Disclaimers: Naruto is not mine, sadly. This is purely a fanfic using someone else's characters.

Warnings: This story includes strong language, violence, sexual assault, torture, sexual content (yaoi), & angst.

It's All In Your Head

Chapter 58: Fuck

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Sasuke tasted his way down his stomach, across the divet in his hips. He started to move lower when Naruto grabbed a fistful of his hair and yanked his head up. Dark eyes stared innocently into concerned blues, though a hint of mischief flickered just beneath the surface. It seemed to make the blonde uke a tad nervous.

Sasuke raised a brow, and the corner of his mouth with it. "Is there a problem?"

Naruto bit his lip. "I.. I want to shower first."

"Not necessary."

He went to lower his head, but Naruto jerked it back up. "Was there something else?" he asked, clearly amused.

"I don't.. want to taste bad" he mumbled, suddenly feeling shy.

Sasuke grabbed his wrist and leaned in, placing a light kiss in the center of his palm. "That's not possible" he murmured against his hand. "I love everything about you."

He inhaled deeply- a scent like cedarwood and fallen leaves. "Especially your taste."

Naruto's blush deepened. "Don't be cringy."

"Can't help it." Something flashed in those eyes and before Naruto could think to question it, Sasuke took his middle finger between his lips and dropped his mouth down to the base.

Naruto took in a sharp inhale as Sasuke took in a second digit. Holy shit- I can't believe this is turning me on.

The Uchiha smiled around his fingers. You liking this?

Yeah.. I think I am.

I think you'll like when I suck this even more. He grabbed Naruto's hardened length, enjoying the breathy gasp that fell from his kiss-swollen lips.

You- ahhh- you don't have to do that!

Sasuke pulled his fingers from his mouth with a light pop and dropped his head. "I know." He looked up and waited for Naruto to meet his eyes before running his tongue up his length. Beautiful blues widened at the lude act, shocked and helplessly drawn in.

"Oh.. my god…"

Sasuke smiled as he brought his lips to Naruto's already wet tip, tightened his mouth around him, and dropped his head down as he pulled his entire length inside. Naruto threw his head back and moaned deeply as Sasuke moved back up his pulsing want before slamming his head back down.

"Ahhh, 'Ske… nhnnn.."

He bobbed his head faster, encouraged as his blonde squirmed beneath them, against him. Naruto buried his trembling fingers into dark hair, pulling it back so he could see Sasuke's face. Watching him suck on him like that, feeling his tongue slide up and down as his mouth tightened around him, it made every nerve-ending flare to life.

His whole body shook, consumed by a wave of pleasure that radiated from his groin- curling in his toes and pulsing behind his eyes. He could feel his release building to a deafening crescendo, his vision an explosion of white, and then it all just…

stopped.

"N-no.. ple-please.." Naruto blindly grasped for him, desperate to bring him back, but Sasuke pulled his hands away and sat up. "Wait.."

God, please just let me..

Naruto wrapped his straining cock in his own hand, prepared to finish what Sasuke started if he wouldn't, but the raven grabbed his wrists and forced them down on the bed.

Naruto stared up at him, confused and unbelievably turned on. "W-why..?" he breathed,

Sasuke leaned in, his breath teasing Naruto's ear and sending shivers down his spine. "I don't want you to come without me."

He quickly tore away the rest of their clothes, opened his side drawer, and found a bottle of lube. He coated his fingers with the sticky substance and slowly pushed one digit inside.

Naruto's eyes shot open, and his breath caught in his throat. "Ahhhh! Wa-wait, it- it feels.."

Sasuke pushed a second finger inside.

"Unnhh! W-wait.." He grabbed his wrist, forcing Sasuke's fingers to stop. "It- it's too tight."

"I'll loosen it."

"It feels.. weird."

Sasuke slowly scissored his fingers, his want throbbing as he watched discomfort bloom into confused pleasure.

God, I want you so fucking bad.

He pulled his fingers free, then generously coated his cock. Naruto's eyes darted down, widening at its intimidating size. "I don't remember it being that big."

Sasuke laughed. "You can take it." He grabbed the blonde's thighs and yanked him down. "Just breathe, Naru."

"Wait, d-don't you have a condom..?"

Sasuke paused and something dark flashed in his eyes. "Did you fool around with someone else?"

Naruto shook his head.

Those eyes narrowed. Are you lying?

"No!" I- I haven't been with anyone.. besides you. He bit his lip. ".. Have you?"

"No" Sasuke growled. "I haven't." He rocked his hips forward, forcing the tip inside.

Naruto threw his head back with a throaty gasp, and Sasuke found his opening. He grabbed his hips and shoved his cock deeper.His blonde cried out, but he didn't tell him to stop. Sasuke dropped his head and groaned as he yanked him closer, slowly burying his entire length in his blonde's tight little hole.

"Uhhnn! W-wait, it.. ahhh- it h-hurts!"

I'm sorry- just.. "mhhnn"- just wait. It'll feel better soon.

Sasuke paused and leaned in to kiss away his uke's tears. He smoothed back honey locks from his damp brow, waiting for him to adjust. When Naruto finally opened his eyes again, he slid his length halfway out then shoved back into him.

Naruto's sharp gasp filled his mind and the space around them as Sasuke pulled back and slammed into him again. And again. Over and over, he thrust in and out of his tight hole, his rhythm growing faster and more violent as the feel of Naruto around him consumed everything else.

Fuck- you feel so good..

He grabbed his waist, pulled him up higher, and locked onto those wide blue eyes as he rammed his cock even deeper. Naruto screamed and Sasuke felt all of his reserve snap. He dug his fingers into his hips and fucked him, hard, his jaw clenched tight as Naruto clenched down around his cock. "Unnhh.. f-fuck.."

Ahhh! Sa-Sasuke, wait! Ple-please, ahhh- slower!

He tried, but it just made him crave more. He slammed into him, and another cry pierced the air between them. He could feel Naruto's trembling fingers on his own and finally stopped, but he was impatient to keep going. Still buried deep inside of him, Sasuke opened his eyes and focused on his uke. His face was flush, his eyes filled with unshed tears, his bedhead unbelievably sexy.

Naruto's face reddened. Sasuke could see him struggling to find words and decided to make it a little more difficult. He rocked his hips back slightly then shoved his length back in, finding the bundle of nerves that made him breathless.

Naruto bit his lip. "Pl-please.."

"Do you want more of this?" Sasuke thrust into him hard, a sly grin teasing his face.

Naruto reached up, and the desperation in his eyes made him falter. "I- I want to hold you.."

Sasuke immediaty released his hips and dropped down to his forearms. "You miss me or something?"

The blonde nodded and Sasuke's expression softened. I didn't expect you to answer that.

I just want to feel close to you. I don't like it when you're.. so far away.

Sasuke could see the layers in his meaning, and it weighed heavy in his chest. He gently kissed the worry lines in Naruto's brow. I'm sorry for rushing. You deserve to have this done the right way.

Sasuke pulled back and pushed into his blonde- slowly, passionately, deeply- letting him feel every last inch of his throbbing.. heart.

Naruto hesitantly wrapped his legs around his waist, holding onto him for dear life as his rhythm grew more frantic again, his hands rougher.

"Please.." he breathed, "d- don't.."

He gripped him tight, his face pained as he met every thrust. God, Sasuke.. please don't stop..

"Fuck," Sasuke groaned. "Say my name."

"What.?"

"My name."

Sa-

"No, say it."

Naruto bit his lip, feeling embarrassed, and Sasuke slowly coaxed it's freedom. He kissed him deeply, then pulled back to meet his gaze. "Come on, baby" he purred. "I.. hhhnn- I want to hear you say it."

Baby? "S-Sasuke.." he murmured.

God. "You want me to fuck you?"

"Ahhh!" Yes.

Sasuke slowed down, driving both of them crazy. "Tell me", he growled.

"Sasuke.. please fuck me."

Holy shit.

Sasuke grabbed him by the throat and kissed him hard as he fucked him harder. He slammed his cock into Naruto's ass as he screamed his name- crying out for more.

"I-I'm.. I'm c-"

Naruto threw his head back, his eyes pained as his release violently tore from him. "Ahhh- Sasuke!"

Cum sprayed across their stomachs and Naruto fell back, spent and still pulsing with the remnants of his desire. Sasuke looked down at Naruto's open mouth and flushed cheeks and felt his own release shoot out of him, filling his tiny blonde.

Marking him.

Sasuke sighed and dropped his head down against his uke's shoulder. He could feel him trembling beneath him, his frenzied lust slowly subsiding. He kissed his neck, his jawline, as he slowly made his way back to his mouth. He didn't give the blonde a chance to say anything romantic or cheesy- he just kissed him. Lazily, comfortably- like a brief parting before a long awaited rest.

He reached over and grabbed boxers he had tossed aside earlier and used them to clean his little uke up. Naruto was embarrassed by the attention at first, but his body was feeling worn and weighted, and it felt good letting Sasuke take care of him. Once they were both clean, Sasuke dropped down next to him and pulled him into his arms.

That was amazing..

Naruto gave a small smile. Yeah, it was.

He could feel his eyes growing heavy and his mind go blank. It didn't take long for it to consume him. Faster than expected, Naruto fell into a deep peaceful sleep. Sasuke could feel him go limp across his chest and returned the smile. He pet back his unruly blonde hair and let his mind wander, relishing in the moment for as long as he could before sleep took him as well.

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He could feel Naruto stir and opened one eye to peer down at him. He was surprised to find wide, horrified eyes staring back at him.

"Naruto..?"

"What have I done.."

Sasuke sat up. "What are you talking about?"

Oh my god.. what the fuck have I done?!

Dark eyes narrowed. This better not be what I think it is.

You slept with Sasuke! What the hell were you-

"Stop!" Sasuke glared down at him, eyes filled with anger and pain. You do NOT get to regret being with me.

Naruto sat up fast, sending tendrils of pain shooting up his backside. He groaned and dropped back down. Dammit.

Sasuke grabbed his jaw and jerked his face toward him. "Why are you suddenly being like this?"

Naruto tried to push his hand away, but his grip tightened. He gritted his teeth as his insecurities rushed through him. This was a mistake.

"Don't."

Blue eyes shot up. "I told you I didn't want to make the same fucking mistakes! And that is exactly what I just did!"

"Being together isn't a goddamn mistake!"

"It is when the last time you fucked me you left!" Naruto screamed, hating the way his voice broke.

"That's not going to happen!"

"How do I know that!?"

Naruto pushed him back and sat up, wincing at the pain in backside. He dragged his fingers through his hair, trying not to think about the tears gathering in the back of his throat. "I didn't want to sleep with you until I knew for sure."

Sasuke grabbed his arms and forced him to turn towards him. "Dammit, Naruto- listen to me! I am not leaving you! I fucking promised!"

"And I want to trust you, but I shouldn't just.."

Sasuke looked away, trying to control his own emotions. "Please don't regret it." I like being close to you. I don't want to lose that.

So do I, but I can't let you just use me. I can't go through it again.

That's not what I was doing, Sasuke argued. I just couldn't get his words out of my head.

He wouldn't say Itachi's name. Not while Naruto was naked and in bed with him. He didn't want him picturing his brother instead.

You shouldn't have left.

I know.

He was just baiting you, you know. He wanted you to feel desperate to get stronger so that you would be able to kill him.

Sasuke clenched his jaw tight. "I don't want to talk about him."

Naruto flinched like he had been slapped. He knew why he wouldn't.

"Naruto" Sasuke slipped a hand into his hair, waiting for blue eyes to meet his. "I love you. I fucked up in the past, but that won't happen again. You don't need to distance yourself from me."

I still can't help but feel like this shouldn't have happened..

Sasuke twirled a blonde lock between his fingers, dark eyes flickering between pained blues. "Then I'll do everything I can to convince you that you're wrong."

I hope you do, Sasuke. I really hope you do.