50th chapter! WWWWOOOOOOOOOO!
Please allow me to congratulate myself for actually committing into something for once.
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Congratulation, me.
Now back to the story.
The Z-Angel : I assume what you want me to delete the sneak peek corner, right? I'll make sure to do that for future chapters that can be consider as 'ending' so it looks like it's the final chapter.
"Uhm~~" Huh… it's morning already? "NNNYYYYAAAAAWWWNNN~~~" I stretch myself as long as I can and it feels so good. Holy shit! This is the best I have feel after waking up in a long time. "Ugh… Hmm…Huh?!" Why am I in my old office? If I remember correctly, both me and Helena slept in our bedroom last night so why did I wake up on the floor of my old office? I look down and thank god Helena was still by my side with Lena sleeping between us.
I breath a sigh of relief before I stand up and look around the office. Everything was perfect to the T. My desk, the documents, the smell, EVERYTHING was perfect. What the fuck is going on?! I try pinching myself and I can confirm you, I can feel the pain. This is not a dream! Why did I get transported here?! I thought I was done with the siren menace but it seems like they want to drag me back to hell! FUCK!
"Hmm~~ Darling~~?" Helena! My wife wakes up from her slumber and I immediately come to her side. "What… where are we?" An understandable reaction, honestly.
"I don't know what's going on but it seems that we're transported into my old office."
"Old office? As in the one on Azur Lane's base?" I nod my head at her question. "Huh…? Why are we here, Igo? How did we get here?"
"I don't know." It's been a long time since I was here. I thought this entire island was transferred to the Eagle Union Navy so I wonder why they keep my office in such a perfect condition? It's so pristine that I wonder if they forbid someone for even breathing in here. "Can you carry Lena, darling? We'll look around this place and see what is actually going on."
"Okay…" Helena pick Lena up and carry Lena on her arms. Of course Lena starts to wake up when Helena pick her up. "Shuuussh~~ It's okay~ It's okay~~" My wife pats Lena's head and try to calm her down.
"Mama...? Five more minutes…" She is so fucking adorable! I'll make sure that nothing bad will ever happen to her!
"Helena… you're wearing your old outfit." Actually, it was the first thing I notice about Helena. The clothes that she is wearing is her old shipgirl outfit. I'm talking about the one-piece dress with the white and blue that end on her upper thighs. [1] If she is wearing that outfit, could we be transported not only to our old base but also back in time?
"Uh… I am?" Helena was quite surprise when she looks down on herself. "But Lena is also wearing the same one as mine." Yeah… that's also true. My daughter is wearing a minimized version of Helena's outfit but instead of the hem just ending above the thighs, Lena's outfit ended on a frilly skirt. [2] "What's going on, honey?"
"I don't know…" Why is Lena wearing that outfit? Is she a shipgirl just like her mother? I never ask her to equip her riggings before but… "Helena, we're going outside and check your riggings." It takes a lot of money to keep a shipgirl's riggings on their prime condition so we usually just do the bare-minimum effort to care for Helena's riggings so if Helena's riggings is on its prime condition then that mean we're back in time.
"I understand." We walk toward the door of the room but instantly stop when we heard footsteps from the other side. "Honey, get behind me." Helena pass Lena onto me and stand between me and the door. As much as I want to be the one on the front, Helena have a bigger chance of surviving if we get attack.
"Miss Hood, are you sure my master is here?" "We could only hope, miss Dido. For all we know, commander Igo might be taking a morning jog." "Ah! Should I search around the island?" "Maybe if he doesn't show up after thirty minutes."
*Creak*
The door slowly opens up and on the other side of the door was Hood and Dido and just like Helena, they are wearing their shipgirl outfit. Hood is carrying a stack of papers in her arms while Dido is holding a silver tray with a complete tea set on it.
*Crash*
Dido was carrying a silver tray with a complete tea set on it. What's with that reaction Dido? You ruined a perfect tea set.
"Hood, what's going on?"
"We're the one who is supposed to ask that, commander!" Hood's eyes are wide open as if she was seeing the most surprising thing ever. I've never seen that face of hers before so it's quite funny. "Who is that child on your arms?!"
"WHO?! That's rude, Hood!" How can Hood ask something like that?! She's acting as if she doesn't know who Lena was! Doesn't she remember all the time they played dress up? "She is Lena you know?! Lena!"
"Who?" Huh… Hood's genuine confused expression take me like a storm. Dido was completely in a catatonic state so she acts more like a statue than a human.
"Eh?"
"Eh?"
XxX-XxX
This is some heavy atmosphere around us. Me, Helena, and Lena are now sitting on the middle of the meeting room with all of the nation representation sitting around us. They're wearing a very tense face which scared the living shit out of Lena. I can hear my daughter tiny sniffles.
"Can you girls calm down? Lena is getting scared, you know?" Thankfully, the girls still allow us to have our breakfast even when there was a huge commotion when everyone see Lena. I have to thanks the maids for helping us back there.
"Igo…" Stella calls out my name in a weirdly deep voice. "Can you explain?"
"Explain what?" I can't explain why all of us are transported back in time, Stella. I'm still a human after all. There's a limit to my understanding of the time dimension.
"That girl." She said while pointing at Lena. What a rude bitch! You were the first woman to have her on your arms on the day she was born, you fucking bitch! How can you act so rude to her like that!?
"Papa, aunty Stella is scary…" My daughter start sniffling again and she comes to me. Of course I naturally hug her and pat her back to try to calm her down.
"Shuuussh~~ It's okay~~ It's okay~~ Aunty Stella just hit her head real hard~" Or she is actually a freaking bitch and she decide to play nice girl no more. "STELLA! How could you be rude like that!? You were the one that was there for Helena when she was giving birth! You were one of first to hold Lena in your arms! You even invited her to a fucking Disneyland for her first birthday and this is how you act toward her now?! Like a freaking stranger!?"
"WHAT?!" Stella was taken a back like she had just been hit by a truck of fact. "I—I—WHAT?! I—I DON'T KNOW—WHAT?! THIS—I—WHAT—I—YOU—HELENA—AAAAAAAAAHHHHH! I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYMORE! WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!?" My ex-girlfriend smashes her head on the table in front of her and start crying. "SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON!"
"Papa, aunty Stella is crying." Yeah… honestly, I also don't know what the fuck is going on. If Observer Alpha would just chime in and explain what the fuck did she do, that would be great,thank you very much.
"Master Stella, please calm down." Belfast comes in to the rescue and try to make my ex-girlfriend stop crying. "You should accept that master Igo is clearly not into you." Never mind, this bitch is a fucking asshole too. I love that version of her though.
"SHUT UP!" My ex-girlfriend slams the table with both of her hands. "YOU'RE NOT HELPING!" Oh no, she is helping alright. I'm actually entertain by what she just did earlier.
"I believe the first thing we need to determine is whatever that girl is commander Igo's child or not." AKAGI! Are you suggesting that Helena cheated on me?! I thought you have mellow down but you're actually just as or more bitchier than Stella! "AKASHI!"
"NYAA! NYEESS!" The cute little green catgirl was startled by Akagi's scream. She walks toward us while carrying a medical equipment that I'm not familiar with. "I'm sorry… Nyuh… Lena nya?" I nod my head in affirmation. "May I ask nyou for nyour hair nya? Just a little bit nya!" Thank you for being considerate, Akashi. I know that she is confused as fuck about what's going on but unlike those bitches over there, she's kind to Lena.
"Sure. I'm sorry, Lena. This might hurt a bit." I pluck a small pieces of Lena's hair and then give it to Akashi. "Here you go, pussycat."
"Thank you, nya!" Akashi happily grabs the hair from my hand and then put it in her equipment. The equipment start emitting mechanical and digital noise as it does… something. Still have no fucking idea what that is and what does it do. "Ehm… commander nya…" Hmm… the catgirl silently whisper to me. What is it, cute cat? "Do you think this has something to do with yesterday, nya?"
"Yesterday…?" I… uh… yesterday…? Hmm… I assume she is talking about her yesterday and not mine so that means yesterday was… Hmm… What date was yesterday? "Uhm… Stella, do you have my phone?" Stella waves her hand around in the air and Belfast slightly bow her body and walks toward me.
"Here you go, darling." Darling? Belfast hand me over a phone, my old phone or my current phone. My head immediately starts ringing like someone had just smashed my head with a baseball bat. "It seems that you have started to remember things, honey." Remember? I—What? "Don't you remember honey?" Belfast grabs my chin and lift my face up. "That I'm your true love."
*THUD*
Out of nowhere, something hit Belfast's head that make a loud thud sound. "Stop spouting nonsense, you bitch!" I guess that was from Stella. "HE IS MINE!" I was… or I am. The only way to know is to turn on my phone and look at the date. But… I've got a bad feeling about this. I should at least try to connect with my wife just in case this will be our last time together.
"Helena, how is your head?"
"It's… ringing… it hurts…" My wife grunts as she held her head in her arms. I can see how much pain she is in.
"Mama~~ Mama~~ Are you okay?" My daughter climbs down from my arms and walk toward her mother. "Should we go to the doctor?"
"No. It's okay, Lena. Mommy is okay."
Sorry Helena, but I'm going first. I turn on my phone and immediately look at the date. Hmm… If I pivot from today as in the date I'm currently in, yesterday… I was with Hood and Dido going around the science department HQ in the Eagle Union Island with Reno as our guide and then we meet Akashi before Helena interrupt and cause Reno to go somewhere else, leaving me with Dido, Hood, Helena, and Akashi. After that… I touch a wisdom cube that Akashi was experimenting on and then it suddenly exploded into a bright light.
Why… am I remembering it so clearly…? As if it really happened yesterday… Could it be… No… No… I try to remember my life with Helena and Lena and to my great horror, there's so little that I can remember about that life. No! No! NO! NO! All that happiness! EVERYTHING! WAS ALL THAT A LIE!? BUT! BUT! BUT! LENA IS HERE WITH US! So there's no way all of that was a lie, right?! YES! Then there's must be another answer for all of this…
"…Igo… is everything okay?" My ex… no, Stella is my girlfriend. My girlfriend start encroaching closer to me and look at me with a sad expression. "Maybe we should postpone today's activities for you guys to collect your mind." Stella grabs my shoulder and I almost mistook her with my wi—Helena because of how lovingly it is. "Sheffield, can you check the schedule for next Wednesday and see whatever we can do another meeting?" Sheffy nods her head and immediately whip out a tablet and start doing something.
"No… I… I'm going to tell all of you what I remember." Several girls brought up their phones and start recording. "I don't know what my memory truly is right now and it feels like I'm grasping on some fleeting clouds but I hope you girls can help me." Stella crouches down in front of me, she looks like a child who is listening to their grandparents. "Helena, back me up." Helena nods her head weakly as I assume she was still in pain.
I start recounting everything from the start, from the day I marry Helena. How happy I was, how lucky I was feeling at that moment, and how much I wish that all of that was actually reality. I then tell them about their fate, about Stella's fate to always be a corporate slave to the Navy, how Eugen try to make the perfect wine, how Hood is going around the world to collect antique stuffs. I didn't tell them everyone's fate, just the few that I remember as I don't have enough time and I can feel my memory fading away as I try to recall them.
I then finally tell them about Lena, about how everyone was excited for her, how everyone was present during her birth, how everyone spoils her rotten, how much presents she was getting from anyone until you can literally make a copy of my house from all the cardboard boxes from those gifts, and how much everyone loves her.
"That's all that I can remember, honestly…" I end my story with a weak admittance. "I—truth be told… I don't know what's actually going on and I doubt we'll be able to figure out what happened." Unless we have an expert in wisdom cube somewhere inside my mind.
Can I be honest and say I have no fucking idea what the fuck is going on?
YOU FUCKING USELESS! I waste my fucking time and memory space remembering you!
I would at least give you a hint if I knew something but this is purely new to me. I have no idea what happened or what's going on or what will happen so we both are exploring new territory here, buddy.
Oh for fuck sake… fuck you dude… Can you at least tell me what happened yesterday with the wisdom cube vanishing into a big bright light?
If I have to guess, it reacted with how you're feeling about Akashi at that time. About how you felt like she is your daughter and all that and Helena was just there to take the blast with you.
So you're saying if it was Hood behind me at that time—
You would have a little Hood, I assume. Like I said, this is just a theory of me, this is a new territory even for me.
Sigh… what am I supposed to do? Was all that memory of living with Helena just a lie? Is our love fake?
Hey now, don't rush into some depressing conclusion. For all we now, both of you might be transported into somewhere where the time was compressed and live the life that you tell the girls earlier. Let's wait for a concrete evidence before you erase your love for Helena.
Sure… you're working on that right?
Like I said, this is the first time. For all I know, I wouldn't get any solid answer for what just happened. You just have to live your life like usual and I'll tell you if I found something.
Sure… Don't hesitate to tell me if you hit a roadblock, you asshole.
"Don't worry, Igo." Stella grabs my hands and hold them tight. "Even if we couldn't figure out, at the very least we'll make sure everyone recovers from this." You're saying it like this is something bad or something. I mean, I did kinda sound sad but it's because I could only recall a small part of memory about my life with Helena and Lena. I'm not sad because it did happen, I'm sad because I'm going to forget it happened. "Do you have the same memory as Igo, Helena?"
"Yes… I do…"
"If I may interrupt, kommandant."
"Yes, Peter?"
"I believe we should determine whatever miss Lena is a shipgirl just like us before making any decision. For all we know, she might be just a normal human just like commander Igo." Truthfully, I've never actually ask Lena to show me her rigging because it never cross my mind that she is a shipgirl just like her mother but now after Peter suggest that, yeah… I should've ask Lena to equip her rigging.
"I believe waiting for the DNA test is our best option for now." Yat sen butts in. "We should know how much her DNA is commander Igo's and how much is Helena's before we ask Lena to equip her riggings. For all we know, a human DNA might conflict or cause a mutation in her riggings." That's a fair assessment, honestly.
"I agree with miss Yat Sen suggestion." Now it Saratoga who was talking. "Big sis, could I ask you to go get miss Vestal? We might as well prepare for the worst if things did go south." Thank you for the consideration, Saratoga. Lexington nods her head before she walks out of the room. "Lena, how are you feeling?" Saratoga playfully approaches Lena and ask her in a friendly tone.
"I'm okay... Aunty Saratoga."
"Aunty!?" Why are you surprise, Saratoga? She maybe on the same size as you but you're older than she is. "Well~~ I guess I'm an adult after all~~" I want to put her in her place so much with that cheeky smile of hers. Somehow it's more annoying than usual when my daughter is involved.
"The test is done nya!" Akashi suddenly screams and jumps out which startled everyone.
"Would you please tell us the result, Akashi?"
"Well… Uh… this might be hard for commander Igo…" Oh no… Oh no… please… please don't… I don't know what it is but I can tell that it's so fucking bad. Will my relationship with Helena be ruined? Will my memory that I treasured so much be stained with sadness and disappointment? Will it make me want to kill myself? "From the test, Lena's DNA is one hundred percent Helena's DNA." …what? "There's no commander Igo's DNA at all nya!"
"So that mean Lena isn't my daughter?" I asked in pure disbelief. Lena… isn't my daughter… but… how? She is purely Helena's child. Can a human do that? What the fuck?! I—I—I—I don't know how to feel about this! I know that this is better than getting cheated on but this is a weird feeling.
"Papa isn't papa…? UUUUWWWAAAAA!" Of course Lena would cry her eyes out after she heard what I just say. For all she knew, she is getting abandoned by me. Lena run up to me and try to make me cradle her in my arms by hopping desperately in front of me. "PAPA IS LENA'S PAPA! UWWWAAAA! UWAAA! PAPA! PAPA! UUUWWWAAA!"
"AH! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Of course I'm Lena's papa!" Not even a heartless piece of shit could refuse her request. I open my arms wide and then lift Lena into my arms. "I'm just kidding~~ I'm just kidding~~ Of course I will always be Lena's papa."
"Lena is… me…?" Helena ask in disbelief. Honestly, I would also ask myself that if someone would say that my child's DNA is 100% me. Isn't that like… clone? But… How? As we found out more and more about Lena, the more I convince that the happy life I experience with Helena and Lena is nothing more than some sort of illusion. A mirage of hopes and wishes that is nothing more than a fleeting dream. "But… that mean… everything… our happiness… our love… is a lie?"
"Helena, calm down~~" Stella comes in to the rescue and try to calm my wife who is spiraling into depression. "We're not saying that your memory is a lie, we're just saying that Lena has an identical DNA to you."
"But that mean Igo isn't my husband!" Well… I don't know about that actually… "And that mean everything is a lie! We were never married! Lena was never our child! Our happiness was a lie! Our love means nothing!" Oh no… Helena is having a panic attack. Helena is someone who has anxiety issue and I remember sometimes on our marriage life where I need to calm her down. "I… I…"
"Helena." I call out my wife's name with a voice full of love. "it's okay, Helena. Our love isn't a lie. Come here~~" I signal Helena to come closer to me by waving my hand. "How about you take a break for a moment, darling~~?" I pat my free lap to give Helena the green light to sit there.
"But—"
"Helena," I call her name again. "it's okay… Come here with us~~" Once again, I use my loving tone to try to convince Helena to stop mulling over it and come to me. I can Helena's was thinking about continuing her panic attack but decide that listening to me was the better option. "Shhuussshhh~~ It's okay, honey~~"
"Can we… even lovingly call each other… commander Igo?" My wife asks as she bury her face in my chest. I can feel her tears drenching my T-shirt and her sniffles. She sounds just like Lena.
"Of course we can!" I kiss her in her head and snuggle my face onto her hair. "We've been calling each other that for a long time so why do we stop now?"
"Because our life was a lie." Ouch! I don't think all of our life is a lie, Helena. Just the part where we were married and having a peaceful happy life with Lena.
"Was it a lie though?" Helena instantly lifts her face and look at my face after I said that. "Just because the only one that remember that heaven were only the three of us, that doesn't exactly mean it doesn't happen, no?" I give my crying wife a little peck on her cheek to cheer her up. "For example, if I cheat on Stella behind her back without her knowing doesn't mean that I didn't cheat, no?"
"Well, you actually do it in front of me." Shut up, Stella.
"The three of us may be the only living beings that have the memory but that doesn't reduce the beauty of our live, no?" I wipe the tears of her face, literally and metaphorically. "If nobody has a memory of it, we just have to make them experience it all over again, right?" One of the best way to erase a lie is to make it into a reality and that is what I'm suggesting. "And we can walk that beautiful path once again."
"…yeah… thank you, darling~~" I can only hope that we can walk that path too but knowing that reality is shittier than dream, I was nervous of the prospect. I can only try and wish that god is being generous and let Helena, Lena, and me experience our heaven once again.
"Aaawww~~ How nice~~ Sadly that's my boyfriend though."
"Belfast, can you smack Stella in the back of her head?" *SMACK* Ooof… that's a hard one but well deserved though. "Thank you, my lovely maid." I return back to caressing my queen and my princess after confirming that my mistress is rubbing her head in pain.
"Excuse me~~" Lexington finally return with Vestal in tow. "Big sister has return~~"
"Thank… you for… coming, Vestal. Ow…" The mistress said with little tears building up on the edges of her eyes. "Are you ready Lena?"
"NNOO! UUUWWAAA!" Oh good job, Stella. She was calm earlier and now you just scare her off again. "I DON'T LIKE AUNTY STELLA! AUNTY STELLA BAD! UUWWAAAA!"
"Ah! AH! AH! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" Stella, please don't panic. It's enough we have one panicking girl, we don't need 2. "Someone please help!" It's your fault, Stella. Take responsibility, will ya?
"Oh my~~ Commander Stella~~ How can you be so rude to a little girl like that?" Akagi… what's with that charming and lovely tone? What are you planning here? Akagi leaves her pose from Nagato's side and walk closer to us. "It's okay, miss Lena. Aunty Stella will never be able to hurt you when I'm here~~" Having Akagi be Lena's protector might be the best since I doubt anyone is crazy and strong enough to actually do something to Akagi. "Would you like some candy?" Akagi reaches inside her big sleeves and pull out a bunch of candies.
"*Sniffle* Ah… thank you… *Sniffle* aunty Akagi." Lena carefully pick a candy from Akagi's palm and put it in her mouth. Thankfully, that did the trick and Lena manages to calm down.
"Thanks for that, Akagi."
"Fufufu~~ Anything for you, my commander." I don't like the sultry voice that she is using. Even though we establish that all of that was a dream, that doesn't exactly mean I'm over being Helena's husband. It might take me months or even a fucking lifetime before I can act like nothing ever happened between me and Helena.
"I suppose this mean Lena's rigging test will be delay, no?" Rossiya commented as she watches everything from the side to which Stella nods her head as an affirmation. "I guess we should move on to the other important part, if all of miss Helena and commander Igo's memory is just a dream, how come miss Lena exist in front of us?"
"I was hoping you didn't bring that out, Rossiya…" Either she is brave or she can't read the mood. "Truthfully, I was also hopping to know about that as well but I doubt we can acquire any info about that." Stella stands up and walk toward Saratoga and lean forward toward the little girl and stare right at her eyes. "Before that, since Lena come from The Eagle Union, can I ask you to be honest with me, Saratoga? Are there more new girl from the Eagle Union?"
"Lena isn't from the Eagle Union or at the very least, not through the normal way." Saratoga immediately strikes back without hesitation. "I understand your suspicion of us commander Stella but if Lena was a product of Eagle Union experiment, I'm sorry to inform you that even us was kept in the dark about this." Don't worry, I understand how that feel. To be left out even when you're an important figure. "And we don't exactly gain anything from hiding her, do we? It would just make her more stressed out or even depressed." True. A sheltered life from everything and everyone can be quite the burden on one's mind.
"Damn you, you pink shit." Stella pinches Saratoga's cheeks and pull them apart. "Why can't you just lie and say 'YES!'?! You'll make everything easier, you know?!"
"MOU~~! Commander Stella! Stwop! Pinchwing mwe!"
"Hmm… Miss Helena, there's something that I would like to ask you?" A new challenger! It's the fucking Mosshead woman! Don't you fucking dare touch my little Lena! Littorio walks forward toward us and I intentionally tighten my hug around Lena. "Hmm~~ Oh don't worry, my signora~ I have no intention with miss Lena~"
"Just in case."
"Fufufu~~ I'm after you, my dear~" Out of nowhere, she advances fast toward me and kiss me on my cheek. This damn bitch! My wife is next to me! AND SO IS MY GIRLFRIEND! "Now miss Helena, how is commander Igo's night skill?" .BITCH! IS THIS REALLY THE RIGHT TIME TO ASK FOR THAT?! Really?!
"VENETO! Your sister!" Stella yells at the Sardegnian representative as a whole even when the problem is just a single screw-loose woman. "Put it on a leash or something, for god sake!" I wonder if Littorio is into those kinds of play.
"I'm so sorry, commander Stella! I'm so sorry!" Veneto furiously apologize in the behalf of her lewd sister. "Duca! I beg of you, please! Get my sister back here!" The dependable woman from the Sardegnia Empire, Duca, sighs to herself before she moves for the kill.
"Wait a moment, Duca!" Littorio defend herself and put some distance between her and Duca. "Aren't you curious about commander Igo's ability too? Everyone here would also like to know, right? I'm just here to speak out what is in everyone's minds." For once, I saw a glimpse of hesitation on Duca's face but regardless, she keeps walking forward. Thank you for not letting your lust take control of you, Duca. "This might be our last chance to find the truth for ourselves."
"Just… shut up!" Duca moves in for the kill and give Littorio a suplex. Never in my life would I thought of seeing 2 beautiful women doing a wrestling move to each other like that. "I have no intention of hearing that sort of information from someone's mouth." And how are you going to acquire it if it's not from someone else's mouth? "I'm going to try 'it' myself!" A woman of commitment, I see…
"None of you will do anything with Igo!" Stella screams out in protest. I have fucked Belfast in front of you Stella so someone else's partner isn't a status that would stop these girls, you know? "He's mine!"
"NO! PAPA IS LENA'S PAPA!" Calm down, Lena. You're not part of this discussion. "AUNTY STELLA! HATE!" Good… Good… Let the hate flow through you, my child.
"Please Lena~~ I swear I'll treat you right~" Don't try to persuade her like you're her stepmother or something!
"Ah! Uh! I don't—I shouldn't—I—I—Darling in the bed is—Ah! Uh!" Oh great! Look at what you've done, Littorio! Fix her for fuck sake! Well at least it is better than being a ball of anxiety. "…He is magnificent." Thank you for the compliment but you don't have to push yourself, Helena.
"Thank you for the answer signora Helena but I would like you to—" *Crack* Duca cracks Littorio's next and the Mosshead immediately falls limp to the ground. I'm pretty sure she just passed out and not straight up dead… I hope… I don't want to bury a dead body.
"Now that being has been clean up," I know you hate her but can you at least consider her as a human? "I guess we should end this emergency meeting." Now I need to think what I'm going to do from now on. Can I return back to my 'original' schedule? Doubt it… My memory with Lena and Helena will probably alter that schedule to some sort of degree. "Saratoga, I want you to take care of Lena. Give her room, take her on a tour and all that, okay?" The cute pink witch idol nods her head. "Igo, you'll stay with me. All the others, I want you to tell the girls on your respective factions to prepare for a sortie. Aoba contacted me last night and she said that they're tailing the Orochi right now. We'll be departing right after lunch. Now GO!" Everyone immediately stands up and walk out of the room with a serious aura except for Lena who looks extremely intimidated.
"Papa?~~" Lena look toward me with a confused face as she was walking out of the room with her mother.
"It's okay, honey~~ Just go with mama~ Papa have something that he need to talk to with Aunty Stella." I wave my hand at her as her figure disappear behind the door. "As much as I want to give you more clarification or information about what happened between me and Helena, I'm sorry to say but I already give you everything I have."
"Sigh… why do you have to break my dream like that Igo? Do you hate me?" Yes. "Well, I'm going to ask you. Do you want to join me on our next sortie?" We're going to sunk Orochi after this, right? Of course I want to! "The only reason I'm asking right now is because of what had just happened between you and Helena. Normally I would tie you and put you in a boat with me." This fucking bitch… "You don't have to push yourself if you don't feel right. I don't want you to die anyway."
"Sigh… I'll go. This will be a chance for me to learn how a fleet of shipgirls fight." Obviously it will be entirely different from how a normal one fight and being an Azur Lane Admiral, it's my duty and responsibility to learn how my girls will fight. "You don't need to worry about me Stella. You know that I'm a very adaptable piece of shit."
"You're a piece of shit all right." Fuck you! "Sigh… You're supposed to ease my headache Igo, not make it worse." Well sorry, princess. Sorry that stupid shits keep happening near me that are beyond my control. "So… how about our relationship?" What's with the shift of atmosphere? "If you want us to break up then… sure, I'll understand where you're coming from." Her eyes reflect more and more light as she keeps talking because of the water building up. She was entirely focus on the ground, completely not looking at me who was her speaking partner. Can't she not look so sad like that?
"When have I ask about breaking up?" Stella instantly looks up after I ask that. "I'm still your boyfriend, no?" I move forward and circle my arms around her waist and pull her closer. "Yesterday, I was your boyfriend and so is today and tomorrow and then the day after tomorrow and continue on." I push my face up to hers real close and snuggle with her. "My life with Helena is a fleeting memory that will soon go away and," Yes, it's a sad thing but it's also a wake-up call for me because, "she loves me thanks to the wisdom cube."
If the wisdom cube didn't suddenly blow up like it did yesterday, Helena wouldn't be hypnotized to love me. She said that her body was burning after the explosion and the way she looked at me indicate that she loved me but that also happened after the explosion which mean that it also happened because of the wisdom cube. If that wisdom cube didn't explode, Helena wouldn't be my—no, do I even have a right to call her my wife? No… Her love was given to me by the wisdom cube. Yes, I don't deserve to call Helena my wife or Lena my daughter, yet. I need to work to gain the right and I will but until then or even after then, I'm Stella's boyfriend.
"So the only person that I have the right to be loved by is you, Stella." And Sheffy. "Don't worry! I'll work to gain Helena's love!"
"You are the fucking worst, Igo." And yet you still love me. "Do you get aroused when you're cheating on your significant other?"
"Hey, you enjoyed it when Belfast do me, no?" Stella steps on my foot and give me one hell of a pinching on my waist. "OUCH! That hurt!" That really hurt! I know that was well deserved but still! It hurt!
"Sigh… regret is the only feeling I have right now…" Same. I should've dump you and go with Sheffy. "I assume you're going to have a talk with Helena after this?" I nod my head. Undoubtedly, Helena must be still confused as fuck so a discussion with just the 2 of us will be the best course of action. "You know, you are weirdly calm about this, Igo."
"Huh?"
"A normal human would need like a day or two just to take everything in and here you are, extremely calm and accepting about what happened or the possibility of what happened." Calm and accepting… Hmm… True… I'm not panicking like Helena and Lena but that doesn't mean I didn't panic at all but she is right. Having being told that your entire beautiful and peace life is nothing more than an illusion would break anyone and it would take them days to recover but here I am, standing with a calm breath. Why is that?
To be fair, unlike others you experienced a lot more of bullshit stuffs.
And that's your fault.
True, but that doesn't mean you have to recover in 2 hours, dude. It has something to do with your experiences.
Well, I was a leader at some point so I guess that's that. I can't be panicking or my entire squad would be annihilated.
"Don't you think it's kinda insensitive to be this calm?" Eh? Insensitive? "People would see you as a cold man if you're this calm, you know?" Ah… Like not crying on someone else's funeral, huh… I guess I understand that but… Should I've been panicking at that time or act like I was panicking?
"Wouldn't me panicking be a bad thing, Stella? I was calming Helena and Lena and I wouldn't be able to do that if I was panicking too, no?" Helena and Lena wouldn't be calming down at all if that was the case.
"Yes, a crying Igo at that point would be more calming and soothing." Eh? What?! Really?! How?! "Sometimes woman doesn't need a shoulder to cry on, Igo. Sometimes we just need a partner that understand our feelings."
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"I don't want to know how getting cheated on feel like, Stella."
"THEN DON'T CHEAT ON ME, YOU FUCKING SLUT!"
[1] Helena's default skin
[2] Lena's default skin
"Are you going to ask me to take off my clothes too, comrade?"
"almost is still an almost no matter how close it was to not being one."
This is a sexist organization!
"I can now manipulate them in every way I want."
"Ahahaha! I'm here to help of course! I don't want to get moldy by being in my room all day long!"