Instincts
Ch.19
By: Cutegirlmayra (Boy, this is getting long. I still have SO MUCH to get through! Will I ever have enough time before I leave?!)
A few weeks have gone by as Tails had studied the 'newly formed pack' of Sonic and Shadow as co-dominating Alphas, Silver as the Omega/baby, and Amy as the only female, making her the Alpha Female automatically.
A few hedgehogs had sniffed Amy, but Sonic and Shadow's combined forces left them pretty banged up, and soon, no 'unwanted company' was coming around their meadow.
They were all in instinct form except for Silver, who looked a little awkward and upset about being pampered by Instinct Amy, always grooming him or laying over him to 'keep him warm'. She tried to make another nest, but to avoid Shadow and Sonic's interest peaking, Tails had to continually destroy it, leaving Instinct Amy always anxious and afraid of her surroundings.
Instinct Shadow and Instinct Sonic always fought for dominance over the other during their spare time, but when Amy got to friendly with Silver they charged over and demanded attention, anyway they could, because even though she stated Silver was her 'baby' they knew a little better how Omega's liked to sneak their way into a pack, and didn't like him one bit!
They often bullied Silver, even though it took a lot longer for Silver to shift than for them, when he did so, they were quick to put him in his place.
Amy always defended him but they were her Alphas, and she couldn't fight them much without them trying to then 'woo' her into being claimed, which she had to walk away from since the Real Amy kept screaming at her not too.
But it was starting to take it's toll… and Tails knew that it wouldn't be long before Amy couldn't stop her Instinct from choosing 'a side' and picking one of her Alphas. He had to think fast… and figure out how to stop something if it were to occur…
Instinct Shadow was growing frustrated after Sonic had once again fought and won a higher dominance role over him. In his frustration, he picked on Silver, growling threateningly at him as Silver gulped, still not really in instinct form quite yet, as Shadow charged him to the ground and growled over him, keeping him down in a sign of high authority.
If he couldn't beat and kill Sonic, he would take it out on the Omega.
Instinct Amy was trying to build another nest, as Sonic was coming over to greet her, finding his chance after Shadow was being momentarily distracted.
Hello-
He barely rubbed against her with his head lovingly before she turned to see her 'baby' being attack and her motherly instinct to protect kicked in.
She ran off and left Sonic alone as he growled, not liking being rejected as she tackled Shadow off of Silver, they began to battle but Shadow was forced to submit, considering a mother hedgehog would fight to the death to defend her young…
"Tails..!" Silver cried out in a whisper, crawling to the bush.
Tails's head shook from beneath the bush he was hiding in with his equipment. "Don't come over here! Amy will suspicious of me again! I still probably smell like her last nest, ugh."
"Tails! How long is a mating season? And why do they keep picking on me?!" He whispered, frustrated he couldn't fight back without being brutally punished for 'trying to preach rank.', "What do I do?"
"It's just frustration and keeping you in your place. It's like Wolves, really." Tails rolled his eyes. "I swear, it's like some things are Hedgehog related and the rest are just evolution adapted by other species…" he flipped through his notes, and looked back at his MilesElectric. "Oh, by the way, she's coming to check on you." Tails ducked back into the bush.
"…wait, frustration? Frustration for what..? OFFPH!"
Instinct Amy had pounced to catch him, not wanting him to wander too far and bit the back of his neck, picking him up, but due to his size, more like dragging him back to the center of the meadow where she could keep an eye on him.
He's not a child!
Barked Shadow, shaking his head and spiking his quills, upset and frustrated by her actions.
You can smell. He may be large, but he has the scent of a child.
She set him down and licked his scratches from Shadow being to rough with him.
…Hmph. Why must you be blind to your natural senses? Hasn't your other already told you who he is?
Instinct Shadow seemed to be calling her out, as she looked back to him and glared, her ears turning upward and forward, trying to show her status as Alpha.
I have been told.
Then why do you insist he is a child?
…He's the most pathetic Omega I've ever know. Is it wrong to baby him?
You are desperate for your own young…..
Shadow suddenly walked up to her, purring out the words as if trying to make a point, and circled around her, pulling at her back fur to rustle her quills and get her slightly excited.
I can remedy that…
I'll have you as rotting meat first!
Instinct Sonic charged, pushing Shadow away from her back as they glared and growled one at another.
Instinct Amy was getting excited, as the Real Amy had to speak up again, to get her to calm down.
…I'm cold.
Instinct Amy was beginning to be torn, wanting to mate but also wanting the 'marriage' that her other spoke of so much. If kissing was good, then marriage must be amazing.
She moved back to her half constructed and large nest that was slightly resembling a torn up bird's nest in a small hole she dug to try and make a den, but it wasn't really working so well…
The two Alphas looked to her and then each other, before lowering their hostilities to obey her request. Silver didn't have any idea what was going on, but looked to Tails.
"Go with them!" He whispered to him, moving his hand out to 'shoo' him on.
Shadow was growled at for daring to step first into the nest, as Sonic held his rank of being the 'first' alpha over him and walked in, curling up beside Amy. It was a natural instinct for hedgehogs to sleep together if the weather was cold, as they were usually, or suppose to be, solitary creatures. Evolution must of made them decide that a 'pack' was more secure for survival.
Shadow went in next, and snapped a warning at Sonic's ear, as Sonic twitched it and glared up at him, growling slightly.
Tails sighed, trying to translate things on his MilesElectric, but it wasn't as clear as it should be… "So much growling…" He rolled his eyes. "I just hope Amy can manage until this mating season's over… just a few more weeks Amy… hang in there…"
As the three boys laid down, and seemed to fall asleep, Amy blinked one eye open, and started to get out of the pile.
Tails was falling asleep too, before his MilesElectric made a small alert noise a few times, and woke him. "Uh..hmm…hmm?" he slowly woke up and rubbed his eye, looking at the bright screen, squinting, and then looking to see Amy moving away. "…What do you think you're doing..?" his eyes narrowed, she never left the pack before… maybe she had shifted out?
Flying after her, Silver also looked up to see Tails. "Tails? What's going on?" he asked.
"I don't know, Amy's acting weird!" He whispered back.
"I'll come too!" Silver flew off, as Tails followed Amy with him.
Instinct Amy ran up a few hills before looking up at the sky, whimpering…
She must have been talking, but to what? Her other?
Tails turned on his communication device inside the MilesElectric.
..Why want me alone? I don't want alone… I want family… I want know what marriage!
The translation was odd, but Tails and Silver got the main point about it.
"What's she doing?"
"She's communicating with the Real Amy, or uh… her 'other'." He explained, before looking back at the device. "Poor thing… it just wants to do what it was made to do…. But Amy has to keep telling it not too… it's torn between it's desires and Amy's logic. That must be rough…"
"…Should we let her talk in peace?" Silver asked.
"…We need to keep an eye on her but…" Tails yawned.
"Here, leave it to me." Silver took one of his hands and held the MilesElectric on the side, "I'll watch, Amy, you should get some sleep."
"B-but.. what about your-?"
"He hasn't exactly come out recently… as you know, it's not as easy for it to come out like Sonic's and Shadow's… I think I'll be okay." He patted Tails's back as Tails glared at him.
"Funny… I've heard the same spiel from Shadow." He didn't seem very trusting.
Silver sweat dropped, and took a deep breath. "I'm taking in her scent." He explained, and exhaled, before opening one eye to peek at Tails, "…nothing." He smiled, and opened both eyes, letting Tails look into each one of them. "No shift, right?"
"….W-well, I'll admit… you have a higher tolerance than the other two, that's for sure." Tails sighed, not wanting to make another mistake but feeling Silver may be more evolved to handle his instincts…
"Not to mention she sees me as a baby, I'll be fine!" Silver flew down with the MilesElectric, spooking Amy as she was whimpering to herself while looking at the moon. Seeing Silver flying down, she panicked and ran for the shore of the river.
Tails was exhausted, and decided to head home for some sleep. "But just in case…" he triggered a feature in his watch that linked him with the MilesElectric, so that if anything did happen… he would know about it. "If the heart rate increases or anything that could lead to … THAT, then I'll be prepared." Tails looked determined not to fail this time, and flew back home to get some well-deserved sleep after gathering his equipment up. Who knows, Shadow and Sonic might wake up and destroy it if they find it…
And knowing Instinct Sonic's hatred of Tails… plus machines? Yeah, not a good idea to leave that laying around…
"Ah! No, no, no… don't be afraid… It's just me… Silver? You're okay… shush, shush…" Silver flew down and slowly approached Instinct Amy. Over the last few weeks, he wasn't so scared of her anymore. In fact, he had grown really fond of her, seeing Instinct Amy a lot more than the regular Amy because of how much this second year was affecting her instincts and hormones.
He sat next to her after her growling and lowering her frame down calmed a little, smelling it to be Silver, and lifting her head a little to poke at his side for reassurance.
He petted her head, seeing her more as a gentle creature than really a sophisticated species… Though, he had to constantly remind himself this was Amy Rose, and Tails had said that she was just the personified version of her instincts… Does that mean… she's still herself? But just… the raw form of herself?
Silver had often wondered if Amy and her Instincts were one of the same, and that, maybe, Instinct Amy was the purest form of her soul, but Tails had said he had no idea, and thought them very differently. According to Tails, Amy's instinct was mostly reacting to the environment, and more attuned with nature and her body's wants and needs. She thought primitively and acted on her body's natural reflexes, not really thinking that much but just doing as she was told. Amy, on the other hand, was obviously very different from that.
But Silver still wanted to believe that Instinct Amy was just apart of Amy's true self… even If Sonic ridiculed him for that belief, claiming that Instincts are just annoying and selfish, violent and dangerous. Shadow on the other hand seemed to slightly agree with him when it came to Amy, but stated that for himself, it wasn't the case.
Apparently, Shadow was different from Amy and Sonic too… but Silver hadn't gotten all the details yet. Shadow didn't tell him anything if he could help it, they all still didn't trust him much, except for Amy, but even Amy didn't remember him from long ago…
"How are you?" Silver spoke into the machine, as it growled out what appeared to be Tails's attempt at a loose translation of it.
Instinct Amy reared her head back, confused by the growling from the machine and not Silver, and huffed, not liking the voodoo magic she was seeing.
Afraid but slightly curious of it, she pawed at it, but never touched it, afraid it may attack her or something.
Silver laughed.
She finally growled out something in what appeared to be disgust, lowering her frame and moving her ears around, defensively.
More scared of it than you.
The machine had translated. Silver rolled his eyes, "It's not going to hurt you. I control it. Now… I have to ask you something… What do you think of Am- I mean, your other?"
Instinct Amy listened to the strange growl from the machine, and huffed again, raising her frame as she looked completely dumbfounded and weirded out by the device.
"…Come on, work with me here." He laughed again, reaching out to calm her with another pet on the head.
She growled and huffed a little.
I don't like it.
"What? My hand?" Silver blinked his eyes, withdrawing it back.
No, no. You touch is fine. It speak is weird.
"Oh, haha! It's just-"
My other is weak.
Silver looked to the machine, reading what it said and looked back confused at Instinct Amy, seeing her expression change and seem sadder or more 'point of fact'. The shadows closed in around them as the river made some small noises as the water rushed by, as all grew silent in the night…
He leaned back, "What do you mean, … weak? I think she's rather strong."
…All other's are weak. Sonic taught me not to trust, Shadow taught me to gain and give only to take more. You… you have taught me that there can be weakness in Instinct too.
"…."
Silver was slightly taken aback by her words, a even more shocked how well the machine was starting to translate now.
"…What do you mean? I still don't understand." His eyebrows bended in concern, trying to understand her mind, and also feeling something terribly hurtful begin to burn in his heart. "How are we weak? And how do you have weakness?"
..Instinct made to hunt, to protect, to mate… to survive. Other likes to live, but through other matters. Others know love, happiness, and… and loneliness… but they selfish ones! They won't let Instinct learn to be smart with world, or happy in mating, and keep things from them. They hate. We lie. They scream. We fight. They demand… We ask.
Silver felt a lump of pity fall to his stomach, as he looked away.
He himself had refused to give information to his Instinct, making his Instinct sad and confused about most things. He had screamed and fought his instinct to get out, causing his instinct to fear him, and grow weary of others, listening and relying more on his fellow instincts. He had demanded things of him, like to go away or leave Amy alone, and he was forced to obey, but often asked why, or fearfully tried to appease him.
…who are the true animals? Who are the victims caged? Who are they who be born with innocence, and polluted by anger and controlling others? We should look up to you, as a child to a parent, but you only fight us. You hate. That is why we can't love. Because you won't let us love…
"..Amy.."
You are the ones who cannot love.
"That's not true!"
Silver turned to her, getting on all fours and looking to her with such hurt in his eyes. He didn't want to believe what she said was true, but in his heart… he could feel it… he knew that it was them that have made them animals… if they just knew how to handle interacting with one another… if they could learn to accept who they are and there instinctual side, maybe there wouldn't be so much fighting for power and control. Merging would be seamless and the Instincts might obey more happily, more willingly… if they would only accept that part of themselves…
"We… we do love, and we do feel… it's just…" he squinted his eyes shut, turning away from her as she tilted her head. "…We're more afraid of you… and what you could have us do… then you are of us. You just… showed up, invaded our bodies we've been in for a long time. You-"
We are the intruder?
Instinct Amy cocked her head to the side, like an animal trying to hear better.
"Well… yes!" Silver exclaimed, looking back at her, flinging his arms out towards her. "When you arrive, our freedom to control our bodies are striped away, we have no say in what you do or how you act, we could really hurt someone if we're not careful and-"
…We are one, in the beginning…
"Wha..? what do you mean?
Hmhm, you ask that often.
"But what are you saying?"
As a baby… you rely on your instincts. To cry when you need something, and to explore and walk about, even to identify your mother through your senses. We are one.
"…How… how do you know this?"
As I come into this world so many times, I learn more. I remember more. Like how when Other comes out, she remembers me. When I come out, I can sometimes remember us.
"…So… we're the bad guy." He sat back on his knees, looked down, heartbroken. "Is that what you're saying?
…Misguided, maybe.
She popped a smile on her face, something Animals don't do, but she was learning… learning the ways of the Other's customs as she walked over and rubbed her head on his.
Not all of Other is bad. Just like how not all of Instinct is bad.
She looked up at him, faces close as he smiled and looked lovingly back to her.
"…You're not bad."
He stated, not realizing her scent was starting to leave its toll again…
"…You're beautiful."
Silver reached a hand up to her face, startling her as she looked down at the hand. She wasn't used to an Other touching her face like this…
"…Are you Amy?" he finally asked, his eyes starting to droop, as he tilted his head.
The machine flickered a translation as she answered, …I've always been Amy… Now, What do you mean?
She tilted her head, confused by his question, as he laughed and little and didn't realize he wasn't acting himself.
He was losing his grip on reality as Amy's scent swarmed him and started to lure out his instinct, but his instinct felt like a gentle warmth to him, not something like Sonic and Shadow felt, where they literally plugged their noses and twitched with the silent raging fire blasting through their being. No… this was soft and caressing, calming and felt so… so good…
Silver leaned closer to her, making her move back as she began to grow confused. He wasn't in his instinct form, and yet… he was…
What are you doing?
Silver ignored the machine, as he closed his eyes and kissed her, making her extremely confused, as the Real Amy let out a horrified cry of betrayal, her mental eyes widening. He hadn't even fallen into Instinct but he had kissed her, what did that mean!? Did he really… was he really…?!
Amy's instinct tried to move away, but he held her close, his instinct about to declare itself before he pushed it back.
"No.. not yet… I have to show you… I have to show you that Instincts aren't the only things that can love you!" Silver gritted his teeth, not thinking clearly at all due to Amy's scent as his heart rate elevated and his body felt the sensation of touching her… the way it felt… he was literally so close to shifting, but his body was just doing it slower than regular, in that period of time, hedgehogs.
Instinct Amy was lowered to the ground as she struggled, this was conflicting with everything she knew! He was an Other! And yet, he was kissing her? Was he trying to love her? Claim her? What was going on? Her body was so already desiring of the idea that she couldn't resist anymore, and was allowing herself to submit only because of the pull of nature. But both Amy's began to feel the same… this was wrong. And something wasn't natural about it.
As the two's thought blended…
'What is he-doing? Does he-feel something for me or-is this his instincts coming through? Somethings not right I have to get out of here!'
With her eyes shooting open to form a fatter pupil with the diamond shape, a star wider and bigger than just instincts eyes, but one also not entirely a regular pupil either, Amy pushed Silver off of her and scooted back, screaming.
"STOOOPPP!"
Silver shifted instantly, he was startled into it really, as his instinct huffed and gasped for air, looking around and trying to figure out what just happened.
Amy breathed and put her hand over her mouth, as the sensation of breath on her finger tips felt differently somehow… like it did… in instinct form…
She gripped her head, eyes widening, "What… I have control again? How is this possible? I still feel instincts though. How am I…?" she got up, looking at her body as it felt so different, so much more… feeling and able.
She summoned her hammer, as it came out without a fault, and she swung it around, giggling in shock for a moment. "I can't believe it… I can summon my hammer in instinct form? Wait, but where's my instincts?"
Something inside her seemed to respond, as she instinctively put her hand to her heart.
"…You're in here… aren't you? We're… I think we've-!" before she could say it though, Instinct Silver whimpered below her, seeming to beg for an apology as she could hear him.
My Other tried to eat your lips! I don't know why, but I'm so sorry, Amy! He wouldn't let me out, he was resisting and I couldn't come out fast enough… I have failed you…
He leaned his head further down, submitting like an Omega would, and seeming ashamed of his other's actions.
What a turn around, completely an opposite thing. Usually it's the Other who apologies to the other Other for the Instinct's mishap, but… this was so weird!
Was Silver in love with Instinct Amy!? Or was this all because his instinct doesn't come out fast enough for him to fully shift and not be responsible for his actions?
It dawned on Amy then… Instincts… they really are the body. They are the personified instinct of an animal, and usually, a person would shift fast into it, and the body would react accordingly.
But with Silver… his body is so used to not having the instincts triggered, that it happens more slowly, through years of evolution, he has almost perfectly lost the need for Instincts, as he can feel and react to them without even shifting! It literally is just that! His body!
Amy felt a little horrible at thinking Silver might of done it on his own free will, before realizing that fact…
But she suddenly felt something inside tell her it still was more him than his instinct, even with his body reacting slowly to the shift, he still felt something, and it was still him and not fully his instincts.
This frightened Amy as Instinct Silver waited for a response, whimpering his fear at her maybe being mad at him.
She felt so sorry for him.. and reached a hand out, gently scratching his ear in comfort and growling out,
It's… It's not your fault. It's just…nature. We can't always decide what we want to feel… and if the Body overthrows are common sense…, then our free will is powerless. We can't let these feelings control us though, we have to merge! I have to find a way to always be merged with my Instinct! We all need to merge!
Amy was determined to have Sonic, Shadow, and Silver merge as well. Well,… Shadow again. Even though Tails had warned that Shadow might be going backwards, first merging, and then losing control, before his instincts completely disappear.
Even so… Amy knew that Instinct and Other had to merge in order for BOTH to be happy. And that resisting and not accepting the Other… not wanting or thinking the same… it lead to them fighting and not being able to merge in the first place!
She was so sorry for her actions towards her Instincts, but it seemed now, that they were one, that her Instinct understood everything, and wanted to help.
However….
Amy felt her breath quicken… and a flash of heat rose through her body… Her smell increased, as Instinct's Silver's nose twitched, and his eyes widened.
He was still a male… after all….
"Oh no…" Amy put her hands to her throat, feeling her going into Heat again. "Not now! Not now!" she started to loose balance, having straightened herself and stood on two legs again, before feeling the sensation of even the wind feel amazing against her body, now that she was merged, the pleasure was even more intensified. "Chaos, no! Please, no!" she covered her mouth and ran, as Instinct Silver was rushed and almost flooded with a powerful scent.
What… what is that..!?
His body through him into a frenzy, where he couldn't move for a moment. But then… as if not being able to control himself, he flung his body to her direction and ran after her.
Sonic's nose twitched a few times…
Shadow's head squirmed.
Sonic's eyes shot open wide with a present diamond in his eyes.
Shadow's body flung up, eyes shaking as his body flared with desire.
She is ready…
She is MINE!
Sonic and Shadow threw one another at each other, really ripping into flesh as the want to be Alpha soared through them.
Sonic was badly hurt, limping and falling to the ground as Shadow raced off, ready for the chase….
Tails's watch beeped and blinked a harsh bright light, as Tails's squirmed in his sleep, not liking the disturbance and placed his hand with the watch under his pillow, turning around.
The sound was muffled, and the light didn't shine as brightly as it did before…
The MilesElectric flashed, and screens began to flicker on, screens showing heart rates doubling, scent being spread like wildfire in a huge radius, and brain waves… completely in sync…
Amy's body wasn't going to be able to run forever, it was growing weary, and weak with the thirst of desire, and the want to mate.
This was meant to be the worst season for her, and not only that, but now that she was merged, she may have to EXPERIENCE the horrifying reality to succumbing to her body's will, and not her own. Instincts naturally did as they were told by the body, but Amy now had some say in the matter, but could she fight it?
The wind felt so good,…
Could she keep running? How far behind was Silver? What were these other scents she was picking up on? And why did this have to happen now!?
Is Sonic out for the count? Dying from loss of blood? Did Shadow really kill him!? And Is Instinct Shadow going to catch up to the already pretty persistent Instinct Silver who was too young too control himself already!? What will become of newly merged Amy, and will that merge last? Or be cut-short like Shadow's? Was Silver really wanting to kiss Instinct Amy, or was that just chemicals in the body!? SO MUCH IS GOING ON, OH MY CHOAS! But wait…
There's more~
-Eggman's lab-
"SHE'S READY!"
Eggman had been secretly watching and hacking into Tails's reading and reports, already having bugged his computers and learning about Instinct Sonic, WAYYY before Instinct Amy even came around.
He, himself, having researched into the matter, and discovered something MOST useful…. "If this works, I'll have a whole ARMY of hedgehogs! Hehehe…" he rubbed his hands together, as Cubot and Orbot looked to each other, concerned. "…I don't hear my chorus of evil snickering…" Eggman turned around, having stopped a moment to hear that they weren't joining in. "Is something the matter?" he put his hands behind his back.
"I just… well, Cubot thinks that this … excellent plan of yours is a little… well…" Orbot couldn't really get the words out. "Morbid." He finally stated.
"…Go on?" Eggman raised an eyebrow.
"W-well… What you're planning goes against the laws of nature! And it's most likely not even going to succeed! Amy could be really injured if this goes wrong and you could completely-!"
"Don't you think I know that?" Eggman turned around, opening some files on his large computer screens. "I've looked into every lessons, learned every trick, and even taken courses in the Medical field for this kind of ordeal. I know what I'm doing isn't exactly … eh… morally sound to say the least. And even if it does succeed, I'll still be framed as a monster, but then again…" he walked over to a large screen to the side, placing his finger tips together, as the screen showed Amy running away, and Silver and Shadow close behind…
"….If it does work… I will not only be a monster… but AN EMPEROR! WHAHAHAAH!" he laughed, and then turned around with a Doctor's outfit on. "But first, I need to practice…" he took his bluish-green medical gloves and tugged it down, snapping it back into place. "Whose first?"
Orbot brought out a robot made to be a dummy, "Are you ssuurree this is how you want to take over the world?"
"I've tried every trick in the book. If this works, then I'll have really hit a new villain level… but Orbot…" Eggman put the mask over his face, before looking up at Orbot, as Cubot brought the lamp overhead and nervously gazed at the fake organs inside of the robot.
"…Y-yes? Doctor Eggman?" Orbot put a hand up to his face, looking squeamish and very nervous.
"…I, too… don't want to hurt Amy. I mean, can you imagine what chaos that would create? First, I'd have a crybaby Sonic to deal with, and then I'd have two other very angry hedgehogs to have to fight off along with a raging Sonic's temper-tantrum. Let's just say I'm trying to be careful…" he looked up at the screen, seeing the date circled was…tonight.
His glasses gleamed as he grinned. "It's show time!" he stabbed the medical knife into the robot's fake organs, as the camera couldn't see the impact, but Cubot wobbled and let out a sheepish whimper and fell over, off the table, seeming to faint.
"Heh, heh, heh…"