Disclaimers: Naruto is not mine, sadly. This is purely a fanfic using someone else's characters.

Warnings: This story includes strong language, violence, sexual assault, torture, sexual content (yaoi), & angst.

It's All In Your Head

Chapter 29: Want

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Sasuke stared at the dejected blonde, surprised by the sudden change and irritated to be on the other end of it. He knew he had hurt him, deeply, but he didn't want to think about it. Not now. Now when he had the blonde in his bed. It was a selfish thought, but he couldn't help it.

He didn't want to be pushed away. He wanted to hold him- to feel the closeness and intimacy he had been without for all these years. Though, truthfully, Sasuke's desire for Naruto went far beyond that. He wanted to do more than hold him, he wanted to taste him- every inch of him. He didn't just want to feel his hair, he wanted to feel Naruto's body respond to his every touch. He didn't want to just be close, he wanted to thrust deep inside of him and never stop.

He wanted to be close. Really fucking close.

He wanted three years worth of it.

A dark, cruel part of him was tempted to keep going- whether Naruto wanted to or not. But he knew he wouldn't. He didn't ever want Naruto to look at him the way he looked at those monsters that attacked him. Naruto could be pissed off at him, he was more than fine with that, but he didn't want him to be afraid of him.

Sasuke pulled away, and forced down his desires, but never took his eyes off of the blonde he so desperately craved. He watched Naruto shift over to the far side of the bed, keeping his back to the wall. Clearly trying to put as much space between them as he could.

Sasuke sighed. Naruto, will you just talk to me.

Yeah. Hard pass.

Then think about it. Sasuke pushed into the blonde's mind, searching for a way into his thoughts, but it was locked tight. Not a semblance of a feeling or memory- nothing.

"You've gotten better at keeping me out.." he whispered.

Naruto looked up and met his eyes, the look in them something Sasuke didn't recognize.

A Naruto I don't recognize.

"It's been three years, Sasuke. A lot of things have changed."

"So it would seem.." he said slowly.

Naruto looked away. "Can you just leave me alone for a while?"

Sasuke scooted a little closer, and Naruto stiffened.

He frowned. "Why're you suddenly so tense around me?"

"Sasuke" Naruto said quietly, "just- just go."

The Uchiha slid a little closer and Naruto's discomfort grew. Annoyance flashed in his dark eyes. "Not until you talk to me" he grated out.

Naruto's head shot up and he glared over at him. "Talk? Don't make me laugh. You don't want to talk to me, Sasuke." Naruto spat. "You don't want to know how I felt when you left like that, or what I had to go through- you don't want to hear any of it!

All you want to do is FUCK ME!"

Sasuke lunged forward and slammed a hand across his mouth, forcing Naruto's head back against the wall. "Are you fucking insane?! Did you forget where you are right now?"

"Hmphh!"

Naruto tried to push his hand away, and Sasuke bore down harder, ignoring the growing panic in his eyes.

"I'm not going to apologize for being fucking attracted to you, Naruto."

The blonde froze, wide blue eyes locked onto deep obsidian ones.

"I left because.. because I felt like I had to. That doesn't mean I don't regret how I left. I hate that people hurt you.. that I hurt you."

Sasuke could feel one of Naruto's memories fighting to push through, but the blonde forced it back and sealed it shut.

He sighed. "So yes, Naruto- I want to kiss you, and I want to be close to you, but I want to talk to you too."

He finally let his hand fall away from his lips, and Naruto immediately shoved him back. "I'm not falling for it, Sasuke."

The Uchiha narrowed his eyes. "There's nothing to fall for, Naruto. I meant what I said."

Naruto shook his head. "No.. you don't." He looked away. "I want you to go."

There was a lengthy pause, and Naruto wondered if maybe he would go. If he had actually heard him out.

He was wrong.

Sasuke grabbed the chain connected to his ankle and yanked it down fast, dragging the blonde down with it. Naruto yelped as he fell back on the bed and stared up in shock as Sasuke knelt on top of him.

"S-Sasuke..?"

"You seem to forget your place often" the Uchiha growled. He dropped down on his hands and knees as he leaned towards him. "You are my prisoner, Naruto. You really don't get a say here."

Naruto felt cold fear curl up in the pit of his stomach. This isn't.. this isn't like you..

Sasuke grabbed his jaw and squeezed tight, forcing him still. "You don't know what I'm like."

Naruto's heart slammed violently in his chest. Something's wrong, something's really really wrong.

"What's the matter, Naruto?" Sasuke murmured. "Seemed like you were liking it before."

Naruto gasped as Sasuke slipped a hand under his shirt, his long cool fingers moving across his stomach. He grabbed Sasuke's wrist to stop him and flinched at the pain that shot up from his hand. "Nnnn! Sasuke, stop!"

The Uchiha glanced down at the hand gripping his wrist, then looked up and gave him a tight, cruel smile. "You don't really expect me to do that, do you?"

All of the blood drained from Naruto's face.

You're not Sasuke.. are you?

"Of course I am" he said, the smile never leaving his face. He grabbed Naruto's wrist and forced it above his head, then the other, pinning both beneath one powerful hand.

Naruto's entire body started shaking as Sasuke held him down. He watched with large fearful eyes as he reached towards his face, gently pushing back stray blonde locks. His fingers slipped lower to trace his bottom lip and Naruto jerked away from his touch.

He pressed his lips together tight, forcing back a whimper.

He was terrified.

"What's the matter, Naruto?" Sasuke murmured, his fingers trailing past his jawline and slipping down his throat. "Don't you recognize me?"

Naruto looked up at him, his wide unblinking eyes filled with fear.

"No.." he breathed.

I don't.