Chapter 4

Gregor is at a loss, on the one hand, he can love a girl who lives thousands of miles away and under the earth and is probably married to another man. Or Gregor can choose a girl he knows is single and likes him, cares for him, hasn't led him to death, but also lives next door.

Right now, Gregor is leaning toward Ella more than Luxa, which feels weird. Luxa was his first lover, and the only person he thought he could ever love, but what has Luxa ever done for me? I almost died every time I went to the Underland. Ella has done nothing but help me. She might have been annoying at first, but now she's one of Gregor's favorite people in the universe. All she ever did was make Gregor feel like he mattered, but not because he was a warrior, no because he was a unique and beautiful human being.

The next day, Gregor was feeling a tad better about staying in Virginia. He could try to make friends other than Ella. That might be a nice change.

When he went outside for his morning run, he saw Ella sitting on her front porch swing. She looked stunning in an all-black dress, but she seemed to be weeping. Gregor knew something was off right away. Gregor had only seen her cry like only once, and it was because she was talking about how she used to be left out. Seeing her cry hurt Gregor. It was almost as if he was sad himself. Gregor didn't know why but he ran over and sneaked up on her.

When Gregor sat down next to Ella, she just put her head on Gregor's shoulder and cried even more. All of this was making Gregor cry, which, as you know, is something he rarely ever does.

It was a long time before they talked, but it felt good just to be in each other's presence. But then.

"My Grandfather just died, and he was the only one who had helped me through the years. He was the only person I could turn to when I needed help. Gregor, I don't want to say goodbye to him yet "

"He must have been an amazing person. But it's human nature to die, and I'm sorry, but I have known too many people who have unfortunately passed away, and I know it's rough. It will never be easy to lose someone, especially when you love them as much as you loved him."

"He was. I bet he would have loved you. "

"Well, you know I have my way with people. "

"Everyone knows that is not true, Gregy. "

"Says who"

"Uhhhh, almost anyone you ask at school. But would you be able to come inside with me? I do not want to be alone right now"

Gregor was tired, but he knew he couldn't leave his friend alone while she was grieving. He agreed to go in. After all, she had helped him in the past. Ella was special to Gregor. She had previously helped him when he was at his lowest, and now it was his turn to help her. When they went inside, they ended up going to Ella's bedroom again. Gregor was sitting on the couch while Ella was sitting on her bed.

At first it was awkward Gregor is not a touchy feely

That day Gregor ended up in his friend's bed snuggling his best friend or where they are. They might be something more now.

Gregor knew what it was like to lose someone close to him. He did have to witness his best friend killed because he made a stupid mistake, and there was nothing you could do to bring him back. From that day and for the rest of his life, he will have to live with the fact his best friend is dead because of him.

He didn't bring up the fact that he led so many people to their deaths with Ella because he still hadn't told her yet about his past. Gregor just thinks, what if she hates me? What if she stopped being my friend because I didn't save my best friend in the past? What if…

"Gregy, are you okay?"

"What Ella"

"I asked if you were ok because you're looking a little paler than usual"

"Yeah I'm fine, I guess.."

"Gregor, I care about you so so much, ok? If you ever need some, you know I'm there even if you're sick"

"I should be saying that to you, Ella, right now, not you saying that to me. "

"Hey Gregor"

"Yes, Ella?"

"What if we became more than just friends? Gregor, would you like to date me ?"

Though Gregor wasn't opposed to dating his best friend, he wasn't sure what to say at the moment. Considering how much he liked her, he felt bad that he still had not gotten over his ex.

He replied, crying, "I like you more than a friend, but I am not sure if it's the best time right now. At this moment, I'm still trying to work a few things out, but I hope soon we can become something. I'm sorry I don't want to hurt you. I like you so much, but I don't know if I am worthy of your love ."

"Okay, but when you're ready, I'll be there for you." Replied a distraught Ella.

With that, Gregor said goodbye, left a sad girl all alone dealing with the loss of a family member, and went home. That night was not a good one for either of the pair. First, Ella was grieving over the death of her grandfather, but she also felt like she had thrown away her shot with Gregor due to the fact she was too edgy and direct. All the emotions she felt just seemed so strong, as if a bolder was crushing her. She needed Gregor right now, but she may have lost him, just like her grandpa.

Gregor was feeling almost the same feelings he thought he wasted his chance to get with a dream girl. Ella was perfect in almost every way. She was nice, funny, cute, and outright a great human being. Gregor did not know why she liked him. He was good-looking, but that was it. He was a terrible person who had ended many lives with his own hands. Gregor also felt bad for leaving her when she was grieving the death of her most beloved family member. He knew what it was like to go through the loss of a loved one alone, and it sucks. About a year ago, he had lost his grandmother, and to him, this was his last straw. If he were not able to drive, he would have been in the Underland in an instant. He had no one at all he wanted to end himself. Luckily, he didn't realize that there was so much to live for, especially now Ella. That was the exact moment he knew what he was going to do the next day. The next day, he was going to confess his feelings for her. He was banking on that she liked him still, but she might hate him.

The pair didn't sleep well that night.

How did you like this chapter? Sorry, it took a bit but fly high overlanders.