Stronger together sequel (not finished!)
Chapter 1
Kara POV
Alex and I have been working on our relationship. We are both feeling way too guilty. Maggie moved away. She couldn't let herself get hurt again. I mean I get it Alex crossed so many line but I do miss her. Lena. Oh wow my Lena. Lena and I did some more research on the bond. There are only one couple every few thousand years that could do what we did. It's very rare and special. It means we truely complete each other and have each other in our hearts and minds at all times. It's complicated now thought. Once the bond is broke it can take up to ten years to mend it. When I found that out I almost broke down. Ten years to be able to call Lena mine? It hurts. I think Lena is feeling the same. But we don't talk about it. I think she still feels guilty about it all. I sigh. My articles are all fluff pieces now. Which is kind of boring. I miss her. We decided that we should take some time and heal ourselves before getting into the real conversations. Some of the research suggested that we won't get back together, that it would be painful. I'd take all the pain in the world if it means I could hold her again. I sigh. I'm sitting in my old house. Lena and I never got rid of it. After the bond broke, Lena asked me to move out. She said we needed space and time. The burning feeling over my heart has been there since she spoke those words. I walk to my kitchen where my alien booze was. I never use to like the stuff. But now it numbs the pain. No one knows how much I've been drinking. It can stay that way too. My world isn't the same anymore. I've lost Alex, Lena and Maggie. Eliza isn't happy with me now days. She is so disappointed in me that I let all this happen to Alex. When I'm not at work or on duty, I site here listening to sad music drinking. There is no point in trying to be happy when it's all been taken away from me. Most days I just wish I wasn't here, that I was trapped in the phantom zone still. Or better that I had died when krypton exploded.
Lena POV
I've been a wreck. I pushed her away. But I have to. I have to find Eve! She did this to us. I need to make it all right again. I need to stop her before she can hurt Kara again. I sigh. Rubbing my eyes. I'm hiding in my office again trying to track her. But without my Kara it feels like life isn't worth it. Kara will be ok. She is stronger than me. It's already been a year since she landed back in earth without Kal. No one even notices that he isn't around. Except Lois. She knows. She understands. I hired here as part of L-Corp PR team. She is amazing at her job. It makes more money they her and Clark did together. I didn't want her to fall behind in her bills because of him. I walk across the room to my bar. Grabbing another bottle of scotch. Drinking my self to sleep is the only way I don't see Kara's broken heart in my dreams. She needs better than this. I never should have broken the bond. I destroyed everything that we had. I did everything I could to make her safe. I researched all the different types of kryptonite. I am building her a new suit that will protect her at all times from kryptonite. I uncap the bottle. Not bothering with a glass. I take a huge swig and feel it burn my throat. Pain that's all I feel these days. Pain in my heart never ends. But I deserve this and so much more.
Alex POV
Kara and Lena are miserable. They need each other. This is all my fault that they are drinking themselves into there own graves. I need to fix this. Mum isn't talking to Kara. She blames her. Even though it was my fault. I broke apart our family and friends. I'm such a lousy person. But I need to fix this. Anyways that I can.
I pick up my phone and call Kara.
"Hey sis, how are you?"
"Alex, stop. I know you care, but please just stop?" Kara begs me. Before I could say anything she hangs up. She sounds so broken. She never should be this broken. She is meant to be hope to all. I sigh. I need to find Eve. Maybe if she ain't on the streets now they will try to come together. Maybe I should call Lena. Maybe if we work together then maybe, just maybe they will get a happy ending. I've been sitting back watching my sister withdraw from the world for a whole year. It's my fault. I need to fix this. Kara and Lena have earned there happiness. This wouldn't have happened if I had been stronger. I take a deep breathe. I call Lena.
"Lena, don't hang up. I need you help." I say quickly as she answers.
"Then ask your sister Alex." She slurred. She was drunk again.
"I want to find Eve. I want her to pay for what she has done to all of us!" I say. Anger lightly tinting my voice.
"Come to my office at 10am. We will talk then." She paused.
"How's Kara?" She whispered. My heart broke. She was so I love with my sister.
"Do you want me to tell you the truth?" I ask her gently.
"I've lost her haven't I?" Lena asked. I could hear her voice break. It was so heartbreaking.
"She won't talk to anyone anymore Lena. Maybe you should talk to her?" I say softly.
"I lost her Alex." She cried hanging up the phone. I sigh. They are both beating themselves up over this.
Chapter 2
Lena Lena POV
The true sky best thing in my life is gone. The one source of happiness, warmth, safety and love. It's gone. My walls are getting built back up stronger and tougher. I won't let myself do that again. I love her with all my heart. But I shattered that! I'm so angry at myself. I know I broke the bond to save my Kara. Wait she isn't mine anymore! Damn it. I can feel the tears welling behind my eyes. I feel so alone. Eve finally made it happen. I have nothing and no one. I can feel myself slipping back to old habits. The urge to just feel physical pain is growing everyday. It's breaking my spirit. I thought I could go at this life alone. I could have before I met Kara Danvers. Well Kara Zor-el. I miss her perfect smile and her ocean blue eyes. Her warmth and comfortable arms. They way she would always protect me. I take another swig from the bottle. Letting the alcohol burn my throat more. I'm fighting every urge to pick up that razor blade I have hidden in my draw. What I would give just to see her smile one more time. Thinking about her makes the tears fall silently. There is only one place where I can stop thinking about her. The roof. I walk out of my office. Jess has gone home for the night. She has been trying to help me but she isn't Kara. I stumble to the roof bottle of scotch in my hands. I walk over to the ledge. I drop down. I sit on the roof with my legs dangling over the side. I look up at the stars. Watching the lights makes me hurt more. They remind me of Kara's when she is truely happy. I keep drinking. Trying to drown the pain in my chest. It wouldn't take much to end the pain now that I'm human again. All I'd have to do is lean forward. Then the pain would stop. I should have known luthors are not ever aloud to be happy in this world. Maybe I was fooling myself. Maybe this is what I deserve. Maybe I should just end it all. I drink more alcohol. Deciding maybe it's better for Kara and the world if I wasn't in it.
Kara POV.
I was flying around the city. It usually helps clear my mind. I always keep an ear out on Lenas heart beat. Thump. Thump. It was normal for now. I sigh. She probably is handling this better than me. I mean she has Maggie and Jess. I know Maggie loved but I know she will always be there for Lena. I sigh. My heat feels like it will never mend, like it will always be broken. I am getting closer to L-Corp. I try to fly past quickly just to check on Lena. It is the only thing that makes me feel ok. I just need to know she is safe. I've lost my best friend and my soul mate. My world is crumbling around my feet. Lena made sun tablets for me. She just gets Alex to pick them up and take them to the deo. She won't let me in any more. I shake my head when I hear lenas heart beat picking up. I try not to think what she would be doing at this time of night. Then I hear something that breaks me worse than I already am, if it's possible.
"I'm sorry Kara. I destroyed the sun. My sun. My world. I'm so sorry. I love you. Please this ain't your fault." Lena whispered on the wind. My heart plummeted. I fly straight to her building. I'm 100 feet away when I see something. Someone standing on the edge of the roof, bottle of alcohol in there hands. Arms out stretched. I blink and the person is falling towards the ground. I fly as fast as I can. I have to save them, there life is important. Everyone's is. I get closer to the falling person when I realise that it's Lena. I speed up as fast as I can, I catch her gently in my arms. It was breaking me worse looking at her up close. She wasn't eating again. Drinking more. She wasn't coping very well. Her eyes closed. She refused to open them. I fly her back to her house. Gently landing as to not scare the fragile woman in my arms. I walk towards what was our bedroom. I push the door open with the toe of my boot. Nothing had changed since I left, but it looks like Lena hasn't been in here since. So I gently carry her to her spare room. This is where Lena had been sleeping? I place her down gently. Why is she so determined to kill herself? Doesn't she know that I love her with everything I am? I pull the blankets over her. Grabbing some pain killers and a glass of water for her in the morning. I gently place a kiss on her head.
"Kara, stay please?" She begged barely audible. I can't it will hurt us both so much more. I can't have her but I won't be the reason she dies. Turning away from her. I gently shit the door. Leaning against it. Tears streaming down my face. I can hear loud sobbing.and her begging to rao to let us be together again.
"Rao please let Kara come back to me? Or finally let me die! I can't keep going rao. Please?" She cried. Breaking everything in my heart and my soul I quickly super speed out of her house. She left me. When I finally thought we could be ok, she left me! I know she is scared and worried I'd leave her. But now I have nothing left. Nothing is going to make me smile again. I fly back to my house. Sitting on my bed in my suit, drinking. How can everything fall apart like this?
Chapter 3
Lena POV
Kara saved me. She Brought me home and put me to bed in the spare room. I haven't slept in our room since the day I asked her to leave. It hurts too much. I cried to rao for hours that night. I wish he would let me die or be happy. I don't understand why rao won't let me have one or the other. I can't have Kara but rao won't let me die? I know life is unfair but this is now ridiculous! Kara hasn't spoken to me since I asked her to leave. There is a lot she doesn't know. I was aloud access to the communicator to talk to Alura. Kara's Mum. I had so many questions that she could help with. I had asked everything from can I learn more about your technology? Right though about marriage to kids. Kara didn't know. But I wanted to know every single thing about her customs so I could ask her to be my wife some day. So Alura, was telling me about kryptonian pregnancies and how you only have sex to complete the bond, it's the emotional connection that creates a baby. I thought it was so ridiculous. That was until we did all the research together. Then I asked Kara to leave. A few days later I was always sick.
Flash back.
I had thrown up for the 15th day in a row. Maybe I could be pregnant. I doubt that though. I thought it was just a stomach bug. I ask my driver to drive me to my doctors. We did a blood test. He handed me a pregnancy test and told me to bring it back. So I do the test. Sitting in the room feeling terrified. By my self. I didn't want to tell Kara unless I was sure. I didn't want her to be with me to do the responsible thing. The doctor come back in and tell em the supposedly good news. I was carrying Kara's baby! He gave me all the information he had on pregnancy and termination if I chose to do that. I walk out to the car shocked. Shaking. Asked my driver to take me home.
End flash back.
I rest my hand gently in my stomach. Missing the warmth that the little baby had given me. I didn't tell anyone about it. Not that it matters now. Kara and I would have been great parents. But it wasn't meant to be. My heart broke again and I start crying again. Curling myself up into a ball on my bed. My knees touching my chest. I couldn't even carry Kara's baby. I really am hopeless. I am nothing. I am never going to be good enough for anyone. I let my thoughts drift back to the day that I lost our baby.
Flash back
I was working in my office. It was a normal day. No coffee and no alcohol. I was trying so hard to have this baby be health. I was sending an email to a contractor to build a bigger balcony for my office. So that way if Kara and I talk again she will have room to lay on a bed out there in the sun if she wants to. That's when I heard it. Bang. Bang. Screams. Gunshots! Jess comes running in.
"Lena there is a gunman in the building. Get to cover!" She whisper yells at me. I get up from my chair. Quickly pressing the button on the watch Kara gave me to send an alert to her to let her know I'm in danger. Hopefully she gets here in time. But I think it's too late. I can see a shadow.
"Jess get down!" I whisper yell to her. She ducks down behind the couch in my office away from the door. The door flies open. A man is standing there in a clack mask.
"I found you know! This will make us even for Lex killing my sister!" The man snarled before I could do anything. He fires twice. I feel a seating pain in my stomach and my shoulder. I fall to the ground. Placing my hand on my stomach, there is so much blood. Please let my baby be ok! The security guards take him down and lock him in a room until the police get here. I try to hold in the tears. But the next thing I know I'm in a hospital bed. Jess by my side.
"Jess get the doctor and wait outside please?" I ask softly. I can feel something isn't right. Jess dutifully does what I ask with no complaints. The doctor comes in.
"I am doctor" he starts to say. But interrupt him.
"Is my baby ok?" I ask softly.
"I am sorry mam we did everything we could." He says with a sad look on his face. I tune out everything else. I was 17 weeks at the time. My beautiful baby died. He leaves and I sit there with tears falling. Jess comes back in.
"Are you going to be ok?" She asks softly.
"I'll make a full recovery." I say. I know that's not what she meant.
"Lena what is wrong?" Jess asks handing me a tissue.
"Nothing Jess, I'll be ok. Kara didn't come did she?" I asked softly.
"She was there a fraction of a second after you were shot. She was so mad at her self. She flew you here. She thought you would be so mad at her for not being there." Jess says concern on her face.
End of flash back.
I've lost Kara and our baby. I never told her about it. There is no point now. It would make her feel worse about not saving me. Jess doesn't even know. I've been drinking so I don't think about Kara or our baby. Missing so much in my life now. My life feels so empty. I work and drink and that is it. I know my depression isn't going to be a good thing. I know I'm falling into a hole and if I don't get myself out I might do something I regret. But this pain is all I can feel now. I don't have Kara to make me feel better. I could be holding my beautiful little baby in my arms right now. But I couldn't even protect them. Rao. Please can I just end my life in peace? The world doesn't need me.
Chapter 4
Kara POV
Lena tried to kill herself last night. She jumped off the roof. I think we need to talk. I know she has been talking to Alex. Hopefully Alex is helping her and not driving her to this. Who am I kidding. It's my fault. I never should have interviewed her with Clark. If I hadn't had done that she would be safe. She wouldn't be trying to kill herself. I sat on my couch with a bottle of alien alcohol drinking it so I don't have to think. I know this is all my fault. I just don't know why she pushed me away so far. She hasn't texted me back since I failed her. If I was faster she wouldn't have gotten shot. I know it's my fault I should have been there. I was drunk and I can't fly as fast without crashing when I've been drinking. Lena got shot because I was drinking. I sighed. It truely was my fault. Alex had his all the blue kryptonite she had at the deo. She walked int hat night. I think I scared her.
Flash back.
Lena got shot. Her blood was literally on my hands. After I dropped her off at the hospital I fly to the deo. A sense of determination I hadn't had in weeks. I speed my way to the training room. Alex had blue kryptonite in her locker in a lead box. She was running tests on it. I grab the lead box and fly home. I grab my alcohol and go to my bathroom locking the doors. I caused Lena to get shot. I couldn't keep my promise. The pain in my heart was too much. Since Lena left me nothing has been right. My heart hurts. My soul is crushed. I could have let my true soul mate die. I should have been there faster. I take the lid off the lead box. I could feel all my powers leave me. It felt good to hurt. It is what I deserve. I gently pick up a razor blade. I stare at it. My thoughts running wild. If rao won't let me be happy, than maybe he will take me into his light. Thinking about Lena. Watching her bleeding. I grasp the blade tighter. I start cutting anywhere I could reach. Mostly over my arms and my legs. Watching the blood leave my body. The hammering in my chest. The thought of a life without Lena. I couldn't do it. I am not strong enough. I heard a bang in at the door but I ignore it. I cut deeper. The deep u can do this the better the world would be. Kara Danvers was nothing. Super girl isn't as good as her cousin. No one would notice if I wasn't here. Tears escaping out of my eyes. I couldn't save Lena. That was the one thing I promised myself I would always do. Save her. I couldn't even do that. I'm so stupid and selfish. My vision blurres. I know I am close to achieving my goal. Just as I finally pass out my bathroom door is kicked opened. Alex is crying as I black out.
I wake up in the deo. I look at my arm, it's bandaged up. I don't want to see how badly it is. Alex is sitting next to me. She hasn't noticed I'm awake yet. She is crying. Her forehead resting against the bed.
"Rao it's my fault take me. Leave Kara here! Please she is so good. Take me rao please? Please save her?" She prayed and begged at the same time: it broke my heart watching my sister cry like this.
"Alex don't cry. It's my fault I'm not strong enough." I whisper.
"Kara! Your the strongest person on the planet. How do you think Lena would feel finding out you killed yourself?!" Alex yelled at me with tears streaming down her face. I flinched.
"You guys would be better off without me." I whisper rolling over. Closing my eyes. Tuning out everything. Alex eventually leaves. Thank rao. I cry silently. Can't rao just let me go? I'm not as strong as he thinks I am. Please rao, let me go. Let me travel though your light to the heavens.
End of flash back.
Sighing drinking more. I know I should stop. But what is the point? Nothing is going to get better. Lena doesn't want to see me. Alex is beating herself up. She blames herself for this. Which it's not. It's Clark's fault. He didn't need to do what he did! I was still angry. I haven't even called my mum since it all happened. I know Mum would be missing me. She has her life. I wounded if I go back to Argo, I could kill my self there and no one would stop me. Maybe that's an idea. Maybe I should go there. No one here would notice until it's too late. That way Lena could be safe and happy. I grab my note book and a pen.
Dear Lena.
I am so sorry I failed you. I've failed you so many times. You deserve better. Someone better than me. I love you with my heart and soul. But I messed that up, I mess everything up. If you are reading this don't worry, live your life. I want type to be happy Lena. I miss your perfect smile. Your gorgeous smile. The way the sun make you smile a bit bigger. The way you walk into a room lien you were born to own it. I love you so much. I am just not strong enough. I'm sorry.
Forever yours
Kara Zor-el
I left my tears fall I the page. I fly to the deo. J'ohn is there.
"Hey Kara how are you?" He ask softly.
"Where the the report thing so I can go see my mum?" I ask hastily. I can't chicken out this time.
"In your locker, the spare one Lena has like you requested." He says quickly. Before he could say if do something I was speeding off to my locker. I found the gadget my mum had given me. This was it. I'm sorry Lena. I really am.
Chapter 5
Lena POV
After I eventually stopped crying. I decided it would be a good idea to go visit Alura. She has been helping me with everything. I haven't told her about the baby yet. I should I know I should. But what if she hates me? I mean I should have been more careful. I shake my head. I want to learn more about krypton and there legends. It's so amazing. I didn't realise that Kara was going to be the youngest member of the science guild. It made my heart race. Did she repress that side to fit in? To protect her adoptive family? It made me sad to realise how much she would have understood but pretended not to. My heart clenched. It feels like it's being ripped out all over again. Alura warned me of this, because of our love for each other when one is in pain we feel it in our heart. She must be as miserable as me. I shake the thought of the beautiful blond out of my head. I grab what I need and text Hess telling her I won't be back for a week and for her to take over. I make a portal in my lounge room and step though.
I keep forgetting how amazing it is here on Argo. The guards look at me and wave. They all know me now. It's nice not to be the bad guy. I walk into the buildings. I look around. I finally spot Alura. She see me and waves.
"Lena how are you?" She asks wrapping me in a warm hug. I sigh contently. She is becoming a mother figure for me.
"I have something to tell you and I don't want you to be mad or tell Kara." I say softly as I pull away from the hug. She frowns.
"Ok, I won't tell Kara. But I can't promise I won't be mad. But I promise you I will be there for you. Like you have been for our people." She says. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. She leads me over to her home. It was always so big and wonderful. It honestly felt like home. Like Kara. I shake my head. I can't think about Kara. She can't know. Alura makes me a cup of coffee and we sit down on her balcony, watching the red sun set. It feels so nice.
"So Lena, what is it you need to tell me?" She presses softly. I place my cup down on the little table between us. I take a deep breath. Breathe Lena. You need to do this.
"I was pregnant" I say softly. She gasps.
"Lena, what happened child?" She presses again softly. Gently squeezing my hand for comfort and support. I tell her the whole story. So looked at my coffee cup the whole time. I could feel the tears running down my cheek. I feel her soft hand on my cheek.
"Oh my child! It wasn't your fault!" She cried.
"Don't tell Kara. She doesn't know. I don't want her to blame her self. I know she will. She will hate me for not telling her. But I can't. I was going to go see her that night. The day I got shot. I was going to tell her and beg her for forgiveness. But I don't deserve it." I say my voice breaking. I wipe my cheek with the back of my hand. Alura is in front of me, kneeling.
"Oh child. You both have been through too much. You are so good Lena. You have helped my people become more independent. You and Kara might be the couple of legend." My head snaps up from looking at my cup.
"We won't be. Kara hates me, I broke the bond and I made her leave. I killed our child." I cried.
"What?!" I heard a furious voice from the door way. Alura and I snap our head in the direction of the voice. Crap. It was Kara.
"You killed our baby?! You were pregnant and don't tell me?" She screamed at me tears screaming down her face. I drop my head. I shouldn't have come here. I grab my bag that had my portal creator in it. Kara runs over to me grabbing my arm.
"Did you kill our child." She asked tightening her grip on my arm. I couldn't speak. I was scared. She knew the truth now. I don't see anything but anger and hate in her eyes. I slowly nod my head shooting Alura a look that begged her not to say anything.
"Wow Lena, we're you ever going to tell me? Actually don't worry about it. I can't believe I though that you were my soul mate! Obviously I was wrong!" She spat. She released my arm and I ran. I ran to the open field when it was safer to open a portal. I open it and jump through. I've truely done it now. She wants nothing to do with me! I get back to my house. I drop onto the couch. I couldn't help but cry. I looked at the bruise on my arm in the shape of Kara's hand. It was already painful. I was lucky that Argo doesn't have a yellow sun or she would have killed me then and there. I wince as my bruise brushes up against the couch. I really fucked up this! I sigh getting up getting some ice from the freezer. Wrapping it in a tea towel I gently rest it on my arm. I wince. It was going to be a bad day. I built an anti Kara room in the house. I race down there. I don't want her to find me and kill me. I do deserve it maybe I should stay here and let her do what she needs to. I stop and turn around and sit back on my couch. I heard the sound of a portal opening. I silently pray to rao, thank you for finally letting this pain end. I sigh. I know Kara will kill me. I deserved it. I did kill our child. I did keep it from Kara that I was pregnant with her baby.
"Lena" I heard a familiar growl. I swallow hard this is it.
Chapter 6
Kara POV
Lean look scared. I swallowed hard. I knew I was angry. I saw peace flash across those perfect green eyes. She doesn't say a word. I'm so angry I can feel the heat of my heat vision rising behind my eyes. I heard Lena's heart beat slightly quicken. It was like she had come to peace with her death. Death? I'm not going to kill her. I just want answers. I take a deep breath, I need to calm down. I sigh.
"Lena." I say, angry still dripping from my voice.
"I'm sorry. It was my fault." Lena whispered. She placed a hand over her stomach with a depressed look on her face. She was hurting. I was hurting.
"Where you going to tel me?" I say. Looking at the ground. Trying not be angry. I needed answers. Lena looked so fragile and broken. I just wanted to hold her. To make her pain go away.
"I was." Lena whispered. I could tell she didn't want to talk about this. That she was trying not to think about it.
"When?" I ask softly.
"The day I got shot." She said barely a whisper. My heart clenched. So many thoughts running through my head.
"What happened?" I asked so softly. Tears forming in her eyes.
"Kara, don't. I killed our baby. Just stop." She cried. She turns to walk away. I couldn't let that happen. I super speed over to her. He eyes are to the ground. I just want to make her feel better. I mean I'm still in love with this beautiful woman.
I gently tilt her head up. Fear. It flashes across her eyes. Was she scared of me? Or of our connection?
"Lena, please. Just tell me the truth." I beg.
"Kara just go please? I can't. I just can't." She sobbed. She was holding her self back. I take in every inch or her body. I just need to see her again. I saw a big black and purple bruise on her arm. My heart stopped. I had hurt her. I step back.
"Kara it's not your fault. I deserve this and worse." Lena whispers. I don't hear her. I hurt my soul mate? I've said some pretty terrible things while I've been angry. But I have never hurt her. Lena looks like she wants to say something. I just run. I need to get away from her. I've hurt her. I don't want to be that person. So I ran.
Lena POV
Kara broke my heart. That look in her eyes. She was destroyed. When she saw the bruise she had left on my arm. She wasn't listening to me. I was trying to calm her down. She gave me one last look, horror panic and utter regret in her eyes. She just ran. I cried softly. I truely have lost her. She won't come near me again. She is scared I can feel it in my heart. I'm so scared that I'll hurt her again. I grab my phone and call Alex.
"Alex, you need to find Kara now!" I say in a rush. I don't want her to hurt her self because I'm a horrible person.
"Lena calm down what happened?" Alex asked with worry in her voice. I tell her everything. Even what happened with our baby.
"Oh, Lena! This isn't your fault!" Alex cried.
"Alex find her and keep her safe please." I beg. I don't want her to be alone.
"What about you Lena? Who is going to be there for you?" Alex asks.
"I'm a luthor, I'll manage." I say.
"No your not. Your Lena! And Lena needs some one too." Alex said softly though the phone.
"Alex promise me you will look after her please?" I say tears running down my face no matter how much I tell them to stop.
"I promise." Was all she could get out before I hung up. My world is crashing around me. Everything is going wrong. I have lost Kara, our baby, my friends. It's all my fault. I collapse on the couch. I wish I could stop crying. But it is all I can seem to do today.
Kara POV
I just kept running. I found this little deserted torn down building. In the middle of the desert. I stop. I haven't stopped crying since I left Lena's. I screwed up. I screwed up big time. Lena won't tell me when she lost the baby, but I knew deep down in my heart that it was the day she was shot. The day is been drinking and couldn't get there in time. It's my fault. The anger and the hurt started bubbling in my chest. I screamed and let lose my heat vision. Burning into the sand that hit I was turning it to glass. I killed our baby. I let my baby die! I let Lena get hurt. Maybe I should go back and finish what I started. Maybe I should go back to Argo and challenge Kal to a battle for our house. If he wins he can kill me. My life is worthless anyways. I just screw everything up. I stop. Making up my mind. I'll battle Kal to the death for this planet and our house. That way Lena will never have to worry again. I mean I can't hurt her if I am dead right? I can't protect her. I run back to my house. Writing everything down. Writing two letters. One to Lena and one to Alex. I pray to rao I am doing the right thing! I leave both letters in the kitchen counter. I grab my portal generator, this will finally be over. I'm sorry Lena. For everything.
Alura POV
Kara was so angry. I've never seen my daughter like this. She physically hurt lean by accident. I stop her from going after Lena.
"Kara, what are you doing?" I ask her.
"Mum, what did she mean?" Kara asks softly. I can see the pain in her eyes. But I will not break a promise to Lena.
"Kara you need to control your emotions. But I think you two might be the couple of legend. The one that will make krypton thrive again." I say softly. Wrapping my arms around my daughter.
"Not if I can finish this." Kara whispered.
"What do you mean?" I ask softly not wanting to push her.
"The truth is Mum. Here is the only place I can kill myself. I've tried to be strong but I can't do this anymore. Lena was my home for the first time since I was sent to earth. She was my home, my sun. She grounded me and made me stronger at the same time. I lost her. I just can't keep going." Kara sobbed, my heart shattered. My daughter wants to die?
"Kara, go talk to Lena. Things will be better once you talk." I say placing a gently kiss to the top of her head, she nods slowly. I can see the pain and anger vibrating through her. I wish my poor girl wasn't in so much pain. Kara vanished. She had followed Lena.
"Please rao. Help those two. They are going to do amazing things if they can move past this." I prayed.
Chapter 7
Kar a POV
I stepped though the portal. Feeing my powers fade away. It was strange having no powers but I didn't need to be a hero here. My mother walks over to me wrapping me up in a hug.
"Kara, how did it go?" She ask me. Pressing a kiss to the top of my head like she use to do when I was little.
"Mum I need to challenge Kal. For head of house responsibility. I know he is still here." I say sternly, I can't let my mum think I'm weak.
"No, Kara. You are head of house. Why would you want to challenge him?" She asks with fear in her voice.
"It needs to be done. He deserves a change to be able to leave here. A change to change and grow." I say hopping my mum doesn't notice my outright lie.
"Are you going to fight back? Or are you going to let him win Kara?" She asked. I swore under my breath. My mothers knows me too well.
"I will fight." I lie. I have to keep it up. Kal is the only one who even has a slight chance of beating me.
"But it will be till the death. To be the protector of Argo city and earth." I say. My heart hammers in my chest. I can't help but think of Lena. Our baby. Was it a boy or a girl? I know we changed the timeline because we didn't die at the hands of Lex. But it could have been Sam or ruby or even Casey! My heart shattered at the thought. My mum must have noticed I was lost in thought and started leading me to my room here. It was the same as it was when I was sent away. She leads me to the bed as I'm lost in thoughts of those beautiful amazing kids. My hands start shaking. The walls feel like they are closing in. I know I'm about to have a panic attack. But without Lena they happen almost every day. My mother not having to see this before freaked out. I lay down on the bed, tucking my knees to my chin and wrapping my arms around my legs. Tears streaming down my face. Watching my world break around me. My breath is shallow. I can't get enough air. Maybe. Just maybe rao takes me now. Before I make a fool of myself even more than I have.
Alura POV
I get the portal generator and set a course to Lena's house. As soon as I step though I see a nice looking house.
"Lena I need you!" I yelled. It echoed off all the walls. I can hear something or some one thrashing around. I follow the sound. I open the door to a bedroom. Lena is asleep. Having a nightmare.
"Kara, I love you I'm so sorry!" Lena begged in her sleep. I gently pick her up. This needs to end. These two need to talk. I carry her bridal style. She cuddles into my shoulder.
"Kara, don't leave me again." She whispers in her sleep. She true loves my daughter. I open a portal and go home. I walk thought the hallways of my house, a sleeping Lena in my arm. I walk into Kara's room to check on her. She fell asleep. I gently place Lena next to Kara. The both instantly cuddle into each other. The fit perfectly together. I just wish they could see that none of this was there fault. These two have been though so much. I gently cover them in a blanket. I watch as Lena cuddled into Kara tighter and Kara wrapping a protective arm around her. I tried not to cry at how sweet they were. The need to talk. I need to help them see that they can make this work. That rao knows what to do.
Lena POV
For the first time since I lost our baby i felt warm and safe. I didn't want to open my eyes. This has been the best sleep I've had in months. I snuggle closer to the warmth when I feel a pair of arms tighten around me. Wait? Arms? Oh no please tell me I didn't get black out drink and ended up in someone else's bed. I force my eyes open and sighed in relief. Kara. Kara is wrapped around me. My heart started to beat faster. How did I end up on Argo in Kara's room with Kara?
"Lena don't go" I hear her mumble. It broke my heart. I destroyed us. I know I did it to save her life. But I wish I didn't have to. I wish I could have just killed Eve. Kara burrows her head into the crook of my neck and I froze. It feels so good to have her wrapped around me. It was truely home. She was my home. Always. She was always going to be my everything. But I can't have her. Not now. Not after I killed our child. I broke her heart and killed our child. My heart sank. I slowly and carefully escape the beautiful blondes arms. I quietly walk over to the bathroom. I quickly make myself somewhat presentable. I go to the door of the bedroom. She deserves so much better than this. She needs someone better than me. I try to open the door. It's locked. Shit we are locked in here. I look back over the bed. Kara is still asleep. I took in the usual beauty of her, now she looks skinnier, tired and now she is sporting dark rings around her eyes. I shuddered. She hasn't been looking after her self. She looks so fragile. I want to take all her pain away. I want her to be happy. She starts to stir. Quickly I look away. I try the door again. I look back as she sits up running her eyes.
"Lena what are you doing here?" She questioned.
"I don't know, I was asleep in my room at home and then next thing I know I was waking up here." I cut myself off. I close my moth so hard I felt my jaw make a click sound.
"Lena please. I think that we need to talk." She says.
"Nothing to talk about Kara. I broke us I killed our child. Why can't you just let me die in peace? Why do you keep saving me?" I cried leaning my back against the door. I slide down it. My knees now resting against my forehead. Tears wracking my body. Why would she keep saving me?
Chapter 8
Kara POV
Lean is sitting in the floor, back against the door, crying. She keeps saying I should just let her die. I couldn't do that. Argo needs her and so does earth. I just want her to see it's not her fault it's mine. I should have been there in time to save her. I slowly walk over there. Sitting beside her I wrap my arms around her. She instantly relaxes into my touch. I sigh at the contact. It was so nice having her in my arms.
"Lena it wasn't your fault, it was mine. I should have been there. I'm so sorry you went though this by yourself. I'm sorry for the horrible things I said." I whisper rubbing her back.
"You don't know the full story Kara." She sniffles.
"Then tell me." I whisper to her placing a kiss to her forehead. Lena cried harder after this.
"It's all my fault. I broke us. I should have known that I would mess everything up." She mumbles. It shattered everything in me. She was way too good for this world. I let a tear slide down my cheek.
"You are too good Lena. Your the most amazing woman I've met on any planet. Your smart and gorgeous. Your so funny and you ramble when your focused on a project. I love how you are always thinking of others. Your just amazing." I say my voice breaking. She rests her head onto my shoulder.
"Your perfect Kara. Your smart, funny dorky, you have a way words. Your protective, sweet and so kind. Even if you weren't super girl, you would be perfect." Lena whispers. She reaches up and whiles the stray tear away.
"I still love you Lena." I say closing my eyes, feeling her warm hand on my cheek. I grab it and gently press it to my skin.
"Kara please don't." She whispers. I can feel her heart breaking.
"I love you Lena. I will always be in love with you." I say. I pray to rao I'm not messing this up. She shudders in my arms. I feel her body shaking.
"I don't deserve you." She whispers broken-heartedly. It finally clicked to me. After she lost our baby she felt unworthy. Unloveable. I gently Stoke her hair softly. I need her to know that I don't blame her.
"Babe, I will always be here. Always." I say with such conviction that she sons harder.
"You weren't thought Kara. I needed you so badly and you weren't there." She sobs.
"Lena look at me." I say quietly. She looks up, her beautiful green eyes look so lifeless.
"I made the biggest mistake of my life letting you go. I won't ever do it again. I promise. I will never leave your side." I say tears still streaming down both of our faces.
"The day I lost our baby, was the day I was going to tell you." She says softly. Tears now pooping down my face harder. It truely my fault she is hurting.
"I was lost babe. When you told me to leave I had lost my whole world. I started drinking alien alcohol every second I was awake to take away the pain. I can't fly at full speed when I'm drunk. That's why I wasn't there on time. I'm so sorry." I stand up walking away from her. I walk over to the window. The feeling like I should just jump out of it and finally put everyone out of there misery was overwhelming. I start to dig my nails as hard as I could to ground myself. They dig in deeper and deeper into my palm until I hear Lena gasp beside me. I hadn't realise she had moved. She grabs my hand, unclenching it. I look down and Lena it holding my hand up. She is looking at the blood. I had been wearing my favourite black hoodie and long pants so she wouldn't see any scars. She can't know what I had done. I don't want her to blame herself.
"Kara. Look at me." She whispers. I gingerly look up.
"Stop hurting yourself because of me. You are more important than you will ever know." She whispers. She runs to the bathroom where there was a first aid kit. She cleans and patches up my hands quickly. Neither of us making eye contact.
"Can I look at something?" She asks softly.
I nod quickly not thinking. She rolls up the sleeve of my hoodie.
"Oh Kara! Why?" She cries as she see all the scars I now had from using blue kryptonite. I shake my head dropping my eyes. I can't voice what I know I should.
"Babe. I love you so much. Why would you do this to yourself?! Kara please talk to me." She whispers softly. I can't look at her I don't want to see the disappointment in her eyes.
"I can't live without you." I say in broken English. Lena knows when I'm truely upset I can't speak English so well. I normally drop back to kryptonian.
"Kara promise me, we will work all this out together?" She asks. I let out a shaky breath. I nod slowly. She wraps her arms around me and in the first time in over a year I felt like I was home.
Lena POV
Kara was hurting more than I thought she would. She was hurting as much as I was. We need to work this out. My heart shattered more than I every thought possible when I saw all the scars on her wrist and forearm. She had tried to kill herself. She was drinking. She really wasn't coping well. Then again neither was I. We need to sit down and talk about everything. I rest my head on her chest over her heart. I cuddled into her so tightly. I heard her heart miss a beat. It was so amazing having her in my arms again.
"Lena." She breathes out.
"Yes love?" I ask her inhaling her sweet scent.
"I'm so sorry." She said earnestly.
"I'm sorry too baby girl. We need to talk more. I think a lot of our pain was because we didn't talk enough. I'm so sorry for everything." I say softly. She tightens her arms around me slightly.
"Lena luthor. You are my everything. You are the reason I i on it on my cape every day. You give me strength to be who I am meant to be." She says gently. She runs her diners though my hair. I sigh contently. She truely was a gift to this universe.
"Lena, can I kiss you?" She mumbles softly. I nod so enthusiastically that she giggled. She gently cups my check. Our lips gently touch. It was like a dream. Except the fire in my heart knew differently. It started slow and sweet, a kind of promise. It heated up as we both realised we have been craving this. The feel of her hands roaming my body. The feeling of my hand in her hair pulling her ever so closer. As we pull apart I gently bite her lip. She groans and I smile in satisfaction.
"Lena please. Please. Be mine again?" She mumbles, here eyes still closed.
I gently stand up on my top toes and gently place a kiss on her lips.
"I am yours Kara, forever." I breathe against her lips.
Chapter 9
Alura POV
I know I should have locked them in the room. But they needed to talk. I know they both blame themselves for all the problems they are having. But I know they can work it out. In our legends there is one couple every 1000 years or so that will change the world. That will break down barriers that rao himself will contact. I swear it these two women. They already had the telepathic connection. Soon they will feel everything the other is feeling. I think that's why this last year has been so hard for eaither one of them to escape the depression. Both of their hearts were broken. They both blamed themselves. I wish they could see that they are going to be the most powerful beings in this universe. They don't even know it all yet. Rao himself will make them into gods if they are the true legendary couple. I know our history is incomplete because only high member of the counsel are aloud to know. It can change the course of Argo, of all kryptonians. Not even the head of house is aloud to know more than what's in the research. There bond was never truely broken. That's why there pain is being felt by the other. They haven't realised it yet. But the bond they have will never be able to be broken, even death won't break the bond. Once they are gods they can't die or be effected by anything. One the truest and purest souls are even considered by rao. At first I was sceptical, but seeing them. I just knew it was them. Kara has the heart of gold and Lena does everything she can to protect others. The only reason she isn't kryptonian anymore is because she rejected Kara. If they were to get married in front of rao, she would become kryptonian again. I hope they can sort this out before something else goes wrong or they drown in their own depression.
Kara POV
Lena and I lay side by side in the bed. Our finger intertwined. Talking about everything. From the day we broke up for the lack of a better word until now. I was heart broken when she told me about the baby. I hadn't realised how lonely or scary that would have been. I tell her about my blue kryptonite obsession to feel pain. She held me closer as I did her, trying to protect each other.
"Babe, you could have come and see me." She whispers softly.
"I thought you didn't want anything to do with me. I didn't want to hurt you. But I failed at that even." I say my voice breaking.
"We need each other. We have to talk about things more from now on. I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was pregnant." She says softly.
"I'm sorry I reacted so badly. I'm sorry I hurt you Lee." I whispered.
"I'll always be here Kara. You are my hero Kara Zor-el." She says pressing her lips to mine softly. I groan when she pulls away and my Lena giggles.
"Lena, how far along were you?" I ask her softly. I feel her flinch under my touch before relaxing. It really is hard for her to talk about.
"17 weeks." She whispers.
"They day I came back to earth?" I ask her hoping my math was right.
"Yeah babe, I miss the feeling of a tiny you growing inside of me." She says sadly.
"Maybe one day we might have a child." I say.
"No. I can't bare the thought of losing another baby Kara." She says so dejectedly. I won't push it now.
"Ok baby girl. It can be just us." I say kissing her softly again.
Lena POV
Kara wants kids. I don't want to lose her but I can't have another baby die on me. I think it will literally break me beyond repair. Maybe one day we can talk about it but right now it's too raw. I cuddle into her side feeling my self finally being repaired.
"I've missed you." She whispers running her finger through my hair. I sigh so contented.
"Will you love back in with me?" I ask her softly. I don't think I can survive one more day with our being in her arms.
"Are you sure Lee? I can't bear to be without you but I need you to be sure. I don't want to have to leave again." She says softly. My heart breaks. She is protecting her heart from me.
"Don't worry about it. If you don't want to that's fine." I say sadly. I go to sit up when her arms wrap around my waist dragging me back down to the mattress.
"That's not what I mean Lee. Oh rao. I love you and I want to be yours forever. I just need you to be sure. I need to know that you won't leave me again." Her voice started out strong but ended up squeaking at the end. I nearly cried again. I really did break her.
"Can we talk about it later?" I ask trying not to cry.
"I am sorry Lee. I'm screwing this up!" She says. She is so angry right now. I slightly flinch as she gets out of bed. She is pacing and clenching then unclenching her fists. It's like she is trying to reel in her emotions but can't. I watch her for about 10 second before she punches the wall. I hear a thundering crack. I snap my head to her she is crying holding her hand.
"What the fuck Kara?!" I snap. I race over and look at it. She is going to need medical attention. I bang on the bedroom door.
"Someone come help me with Kara please!" I screamed. I prayed someone was outside.
Alura POV
I heard Lena banging on the door. I could hear the fear in her voice so I unlock the door. She is standing there breathless. Kara is sitting in the bed nursing her arm.
"Quick take Kara to medical." I say to one of my guards. He quickly takes Kara to medical around the corner. Once she was out of sight I turn to Lena.
"What happened to my daughter?" I asked worryingly. Lena then told me how she had hit the wall and why. I sigh. Kara is losing her self. I'm hoping she and Lena can fix what is happening between them.
Chapter 10
Lena POV
Kara keeps losing her cool. There is something going on with her. But she is keeping me at arms length. Which I totally understand, I did break her heart. Alura goes to check on Kara. I'm left outside Kara's room. I start to pace. I usually only do it when I need to clear my mind. There has been so much happening. I didn't think Kara would want me after everything. She was drinking. She was hurting herself in so many ways. I just want to help her but I am starting to think that her meeting me was mistake. I mean she was happy before we met. I need to ask Alura about all of this. I think the bond is still messing with the both of us. Maybe that's why we both have been having a hard time. Normally alcohol and little boxes keep everything at bay for me. But that hasn't worked since Kara and I first slept together. Now I really need not to think of that right now. I shake my head. Still pacing around Kara's room. I sit on her bad, placing my head in my hands. What did I do? I really did break super girl. She isn't her happy go lucky self. I know I couldn't let her die. But did I really have to break our bond? Was it truely the only way? Like I had convinced myself it was? Or did I self sabotage? Did I push her away because things were real?
Kara POV
After my arm was set and put in plaster I walked back into my room. I fractured my hand. The cast is really there so I don't do anything stupid. Lena was sitting on the edge of my bed with her head in her hands. My heart hurt looking at the sight. Is she blaming herself? I lost my temper. I've been doing that when I don't drink for a few days. I hadn't meant too. I was meant to be the strong one. But Lena just seems to take all my burdens and hers on her shoulders. She does it without complaint or a worry. She is so amazing. I just don't feel worthy of her anymore. She is out of my league. She is just perfect. She knows it was my fault our baby had died. She tried to comfort me. To make me feel better. I was just so angry at myself. I shouldn't have let it happen. Lena had texted me that day. I just ignored my phone, choosing alcohol instead. I shouldn't have picked up the bottle. I should have been there. I should have been faster. I know I'm going to feel guilty and miserable about this for the rest of my life. But I need to make Lena feel better. I walk over and gently press my good hand on her shoulder. She jumps. She really must have been lost in thoughts.
"Lee, are you ok?" I ask tentatively.
"Kar I'm ok. I think. We should talk to your mother." Lena whispers. My heart raced when she called me kar for the first time again.it felt like things were starting to I repair. My heart felt fuller for the first time in a years. Lena looks up me. Her beautiful green eyes shimmering with tears. I vent cup her cheek wiping away her tears. She gives me a shy smile. I can feel my light coming back. Like I've been driving in this darkness but she is giving me the strength to continue. Her constant love and support gets me though anything. I truely am lost without her.
"I'll take you to see my Mum." I say to her. The corner of my lips turning up. I gently help her up because she is human. I go to walk away. Lena catches my hand and tugs me into her. She buries herself in my neck. Her fists clenched in my shirt.
"Thank you Kara." She mumbles softly. I wrap my arms around her.
"What for Lena, I didn't do anything." I say softly just holding her close.
"You could have left. I mean I am sort of a train wreck." Lena chuckled sadly.
"Your not a train wreck Lena. Your so strong. I just wish you could see you the way I do." I say softly. She holds me that little bit tighter.
"I thought I would lose you forever. We all need you Kara Zor-el. I'm sorry I broke us." Lena whispers. Her warm breath on my neck. My breath hitched in my throat. This perfect woman is going to be the death of me. Somehow I don't mind. The thought of spending forever with Lena was appealing. Waking up next to her every day would be amazing. I looked into her eyes. The emerald green that I love is finally coming back into them.
"Lena I'm sorry. Can we forget that I was being stupid this morning? I am just feeling to much and I'm just so angry at myself." I say softly and slowly.
"Babe, uh I mean Kara, why? Why are you angry?" Lena pulls away slightly, staying in my arms. Looking at me like I'm everything she has ever wanted.
"I failed you. I failed so many times. I let my pain take me over instead of being strong. In stead of Alex and I against the world, it was just me. I lost you and my heart was just shattered. Nothing felt good. I couldn't feel anything but this darkness, the empty void. It felt like I was in the phantom zone again. Except I didn't get out. I missed you so much. I tried so hard to protect you even when you didn't want me around but it killed me that I couldn't be with you, watching you slowly drink yourself to death. Lena I honestly lost all hope. I even stopped praying to rao." I say rambling. I shit my jaw with so much force that my teeth rattled. Lean looked at me with tears in her eyes.
"I'm sorry. I messed up. I didn't think you would be watching over me. I thought you would be here. I came here so many times hoping to catch a glimpse of you. Your mum and I were always talking about you and the things you did when you lived here. How you were the youngest member of the science guild. My heart swelled with pride until I realised I wouldn't have you again. I mean come on I let out baby die. I didn't think you would want to be near me ever again." She said dejectedly.
Chapter 11
Kara POV
My heart sank. Did she really think I wouldn't want to be with her. I look at her, she looked so broken.
"Lena please listen to me. I'm sorry I reacted the way I did. I will always love you. I will always be here. I will do anything just to see that beautiful smile on your face." I whisper to her softly, my thumb brushing against her soft cheek. I hear her let out a soft contented sigh.
"We need to communicate better though Kara, I can't read your mind anymore. I love you so much." She whispers. She leans up and presses her lips to mine. It was so soft and sweet. It finally felt like I was home. I pull her closer, hearing her gasp on my lips. I couldn't stay away. I needed her. I kiss her again. This time I try to put all the feelings I have for this woman into it. Lena tangles one of her hands into my hair. Gently digging her nails in. We both groan in pleasure. We break the kiss, Lena still needed to breath after all. I rest my forehead against hers.
"I love you Lena." I whisper to her.
"I love you Kara. Please don't let this be a dream?" Lena whispers. My heart thumping in my chest almost as erratic as Lena's.
"It's not a dream babe, I won't let you leave again." I whisper just about to capture those perfect red lips when I hear someone at the door way clearing their throat.
"Girls I think we need to talk." My mum said in the doorway. Lena blouses and hides her face in my neck. I feel the blush creeping up my neck. I couldn't help the smile that was on my face. For the first time since Lena told me to leave, I was actually happy. I felt Lena smile in to my neck. She placed a very soft kiss to my neck. I shuddered. This woman will be the end of me. She steps out of my arms and I instantly miss her. She takes my hand without a word and drags me out to where my mum was waiting. This is going to be really good or really bad.
Lena POV
The way she kissed me. It was like everything that was broken inside was fixed. It was like I was finally able to be the person I was meant to be. When Alura interrupted us I was kind of embarrassed. But I couldn't miss the opportunity to rile up Kara. So I pressed a soft kiss to her neck. Feeling the super shuddering under my touch was amazing. It means she feels the same way I do. I smiled. I lead her out to where her mother was waiting. Feeling her hand in mine, oh rao it made the world feel brighter. Like the happiness I was finally aloud to feel was coming back in deep waves. Kara finally smiled. Her real smile. The one that makes me weak at the knees. It was so heartwarming knowing that I can make her smile like that. Before we reach Alura, Kara pulls me aside into the hallway.
"What's wrong?" I ask her softly.
"Lena, I know we just got back together. I know how hard things have been. I know that so much has changed. But can we move back in together?" She rambles with a shy smile.
"Oh darling. Of course we can. I think we both need each other."I say kissing her softly. The taste of her perfect lips is intoxicating. It's so hard to believe that this amazingly beautiful, kindhearted woman wants to be with me. She breaks the kiss. I sigh. I just want to be in her arms. It's so safe and warm there.
"We better move babe." Kara said smiling bigger than before, if that was possible. She pulls me out of my dazed state. I swallowed quickly. I hope Alura is happy that we have worked things out.
Alura POV
I walk in on Lena and Kara about to kiss. They happiness radiated from them. It was so sweet. But it is time for them to know more about the legends. It's too much to take in all at once but I have a feeling once I start that Lena will ask questions until she is told everything. I tell them to meet me out on my balcony. Lena loves to sit there to think and to no surprise so does Kara. They really are as the earthlings would say, two peas in a pod. I shake my head. People from earth can be strange. But I do have a soft spot for Lena. I swear to rao that she was truely meant to be a kryptonian. She is as smart as Zor-el. Oh how I miss that man. I shake my head. I didn't want to think about him right now. Kara leads Lena around the corner and they both are smiling. It made my heart sing watching these two together. After watching them apart for so long I could truely see how they just fit. Kara give Lena hope and security. Lena gives Kara strength and conviction.
"Girls sit down we need to talk." I say gruffly. This is going to be hard.
"What's wrong Mum?" Kara asks with so much concern it made my heart clench.
"We need to talk about your bond and the legend." I say straight to the point. Lena sits next to Kara, holding her hand. To make sure they both knew they were going to be ok no matter what.
"What about the bond?" Lena asked with guilt hidden in her eyes.
"What about the legends?" Kara asked in surprise.
"There is one couple every thousand years or so, that can completely destroy the world or save it. The legend says that this couple has a high born kryptonian as one of the partners. There is nothing made in any universe that can kill the couple unless rao himself comes and takes you home. There is one thing though, if the bond was broken for whatever reason not only would the couple live in pain, but if not fixed would become world killers." I say, trying to keep my voice calm.
Chapter 12
Lena POV
Word killers? That didn't sound good. As soon as the words left sultans mouth Kara pulled me close wrapping her arm around me as if she was protecting me. I sealed the lump forming in my throat.
"What's a world killer?" I ask trying not to let the fear invade my voice.
"A world killer is a kryptonian who is sent to worlds to destroy them. They are usually stronger than anyone or anytii hi king on that planet. They are destroyers." Alura said. She sounded so sad. I don't understand why.
"What's wrong Alura?" I ask softly. Kara squeezes my hand showing both of us support.
"Nothing child. It doesn't matter." Alura says sadly.
"Mum is it about dad?" Kara asked so softly if I wasn't mesmerised with her I would have missed it. I cuddle into her closer, so she knew she wouldn't be alone. Not now not ever!
"Kara, I don't want to talk about it." Alura sighed. I felt Kara getting hot under the touch. I looked in her eyes and could see nothing but anger.
"Babe, calm down." I say softly in her ear. I feel her instantly relax under my touch. She cools down and I don't see the anger. Huh. I wounded what that was about.
"Anyways you two are in for a rough ride if you are the legendary couple. Things will get hard and will push you to breaking point. This was the first obstacle of many you will face." Alura said seriously. I was scared. I looked up at Kara who looked at me in the same second.I knew in that moment I could make it through anything as long as I had her. She gave me a shy smile.
"What are you thinking Lena?" Kara asks sweetly.
"I think we can do this Kara. All I know for sure is that if you are by my side we can do anything." I say honestly looking into Kara's blue eyes. I see the old Kara in there. The one who loves puppies and food. The Kara Zor-el that I fell in love with. The most amazing being in every single planet.
Kara POV
Lena was looking at me like I was her everything. All of a sudden she has the classic look on her eyes that she had questions.
"Mum I think I'll leave you and Lena to talk. I want to go see how Clark is. Now that his bond is broken." I say slowly. Lena looks back at me.
"Be careful." She whispers.
"Always." I says softly. Kissing her on the forehead. I leave her and my mother and start walking to the cells where Clark was being kept. He broken so many laws including kidnapping a high born. That is life in prison. I felt bad. But there was nothing I could do yet.
"Hey Clark, how are you?" I ask softly.
"What do you want to disgrace!" He snarled. I sighed. It's been a year and he can't let it go.
"Clark, let it go. It's been a year. You know I can get you realised. You just got to get over what ever problem you have." I say gently. I kiss the person he use to be, before everything that happened with Lex.
"Go to hell Kara." He snarled.
"What about Lois? Are you going to forget about her and break your bond?" I ask him. I saw nothing but anger. I sighed. I walked away. It was pointless. I take 2 steps when I head him ask.
"Is she ok?" He was so quiet.
"Lena gave her a job, and is looking after her. She didn't want her to feel alone." I say softly.
"Good." He says I turn and kept walking away. Maybe he will be ok. Maybe he can be the good person he was always meant to be.
Clark POV
Kara walked away. I feel bad for how things are with Lois. But she hasn't broken the bond and I won't. Kara is stupid. She thinks just because she is a high born she can have whatever she wants. I will get out of here. I might have to play on her emotions to get out of here but that will make my revenged so much sweeter. How dare they lock me in a cage! Eve was right. Kara is poison. She infects everything you love so much. I mean my Lois is working for that dirty luthor! Even after what Lex did to me? I knew Eve was Lex's wife but no one else did. He has left so much to her that could help me take down not only my stupid little cousin but the bitch luthor. If she had just died when we tried to kill her then this wouldn't have been a problem. I can't believe he shot her twice hitting her in the shoulder and the stomach. Of course Kara had to fly in and take her to the hospital. No Eve will get hers too. The both will die as soon as I get out of here. I'm going to make Lena suffer. She turned Kara against me. She destroyed the Danvers family with her brother turning him into red lantern. That was so wrong! That could have destroyed the world! That abomination could have killed my family. My friends my life! I need to play this just right. I will get out of here and get my revenge. A true god like myself shouldn't be locked in this cage.
Kara POV
Clark is so angry. I don't want to lose him but he can not be trusted around people. He is too dangerous to go back to earth. He will hurt so many people. I can't in good conscience convince the counsel to let him go until he sorts out his problems and controls his anger. I find my way back to Lena. She is sitting on my bed in my childhood room. I lean in the doorway, smiling at her as she writes something down in her note book. She was beautiful. Her raven hair over one shoulder half covering her face. Her eyes deep green in deep thoughts. Her elegant fingers wrapped around a pen writing furiously. She was amazing. She was so focused. I sneak up behind the bed trying to get on it without it moving. It doesn't. I place my legs on either side of her placing my chin on her shoulder. My front presses tightly against her back. I gently wrap my arms around her stomach.
"Oh, rao. You scared me Kara!" She exclaims. Her body stiffening for a second before relaxing in my arms.
"I'm sorry baby you looked so cute." I say kissing her neck softly. I look down to se what she was writing down. It was stuff about kryptonite and word killers.
"Babe, don't stress. We will be right." I whisper to her kissing her neck again. Feeling her soft skin under my lips.
"I know babe but I have a bad feeling." She says softly.
Chapter 13
Kara POV
When Lena said that my heart dropped. She might be right. Something felt off. I kiss her neck softly.
"Don't babe. You know what that does to me!" Lena grumbles but she doesn't move. I love it how she is mine and I'm hers. Completely. I kiss her neck again. She wriggles out of my grip. She stands up smiling at me.
"You really think after all this time you would get it that easily?" She smirks sexily.
"Babe, you want to know something?" I say softly. I have to be honest.
"What is it?" She asks looking at me worriedly.
"I did some stupid stuff that you are going to be mad about. I just want you to know I'm sorry." I start exhaling slowly.
"Kara what is it?" She asks. Sitting next to me. Rubbing my arm up and down.
"Lena, I don't think I can tell you right now. I think if I tell you that you will leave. Then I'll be alone again. I don't want to lose you." I say softly. My head dropping into my hands. I can feel the tears starting again.
Lena POV.
Whatever happened I vowed to myself I would not let her be alone again. She is my heart. She means the world to me.
"I'll be here, always." I say to her. I know deep down in my heart I couldn't leave her again. It's not even about turning into a world killer. She is my Kara, my sweet amazing kindhearted Kara. I run her back gently. I want her to know it's ok to talk to me.
"I slept with someone else." She whispers. My heart dropped. I take a deep breath. No matter how much this is going to piss me off I have to make sure she is ok.
"Ok." I say softly. Her head snapped towards me.
"That's it? I basically cheated." Kara says with tears spilling from her eyes.
"Tell me what happened." I say softly. I say to her. I know there is more to it than just that. She wouldn't be this upset if there wasn't.
"I can't. You have to talk to Alex. I can't remember it but Alex remembers what happened. Or at least the aftermath." Kara cried. I just held her. To me that didn't sound right. She sobbed into my shoulder. I just whispered to her that it was ok and rubbed her back gently. I know what ever happened it scared her. I just need to be there for her. After a hour or so she calms down so we lay down and she falls asleep. My brain won't turn off. I write a quick note to Kara and I'm going to see Alex. I use the portal generator and set my destination for the DEO.
Alex pov
I am at the deo. Dealing with a lot of rogue aliens. Things are not right. There has been more alien attacks since Kara left. I worries about her when I found her note. Then I found out from Jess that Lena had gone to Argo as well. I knew she would be ok then. I'm staring at the tablet in my hands when I see a portal open up. I place my tablet on the table and pull my gun from my hip. I aim straight for the portal. Safety is off. If they are not a friendly they will cop a bullet. Lena steps through the portal with her hands up. I laugh slightly and put my gun away.
"Lena what's up?" I ask her, picking up my tablet again.
"Alex, let's go to Kara's med bad?" She whispers. She looks like a mess. It's like something really is bothering the poor girl.
We walked in silence to Kara's med bay. Lena was fidgeting. He couldn't keep her hands still. There was something on her mind and she really needed to talk. I open the door for her. She smiled shyly at me.
"Lena what's going on? Are you ok?" I ask quietly once we shut the door. She shakes her head. I watch her take a deep breath.
"Alex, I need to know something and Kara won't tell me. I know you have been there for her this past year. Please can you tell me what happened? Please?" Lena broke down. She drops onto Kara's bed. I take a deep breath.
"Lena, you are going to have to be more specific. But do you really want to know? I know Kara blames her self for it all." I say slowly.
"Alex, I love her so much I want to help her with everything. How can I help her with what she is struggling with if I don't know about it?" She says sadly. I sigh. This is going to hurt both of them all over again. Or Lena is going to her someone. I just don't want either of them to be in pain again. I slowly sit next to her debating where to start.
"I will only tell you the basics. If Kara decides to tell you, you can ask her. Ok? I really don't want to be in the middle of this." I say gently. My hard ass DEO agent mask slipping. Lena is family. Just like Kara. I want to protect them both.
"I'll be ok Alex. I want to help her." Lena says softly. I sigh again.
"After you broke the bond and made her move out, a pod like Kara's landed. This daxumite stepped out. Daxum is the sister planet to krypton. He introduced him self as Mon-el. Kara hated him. Right front he start. He got a job at the alien bar, using the name Mike. Well because he was from daxum he knew Kara's weekness, essentially blue kryptonite. Kara you to drink there every day. Not because of him. She was drinking her pain away. She was a light weight drinker." I stop for a second to let it all sink in. I take a deep breath know this next part was going to be hard for me to say and harder for Lena to hear.
"He would make sure he was on shift whenever Kara went in. He would try to ask her out. She would say no. He would flirt with her, she would sit there not saying anything. She didn't want anything to do with the man. It was late one night when I got a call from one of the aliens at the bar. He saw mike dragging Kara out side. I ran out and jumped on my bike. I was hoping to be there in time. I knew something bad was going to happen. By there time I got there, Kara was laying in a pool of her own blood. Mike was just getting up off her. He had just zipped his pants up when I shot him. I brought Kara here. Looked after her. She didn't talk to anyone for a month. She shut down." I say. Shaking my head as I was caught in the memory. I look towards Lena who was silent the whole time.
Chapter 14
Lena POV.
My heart shattered for the beautiful kryptonian. He did what to her? Alex had finished talking but I sat there stone faced. Trying to process all of this.
"It's not Kara's fault." I say out loud without thinking.
"I know, her theory is, this is what happens when you deserve nothing better. Lena you got to remember she was heart broken. She blames herself for everything." Alex says dejectedly. My heart just couldn't take it. I needed to talk to Kara. Alex refused to say the word in fear of losing Kara. But I have to know. I want to help her. I want her to feel safe with me. I think Alex can see my back and forth on my face.
"Lena. It will be ok. Just show her love. Be you. Just be there. It will help her tremendously!" Alex says wrapping her arms around me. She hugs me for a while. I think we both needed this. Just to talk and be there for Kara.
"Alex I'm sorry for everything I did when you were trying to help your dad." I whisper as she lets me go.
"Lena it was my fault. I should have let you guys in, I should have trusted in my family. But I broke that. I lost Maggie. I deserve that. I truely do. I wasn't a good person in the end. I'm so sorry for everything I did to you and to Kara. I know nothing will ever make up for it. But I truely am sorry." Alex cries. I hug her again. She is still beating herself up over everything.
After Alex finishes crying and cleaning her face. She slips her bad ass agent mask on again. I slightly chuckle. I do the same thing when I am in CEO mode. We walk out to the main room where I open a portal. I need to talk to Kara.
Kara POV
I wake up and notice Lena isn't here. I found her note. I sighed. This conversation it's going to be bad. Lena is going to leave me. I sit up with my back against the headboard. My knees to my chest. I rest my forehead on my knees. I don't want Lena to leave me but she will. I screwed up so badly. All of a sudden I feel a hand on my shoulder, I look up. Lean was looking at me worriedly. She sits next to me on the bed. She pulls me closer wrapping her arms around me.
"We don't have to talk until your ready babe." Lena whispers kissing the top of my head. She has guided me so my head is in her lap and she is running her finger through my hair. She always makes me feel safe. She is home to me. Where I can be me without judgement. I slowly sit up. I gingerly sit on her lap. Resting my head on her shoulder. She instantly wraps her arms around me keeping me close. I sigh. Just being here is amazing. She really is home. I sigh. I don't want to relive this but I have to tell Lena. She needs to understand how broken I truely am.
"I didn't mean for it to happen." I say softly. Lena kisses the top of my head. She starts rubbing my back gently. I cuddle in closer, like she could protect me from the bad memories.
"Babe take you time. I'm going to be here. Always." She says kissing the top of my head again.
"I wasn't dealing with things well. After you left. I started drinking. Badly. It wasn't so bad at the start it was one or two. Just to take the edge off my pain. This pod landed. It looked like mine. I was so happy for a second it could have been someone from home! But it wasn't did Alex tell you this part?" I ask softly. I don't want to talk to loudly. Lena nodded.
"I hated Mike. But he is dead now and it's my fault. I shouldn't have been drinking so much. One night I was drinking by myself at the alien bar. Mike was working there. I ignored him like I usually do. He poured me a drink and I wasn't paying attention. He put some blue kryptonite in it." Lena gasped. She held me closer but I couldn't feel it. I was lost in the memory.
Flash back
Mike just handed me my new drink. I was thinking about her green eyes. I messed up everything. I slam the new drink down. I ask mike for another one. He keeps bringing them to me. If I hadn't been drinking I should have noticed that were blue. I didn't feel so well all of a sudden. I slowly make my way outside. My head spinning. Mike comes up and wraps his arms around me.
"I called Alex for you. She will be here soon. I'll stay with you till she gets here." Mike says. He has a wicked smile in his face. I go to push him away. I can't move my arms. Mike starts to drag me away behind a dumpster. I try to kick, punch fly away. I even tried to scream. But nothing is working.I start to panic. 'LENA! HELP!' I scream in my head. That right she left me. She won't hear me. Mike lays me on the ground. He takes my pants off. Maybe I do deserve this after everything I did to Lena. He take off my underwear. I close my eyes. I don't want to se rebar he is about to do. He punches me in the face.
"Blue kryptonite and roofies. Perfect mix for stuck up bitches like you." He snarls as he slaps me across the face. I could feel the blood dripping from my lip. I couldn't move my body just wouldn't listen to me. He forces my legs open. Next thing I know there is a burning pain. He forces himself into me. I try to push him off me. The pain hurts so badly. My eyes start to water. I can't even cry. He grabs me by the throat.
"You like that don't you? You fucking slut!" He grunts.
"Your tight just for me! Take it bitch." He growls in my ear finally releasing my throat. He starts grunting, the pain getting worse. He is finally done. He pulls a knife out of his pocket.
"No one will want you now bitch." He snarls as he runs the knife deep down the inside of my leg. He pulls out and stands up. I watch him do up his fly, then a bang echoes. He drops to the ground dead.
End of flash back
I hadn't realised I'd been shaking or crying. Not until Lena wiped the tears away so softly. It was like she was afraid of hurting me.
"Babe that wasn't you fault. You know that right?" Lena whispers. Tears streaming down both of our faces.
"I love you darling. Always. Forever." Lena whispers. I can't respond. I'm lost in the memory still. I can still feel the pain. Lena holds me to her as tight as she can, rubbing my back and whispering to me sweet nothings. I hold into her crying into her shoulder. How can I be a hero if I can't save myself?
Chapter 15
Lena POV
Kara was trembling in my arms. She was lost in the memory. I could see the fear on her face still. My heart sank. He raped her. Who could hurt this gorgeous puppy like kryptonian? She is so amazing. I swallow down my anger. I don't want Kara to think I'm angry at her. I'm angry at him. What give him the right to hurt her. I pull her into my chest keeping my heart beat steady. I know she needs it to calm down. I rub my hand gently up and down her back. Something clicked in my brain. I started singing softly to her. Something her mother told me. A kryptonian lullaby. I can feel Kara relax in my embrace. Her sons quiet down to just a sniffle every now and then. She holds onto me tightly still. To the point it was starting to hurt but I know she needs this. She needs comfort. She needs to feel safe. She can take whatever she needs from me. I'm hers. I want her to be safe. Alura walks in and Kara is snuggled tightly in my arms. She smiles and walks away. I think she approves of us. I smile slightly.
"Thank you Lee." Kara says, her voice hoarse fro her crying.
"I'm here always." I say placing a soft kiss to her temple.
"Why? I can't even protect you or our child, I can't even protect myself." She spits angrily. I sigh she is angry at her self.
"Babe none of this is your fault. If anything it's mine for asking you to leave." I say guiltily. She looks up at me softly.
"Lee you saved both of our lives breaking the bond. I know that you asked me to leave because you thought we would never be the same and that I'd resent you. But I don't. You did the right thing. This isn't you fault." She says softly cupping my cheek.
"If I hadn't broken the bon we still would have had our child and you wouldn't never have been hurt." I say stating facts. She gently brushes a tear off my cheek, I didn't realise I had let it slide down my face.
"Lena you are my hero, my strength. I love you. This was not your fault." Kara says sweetly. She gently grazes our lips together. Just showing love. Out breath mingling for a moment. She pulls out lips together. It was soft, sweet and full of love. She pulls back gently rubbing our noses together. She rests her head against my shoulder again. I can't believe that I almost let the love of my life go.
Kara POV
Lena blames her self for everything. She shouldn't. It wasn't her fault that Mike umm raped me. It's not her fault she got shot and lost our baby. Maybe it's the universe telling us we shouldn't be together. But now that I'm curled up in her arms feeling safe and warm and whole. I won't ever let her get away again. I hold her tightly to me. Lena let's put a little gasp.
"Sorry" I mumble, nuzzling into her neck.
"Babe you don't have to be gently with me. I'm yours. Do what you want and take what you need." She says sweetly. My heart melted. I couldn't believe I found her. The only person who will love me for all time.
"I don't want to hurt you." I say still nuzzled into her neck. Fighting the urge to just kiss it and watch her shiver. I fight the urge for a second. I gently kiss her neck.
"Babe please don't. I'm not ready for more than this ok?" She says. My heart drops a little. Is this because she is angry at what I told her. I look up into her emerald green eyes. All I could see what love and understanding. It clicked. It wasn't about her it was about me. She wasn't ready for me to go through this again. She didn't want me to hurt again. She didn't want me to be broken again. She looks at me with nothing but love and acceptance. We just stay there holding each other. This moment is just so perfect.
Alura POV
Kara and Lena are really cute together. I over heard the conversation they were having. I didn't mean to. But the fact that Lena is there just holding Kara and not pushing her for anything makes my heart swell. I was so angry when I heard what that disgrace of an individual did to my baby. But I should have known her sister Alex would look after her. It still broke my heart knowing my daughter didn't come to me when she was hurting. But what can you expect when most of her life she thought I was dead. She is so strong. I wish she could see how amazing she is. I'm glade Lena is there showing her. I walk back to my balcony. I miss Zor-el. He died protecting Kara. Protecting me. The counsel wanted blood for the core being destroyed. They blamed both of us for it because they didn't listen when we tried to warn them. I'm just so glade Kara didn't have to see him die. Just after Kara's pod was launched we were attacked. I managed to activate the shields to protect the city. I was praying to rao that they would work. Two members of the council attacked. Zor-el fought them off while I got the shields going. Just as the shields activated, the core blew up. In the same seconds he was murdered. I couldn't save him plus the city. The counsel members were tried and sentenced to death a while later. Not all of the members on the counsel were against us. It turns out there was only 3 out of the 10 that were. Zor-el and I might have had Kara but we were not actually together. I never found my soul mate and neither did he. Kara never knew this though.
Chapter 16
K ara POV
After the talk and the cuddles, Lena and I decided to see why my mother walked into my room earlier. Lena grabs my hand and won't let go. She is showing me so much love and support. I almost don't want to go home. We are in our own little bubble. Lena makes me so happy. I thought she would hate me. I thought when she found out the truth she would leave and never come back. I didn't think she would be here still. I really didn't. I thought when I told her about Mike that she would leave. Or when I told her about my drinking. I didn't know it would result in the fact that we would lose our baby. I wish I had known. But we can't go back in time. If there is anything I have learnt from Barry it's do not mess with the time line. Lena drags me out of the room to find my mum. She smiles at me over her shoulder. Our hands intertwined. I love seeing Lena so happy. She is amazing. It hurts so badly she went thought so much without me. She Deanna me through the hall way. My heart flutters when I see her smile. It's amazing to know it's because of me for some reason. I know that I shouldn't have given up hope, it's what always drives me. By Lena is like a combination of a red and yellow sun. Yellow making me indestructible and red grounding me. It's fascinating. She makes me so much stronger and brave without even knowing it.
Lena POV
Kara has been silent. I drag her into an empty room.
"Babe, what's wrong?" I say softly. I don't want her to be in pain or upset over anything. She is so amazing. She makes me feel like I finally have a loving home.
Her blue eyes sparkled in the light and a small smile crossed those perfectly pink lips.
"I was thinking about you. About how you make me feel." She says pulling me in closely. Her eyes flutter shut a microsecond before mine and I got a glimpse of how happy she truely was. She stops millimeters away from my lips. I can feel her warm breath on my lips. My breath catches in my throat. Slowly, every so gently she captures my lips. I sighed so deeply I could feel it in my toes. Her arms wrapped around me tighten, he hands in my hips. I slowly run my fingers through her hair. She groans into my lips making every atom in my body quake. She deepened the kiss and I felt like I was floating. I was pouring every bit of love I could into the kiss. Kara tightens her hold but runs her fingers under my shirt softly. Slowly. Tracing patterns. Slowly she walks us both back towards the wall. Gently she pushes me against the hard, cold brick wall. The cold of the wall on my back was a blinding contrast to the warmth of her lips. I moan and gently tug at her bottom lip. I kiss her with even more want and need. The whole world could end right now and I'd die happy because I was here with my Kara. All of a sudden I hear someone clear their throat behind Kara. Kara sighs as she pulls away. Removing her warm hand in the process. I slowly open my eyes. Kara is still standing in front of me, her blue eyes shining and a smile smile playing on her lips.
"Kara! Lena! Why is it lately I walk in on you both kissing? Haven't you heard of bedrooms?!" Alura sighed, a smile echoced in her voice. Kara quickly turns around and I can see the tips of her ears turning red. I duck my head, placing my cheek against Kara's shoulder.
"Well we would kiss there mother but you walk in there too with out knocking." Kara giggled out. Alura gave Kara a pointed look. Kara stopped giggling.
"Kara you need to go home. Alex is worried. Did you leave her a note of some sort?" Alura asked Kara with a struck tone. The colour drawing from her face.
"Want me to grab our stuff quickly and meet you back here? So you can talk to your mum?" I ask her softly after regaining my composure. Kara nods her head swiftly. I quickly excuse myself from the room. I run down the hall way. This couldn't be good.
Kara POV
I watch Lena leave. Feeling my heart shrink in disappointment from being away from her. I looked back to my mother. I swallowed hard. She is going to be mad at me.
"Did you really come here to kill yourself?" My mother asked. Her voice breaking. I see a line tear slide down her cheek.
"Mum, things are ok now. Those feelings are gone. I promise." I say gently. I walk towards her slowly. I get a few feet away when she pulls me in close. She wraps her arms around me. She starts crying into my shoulder. I feel so selfish and guilty right now. I'm still here and I have caused so much pain. I hold my mum close and kept whispering I'm so sorry to her.
Lena POV
I packed everything very quickly. I race back towards the room Kara and her mother were. I slow down for a second listening to all the amazing sounds. I felt this pull in my heart as I turn the corner. The door was still opened slightly. I heard Kara tell her mother she was ok and didn't want to hurt herself or anyone. I could hear Alura crying and my heart broke. Was Kara really at the point of no return? I know I had tried after I lost our baby. But Kara? She embodies hope and kindness. Did I really break her that badly? I can feel the tears running down my cheeks. I tried so hard to choke back a sob, but it didn't help. I had hurt her so badly she wanted to die?Alura snapped her head towards me. Kara looks up slowly. She looks so scared. I step back slowly. I think I need to clear my head and think things through.
"Lena, please don't run again. Please" I heard Kara sob. My feet are rooted to the ground. I look into her blue eyes, tear stained. Pleading for me to stay.
Chapter 17
Kara POV
Lena heard everything. I don't want her to blame herself. It's truely not her fault. Rao knows it's not her fault I felt like that. That I had given up hope. She stays standing the same spot. I can see the fear and her blaming herself behind those green eyes. I look between my mother and Lena. Lena steps forward gingerly.
"Kara, maybe you should stay here with your mum and I'll go and talk to Alex?" She asks softly. She must have read my mind. I needed to explain everything to my mum. I nod slowly. My mother walks over and gives her a long embrace. Lena steps away trying to discreetly while her tears, I felt so guilty. She makes a portal and goes home. I sigh. I miss her already.
"Come Kara let's go and talk?" My mother asks me, resting her hand on my shoulder. She leads me out to her balcony again. I should feel safe here but without Lena nothing feels right.
"Want to talk about it?" My mother asks softly as she makes me a warm cup of tea. I great fully take the warm cup into my hands when she passes it to me.I take a sip slowly, letting the warmth of the drink spread though out my body. I take a moment and collect my thoughts.
I let out a shaky breath. My mother sits next to me. She puts an arm around me. I know I have to do this but it is so hard. I tell her everything.
"Kara you are never alone. I promise you that my sweet daughter, I love you so much. So does Alex and Lena. We are all here for you to lean on us. We will all support you no matter what." She says with love and conviction in her voice. I still feel guilty. I shouldn't have let my self end up in that position. My mother senses that I'm still upset. I snuggle into her like I did as a child.she holds me close telling me that everything is going to be ok. I left my mother comfort me.
Lena POV
I set the portal for Alex's house. I step though it. As I get half way between I start yelling "Alex don't shoot it's me!". I know what Alex is like she will shoot first ask questions later. I hear Alex laughing as I stepped though.
"What?" I ask her sternly. This was not a time to be laughing.
"Sorry I can't believe Alura did that. Did she send you here because Kara is dead?" she says laughing her ass off. I look around confused.
"Kara is alive and safe Alex I promise." I say swiftly.
"Oh ok. She left this here." Alex breathes out. Releaved. She hands me a note. I quickly read it. I start sobbing, Kara was going to kill herself and it's my fault. That must have been after she hurt me by accident. I shouldn't have flinched or make any movement that things were not ok. I take a deep breath. Kara asked me not to run. Breathe in. Breathe out. I feel horrible that Kara doubted herself so badly. I know Kara would never mean to hurt me. Maybe there is a way I can make her feel better. Maybe there is a safer way.
Alura POV
As soon as Lena left, Kara broke. She broke down in my arms. Sobbing uncontrollably. My poor daughter. She doesn't deserve this sort of misery. She deserves happiness and love. I know Lena brings that to her and gives her a rock to lean on. I hold her close. I failed her as a mother. I should have come and found her sooner! Kara sniffles slow down.
"I hurt her mum." She whispers. I can feel the pain behind the words.
"I hate having powers." She mutters.
"Why baby?" I ask her gently.
"I hurt my souls mate because I couldn't control them enough." She cries.
"Emotional distress causes you to lose control. I can tell you right now, Lena doesn't blame you." I say confidently.
I know Lena loves Kara that much she would move all the stars in the sky if that's what Kara wanted or needed.
"But mum I hurt her. I could have done something so much more worse!" She sobs, still in my arms. I pull away.
"Kara you listen to me, did Lena run away? No! She is still here! She lives you so much. So be the woman you were born to be, a hero to earth, a champion of justice and the next leader of krypton!" I say passionately. Kara wipes her eyes. Stands up straight.
"Your right mum. I'm going to be the person that my love deserves." She says with renewed confidence. She hugs me quickly, opens a portal and is gone. I sigh. I worry about her so much. I know she will be ok. I just hope that things will work out for her. I know there is trouble brewing with Clark. I know he wants revenge for being stuck here with no powers but he need to lear he is not head of the house, I am here and Kara is on earth.
Clark POV
I know of a way to finally get Kara and that luthor out of my life once and for all. I have to get back to the fortress. If I remember correctly if I give up my soul mate I can gain so much more power as a world killer. Then earth and those stupid bitches will be out of my road. For good. I smile to my self. This time it's war. Good luck Kara you will need it. The guards come down soon, to check on me. I know I can fool them and escape to my pod they haven't moved it. Suckers. As I hear the guards coming I couch my stomach like I'm in pain. The guards come rushing in and I take the two of them out. I start making my way quickly and quietly out of the building. Everyone is too focused on what they are doing to notice me. I race for the ship. As I get there I can hear the guards coming. I quickly set the destination and head for earth. Let's see what I can find out about world killers.
Chapter 18
Kara POV
All I can hear is the alarms, guards running towards the jail. My heart stopped. Something is going on and I don't have my powers?! How do I protect Lena?! I take a deep breath and I remember that Lena was at home on earth. I race out to help the guards.
"Kara! Stay there!" My mother yelled at me. I froze. Things must be bad if they don't want my help. All I can hear is yelling. What on krypton is going on? The yelling stops and all I can see is very irritated guards walking back. My friend of many years, Zep, stops and sees if I'm ok.
"I'm fine, what happened?" I ask the taller kryptonian. She shakes the shaggy black hair away from his hazel eyes.
"Kal escaped. He took his pod home to earth!" She snapped in frustration.
My heart stops. He is going to hurt my Lena.
"No he couldn't have!" I say taken aback by the events.
"Well he did." Zep says in his deep voice eyebrows raised.
"How are you little girl?" He asks. True concern lacing his voice. He has called me that since we met when we were children. He always save me from the older kids who picked on me. He is only a year older than me.
"I need to go and protect my Lena. I'm worried. What do u think he has planned?" I say softly.
"I found this in his cell." Zep says handing me a bit of paper with just one word on it.
REVENGE. In blood. Shoot he is going to hurt us all. I need to save my girl. I say a quick goodbye to my friend before I could turn and go he grabs my arm.
"Kara, let me go with you. I want to help. I think you might need back up." He says. I can see he is scared. He always said he would protect me. He really is one of my best friends. I quickly nod my head. We race though the long hallways. Quickly packing things we will both need.
"I'll have to be careful there is still green kryptonite on earth right?" Zep asks
"Lena has a solution for that. Don't worry. It's easy and only have to do it once." I say smiling at how amazing my girlfriend is. My mother walks into the room.
"I am coming too. I have spoke to the council. Kal is no longer welcome here on this planet and is no longer considered an ally. He is now classed as an outcast and must be treated like one. I will protect you. Zep and I are the only two left with experience under a yellow sun." She says sternly. I nod grabbing my bag. We set the portal and I am going home to save my planet and my gorgeous girl. Hopefully if I can make it out of this and she says yes hopefully I can make her my wife.
Lena POV
Alex and I have been working non stop on a new way for Kara to train. Which means if I use this at our house Kara won't be afraid to hurt me. I know she is a good hearted person. I don't want her to worry. I want to make her feel safe. Like she does for me. We are working in my lab at home. I'm still not strong enough to walk into our room but hopefully Kara understands why.
Next thing there is a portal. Alex raises her gun and pushes me behind her to protect me. She is acting like the old Alex. Next thing I know Alura, Kara and a man walk through the portal. I run up to Kara and wrap my arms around her. Holding her close feeling her warmth. I sigh contently in her arms. She picks me up twirling me around. We both giggle. She places a soft and sweet kiss on my lips. She places me gently down. Our moment broken by Alex and Alura cooing at us. The man was unsuccessfully trying to hold back a laugh.
"Kara I've never seen you so happy in the long time we have known each other." He says with a happy twinkle in his eye. I stay in front of my girlfriend.
"You better have a damn good reason to be with MY Kara. Or I might let Alex shoot you. With kryptonite." I snarl. I'm still very protective of my sweet angel. Kara chuckles and pulls me in flush against her body. The contact is making me feel way to many things.
"Lena this is Zep my best friend from when we were kids. Zep this is my soulmate, Lena." Kara says smiling. I blush slightly.
"I am happy to meet you Zep. I am sorry for my behaviour earlier." I say gently. He smiles walks closer and says.
"I would have done the same thing if it was my mate. I like her." He says the last part looking at Kara. She smiles her biggest smile. I sigh contently being with my beautiful blonde.
"Alura what is going on?" Alex asks breaking the moment.
"Kal has escaped. This is what we found in his cell. I think he is coming back here to hurt everyone you guys care about." She says sternly. I tighten my grip on kara. She flinched. I look up at her.
"Did I hurt you love? I am so sorry." I say to her feeling horrible. She takes a minute to think about it.
"Lena I think your powers are coming back early." She says smiling at me. I smile slowly, realising things will be ok.
Alex POV
Lena is getting her powers back. I smile. My little sister is getting her happy ending. I'm so happy and proud of her. I smile sadly thinking about the last year. What I did was incredibly stupid but Kara and Lena forgave me. I wish I could have someone in my life like Kara does with Lena. But I guess that won't happen.
"Oh baby, Sam starts tomorrow at L-Corp. so it means I can help you more with thing problem with Kal. Hopefully we can sort it peacefully." Lena says with a smile. Hmmm I wonder who this Sam person is. How is Jess going to handle anymore drama.
Chapter 19
Lena POV
My girlfriend sweeps me literally off my feet. Carrying my bridal style. She slowly makes our way through the hallways of the house. I snuggle into thee crook of her neck. She chuckles. I kiss her neck softly. She groans at me. We stop at the spare room door. She places me down.
"Still not sleeping in the master room?" She says tilting her head. She looks like a confused puppy. I shake my head.
"It's our room. I can't go in there without you. It wouldn't be right." I say softly. Kara gives me a small sad smile. I gently place my hands on either side of her face making her look at me.
"Babe we have to move forward not backwards. We both made mistakes. It is ok because no matter what I love you." I say earnestly. She smiles bright pulling me in close gently peppering my face with soft kisses. I giggle.
"Maybe we should go in together?", she asks me sweetly. My heartbeat increases. I want to be with her in all the ways humanly possible, but I know that now isn't the right time. I feel the pull of our bond, it's getting stronger and I want to do this right after hurting her so much. Alura is right when she told us that our bond was never broken. I really believed I rejected it to save her, but it didn't break, that's why we were so miserable without each other. Kara's my everything, I want us to repair the bond and for us to have hope again. If we are the couple of legend that can save the world then we both need to have hope and it starts by us repairing our bond.
Kara keeps me close. Kissing me randomly. She is so sweet, and I can't believe I let her go. I really believed I rejected our bond to save her, but it really wasn't broken,
that's why we were so miserable without each other. I tighten my grip on her and love filled eyes look down at me.
"I love you Lena, you truly are my all." She says sweetly. My heart swells and I can feel tears starting to pool in my eyes. She is opening up her heart and her world to me again. I take a deep breath.
"Lena are you ok?" She asks me sweetly.
"Better than ever." I smile pulling her into me slowly and sweetly kissing her softly. Savoring the sweet taste that is my beautiful Kara. As we pull apart, i gently rest my forehead against hers. I can feel her ragged breath softly against my lips. I don't want this moment to ever end.
"Lena, please, please don't leave me again." Kara begs softly. My heart shatters and swells at the one statement.
"Kara, I'm so sorry I left you. I thought I was doing the right thing. I won't ever leave you again. I promise I won't break your heart again." I say softly. Playing with my fingers trying to avoid the anxiety that I know is surely about to come. Kara gently places her hands over mine. I slowly bring my eyes up to meet hers.
"Lena, you saved me! You saved everyone!" Kara said with so much conviction that I almost believed it. The bong is still there pulling us closer together again. I don't want to hurt her again. I feel my heart and chest tightening. I close my eyes and tried to breathe. I try to focus on my breathing. Kara held me close.
"Babe no matter what happens I am here. I will be with you forever." She whispers to me. Gently kissing my temple. My eyes are screwed shut trying to block out the negative thoughts. She gently holds me to her so I can hear her stead heart beat. Thud. Thud. Thud. I try to concentrate on it. The more I concentrated on her heart beat and her warmth, the calmer I got. I open my eyes, just to see Kara's deep blue eyes, full of love and concern for me. I gently reach up cupping her cheek. She closes her eyes and places her hand on top of mine.
"Lena I am so sorry. I'm sorry that you feel like this, I'm sorry I haven't been there. Please forgive me." She whispers. Her eyes closed and a single tear sliding down her cheek. She is having the same internal battle that I am. I wrap my arms around her.
She opens her eyes slightly and I can see the fear, guilt and remorse in her eyes. I decide this has to happen. We need to move forward.
"Take me in to our room babe. Please?" I ask barely above a whisper. Kara looks at me with her big puppy eyes, slightly cocking her head to the side. I nod slowly. I just want to hold her until all the pain we both have felt is gone.
She takes me into our room closing the door. She gently places me on the bed. She lays down next to me. I instantly wrap my arms around her. Feeling home again finally. I sigh contently as she holds me incredibly closer. I missed this. I missed us just being us. I've been putting my walls up and one look from Kara and they break. She truely is the best thing to ever happen to me. She sighs as I gently run my fingers through her hair.
"Babe, we are both not ready for much more than this but I promise you I am yours forever." I say to her to reassure her I won't be leaving or pushing her.
"Lena, I love you. I tried so hard to not think about you but everything has a memory. Alex was actually worried about me. I couldn't do anything without thinking about you or it reminding me of you. I love you so incredibly much. My life doesn't feel complete without you. Your so smart and amazing." Kara says with a sniffle.
Kara POV
All the hurt and anguish we have both put ourselves though has come to the surface in this one moment. Lena holds me tightly. I know this was not her fault or mine. But we were both hurt. She knows I didn't mean for everything to go so horribly wrong. I know she doesn't blame me. We both need to forgive ourselves. I lay there listening to her heart beat. Letting it lull me to sleep.
Lena POV
Kara fell asleep in my arms. She must be so exhausted. I lay there with her in my arms. She is finally starting to forgive herself. Well I hope she is. She is so beautiful and smart. I don't want her to ever feel like this again. I couldn't sleep. I was too excited to see Sam tomorrow. Kara starts to toss and turn in her sleep. I sit up gently stroking her hair telling her it's ok. She screams. My heart broke. I wish I knew what she was having a nightmare about. She sits up with a jolt. Her Face is red and tears falling quickly. She looks so frightened. I wrap my arms around her and she flinched for a second before she realised it's me. She melts into my arms.
"It's ok baby girl. Your safe I promise." I say to her. Kissing her softly on her temple.
"You promise?" She asks in the smallest voice I hav ever heard.
"I promise my love." I reply in kryptonian. She smiles a sad smile but lays down again. I lay back down and pull her close. As we both fall asleep I vowed to myself I will keep her safe.
Clark POV
I've been keeping tabs on Kara. She falls straight back in with that fucking Luthor. She thinks no one knows about Mike. Unfortunately she isn't as good as hiding things like the daxumites are. With there help I will take back my planet. I fly home. Lois is awake and waiting for me like always.
"Hey Clark, I'm glade your ok. I was so worried!" She says as soon as I walk into the front door. I rub my temples. I really don't want to be with her and thankfully that's part of my work plan.
"I'm fine." I say with a flat voice. I walk past her and start to pack the basics that I will need for this to work.
"What's going on Clark?" She asks. I groan I'm so glade that I can do this!
"We are over! I reject the bond!" I say firmly. Lois drops to her knees.
"Why Clark? What did I do?" She sobs.
"I don't love you and never will. You were just something to play with. Your now too old and I'm not even attracted to you!" I say flatly. Finally. No more hiding. I walk past her as she pleads to be better. I laugh and walk out of the door. I fly to the fortress. My father was right. These earthlings are too weak to handle me. I smile to myself. Phase one is complete.
Chapter 20
Clark POV
I will live up to my true potential. This little planet won't know what hit it. If they think that this universe will accept them for the weaklings they are then they are wrong. No planet I am on will ever have gay people on it. It is disgusting behaviour! Shivering at the thought. I shake my head. I am currently reading all the information I have on world killers. I make a quick call to someone who hates Kara and earth as much I do. They think this is over. They better think twice. Kara will pay for disgracing our family.
Kara POV
I wake up with Lenas head right over my heart. Her arms around me. I smile softly. She is still here beside me even after everything. She is so perfect. I feel my heart flutter as she holds on a little tighter. I look at her face. He eyes are scrunched up tight. A bead of sweat slowly drips down her face. I can feel her heart rate increase. I hold her closer. She must be having a nightmare. I stroke her hair gently. Whispering that it's ok and I'm here. She jolts awake with a loud scream. Her breaths are ragged. I slowly come closer to her. Wrapping my arm around her for support. She flinched away from my touch.
"Babe?" I ask softly.
"I am fine." She says not looking at me. She gets up off the bed. Walking to the closet grabbing out clothes.
"I'm going to shower." She says stiffly. I nod slowly. I don't want to upset her. I just want to know what is happening. She is much more withdrawn than when we first met. I watch her walk in to the bathroom. I see the tension in her shoulder as she slams the door. I feel my heart break a little. I know we need to work on things but I can't help but feel like she doesn't trust me anymore.
Lena POV
I turn the shower on. I lean against the door. I know I should not treat Kara like that. The night mare I had. I couldn't think. There was so much of it that was real. I felt trapped all over again. Stuck in the same circle of events that made me break Kara's heart and get her hurt. It felt so real. It was like I was standing there the night that Mike had hurt her. It shattered me because the next thing I can remember of the nightmare was Kara and Alex telling me That I was pregnant. The happy look on Kara's face. Her holding me close promising me that she would protect me. She places her hand gently on my stomach, that's when I woke up. It's eating me alive. I step under the hot water, letting hot water scold my skin. I slowly let it all fade into nothing. I try to focus on what is happening today, Sam is coming back to work. I'm so glade Kara and her are on good terms. After reign Sam was so scared that Kara would hate her but Kara being Kara wrap her up in a hug and said everything would be ok. I smile slightly at the memory. I shake the thoughts out of my head and get ready for the day.
Kara POV
Lena is just getting ready like nothing has happened. I'm so worried about her. Is it my fault? Did I push her too far in coming into our room again? I'm second guessing everything all over again. Is Lena happy with me? Oh rao what if she doesn't want to be with me? I thought I could feel the bond pulling us closer again. Maybe I'm wrong? Maybe it's one sided. I could feel the panic rising in my chest. I pull the blanket over my head and curl in on myself, both physically and mentally. I can feel the doubt in my head ripping away every good thought I have. Lena loves me, no she doesn't. Why would she love me? The little voice in my head says. I can feel my eyes well. My heart hurt to much. I close my eyes tightly and try to think positively.
Lena POV
I walk back into the bedroom. I can see Kara curled up tightly. My heart starts to hurt painfully. I can feel the doubt rising in her. I feel it in my bones and my heart quivers. I did this to her. This is my fault she is in pain. Maybe I should tell her what has been happening. Maybe I should go over there and comfort her. I can see her shoulders shudder. She looks like she is crying. I walk up slowly towards her. I gently place my hand on her shoulder. Feeling her shudder again.
"Go away." She says mumbled under the blanket. I sit next to her. I pull the blanket down. She looks so broken right now, messy hair, tear stained cheeks. Her eyes red. My poor Kara was crying. She goes to grab the blanket back and it rips. The sound echos in the silent room.
"Lena I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." Kara starts to mumble as she cries harder. I pull her in closely. Holding her flush against me. Feeling both of our hearts hammering out of control.
"You have nothing to be sorry about baby. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been an asshole-" I started to say when Kara puts her finger up to my lips. I instantly stop what I am saying.
"Lee, I think-" that's all I heard when my work phone rings hurting my ears. Super hearing coming back. Great. I didn't miss that one too much. I look at Kara then my phone. I turn my phone off putting it back on the table next to us. Kara looks at me bewildered.
"That was Jess wasn't it?" Kara asked.
"It's fine Kara don't worry. You are more important."
Kara POV
Lena and I talk. We talked for ages. I was wrapped up in her arms. Where I feel the safest. Lena explained her dream and that she didn't want me to feel guilty. I told her where my head was going and she just holds me close. I sigh contently. I hear a knock at the door. Lena goes to get it. I quickly get changed and cleaned up. I can hear the most beautiful sound of my life, my Lena laughing. I walk out to the lounge room and see Sam sitting on the couch telling Lena something funny that ruby did. I smiled and then though Sam and ruby would be great names for kids then remember the kids from the other earth. I think that's where we got the names from. Sams looks over.
"Kara I've missed you so much! How have you been?" Sam asks with a smile. I forgot how warm and comfortable it was having another kryptonian around.
"Sam I've missed you." I say earnestly. Lena looks up with a smile.
"Come on girls we are going for coffee. We are meeting someone too." Lena says with a sly smile. What is she planning?
Chapter 21
Clark POV
Finally things are in place. Thanks to Eve. She is keeping an eye on Kara and Lena to make sure they don't screw up my plan. Once this is done she will no longer be needed. I can't wait to rid this word of these pathetic things. Rea and I have planned this thing perfectly. She will get revenged for her poor sons death, I will get the planet and Eve will meet her maker. She doesn't even know it's coming. It's spectacular. I will rule this planet like the god I am!
Kara POV
Lena has a surprise. I'm so worried it something bad. I feel so guilty about everything still. I know I shouldn't. But I do. I trail behind Lena and Sam lost in my own thoughts. I wounded if the baby that Lena lost was a boy or a girl? What if was Casey? What if he doesn't exist! I felt the panic and guilt rising in the back of my throat. Lena must has sensed something was wrong. She turns around and her smile drops from her face. She wraps her arms around me. Sam looks at us both and wraps her arms around us both.
"Babe what is wrong?" Lena says. I swallowed the lump forming in my throat.
How do I tell her what is on my mind? She is going think I'm crazy. I think to myself. Lena hugs me tighter, then I hear her voice softly in my head. I'm here always. Sam hold us both. In the middle of a crowded street and these two amazing women are trying to make sure that I'm ok. I start thinking about those kids again. What if that was Casey? I thought to Lena. Doesn't matter Kara, all that matters is that we are here together and safe. Lena says inside my head. I didn't think we would ever get the telepathic connection back.
"You ok Kara?" Say asks softly. I nod my head quickly.
"Come on Kara, I have a surprise for the both of you!" Lena says with her amazing smile. I smile while to myself as Sam and Lena let me go. I truely am lucky to have such amazing people in my life. I am still trailing a step or two behind them mainly because I'm collecting my thoughts. I look up as Lena opens the door for me.
"Are you the most sweetest person ever!" Sam says laughing as I go red.
"Only for the most amazing person I could ever have laid eyes on!" Lena says looking me dead in the eyes. I blush. God this woman does something amazing to me!
"Your too sweet lena." I say softly. As I walk past Lena she places a quick kiss in my cheeks making me blush further. We walk into this small coffee shop. I look around and see Alex sitting in a booth looking extremely nervous. I look at Lena then look at Sam. Sams eyes are blown wide open. She was looking at Alex.
Sam POV
I was picking on Kara and Lena like usual. It's been great after seeing them after soo long. I'm glancing around the coffee shop when I see Alex. Oh my lord! She is still so hot! She looked so cute when she is nervous. She looks up at me and oh wow I hadn't felt a connection like this ever. It was always like this with Alex. Something deep down always wanted to be with her. But she was with Maggie. She stands up, straightening her leather jacket. I could see her abs though her black tshirt. Honestly if we not in public, oh who am I kidding I'm drooling. Lena clears her throat. I shake all the thoughts of Alex in my bed out of my head. I walk over and I can here Lena whispering to Kara.
"Kara do we know for sure?" Lena whispered. She keeps forgetting that since we defeated reign I was still kryptonian. I whisper back quickly to them.
"I'm still kryptonian Lena". Lena smiles bigger than ever. I have no idea what that woman is planning.
Lena POV
So now I can communicate with Kara just with thoughts. It's amazing I had missed her rambling in my mind sometimes. I had Kara and Alura look into reign and the world killers. They truely are kryptonian. Then Alura and I searched and found all the records of Sam, her future even. I shared all this with Kara. We were both shocked to find out who her soul mate was. As each child was taken into the conclusion room they were recorded. But as Sam didn't go in there we used a sample of her DNA to find out. We all wanted to know if reign was coming back. Turns out reign will never come back and that we already knew her soul mate.
Alex POV
Wow Sam still looks amazing. I have always felt this pull with her. Even when I was with Maggie. There was always something about Sam. She is so smart and sexy. She has an amazing daughter. I always try to look my best around her. I saw her checking me out before Lena broke the tension. Kara as usual didn't notice. All her attention was on Lena. I'm so happy that they are working things out. It has been extremely tough for them both. Lena and Sam go and order us both drinks. I try to object but they said they need a minute to talk. I look over at Kara. She looks so much happier. She is full of life again. I still remember the night I killed Mike to save her. She was so broken but now to see her this happy again. It was night and day. Maybe true love does that. I will never know.
"Hey Alex." Kara says breaking me out of my thoughts.
"I have missed you little sister." I say honestly.
"How are things Alex?" She asks softy.
"We I have news but I'm waiting till our girls are back." I say.
"Our girls?" Kara questions. Shit!! Before I could fix it Lena and Sam were back. Kara gave me the look saying that we would talk later.
"Hi Alex, how are you?" Lena says sitting next to Kara. Sam sitting next to me.
"I have news that you need to know." I say quickly in my deo voice.
"I'm all ears." Lena says placing her hand on Kara's to stop her fidgeting.
"I found Eve."
Chapter 22
Lena POV
We finally found the bitch! Was all I could think. I have to focus.
"I want to be there when we go to capture her." I say quietly.
"I figured that already temptress." Alex said with a smile. I grinned. I have to find my uniform again. I look towards Kara. My smile drops. She is looking down at her hands. Crinkle stuck on her face.
"Kara what's wrong?" I ask her softly.
"I don't want you to go. It will be dangerous." She said looking quite guilty at even saying it aloud.
"Kara you can't stop me from going." I say sternly. Kara just stands up and walks out of the coffee shop. I wish she would talk to me but she is even blocking me telepathically. Alex and Sam look surprised. I sigh. I look over at Sam and Alex. We continue to talk about the plan to capture Eve. Personally she would be better off dead but we are going to try hard for Kara's sake to capture her alive. With out without Kara help I'm ending this.
Kara POV
Doesn't Lena understand that this will cause her more harm than good? This is going to end badly. I don't want her to get hurt. Last time we faced Eve it destroyed us both! Doesn't she get it? I don't want her to get hurt and I don't want to lose her! I was fuming. She didn't even take my feelings into account. Doesn't she remember the pain and the horrible things that happen?! I walk around the city lost in thought. I know Lena wants to protect me. That's why she created tempest. I know the bond is getting stronger, I can feel it but I don't know if it will be strong enough to save us. I can feel that there is something bad coming. I don't know when or where but I feel like it is going to be the end of something.
Lena POV
Kara has been going for ages. I'm so worried. I head for the deo. Maybe they can track her. I don't want to invade her privacy so I have been keeping my thoughts to myself. I wish she knew that I do love her but I need closure! Why can't see that? This is more than the two of us. If Eve dominates the world it would be almost as bad as Lex did. I've chosen her and the good side over everything can't she understand? I want to finish what has been started. I want to be there when Eve gets what is coming to her.
Eve POV
Clark and I have been plotting. He knows I know how to kill fully bonded kryptonians and he hates Kara as much as I hate Lena. He told me she wasn't meant to be the head of the house of el on earth but because she is technically older and of a higher blood family she is. She doesn't know that though. Clark refuses to tell her. Just like her mother won't tell her because Clark knows something. He won't tell me what it is. But that is ok. I know more about Lena and her fears than anyone knows. I also know about the pregnancy. Clark didn't know because he was to busy trying to break Kara. Little does he know I have done that by taking out that abomination. Ha. Clark doesn't know that I've been planning this since I heard they were becoming close. He is going to be a dead man before this is over.
Clark POV
I know even has been plotting against me. So I'm setting her a trap. She won't survive and Lena will kill her. Hahaha. Kara will never be with a killer. Then with the help of those annoying daxumites, I will rule this world! Kara and Lena will die and so will anyone that stands with them. Rea and I have been talking she has helped create world killers before, she was there when reign was created. It's harder to do it once you are out of infancy but it can be done. I just have to do the one thing I never thought I would have to do. Kill a kryptonian with a kryptonite blade. Kara won't know what hit her. She will be the reason I be come the strongest kryptonian in the multiverse. Rea doesn't know that I know how to control her whole army. There is a lead based kryptonite that can control her pathetic race. She won't know what hit her. Just like she doesn't know that I manipulated her useless son into raping Kara that ended his life. I go back to planing Eves death. It's going to be so much fun.
"Hey Eve, I have a plan to lure them out. You will set up a meeting with Lena, she will come and Kara will no doubtly follow. She is so predictable. Then Rea and I will take them out. We need to do this tomorrow because the army is only a few days away. " I say confidently.
"Sure Clark." She says with a smile. Oh she is so stupid.
Lena POV
I can feel the waves of emotions rolling off Kara before I can see her. She is worried angry and hurt. I don't understand. I want this to end. For both of us. She walks into the deo. She looks so down. My instincts take over and I race over to her. I wrap my arms tightly around her. Burying my face into her neck. I inhale her sent and use it to ground me. I feel her resting her head on top of mine.
"I'm sorry babe. I know you, I know you want closure. I know you couldn't hurt her. I am so sorry. I just don't want you to be hurt." She says in such a dejected tone is made my heart beat of my chest. I don't want to hurt her.
"El mayah." I say softly.
Chapter 23
Kara POV
I feel the tears running down my cheeks. Lena knows exactly what to say. I love her so much. I'm just so nervous. I can feel in my gut that something bad is going to happen. I slowly I pull Lena from the death grip she has around me and I hear a soft whimper. She still presses herself into me.
"I am so sorry" she mumbles into my neck. It sent shivers down my spine hearing how broken she sounded.
"It's my fault. I have got such a bad feeling babe. I don't want you to get hurt." I say softly. I can see Alex shifting uncomfortably behind Lena. I can hear Sam coming into the deo. Lena snapped her head up. She must have heard Sam coming too. She looks up to me, tears welling in those perfect green eyes. I sigh and hold her close for another moment.
"I will never let anything bad happen to you babe." I say softly trying to convince my voice not to break. She whispers
"You are my everything kara, I love you." In flawless kryptonian. My heart picked up. She must have know I needed that right now.
"I love you!" She says in perfect kryptonian making the tears spill from my eyes. It was like something that had broken had been mended. Something inside me snapped and I knew in my heart and soul that I will be forever bonded to this perfect creature. Lena must have read my mind and nodded against my chest. My heart feels full and like nothing can come between us. I can feel the bond getting stronger by the second.
Lena POV
I knew Kara needed to hear me tell her that I do love her in her native language. She needed that on so many levels. It felt like something between us was fixed. That maybe we can be ok again. She was holding me close in the middle of the deo. Sam approached us.
"We have her location. We are going to move in on Eve. Clark could be there in waiting. So we have a plan. M'gann and J'ohn are going to transform into you both and Kara you will be near by for back up, Lena you are going to be running coms and tech from here." Alex said with a small smile. I didn't even hear her come into the room. Kara stiffened while still in my arms. She nods. I'm so ready for this to be over and then I can have Kara all to myself.
"Babe it will be fine I promise." I think loudly so Kara can hear it. She slightly tightened her arms around me. We are both worried. I look to Alex.
"Watch her back for me director Danvers!" I say with as much seriousness I could muster.
"I will little luthor! Sam is going to stay here and help you." She says. She looks at Sam nervously. I watch as a silent conversation happens between them. I feel the dynamic has changed between Alex and Sam and smile softly to myself. Kara give me a kiss on the cheek and promises me she will be safe. I nod quickly and tell her I love her. I don't want her to forget that she will always have someone to come home to. The leave and the mission starts.
"Sam, what is going on with you and Alex?" I say trying to distract myself. I need to think positively.
"How did you know Kara was the one Lena?" She asks so softly if I didn't have super hearing I would have missed it. I swallowed hard.
"I honestly think I've always known. She is the most amazing person I've ever met. I can't go a single minute without something reminding me of her. It's hard to describe. she has always meant the world to me but I think we were both scared of addressing the feeling let alone the bond." I say honestly. I start to wring my fingers together.
"Lena what's the bond?" Sam asked genuinely confused. I quickly explain it.
"So you guys might be the legendary couple? That's so cute! Can I be honest?" Sam asks quickly. The team is almost in position.
"Of course you can Sam." I say with a reassuring smile.
"I feel like that with Alex. I am so scared she doesn't feel the same way. I don't want to be regin again." She says softly, her voice on the verge of breaking. I look at this amazing woman.
"She feels the same I would bet all the money I have on it." I say honestly with a smile.
"Team is in position. Com check." Alex voice came though the coms. Oh I hope my coms were turned off. That would be kind of funny though. Everyone does there com check. Everything is working on our end. M'gann and J'ohn enter as us.
"Hello Eve." M'gann says posing as me. It's so weird watching J'ohn as Kara. They talk. As we though Clark showed up. Tried to use blue kryptonite again. He failed and flew away. They captured Eve without being hurt. Makes me think they are planning something. As they walk Eve out of the room there is a blood curdling scream coming from Kara's com. Sam freezes. I drop to the floor feeling so much pain I thought I would die. Everyone was yelling over the coms. What on earth was happening? I try to listen for her heart beat. I can't hear anything. It's all gone silent. I try to open my eyes. I can't. Everything is dark and quiet. I can't hear Kara's heart beat. What in RAO'S name is happening? Where is everyone one? Why can't I move? Why can't I see? Why can't I hear? What happened to Kara?! Is she ok? What is happening?! All I can feel is pain! Like razor blades slicing though my skin. Red hot razor blades. Please rao let Kara be ok. I don't think I could survive if anything happened to her.
Chapter 24
Kara POV
The sound was like someone splitting my head open with a rusty knife. What had they done? My whole head and body felt like it was destroyed. I pray to rao Lena doesn't have to feel this. I got close to where the meeting was as we planned. Then the next thing I know it's I feel this intense pain. It was like I'm paralysed. I couldn't move. I couldn't even hear anything. The sound was making my ears ring. All I could see before the pain got too intense was a pair of black boots before I pass out.
Lena POV
I feel the cold tiles as I fall to the floor. The pain was so intense. Every part of my body felt heavy. Like I was trying to move a bus with each fibre of my body. I slowly open my ears and am starting to come to my senses as I hear Alex yell
"Someone find her!"
My heart stopped. Did someone take Kara? Who I'm earth are they talking about?
"Someone look after Lena while I go and follow Kara's tracker!" I heard a male yell. Was that Zep? Someone took Kara. I jolt upright. I shouldn't have moved. Oh wow did that make me Feel dizzy. This is fucking crazy?! What the fuck is going on. I slowly steady myself as I slowly get up. It took my eyes a seconds to adjust to the scene before my eyes. The DEO was in chaos. Everyone running around, Zep was yelling orders at Alex. Alex was ignoring him doing things by protocol. I grip the chair next to me for support. Zep realises I'm up and super speeds across the room to support me.
"Lena are you ok? What happened?" He asked full of concern.
"I don't know! It was just this high pitch sound then everything hurt. The pain was unbearable. It was like losing my soul mate." I say softly. I watched as he tensed.
"Alex, I know what's happened this is bad!!!" He yelled. I flinched as he yelled.
"Sorry Lena." He said sincerely. I shook my head. What on earth was happening? Zep tried to lead me away from the control room. "Zep we need to find Kara! I need to help." I say forcefully.
He nodded his head knowingly. He helps me into a chair.
"Sit have a coffee and food or you will crash on us. If u must help u got to follow my directions." He said in such a way I actually listened. Winn grabbed me coffee and a sandwich. I sip the coffee feeling my head stopping spinning. I sigh.
"Where is Kara?" I ask Alex as she walks past.
"Lena I'm tracking her I promise you I will bring her home." She said full of concern and sincerely. This must be bad.
Alex POV
That fucking monster is still screwing with my sister and her life! I put a fucking bullet in his head to save her!
"Zep what the fuck is happening to Kara and Lena?!" I snapped. I'm so stressed out. Lena is hurting and Kara is missing! Can't these two catch a break? Like seriously they are perfect for each other but I don't know how long Lena will last with the tournament and heartache. My mind flashes to Sam, what I would do for her. I quickly shake that thought out of my head.
"Legends say, that if a world killer is in the process of being a world killer the legendary couple will be tested. If kal has killed his wife it's the first step of the process. I think that's what is happening! If we don't get Kara and Lena to sort there shit out the whole planet is in danger!" He said in a rush. My heart clenched. I don't want Lena and Kara to be together to save the world! I want them to be happy! That's what this damn world owes them! The amount of times Lena has saved Kara and the times Kara has saved Lena. For rao's sake give them a break! They have been put through the ringer. Let them have everything that they should be able to have. They should have love and a life full of happiness! My thoughts drift back to the outstandingly beautiful woman I've been seeing. Kara and Lena don't know that we have started dating. Keeping things on the down low. I don't want to curse this, after what I did to Maggie I am trying my hardest to do things right. I won't ever lie to her no matter what and I promised myself I will tell her what I can. She knows about the deo and that Kara is super girl. That makes my life easier. She is almost as smart as Lena. Just not with technology. Shit! I have to stop thinking about her and figure out a way to get Kara back. By the time I'm out of my day dream Lena is gone. What the hell?! Where did she go?
Lena POV
Alex is day dreaming. My money would be on about Sam. But I need to focus all my attention on saving Kara. I leave the deo and head to my lab at my house. Kara doesn't know it yet but I put a tracker in her suit that only her soul mate could trace. Well I knew something like this would happen eventually! I mean I can't have a moment of peace and neither can Kara. Makes me wounded if we should sort stuff out. I mean how on earth can I end up with a freaking superhero?! She is always off saving the day. I know she would make time for me too but is it too selfish that I want her all to myself. Guilt eats away at me. I should have been there to save her from mike. I should have been there to help her when she was drunk. Maybe I don't deserve happiness. My thoughts are running away from me. I step though my door. I walk through the lounge room and can see a pair of red boots on the floor in the kitchen. My heart started to beat so hard in my chest, is she ok? I race through to the kitchen. Dropping to my knees beside Kara checking he over. She needs sunlamps ASAP. I activate the the spare sun lamp I had built into her suit. I could see her slowly coming back to me. I look around the kitchen and on the wall was written
'I will rule this world! You and your bitch will die!' Was that in blood?! He has seriously lost his mind? Just because Kara is with me doesn't mean she is any less of a person! The fucking hide of that asshole! He makes me so mad!
Chapter 25
Kara POV
I can hear and feel Lena's heart beat rising. I want to move but I can't. I can't even open my eyes. I feel so weak. I can feel the anger radiating off Lena. Something has her really mad. I wouldn't want to be the one who made her mad. After what felt like forever I could finally open my eyes. As soon as I do I see her perfect emerald eyes looking at me. He face softens.
"Hey babe, how are you feeling?" She asks so softly. I slowly sit up, my body feeling like it is on fire.
"What happened?" I ask softly, my voice sounding very gravelly.
"That absolute waste of space that you call your cousin kidnapped you. He is working with Reah." Lena says so softly. She softly grabs my hands and inspects them for any damage. She runs her eyes all over me checking that there is nothing broken or bruised. The action has my heart soaring. I truely love this woman with my heart and soul. I just don't want to fail her again. I must have showed the emotions on my face she starts pulling away.
"Sorry Kara I should have asked first." She mumbles. She gets up and I feel my heart clench in my chest. As she walks away I hear a soft sob. I pull my knees up to my chest. I rest my forehead against them. Why do I keep messing this up? I can feel the tears swelling in my eyes. I really don't want to lose her but I feel like I am. I keep messing up! I'm so lost in my thoughts and misery that I don't hear Lena come back into the room.
"Here, take these you will feel better." She says handing me two sunlight tablets and a glass of water. She won't look me in the eye now. She is standing away from me and I can see she is building her walls back up. She must really hate me.
Lena pov
Kara is scared of me I can feel it. She flinched away when I was checking her for any injury. I had to leave the room for a minute to grab her some sunlight tables. I tried so hard to choke back the tears and hid the sobs. But I think she heard me. I need to pull myself together. I want her to come back when she is ready I don't want to push it. I feel like every single damn time we finally start moving forward something goes wrong and we are back to being broken. I'd wait my whole life just to spend a minute with her. I don't want her to feel alone but maybe I need to leave her alone. Maybe I need to leave. Maybe she could do better than the broken luthor I am. I walk back into the kitchen and grab her a glass of water. The thoughts still rattling in my head that I'm not good enough that I deserve all this pain after all the bad things my brother has done. I hand her the glass and the 2 tablets. I move away quickly. She looks at me like I've broken everything. I should have found her faster! I should have done more. I quickly walk out of the room. I can feel the tears starting by to fall. I'm trying to hold it together until I get to my lab. Once I get there Kara won't bother me. I unlock the door in a rush. As soon as I close the door I fall to my knees. My heart is broken and I can't contain the emotional pain. I start sobbing. I've lost the woman I love, my unborn child, everything that I thought I could live without. My heart can't take the pain anymore. I've tried so hard to be the best person I could be and I still lose the most amazing woman. Sobs rack my body. Each part feel like it's getting heavier by the second. I feel so lost and broken, like my world is constantly in darkness now that I lost her.
Kara POV
I could hear Lena sobbing in her lab. It broke my heart. She is the most kind and giving person I have ever met. She is so perfect even though I know she hates herself do what her family has done. She is so strong and amazing. I hope that she isn't crying because of me. She needs the best in life, the perfect partner. Someone to lean on, someone to be her rock. Something clicks and I know in my heart that I can be all of those things for her. I slowly walk down to her lab. I gently open the door and my heart shatters. Lena is on her knees, her fist on the ground bent over, crying. I walk straight over to her wrapping my arms around her, she flinched. I pull her close turning her around. Her green eyes looked so much brighter because of the tears.
"Lena what's wrong?" I ask her softly. I cant bear the thought of her being upset. She shook her head and pressed herself into me, he face buried into my neck. I gently rub circles on her back.
"Lena talk to me please. Don't build those walls up again. Please! I love you." I say to her my voice breaking. I don't want to lose this woman.
"You shouldn't" she whispers.
"Shouldn't what babe?" I press.
"You shouldn't love me." She mumbles her voice cracking. I can feel her tears on my neck.
"Lena you are my world, I love you with my heart and soul and by rao, I will prove it to you one day. You are so amazing and so perfect. I don't want to ever spend a day without you in my life." I say earnestly.
She looks at me like I just solved world hunger. She is silent.
"Be mine please." I mumble.
She nodded her head staring into my eyes. I can't help but kiss her.
Chapter 26
Lena POV
Kara kisses me so sweetly. Part of me thinks this is a dream that I'll wake up from and she will be gone. She gently picks me up and takes me to my couch, placing us both on it.
"Lena I think we need to talk about everything. There is something bad about to happen but I need to know that your mine and with me forever." She says softly, nervousness creeping into her voice.
"What's going to happen? We can face anything as long as we are together." I say confidently.
"Kal is going to wage a war with us and kill me. He has the daxamites with him because Alex killed the prince. They-" I cut her off mid sentence.
"Mike was a prince?" I say with a surprised look on my face. She nods her head.
"They want to rule the world. Kal wants to make me suffer for being I love with you and that you are my soul mate. I don't know when or where but we need to make a stand. We need to stop this before people could get hurt." She says with so much passion. It makes me swoon a little.
"Let's go tell the others, I might have an idea to help if that works with Winn and Jess. I'll need there help. We will have to run this past J'ohn and Alex." I say thinking quickly. Kara looks at me like I've just hung the moon and stars just for her. She smiles her amazing smile.
"What did you mean by being with you forever? Did you want to ask me something?" I say with a smile.
"I want to be you'd however you will have me Lena. But let's go we have a war to stop." She quips. She picks me up and we fly back to the DEO.
Kara POV
I should keep myself in check. I don't want Lena to run again. I know she did it last time to save my life. Doesn't mean it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. I hope Sam and Alex are having better luck than we are.
Alex POV
Things with Sam have been amazing. I can see myself being with her the rest of my life. I wounded if this is how Lena felt with Kara? I mean Sam is kryptonian and Lena is human so I guess I should talk to her about this. I mean it is her best friend. My thoughts are broken by my phone getting a message. Sam had sent me a photo of her and ruby chilling out watching movies. Under it said. 'We miss you xo' my heart clenched. I look around. No one will miss me at work so I decide I need to surprise my girls.
Lena POV
Kara is so perfect. She is demanding when she need to be. She is caring and compassionate when she needs to be. She is currently pacing around the DEO, trying to work out our plan. My plan was shot down but we are all bouncing ideas. Zep, Kara and Alura are speeking in kryptonian about the plan. I wish I could understand everything they are saying. I sigh frustrated. I want to help. I want Kara back completely. I am just so wound up and I can't focus. I get a text from Sam.
'Lena, when you can I need a friend.' I look at my phone even more frustrated. Don't let Sam and Alex have the crap that we have been though.
Kara POV
I see Lena looking angry at her phone. I sigh. I want things to be perfect between us. Why does this need to be so hard? I just want to bite the bullet so to speak and make her mine forever. I want her. I crave just a second of her time just to see those perfect green eyes sparkle. Just to see her laugh.
Alex POV
Sam and Lena are talking in the kitchen while I am helping ruby with her homework.
"Alex?" Ruby asks softly.
"Yeah kiddo?" I say quickly. Nervous about what could happen.
"When are you and my mum going to get married? You guys are perfect for each other." She says with that much enthusiasm it makes my head spin.
"Hopefully one day." I say with out thinking.
"Alex, I love you, mum loves you. She needs you and so do I. I know it hasn't been that long but you are almost as important to me as my mum is." She says hands shaking. She was clearly nervous.
"Ruby, no matter what happens I will always love you and you mum. I will be here for you both no matter what." I say confidently.
"No matter what? Promise?"
"I promise".
We continue doing her school work. Lena is looking better these days. I know she will never trust me after everything but I hope that we can be civilised. Sam walks out looking happy and Lena is very badly trying to hid her smile.
"Hey ruby why don't you go show Lena your new books?" Sam says to ruby.
The both take off upstairs and now it's just Sam and I together. My heart beats quicker.
"Alex. I need to say something and I'm terrified you will walk away." Sam says nervously. I walk over and wrap my arms around her.
"I'm not going anywhere. I promise." I whisper softly into her ear.
"Alex, I love you. My life will never be complete without you in it. Will you do the greatest honour of marrying me?" She says as she drops to her knees with a titanium ring.
Sam POV
I couldn't wait any longer and talking with Lena about how I feel and my worries she assured me that Alex will always be there. Not just for me but for ruby too. She told me she wants to marry Kara and move to Argo. I was so happy for her but a little sad that my best friend is leaving. But it did give me the courage to finally ask Alex to marry me.
"You deserve happiness" Lena kept saying. Maybe she is right. I'm going to do it. Now I'm on my knees with the most perfect titanium ring. It is as strong as Alex is. My heart is in my throat. My heart is beating so fast, waiting for Alex to answer.
Chapter 27
Alex POV
Sam is kneeling down in front of me. Her wavy brown hair shapes her face perfectly. My heart is in my throat. Is this real? I drop to my knees in front of her. Nodding my head slowly. Tears welling up in my eyes and hers. She slides this perfect silver ring onto my finger. I pull her in for the most passionate kiss I've ever head and I hear a squeak. We break apart and I look around. Kara has Lena wrapped in her arms so tightly that if she were human she would be dead. Ruby looks at us with the biggest smile. Everyone has big smiles but looking at Sam and how her eyes are shining with unshead tears, it made me fall for her all over again. In this moment everything is perfect.
Kara pov
Watching Alex and Sam getting engaged is amazing and beautiful. I hope one day that will be Lena and I. I hold her tight not wanting to ever let her go. But there is this sinking feeling in my stomach. If Alex and Sam have completed there bond, where was Alex's powers? Why hadn't she told us? I feel like we are not a close as we were. My heart clenched at the thought. Lena must have known what I was thinking. She come and holds me. I hope Sam and Alex are truely happy. Alex's phone starts ringing breaking the moment. Alex walks out of the room. I quickly excuse myself. I can feel the anxiety rising in my chest. I quickly and quietly race out the back door and fly. Flying has always helped me relax and think things through. I don't handle change well. Everything around me was changing. Things with Lena were getting so much more intense than they were before. Alex is turning kryptonian. Sam isn't going to turn reign again. Kal was turning into a destroyer. I fly faster as each thought and name ran thought my mind. I feel the tears rubbing down my face as I come to the realisation that my world and my family will never be the same. As the thoughts swim in my brain I hear the faint heart beat that usually keeps me calm. Thud. Thud. Thud. I focus only on that. I breathe in and out slowly. Focusing only on that.
"Kara, I know you can hear me, I love you' I hear softly on the breeze. As Lena spoke the words I heard her heart skip a beat. It made me smile and realise that as long as I had Lena everything would be ok. I slowly make my way back to Sam and Alex house. I feel guilty for just bailing on them. I get to the back door and I stop. I close my eyes trying to push the guilt and anxiety down. I feel Lena before I see her. She wraps her arms around me.
"Kara it's ok. I promise you I will be here no matter what happens. I swear to you that I'm yours. For ever. Please babe look at me." She whispers in my ear. I slowly look up. Working that she will still reject me. Her green eyes showed me that she won't leave. There was nothing but love. I sigh. I've been so stupid. I've been letting doubt get into my head. She smiles knowingly. She kisses my cheek.
"I'll be inside ok? Take your time." She says softly. I think she is nervous as well. She goes inside. I lean against the wall and slide down it till I'm sitting on the ground. She is amazing and so sweet. She is always waiting for me. I am so torn. I want to be with her but I want to keep her safe. I know kal will do something to hurt her if I am with her but I know she is safer with me. I rest my forehead against my knees. I really miss being with Lena. But I know her losing our child isn't my fault but it still feels like it is. All the guilt has been eating me away. I suddenly feel someone sitting next to me. I look up and it's Alex.
"I-um" I stuttered out Alex silenced me.
"Kara it's ok. I get it. After everything that has happened I get that you are so torn. But for once in your life be happy. You deserve so much happiness and love. You are so brave and strong. Lena will wait forever for you. She loves you so much that everyone can feel it. She was as broken as you when we first met her, as broken as u were when your cousin dropped you off with us. You guys make each other better and everyone around you better. Just like Sam does for me. Please be happy little sister." She says with so much love and passion I rest my head on her shoulder in tears. She truely is the best sister I could ask for.
"Alex I'm happy for you both. You deserve the best in this world." I say warmly. She gives me a one armed hug. We stay like that for a moment and then head back inside. I see Sam and I was about to apologise but she wraps me up in a hug.
"Kara you don't say sorry for how you feel! You are amazing. Thank you for being part of my life. You truely saved me on more than one occasion. Your the strongest person because you are surrounded by people who love you. Ruby loves you so much and I'm so happy to soon have you as my sister in law." She whispers in my ear. I hold her a little tighter.
"Thank you Sam" I say softly. I see Lena leaning in the doorway. A soft smile on her face. My heart beat a little faster.
"Go be with her Kara." Sam says sweetly as we end the hug.
"I think I will." I say. I look straight to Lena and she drops her base to her hands that she is fidgeting with. She only does it when she is nervous.
Chapter 28
Kara pov
After the conversation I had with Alex I felt so conflicted. Lena deserves so much better than what I have done and I would spend the rest of my life proving to her that. But on the other hand she makes me so happy. I haven't felt whole since I landed on earth. But with Lena I finally feel my heart is full. She truely completes me. I've never felt so whole when I'm with her. I keep thinking about it when we get back to Lena's place. She keeps quiet and lets me sort out my feeling with out pushing me. She is truely perfect in every way to me. Knowing she is my soul mate has been both the best thing and a curse. I feel like I have made her life worse and she made my so much better. I know it's the depression talking when I have these thoughts. But she should be happy. Not waiting for a train wreck like me. I know I shouldn't feel like this anymore and I can't explain why I do. I just don't want to let Lena down again . But what if I'm doing that by making her wait?
Lena pov
I'm trying to give Kara as much space as I can. I know she needs to work through the grief and pain she is feeling. I think she might have ptsd as well. But I don't want to push her. I go back to our place. I put all my gear away. I turn on the light. There is a note under my floor mat. I pick it up and read it.
"Luthor you and your bitch will be dead by the end of this week. Good luck trying to save the world."
Well that's not a good thing. I quickly take photos of it and send them to Alex. I call out to Kara, she will hear me. I whisper read the note on the breeze. Next second there is an extremely pissed off super standing at the doorway.
"Lucky you still have your keys" I say with a small smile. She stiffens. I go over to her placing my hand on her family crest.
"I just need you to be here tonight. Please?" I whisper so softly you could barely hear it. My eyes shining with Unshed tears. My eyes showing the fear that I'm feeling. She gently placed her hand under my chin, tilting my head back so I can see her eyes. I see the sheer determination in her eyes. I see how much she loves me in them too. All I want to do is kiss her. To be wrapped up in her arms and felt safe. She must have guessed how I was feeling and leans closer. Our foreheads gently touching. I see her eyelids flutter and close. Her breath is warm against my lips.
"I want to kiss you." She whispers against my lips.
"Please -" she cut me off with her lips.
Kara pov
Feeling he safe in my arms just made sense. It's like a switch had been flipped in my head. Like someone has turned the light on after being in the dark for so long. As we part from the kiss she nuzzles her face into my neck. Holding me close. I can feel her warm breath against my neck. I shudder. It just feels so right being here.
"Babe we need to plan. This is going to be big and I'm scared you will get hurt." I whisper into her ear. She pulls me Impossibly closer.
"With you babe I will be ok. Remember stronger together" she says with confidence.
"We need to talk to Alex and Sam plus J'ohn. Alura and Zepp. This is going to be a bad fight. We may have to include the league. I'll have to call they guys in gothem and central city." I say thinking out loud.
"We can do that tomorrow. Tonight I need you. I need for us to be ok even if it's just tonight. I just need you to show me you still love me."
She whispers slowly. I pick her up bridal style. She giggles her shy sweet giggle.
"I love you Lena. I always have. I always will." I say solemnly. She reaches up cupping my cheek and places the sweetest kiss on my lips as I super speed us to our bedroom.
Alex pov
"Hey Sam? Can we talk?" I nervously ask her. Lena and Kara had left not long ago.
"Babe what's up?" She questioned. She walked out in one of my button up shirts with half the buttons missing. Her jeans hugged every ounce of her curvy legs. My jaw dropped when I saw her.
"What's up babe? See something you like?" She say's sexily. I nods barely remember what I was going to ask her.
"I know we haven't gone that far because we both know what it means. But I love you. You mean everything to me." She says sweetly holding my hands with hers.I feel my knees go weak.
"I want to be with you. You are my whole world. After everything that has happened we both deserve to be happy. Alex Danvers will you make me the happiest woman on the planet and be my wife?" She says sweetly dropping to one knee. She had pulled a velvet box out that contained this perfect black and purple ring. I couldn't formulate words. I nod. Suddenly I remember the box I've been carrying for days.
"I'll marry you only if you marry me." I say as tears fall. She gets back off her knee and kisses me with passion. She gently pushes the ring on the right finger and pushes mine on. I couldn't contain myself. I kiss her.
"Take me to bed." I whisper gently onto her lips. She picks me up and takes us to her bedroom. I love this woman with all my heart was the last coherent thought I had for the night.
Chapter 29
Kara pov
I wake up to the soft thudding of Lena's heart. It's so soothing it almost sent me back to sleep. But I heard something odd in the wind.
"Kara I need your help. I have so many questions. Please come over today to Sams house and bring Lena."
What in earth is going on with Alex and Sam? Did they finally live up to what we all knew was happening?
"Babe tell Alex I said later. I want to be here here with you just a moment longer" Lena said sleepily. I smiled. She truely means the world to me.
"I heard that luthor!" I hear Alex snapping over the wind. I chuckled to myself, cuddling into Lena a little more. Both of us bolt upright at the same time looking at each other with shock.
"Alex can you hear me?" I whisper
"Yes you dork now get you butt over here! I want to talk to you both." Alex says. I can see her rolling her eyes while she said that.
'Well at least she can't hear my thoughts.' Lena thinks and I try really hard not to giggle.
Alex pov
Sam and I were laughing at Kara and Lena's reaction. We were laying in bed together. Ruby decided to go to a friends house last night. Sam was wrapped up in my arms and I couldn't be happier. I should have know she was the one for me. I felt the pull when I first met her but I didn't listen to it since I was with Maggie.
"You know what this means now right?" Sam says softly.
"I know. I'll end up like you and Kara. But question. Even with the 4 of us can we stop what is happening?" I say. Rolling over to look at her. Her hair was messy but she had the most beautiful set of eyes I had ever seen.
"Babe, as long as you are by my side we can face anything." She replied with so much determination and passion I couldn't help but feel hopeful.
Kara pov
After this morning Lena and I have been talking a lot. I love her I know that. I know that nothing can ever be better than being with her. We are currently sitting in the kitchen having breakfast. She is so cute int he mornings. She is rambling about Lcorp again about a new device she has been working on to clean all the garbage out of the ocean.
"What with the big smile?" She asks shyly.
"Thinking about you." I say honestly. She blushes.
"We need to see Alex and Sam today." She says with a hint of blush on her face.
"Lena you know I love you don't you?" Say say with a hint of serious.
"Kara I n on ow you love me and I love you. I know we have been through so much and I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me. I'm sorry you weren't there when I needed you but with everything that has happened I wouldn't change it because you are my world and I want to be with you if you will have me that is…" she mumbled the last part. Trailing off.
"Lena after everything that has happened. How could you trust me? I broke the one promise I always thought I wouldn't and that was to keep you safe." I say softly.
Lena pov
I think I've finally come to the point where I have figured out why Kara has been so reluctant to get back together. She feels guilty because she promised to keep me safe. That's making more sense.
"Kara that was not your fault!" I say sincerely. She refuses to look into my eyes. I sigh.
"Kara. It. Was. Not. Your. Fault." I say softly punctuate each work with a kiss to her cheeks. I hold her close. I know it will take a long time for us to be back to normal. I know if I shove her the unconditional love and support we will be ok. After a while she says thanks and we head over to Sam's house picking up food for the lot of us.
Sam pov
Being with Alex has been amazing. I never thought after everything that I would actually get a chance to be happy again. But here she is playing soccer in the back yard with Ruby. I'm glade she will be kryptonian with ruby and I. It means we will always be together, not really growing older. It makes my heart swell watching the two of them together. I shake the thought out of my head and I hear the door bell ring. Alex looks at me with a shy smile I have only ever seen when she is actually happy. I was so busy looking at her smile I didn't realise Lena let herself and Kara in with the spare key she has.
"Sam finally understands what it is like to actually be in love." Lena says smiling at Kara. Kara blushes and tries to hide behind her hair but Lena is right there whispering cute shit in her ear. I smile. Lena and Kara are perfect for each other in so many ways. We all sit down and have a nice lunch. After lunch ruby asks if she can go to a friends house three doors down. I say yes as long as she takes her phone and is home by dark. She quickly agrees and says goodbye to everyone. After she is gone Kara and Alex look at each other.
"We need to talk." They say at the same time. Shit this can't be good.
Alex pov
Kara and I really need to stop saying ominous stuff at there same time. It really freaks Sam out.
"Stop saying stuff at the same time please?!" I hear sam say exasperatedly. I nod.
"Yes babe" I say holing her hand under the table. Kara then goes on to tell us what Lena has been finding out. She tells me her plan to get all the other hero's involved, which isn't a bad idea but it could lead to problems. Lena says she wants to fight. Kara tried to fight her over it. Lena wins as usual. But the question was how on earth do we organise this. It feels like it will be a problem soon rather than later.
"If he overcharges himself we might even have a chance." Kara says sounded defeated already.
"I actually have a plan for that." Lena says with a smile.
Chapter 30
Kara pov
Lena is so smart. She has a plan for everything. She is going to fight but she reminded us all that only the 4 of us plus zepp and my mother have had the liquid sun injections. Which means he is still weak to green kryptonite. She never thinks about herself but all of us. She is such a good hearted person. She makes my life and world better by just being in it. I know I love her I know I have messed up so much in the past, I know that no matter what she will always be by my side. I know that no matter what I will protect her with my life if it comes to it.
Clark pov
Everything is finally falling in place. Those bitches will not know what hit them. I smile to my self as I walk into the fortress.
"What's got you so happy?" I hear coming from the lab I have there.
"Lillian, destroying those bitches will always make me smile." I say gleefully.
She rolls her eyes.
"Only if this works. I knew I should have trusted you sooner. I'm sorry about lex. He should have treated you better." She says earnestly.
"It's in the past, now for the real gods to rule this planet."
Lena pov
I've been working hard for the last few days to the point I've been throwing up. I have been building new suits for everyone with the help of zepp and Alex. Zepp is awesome and his knowledge about krypton and how they train and fight has been super helpful. Alex and her tactical knowledge has been a game changer. She knows every single move to Clark's and how to avoid and counter every single one of his moves. She has been teaching Sam and I how to fight more so we can be of even more use in the big fight that's eventually coming. Kara has been by my side the whole time. She is so amazing. Don't get me wrong she always has been but something has just clicked and everything is better than ever. I put the finishing touches on Kara's new suit when I feel my stomach tighten. I run to the bathroom for what feels like the 100th time.
Alex pov
I have a feeling that Clark is working with too many people for us to contain it. So I put out calls to a lot of Kara's friends. Green arrow and the flash are going to be here shortly and so is Wonder Woman, bat woman and the legends. A rogue kryptonian is the last thing that they want because even there worlds will be in danger. Even Harley is going to be there to help. Which is strange but hey we are going to need all the help we can get. I have the feeling he isn't just working with the Daxium scum I have this feeling that he is working with a human how else can he not been seen anywhere for weeks and still be able to function. He needs food right. So I start looking for unusually high food bills of all our known criminals. There is a hit on an old luthor card that hasn't been used since Lillian first went to jail. Now that is something I had never considered. How would Lillian react if her own daughter was a kryptonian? Would she still try to kill all the aliens? Or would she start seeing the error of her ways? Who am I kidding I know she hates Lena so she would definitely kill all of them and us for being in the road of her world domination. I should have known better that this would have been a fair fight. I sigh and pick up my phone. I should tell Lena what I suspect.
Lena pov
I've just washed my face and hands. I don't understand why I'm getting sick so much. I shake the bad feeling creeping up the back of my neck. My phone starts ringing. I grab it quickly and walk and the lab as I answer it.
"Lena I have something to tell you but it's mostly a suspicion." Alex starts in her serious im going to beat you to with in an inch of your live voice. I audibly swallow.
"Ok Alex tell me" I say. I'm afraid to know what she knows.
"I think Lillian is working with them." Is all she has to say and my phone falls on the floor with a rattle. I shake my head. Trying to think of all the things that she can do to hurt us.
"Does she know about the bond?" Is the only question I can choke out.
"I don't know." She says and I hang up. That woman has always tried to kill me. I never thought she would stoop so low and help Clark of all people. He broke lex's heart and wants to destroy the world for his own selfish wants. I collapse on to my office chair at my desk. Well this is going to make life harder.
Kara pov
Lena hasn't been feeling well which is unusual for her at the best of time but rare in people like us. I carefully listen to her in her office she is crying. But I can hear another sound that makes me worry worse. It's ticking. Like a clock but there isn't one down there. That's when it dawns on me. It's a bomb! I put my suit on and fly there as fast as I can. I have to be there with her. I have to save her. I'm so use to her being human that I actually forget that she is now as indestructible as I am. I'm 100m away from LCORP when the bomb explosion shock waves hit me. There is a black cloud where Lena's lab is. What I'm earth happened?! Who in earth would have tried to hurt her! Lena is in her protective suit helping the fire fighters clean up the mess and make sure people didn't get hurt. My heart races when I see her. She turns to me and smiles. I give her a small smile till I see the blood.
Chapter 31
Kara pov
Everything slows down when I see Lena fall to the ground. My heart stops. It's like the world around me stops spinning completely. My heart is stuck in my throat. I vaguely hear Alex screaming at me through my commutator. I can see Jess running to Lena side. I'm frozen in place. Jess looks at me and shakes her head as if to say no. I finally force myself after what feels like forever to move. I finally spring to action. I can hear Alex telling me to help get the rest of the employees out of the building and that Lena would be ok with Jess. I focus on the task at hand. Once I have everyone out of the building I race over to the DEO to see Lena.
Lillian pov
That bomb worked perfectly. That will keep them busy and on my trail while we carry out our real plans. I smile to myself as I walk up to Clark. He is so stupid to trust me. I have a plan for him too! But for now I'm going to use him to get off those fucking do gooders!
Clark pov
I smile thinking about what I have just stolen from Lcorp. They think they are the only ones who can protect themselves from green kryptonite? I stole some yellow substance which I'm sure is Lena's liquid sunlight. Bonus is I have found her weakness. She won't let people get hurt because of her and that's what I'm going to do. I'll hurt everyone that they fucking care about!
Alex pov
Lena will be ok. Well I hope the will be. I've been digging more into Clark and Lillian. They have been planning this for a while. Looks like Clark has fallen for the bullshit that Lillian has told him. The DEO agents and I have been training longer and harder to make sure when this fight finally goes down that we can hold our own. I feel Sam walking in before I can see her.
"That's is Alex I'm fighting too!" She snaps. I sigh.
"Ok. You are your own person but at least train with me. I want to make sure you are safe babe." I say softly. I start rubbing my temples. This is going to be such a long few days.
"Is Lena going to be ok?" I hear her asking softly.
"She will be." I say softly. 'I don't know about the baby though' I think knowing she would hear that. I look at her and her eyes are wide in shock.
'Not now Sam. We have so much to do.' I think sternly.
Kara pov
I'm pacing. I feel like my heart wants to just stop beating. Lena isn't awake yet. I'm so worried about her. Jess is watching me pace.
"Kara stop it! You're making me dizzy!" Jess snaps. I sigh and sit down again.
"Jess what happened?" I ask. I need to finish Clark so her can't heart her again!
"A bomb was placed in the lab. I took an inventory before I came here. There was one thing missing." She says softly.
"What was it?" I say with worry in my voice.
"Liquid kryptonite. But not the normal type. She mixed it with just enough of the liquid sunlight that unless you knew what you were looking at you would think it was liquid sunlight. It mimics the effects of liquid sunlight for a small amount of time then the liquid kryptonite comes through. She was trying to find a way to weaken Clark." Jess says. I smile to myself. Lena always out does her self.
Lena pov
My head is splitting. That bomb want of this earth. It had a strange chemical component that made me weak for a moment. Which explains why I was bleeding. I just hope nothing is missing from my lab. I slowly open my warts and instant close them from the harsh white lights. I can feel Kara pacing around the room.
"Babe stop pacing please." I say with a croak in my voice. I feel her grab my hand.
"How did you know it was me?" She asks softly.
"Because I know you. I know how you're feeling I feel it too when you're the one in this bed." I say with a slight chuckle that turns into a cough. I close my eyes again and fall to sleep.
Kara pov
That's it I've had it with Clark. I call everyone into the med bay while Lena sleeps. This has to end! I'm sick of him hurting people! We start planning out our attack. The team and I are going to fight hard so will Alex and Sam. I know Lena will want to but I have to keep her safe. I'm going to have to talk to my mother about the risk of everything. I don't want us to get hurt again I won't survive and I don't think Lena would again. I need to make her safe. Jess and I start working on some suits to help better protect her and Lena and of course Sam and Alex. I know that I will keep this planet safe but more importantly I will keep my family safe no matter the cost. I finally understand why my father did what he did to protect myself and my mum. I think rao is right Lena is the only thing on in this universe or any of them that I would die for.
Alura pov
Kara is finally starting to understand the true strength of the bond. It's heart warming to see. I know she will be ok.
"Mum, I have a question. The couple of legend, what was so special about them?" Kara asks softly. I chuckle.
"Took you long enough dear daughter." I say hiding my smile. She is finally ready to understand the true depths of he power.
"The couple of legend are the strongest bringing a in all the multiverse. Not even Rao power could compare. But with great power comes great responsibility. There are sacrifices you both will face because of this. You will over time have power to control time and space it self. Anything you think of will appear in front of your eyes. Nothing can kill you until yourself and your partner decide it's time." I say reciting the ancient texts I had read back on krypton.
"Why didn't you tell me before now?" Kara huffs.
"You were not ready for this information. It would have hindered the process and made it so much harder for you and Lena. I happen to like her so I was waiting till you asked." I say simply and Honestly.
Chapter 32
Kara pov
My head is spinning. My mind reeling. What on earth does my mother think she is saying? Is the only one that can kill me lena? Do we choose when we die? Why tell me this now when I'm about to go head to head will Kal?
Lena pov
I finally come too after what feels like ages. I'm done with this. If he wants a war he has one! IM going to kick his ass for everything he has ever done to Kara. I can feel her mind reeling but I don't intrude. I call Sam and Jess and tell them my plan. Now that he has taken the bait I'm going to kick his ass. With or without Kara. This has gone on long enough. He has hurt so many people. I won't let him take over this world.
Sam pov
Going from a world killer to this has been a big adjustment. Thankfully I've had Alex by my side. I don't know if I could have done this without her. The only good part of me being a world killer was I've kept the fighting knowledge. I don't think they are going to know what hits them
When this starts. 4 kryptonians, one of which is a genius. Plus an extra genius and tech support on our side. I don't think they really thought this through. It's going to be weird fighting next to Kara. I'm glade this time we are on the same side. She is a lot tougher than she looks and her happy go lucky attitude is so convincing at times it makes me feel like I am a good guy. I still worry that I'm not but Alex is a constant reminder that I am. Lena, Jess and I are going to draw him out we are sick of waiting. I'm sick of living in fear.
Alex pov
Lena is planning on drawing out kal. Sam is always going to back her but right now I'm worried because Kara isn't involved. This is her fight not ours. I'll always back up her up but she needs to be informed. I pace around the room.
I snap and go looking for Kara.
"Hey sis" she said quietly. She has been deep in thought.
"Lena is going to draw kal out." I say honestly.
"I know. Remember we can talk" she says with a small smile. Damn I keep forgetting that. Fuck I got to keep my thoughts in check so Sam doesn't tread them too.
"Alex I do, just like I know you check in with me too. It's fine don't stress babe." Sam says. I sigh.
"Alex, Lena is right it's time to end this. We are taking the element of surprise." Kara say with a sinister smile. Oh boy. Kal is not going to survive this.
Lena pov
I've sent kal a message to meet only me in the desert. That's it. Kara, Alex, Zepp, alura and Jess are hiding nearby. Sam is my back up as kal requested to bring one as well.
Kal pov
I've been waiting for Lena to contact me she is the weakest link and too impatient. I'm going to rip her limb from limb and make her pay for turning Kara into what she is. Reha is being her army as well we are going to finally rid this world of those pesky bitches. I know she wouldn't be stupid to show up without Kara but now I have the liquid sunlight shot to use I'd things are going south I'm going to kill them all. Then I'm going to kill reha and take her army and start taking my rightful place as god on this shitty planet.
Kara pov
I can sense a change I the atmosphere. Kal is here. I can feel Lena stiffen. She has this she is better trained than kal. She knows how to use his strength against him. He thinks his big muscles will save him. He hasn't met my little warrior. I feel Alex tense next to me. We turn to where the girls are and he shows up with someone else. She looks o. I've seen her somewhere before. I turn to Alex. She has had the same thought. It's reha! Oh no now this isn't going to be easy. But why is she here? What does she want?
Lena pov
I'm trying not to lose my self to the anger. Her price of shit son hurt my fucking kara! I'm going to enjoy this.
"Kal if u want to fight all you have to do is ask" I say sweetly.
"Bitch u are not even a match for me!" He yells. I can see him almost losing his control over his anger.
"Bring it on kal! You won't win anyways!" I say with a smirk. I'm going to bait him into using his 'liquid sunlight' it's going I tear him apart.
Kal pov
She wants a fight and now seems to be the perfect time!
"Reha, kill the others leave Kara and Lena to me! This bitches are going to pay!" I sneer.
I fly towards Lena at full speed. She just moves out of the way and laughs at me.
"You're going to have to do better than that superman" she jeers at me. I land in front of her blowing about of sand in her direction. I can hear her laughing then I can't see anything through the sand. She is flying around me faster and faster creating a huge wind tunnel. I huff in annoyance. Fine let's play little girl.
Kara pov
What is Lena doing? I think to myself as she baits kal to attack. I watch her making a wind tunnel around kal. She knows he always loses a fight when there is a lot of sand and wind. It's like he is human. That's when it clicks. I know what she is doing but before I can even finish that thought I see reha punching Sam in the face that hard she is flown backwards. Alex reacts. So do I.
"Mother, get the others let's do this!" I say to alura.