Kakashi had often wondered if he had been correct in not interfering, in remaining a silent watcher, a neutral party. Though, he knew as neutral as he claimed to be, his silence was traitorous, and it was that fact that had always question his decision. Made him doubt his resolve, made him feel guilty for his silence, yet he could not find it in himself to regret keeping Sakura's secret. Even as his guilt devoured him like a flame, he knew he would do the same thing all over again.
Sakura had been easy to find, there were many injured after the destruction of Konoha, and as Lady Tsunade's apprentice she was sought after by the medical personnel and the injured alike thus all eyes seemed to be on her. Poor girl, Kakashi could not help but think, she needed rest, a chance to breathe, as things stood all Kakashi had to do to find her was ask a random civilian if they had seen the pink haired medic and he was able to locate her. He found her near where one of the gates leading in and out Konoha once stood.
She was crying, but alone, hugging her knees so tightly Kakashi wondered how she hadn't broken them. Kakashi would not doubt this was her first chance to just be, and he felt bad interrupting her one chance, but there were important matters to discuss. Like the reason for her tears, anyone seeing her would assume her tears were for Konoha, for Lady Tsunade, no one would guess their real source. He would have remained innocent too, if it was not for a chance encounter.
Kakashi had wanted to check on Sakura, she was one of the few allowed near Tsunade at the moment, when he walked into the tent that currently housed a comatose Tsunade, he had found Sakura with blood dripping down her legs, a glowing green hand on her abdomen, and tears streaking down her face, as she cried. "no! Gods no! Please!" She was whispering to herself, crying quietly. She may as well have been yelling for how clearly he could hear her misery.
Sakura had not looked to him, and he did not have the strength to approach her, not with the implications so clear in his mind. So, he left her there, in her sorrow, and not for the first time he felt unworthy of being Team 7's Sensei. Kakashi had given her two days, a chance for her to mourn and a chance for him to gather his thoughts. Yet, now that he was in her presence, his well-prepared speech and questions seemed to have jumped out the window.
Sakura surprised him when she spoke, but her eyes never left the ground in front of her, "I didn't get to tell him. I had a miscarriage, and he never even knew I was pregnant." He sat down next to her, not knowing if he should hold her, or let her be. "He said he would come back." She laughed without joy, "but what is there to come back too? The village is destroyed."
"You." He did not know Sasuke like he once did, but he knew the truth of the words. "He has risked a lot to see you in secret, trusted in you to not betray him. Not many would do that, he is either a fool in love, or a just a fool." Sakura finally looked at him, part of him wish she hadn't, Sakura's eyes had always been a clear reflection of her thoughts, and Sakura was near her breaking point. Kakashi knew his next words would be it for her, "I wish I could say seeking you out was simply concern for your wellbeing."
He did not want to do it, not with the way her eyes seemed to yell at him "I can't." She needed time to heal, he could not imagine what she was going through, still he told himself Sakura needed to hear it from him. "I have for some time suspected of your relationship. I never questioned you simply because I did not want confirmation. It was my way of protecting you. Things have changed, I need to know everything about your relationship, no detail can remain a secret."
She shook her head vehemently, "I can't betray him like that Kakashi-sensei, I love him."
"I understand your feelings, but things are different now. Sasuke appears to have joined Akatsuki."
More tears filled her eyes, "he wouldn't do that. Wherever you are getting your information from, its wrong." The reports had been clear, and from trustworthy sources, he pitied her clear denial, yet was relieved by it. She had no idea he had joined, she was not fully compromised.
He ignored her tears, he needed to ignore them, to become the heartless shinobi he was trained to be. Sakura needed to fully understand the situation, "regardless of our relationship, if you are unwilling to share what you know, you will be considered a traitor. I cannot keep your secret."
"He would never join Akatsuki! Kakashi you have to believe me! Wherever you are getting your information its wrong!" She was crying now, no restraint in her tears.
"I of course will give you time to consider you options," her eyes widened in shock, he was giving her a chance to escape. "I have taken into consideration your current emotional state and feel three days will be enough time, and no more." Then he turned around, pretended to be interested in something far off and spoke as quietly as he could, "if you are willing to speak, we will meet here on the fourth day, and there will be no secrets." Standing up and with a change in attitude for anyone who could be listening he said his good-byes. Kakashi tried to walk away without a care, but he couldn't help but think how that could be the last time he would see Sakura as an ally and not a foe.
"Kakashi-sensei," he stopped in his tracks, he had believed their conversation to be over but when he turned around there was no indecision in her eyes. "Thank you."
A/N: I've had this idea for ages of Sakura and Sasuke dating in secret while he is with Orochimaru for ages. I had hoped that someone else would write it, because this is one of those ideas that I would really enjoy just reading, and do not want to be responsible for messing it up.
So I feel like I have made a lot of empty promises for stories that are coming in Beginnings, while I do have a few more time travel ideas, I technically have 3 different stories already written that revolve around time travel, and honestly not enough energy/brain power to properly develop them all so I'm thinking I'll work on those and abandon my other ideas. Which I feel bad about cause I kind of promised a few more on here. Update on the prequel for the dick pic, its not happening, I really tried, but I can't get inside Fugaku's head about seeing his son's dick, and Sasuke realizing his mistake is too short of a thing to even post. As for an update to chapter 30, I have been working on that, sort of, more like I've finally remembered my intentions with the story. So, it might get its name soon.