As Aang walked out of the cave that he and his friends had chosen to stay in for the time being (Well, for right now at least) he took a deep breath and tried as hard as he could to keep his emotions under control and stay as calm as he possibly could manage at that very moment. But it was a lot harder to do than the young Avatar had first thought it would be to keep his emotions in check.
The cool night air brushed against his face and the young airbender felt a small smile begin to form at the corners of his mouth. Being an Air Nomad at heart, it was no surprise to Aang that he could always rely on the wind to calm him down in stressful situations like the one that had just transpired.
But even though Aang was normally a peaceful and non-violent type of person, he was still human after all. Yes, he's also the Avatar, but he still feels things like happiness, anger, sadness, frustration and everything else in between.
And right now he felt like a bubble about to burst open and explode. Being the Avatar can make a person go a little stir crazy with everything that comes with the job of being the bride between the Spirit World and the Human Realm.
The young Avatar sighed heavily to himself and absentmindedly kicked a pebble with one of his booted feet. He stared down at the dirt-covered ground below him and felt his eyes begin to sting with unshed tears. He swallowed hard and choked back a sob, feeling his body begin to tremble as he recalled the events that had occurred not only a few minutes earlier.
"You can't run away from this either, Aang. Running away won't solve anything! We need to make a plan to defeat the Fire Lord before the comet comes. You need to grow up and learn to be more than a spineless cowered!" Katara's harsh words kept echoing over and over in the back of the young Avatar's mind like a never-ending record and it was starting to give him a headache. Said on-coming headache did nothing to lift his gloomy mood in the slightest.
A whirlwind of negative thoughts swirled around in the young Avatar's brain and he felt his eyes start to water. He swallowed hard, clenching his eyes tightly shut and taking a few deep breaths in through his nose. He needed to be strong! He needed to get everything out that he both wanted and desperately needed to say before he lost it all together.
He felt his hands begin to shake and he tried not to panic as he felt his chest constrict tightly against his airway. He gasped for air, choking back another sob as his vision started to blurr with unshed tears. The airbender lowered his head and gritted his teeth, whimpering pitifully as hot, salty tears sprung to the corners of his eyes.
"Is being the Avatar the only thing Katara sees in me? Is that all I am to her?" He whispered brokenly to himself, squeezing his eyes shut and berrying his face in his knees. "Is that how they all think? Am I only their friend cause I need them to teach me the other elements? Is that all I am to everybody? Just the Avatar?"
And it was after that final question that he lost it and broke down sobbing. He hugged his knees to her chest and harried his face into the fabric of his school uniform, his shoulders shaking and his whole body trembled with each sob that tore out of his already soar throat.
"Why can't I just be a normal kid for once?" The young 12-year-old airbender gasped out in in between sobs as he tried and failed to stop crying. "I never asked for this! I never asked to be the Avatar!"
By this point, tears were rolling down the Avatar's face like a waterfall, seeming to be like the water itself, endless and never-ending. His head lowered and his face turned a deep shade of red in a mix of shame and embarrassment. Why was this whole thing hurting him so much? Why couldn't he stop crying? And why had Katara said all those mean things to him earlier?
Aang had no answers to any of those questions and all that did for him was bring up even more questions that he had no answers too. It both annoyed and saddened him and knowing that only made more tears fall down the young Avatar's face, making him feel even more miserable and alone.
The young Avatar was so absorbed in his thoughts of self-loathing that he nearly jumped out of his skin when he felt the weight of something or someone land on one of his shoulders. A quick glance upwards and he was met with the wide and concerned pair of leaf-green eyes that belonged to his furry little lemur friend.
For a few short moments nothing was said as leaf-green met stormy grey orbs that quickly lowered to the floor and once more brimmed with unshed tears.
"H-Hi, Momo." His voice came out sounding rather strained and he tried really hard not to burst into tears again as he tore his gaze away from Momo's worried glances. "I can take a guess as to why you're here," the young Avatar said in almost a near-silent whisper. "Lemme guess, the others sent you out here to come find me, am I right?" The little white flying lemur chittered worriedly and licked his friend's cheek comfortingly, sensing the young airbender's somber mood but not knowing how to fix it.
Aang's whole boddy shook with near-silent sobs, his eyes lowered to the floor and his head buried in his knees. The young Avatar sniffed and bowed his head, not wanting his friend to see his tears. "I-I'm s-so sorry!" Aang gasped out, speaking for the first time since leaving the cave earlier that evening after his emotional outburst.
"I'm such a failure! All I ever do is screw things up." He whispered lowly to himself, his voice barely above even that due to not being used in so long. "Why do you even care about me? I-I d-don't deserve to be your friend! All I do is create bad luck for everyone around me!" Saying the words aloud made more tears spring to the young Avatar's eyes and he started pulling anxiously on his short dark brown hair.
