Sasuke pulled into his driveway with the necklace burning in his pocket, he wanted to pull it out an look at it with the lights on. He wanted to remember her, he wanted to never see the necklace again, and he wanted to completely forget it. Lies, stop lying to yourself. What he wanted more than anything was to go back in time, to being young, naïve, innocent to the cruelty of life, and more importantly to when she was alive.

He stayed in the car some time hands on the steering wheel, unaware of the minutes that passed, his mind nowhere and everywhere. He was sinking and floating, he was shrieking and yet no sound would come out. He wondered what Sakura would think of his inability to cry. Would she take it as him not caring? He had yet to cry for her, even when they told him she was missing, and even when they told him she was dead.

"I'm sorry for being a shitty boyfriend." He broke the silence, he knew no one was listening, that his apology left much to be desired. "I've tried to remember." He gripped the steering wheel, he didn't say it out loud but he swore that the person that did that to her would pay. His phone went off pulling him from his thoughts, a text message from Itachi. It simply read come inside, he had no interest in being surrounded by his family.

Even as he saw the time three in the morning, he knew his parents would be awake. He doubted they had slept, probably waited for him to return, too worried to sleep, but understanding he needed space, both of them were hovering around him just enough for him to be annoyed by them but not enough that he felt entitled to expressing his displeasure.

He exited the car, already expecting his family to crowd him when he walked through the front door. However, to his surprise the only one that greeted him was Itachi, "hope you filled up the tank."

"I had to; it was practically empty, I barely made it to the nearest gas station." Itachi was responsible with everything but his car, it was miracle the car worked at all. "By the way you need an oil change."

"Then you are forgiven for taking my car without permission and without a license once you get that taken care of." He paused then added, "though I don't think you are forgiven for keeping mother and father awake past their bedtimes." Sasuke was glad for their normal banter, if for no other reason than an ounce of normalcy.

"I expected them to run at me the moment I walked through the door."His parents had been the furthest thing from his mind on the drive back home, but he was still surprised to not have his expectations met.

"I stopped them and sent them to bed, I told them it might be better if I greeted you."

There was lull now, and the burning in his pocket was all he needed to ask the question that had been nagging at him, "is it true?" He stopped, afraid to ask but needing to know, "they are saying she was pregnant."

Itachi's eyes darkened, and looked at him with such pity, "I don't know for certain, it will be awhile before the autopsy results are in."

"I'm not asking cause of death!" He replied, the frustration making itself known. "I'm asking if-"

"Sasuke," Itachi interrupted, "I know you want to know, I know you deserve to know, but I don't wish to tell you lies and half-truths. At the moment, there are too many rumors going around, it is hard to tell you what the reality is."

Sasuke was tired so fucking tired of this act, he knew his brother was hiding information, no way Shisui was staying silent. "Fine," he said, "have the Haruno's decided anything?"

"She will be cremated, then they will hold a memorial service for her. They said they didn't want whoever hurt her the chance to visit her resting place. It will be a private ceremony three days from now. Only friends and family." Watching Sasuke's downcast expression, "they want the people Sakura cared for there. Mebuki-san is putting her pride, and unfounded hate to the side. From what I heard it was Kizashi-san that convinced her."

"Avoid the grieving mother, got it." He couldn't help the sarcasm, Itachi shrugged his shoulders, it is what it is.

"Go to sleep Sasuke."

A/N: had to come back and edit this because the original upload was simply put fucked up. Anyway, as always thanks for reading.