest bedroom, it was a simple room with navy blue walls and nothing but a bed, nightstand, dresser, and mirror. I guessed this was one of my new homes. Beck and Jade brought everything up in only thirty minutes, soon the empty room was filled with cardboard boxes full of my things.

"Do your parents know I'm staying here?" I asked Jade.

"Yeah, and don't worry their cool with it." She responded.

"Did you tell them abou-"

"No one other than me, Jade, André, Tori, and Robbie know about that Cat. They just know your Nona died and you need a place to stay." Beck told me.

I was relieved.

Once everything was in the house Beck made a suggestion.

"Do you guys want to go check out that new Café that opened?"

"Sure," Jade said.

"I'll stay here," I said weakly.

"No Cat," Jade told me, "You didn't eat your breakfast, you need to eat something or we will call a doctor."

"Your so bossy!" I shouted, but Jade didn't care.

At the Café.

We walked in the Café, I saw a waiter bring out a cheesburger, the smell of which made me immediately nauseas. Beck found us a table and we sat down, he and Jade grabbed menu's and read them while I just stared at mine.

Soon the waitress walked over, she was a middle aged women with long blonde hair, "What can I get you to drink?" She asked smiling.

"I'll have coke please," Beck said.

"Water," Jade said not looking up from her menu.

The waitress looked at me, "Water please," I said softly, then the waiter left to go get our drinks.

"Cat what are you eating?" Jade asked me finally looking at something other than her menu.

"I'm not eating," I responded.

"Cat your either going to order, or I'll do it for you."

"Fine than order for me," I said drawing attention to our table.

"Ladies calm down," Beck said putting one hand in front of Jade and the other in front of me.

I calmed down but refused to look at Jade, after a minute the waitress came back with our drinks. "Are you guys ready to order yet?" She asked.

"Yes," Beck said picking up his menu, "Can I have the chicken club."

The waitress wrote it down and looked at Jade, "I'll have the chef salad," she said.

Then the waitress looked at me, I looked at Jade, "And what would you like miss?" Our waitress asked me kindly.

"She'll also have the chef salad, no tomatoes," Jade told the waitress.

The waitress left and returned with our food shortly after. She placed down Beck's sandwich and mine and Jade's salads, "Fast service," Beck said as he picked up his sandwich. Jade picked up her fork and started mixing all the things in the salad together, I looked at mine and did the same. I kept mixing my salad for as long as I could before Jade realized I wan't eating it.

"Cat, eat the salad."

"Why?"

"Because you have an eating disorder, Cat now five bites. And swallow them." Jade ordered me.

I listened to her and picked up a crouton with my fork, I put it in my mouth and chewed it up. Then I swallowed the first bit of food I have in three weeks.

"Cat you can't eat one crouton," Jade grabbed my fork and stabbed my salad multiple times, "There," she said giving me the fork with food on it. "This is one bite know eat it."

I listened to her and put it in my mouth, I could feel me gaining weight every time I chewed it. Eventually I swallowed it. Jade looked at me, I could see a relieved look in her eyes, I continued to eat until I had swallowed five bites, each one more dificult than the last. I don't know how I managed to do it, but I did. After I did it I felt terrible, I needed to get rid of the calories I had just eaten. I grabbed my water and spilled it on myself, but I made it look like an accident.

"I need to go to the bathroom," I said standing up. Jade and Beck both nodded as I made my way to the back of the restruant.

I found the bathroom and I entered the nearest stall, I sat down on the floor and shoved my finger down my mouth until I gagged. Then came the vomit. It landed in the toilet, I put my fingers in my mouth again just to make sure I got rid of everything I swallowed. I sat there for a moment before heading back to the table. Jade knows I have anorexia, but she dosen't know I also have Bulimia.

At Jade's house.

The rest of the day carried on like normal, Back stayed for a bit. Partially to be with Jade and partially to check on me.

"I'll see you tommorow Cat," he said to me before leaving. Tommorow was Beck's turn to watch me.

Thank goodness Jade didn't make me eat dinner, she thought one meal a day was a good plave to start. Me and Jade watched a movie, it was a comedy I had picked and I could tell by the look on Jade's face she didn't like it.

When the movie ended I changed into my pajamas, brushed my teeth, and took my special medicine. I walked up to the guest room and laid down in the bed, I covered myself in the warm blanket and laid my head on my pillow. But before I fell asleep Jade opened the door.

"If you need anything come get me, okay?" She told me.

"KK," I said tired and unenthustiastic.

Jade just nodded and closed the door.

My only thought before I fell asleep, was how long it would be before I finally broke?

Merry Christmas you guys. I may not post any the rest of this week because I'll be out of town for the holidays.

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