I'm so sorry for not updating in forever. I don't even have an excuse. I just haven't had any idea about how to continue this story. Anyway, now, the day before Christmas Eve I finally have one.

Something you might want to know is that I and x snow-pony x started an account called IHseries, with stories about Tracy. The stories are about her, Mike and Cam. Life and death and love that reaches through anything. Trigger warning since all of it have to do with suicide.

Mike POV

I had crawled up on the bed next to Tracy on the bed, sat with my arm around her shoulders and she was burning hot. Someone had given her some ice packs to bring her temperature down and prevent more seizures.

The seizure could have been caused by the temperature someone had told me. Maybe she just had quite a harmless case of the flu! And along with the fact that she was home alone it had caused too much stress.

Tracy wasn't moving much, all through the night I could do nothing else than just sit there. Every once in a while, time and again I reached out my hand and felt for her pulse on the side of her neck or her wrist only to make sure she was alive.

"Mike." Every time she moved I jumped high and could have had a heart attack. There had been noises all around this a and e ward. They had been here all night with alarms going off, staff hurrying back and forth and around. But there just wasn't anything that sounded louder than Tracy's when she spoke my name.

I should be relieved, shouldn't I? She was breathing at least!

Yet I could only hope that she was feeling at least a little bit better than what she sounded like.

"Yes?"

Wasn't there anything I could do against that broken look in her eyes when she slowly bent her head backwards and looked up at me. All of her was shivering and if it wasn't for that she was speaking to me I would have thought she was having another seizure rather than all of her muscles were exhausted after the earlier shaking.

"Cam needs to know. Doesn't she?"

I hesitated- I knew that much that Cam was never going to forgive me for waiting so long to call. So I nodded at last and felt my jeans pocket that my phone was there.

I would have liked to stay in this position. To hold on forever. But knew that it wasn't exactly recommended to use a cellphone in between all hospital- machines and might make things worse far from better.

I had to say it hurt to turn my back towards Tracy and pull up my phone out of my pocket while I left the A and E and didn't stop until I had reached the fresh December air that hit me in the parking lot while I searched up Cam's number in my phone.

At least she was in my contacts, I could probably never have remembered as much as a whole phone number.

While I stood and waited for the signals to go by I looked all around. I knew inside the hospital rooms there could only be so many Christmas gear due to the fire hazard. But every here and there there was a line to get by and colorful lights blinking right inside and outside the window. All around in the dark they should really make me feel happy. Or at least relieved as every Christmas. Knowing what the children all felt in the middle of it.

"Cam Lawson?"

I hadn't even expected her to answer just as I was about to hang up. With it I almost had a heart attack when the phone clicked in the other end and there was a voice I recognized.

But now, what was I supposed to say? I knew that Cam had planned to at least come home a few days before Christmas. But she needed to come home. She needed to come home now!

For me! But most of all for Tracy! Our Tracy!

"Mike? What a nice surprise..:"

At least I could let her think so for a few moments. While I searched for the right words and she didn't believe that this wasn't more than just another morning after just another normal day?

"Listen…" I started at last. "I know you're in New York. But you need to come home… You need to come home right now."

Random fact

So yeah! I decided to add Christmas into this! At last I could have had this chapter finished in less than like a few weeks. But I just couldn't stay focused.