Disclaimers: Naruto is not mine, sadly. This is purely a fanfic using someone else's characters.

Warnings: This story includes strong language, violence, sexual assault, torture, sexual content (yaoi), & angst.

It's All In Your Head

Chapter 69: Throw

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Sasuke propped himself up on an elbow and smirked down at his dozing blonde. He was splayed across the floor of their shared tent, worn out and eager to collapse into a dreamless oblivion.

Unfortunately, Sasuke had something else in mind.

So, he thought, sly grin locked in place, what were you thinking about earlier that made you blush like that?

Naruto sighed loudly, dramatically, and threw an arm over his eyes- putting all of his exasperation into the gesture. "Stop. I'm trying to sleep."

The raven pulled his arm down and hovered over him with gleaming eyes and an impish grin. Come on.. was it something dirty?

Naruto could feel him prying, shoving his way into his thoughts, and quickly shut him out. It was.. difficult. He wasn't used to doing this anymore, and it wasn't easy to relearn it while Sasuke was relentlessly trying to force his way inside.

Naruto jerked his arm free and dropped down on his side, away from his leering boyfriend.

"Don't be like that, Naru" the raven murmured, attempting to sound sheepish though it wasn't at all convincing. "I'm just excited to be connected like this."

"Be excited tomorrow" Naruto grumbled, "I'm tired." He closed his eyes and worked on calming his body, hoping to lull himself into a restful sleep despite the irritant in his tent. He willed his pulse to slow, his breathing to steady, his mind to drift far.. far.. aw-

Sasuke grabbed his hips and jerked him back against his lap.

Naruto's eyes shot open. "What the hell?!"

Sasuke pressed his hard length firmly against his blonde's ass as his mind wandered, and he showed him exactly what he was hoping to do to him.

Blue eyes widened. "W-wait.. not out here."

Naruto squirmed in his grasp and Sasuke bit down hard on his lip as the friction sent pleasure radiating through his entire body. He managed to stifle a moan, but he couldn't hold back the thought. Fuck.. you feel so good.

He rolled his hips and slipped one hand to the front of Naruto's pants, his fingers slowly sliding lower. I want you to feel good too.

Naruto's hand shot out and grabbed his wrist, forcing him to stop at his thigh. "Wait.." he breathed.

Sasuke wasn't about to let one hand deter him. He leaned in close and licked up his neck, smiling as Naruto shivered against him. He grasped a lobe with his teeth and sucked out a rough gasp from his blonde before moving to his jawline.

"Mmhhnn…"

Naruto's eyes fluttered closed as he sank deeper into the sensations rushing through him. His hand loosened around Sasuke's wrist and his raven wasted no time at all. He slid his palm across his thigh and into his lap. A throaty gasp fell from Naruto's lips, which Sasuke took as a good sign. He slipped his hand under his clothes and wrapped his fingers around his straining want, pumping it fast. Naruto's eyes shot open, and he threw his head back against Sasuke's shoulder. His breath hitched in his throat, leaving every strangled word trapped in his thoughts.

Which was no longer a problem for Sasuke.

Oh my god.. oh my.. god..

"You like that, Naru?" he breathed in his ear.

His blonde shivered against him.

Tell me, he demanded.

"I.. ahhh- I like.. it" he moaned.

Sasuke grinned. He had meant for him to think it, but this was so much better.

He moved his hand faster, his mouth toying with his blonde's sensitive neck and exposed collarbone as he brought him to the brink, and then he stopped. This was not the first time Sasuke did this to him, but based off his reaction you'd think it was. Naruto just couldn't get past the shock of suddenly being forced to stop when he was so close. He never could. Which was exactly why Sasuke did it- he liked seeing him get desperate.

Made it feel like they were finally on even-ground.

"No- 'Ske.. please.."

Not yet, Naru.

Sasuke quickly tore Naruto's pants and boxers away from him and tossed them to the side, hoping to get things started while he was still temporarily distracted by his disappointment. He unfastened his own and had just pulled free of his pants when Naruto suddenly sat up fast.

Wait- we can't do this.

Sasuke sat up with him. Naruto, come on.

The anxious blonde slammed a hand against his chest, pushing him back as he turned to stare at him incredulously. "We are outside, Sasuke!"

"And?"

"We can't just-"

Yes. We can. He grabbed the hand on his chest and glanced over at the blonde it belonged to.

Sasuke.. be reasonable.

The raven quirked a brow. Me? Reasonable?

He pulled his arm towards him, his blonde closer, watching those wary blues fill with alarm. "Sasuke-"

"I know, darling. I'm trying."

"You know that's not what I-"

A gasp fell from his lips as Naruto suddenly flew back. He had been so focused on the hand on his, that he hadn't noticed the one on his leg. Sasuke dragged him forward fast, and he went flying back. He opened his mouth to shout up at him, but Sasuke wasn't done yet. He grabbed his legs and jerked him to the right fast, flipping him onto his stomach.

Naruto looked up over his shoulder in time to see Sasuke pull his shirt over his head. It mused his dark hair in a way that always made Naruto feel weak. He bit his lip as his eyes traveled down his cut frame, past his smooth stomach, and followed the divots that led down to a thick erection fighting the restraints of Sasuke's last bit of clothing. As soon as he made eye-contact with it he remembered that Sasuke was in his head, and that he was seeing all of this.

Naruto's eyes shot up to meet his dark fiery gaze. He expected his boyfriend to make fun of him for admiring him like a hungry schoolgirl, but all humor had gone up in flames. Now the only things smoldering in those charcoal eyes was a burning desire and something.. primal. Something that, despite his own desire, inspired fear in the blonde. He had seen many sides of his boyfriend, but there was something different about this. He didn't know what to expect, and it made him feel on edge.

"Sasuke..?"

I want to hear you scream it.

Naruto's eyes widened, that trickle of fear becoming a stream. He quickly turned away from his intimidating stare and tried to crawl away, but Sasuke grabbed his hips and dragged him back. "Sasuke-" he gasped, wait..

I can't.

The raven grabbed a bottle of lube that he was glad he had thought to take out, and drenched two fingers with it.

Sasuke, listen to me! We can't do this here. There's no one keeping watch. What if-

I don't care, the Uchiha shot back. I can finally hear your thoughts again. And the first thing I want to do with it is hear you scream for me.

Inside and out.

"What the hell did you just- uuhhn!"

Sasuke slowly pushed a digit inside, then another, stretching his boyfriend's tight little hole. I.. I haven't done it this way in a long time, Naruto thought, gasping as Sasuke's fingers moved faster.

I know. I was there.

Naruto rolled his eyes. "It.. it's deeper mmhhn.. from the b-back.." he breathed. "I- I don't know if I can-"

Sasuke carefully slipped his fingers out and hurriedly coated his cock in the same sticky substance. His ridiculous boyfriend tried to move away from him again, but he just dragged him back. "Why do you keep playing hard to get, Naruto-" when I know you want it as bad as I do.

He grabbed his blonde's hips with bruising force and shoved his tip inside.

Naruto inhaled sharply at the sudden painful intrusion. He tried to force the tension from his muscles, but it always took him a while to loosen up to this. And Sasuke was always so goddamn impatient!

The Uchiha grinned, but it broke apart as a groan fell from his lips. God, how are you still so.. fucking.. nnnn- tight..

He rocked his hips, back and forth, warming up his shaky blonde until he couldn't hold back for another second. He grabbed him hard and slammed his entire length deep inside. Naruto cried out, overwhelmed by the size.

"Nnhnn!" It- it hurts. Sasuke, w-wait! It hurts, pl-please.

Sasuke eased his hips back, then slowly rocked them back and forth, a little at a time so his blonde could get accustomed to it again before moving faster. He could feel Naruto start to move with him and a low moan slipped from his lips.

Better?

Y-yes.

Naruto didn't know if he thought it or if he said it out loud. He couldn't think. Every sensation was mind-blowing, consuming, and he lost himself in all of it. The sound of skin slapping against skin, the heat shooting up his backside as Sasuke slammed his huge length into him, rough and fast. The rush of every nerve-ending suddenly springing to life as he hit just the right spot over and over.. Pain was the only thing that managed to pull him away, and there was still enough of it to make him last this long. Sasuke wasn't usually this.. reckless with him, this aggressive. It was intoxicating, in a way, but kind of.. terrifying too.

Sasuke leaned back and grabbed his blonde's ass. He enjoyed the view for a moment before pulling out to the tip and slamming his entire length deep inside. Naruto jerked forward, a scream flying out with him, but Sasuke kept a firm grip and made sure he didn't go too far. He slowly pulled him back, impaling him down his thick shaft.

F-fuck..

He pulled back again, and again grabbed his blonde and forced him down his cock. A deep guttural growl tore from his throat and whatever he had left of his control snapped. Sasuke buried a hand in golden locks, shoved his head down as he gripped his waist tight, and thrust into him over and over- relentlessly.

Naruto screamed, his voice filling the tent as echoes of it filled their minds, and Sasuke groaned from the sheer ecstasy of it. He fucked him harder and slid his hand to his blonde's straining length. Naruto thrust desperately into his hand, aching for a release as Sasuke's cock drilled into him.

"Aahhh.. pl- please" he breathed.

The raven groaned and dropped down on top of him, forcing Naruto flat on his stomach. He dug his fingers into the ground in front of him and jerked himself forward, using his arms to thrust even deeper inside- tormenting and pleasuring his blonde all at once. They screamed into the night as they both finally found their release.

Sasuke considered pulling out first, but he was so fucking turned on being inside his head and his hole, and some feral side of him just needed to be able to mark him.

Mark me?

You're mine, Sasuke thought, not in the least bit embarrassed that he had heard his primal thoughts. You'll always be mine.

I don't know if you meant for that to be romantic, but it sounded a lot more like a threat.

Naruto moved to pull free of his raven, but Sasuke held on to him tight. He wasn't ready to get off of him and he wasn't ready to pull out.

In fact..

He slowly, lazily thrust his hips back and forth.. back and forth. The slight friction plus Naruto's squirming resistance was already sending a new heat down to the raven's groin. He could feel it growing inside of his blonde and his lazy thrusts became a lot more insistent.

You have got to be kidding me.

Please.. don't- "don't make me stop", Sasuke breathed. The sound of his plea, deep and heavy with want, lit up every one of his nerve-endings, and Naruto soon found himself shoving his ass back to meet every thrust.

Fine. Just one more time.

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The insistent rays of an apathetic sun cut through their tent and fell over their eyes, forcing them awake. Naruto groaned and turned his face away from it, burrowing into soft silk dark enough to shield him from the brutal light.

Sasuke opened an eye and peered over at his blonde as he nestled into his hair and smiled. Morning, Naru.

"Mmhhnn.."

You're really not thinking anything are you? Sasuke thought, amused. How are you ever going to convince me that you're not a complete baka?

Naruto slapped a hand down on his face partially covering his eye, then his nose, before finally finding his mouth. It stifled a laugh from the raven but he could still hear his teasing in his head, so it wasn't much help.

Shut up, 'Ske. It's too early for that.

The Uchiha reached past him and grabbed his watch. He squinted at its face, one eye still closed in case the blonde was right and he could settle back in for a while longer. But the watch, the sun, and his luck all seemed to be against him today.

He sighed and tossed the watch out of sight for the time being.

It's later than you think. We should get moving or we won't have enough daylight to look for them.

That seemed to do the trick. Naruto's eyes shot open and found Sasuke's. The Uchiha seemed amused by his sudden alertness.

Did you forget what we are doing here?

Shut up, teme.

Sasuke continued to amuse himself and simultaneously distract his blonde from any heavy thoughts with his continuous teasing. At first Naruto rose to every baited thought and countered it, just like when they were sparring, but he didn't seem to have the stamina for it to last all day. Especially as it became less of a distraction from his pain and more the source of it.

Sasuke didn't mean to hurt him, he never wanted to hurt Naruto, but he clearly had. And he felt incredibly guilty for it.

They had packed up camp, brought down the barrier, and continued travelling West. Their objective was to find Kakashi, and their plan was to start by infiltrating abandoned Akatsuki bases. Sasuke knew about some of them from his time with Orochimaru and he couldn't stop himself from pointing out, once again, how Naruto knew about one.

Naruto was right to be pissed about it. Because what Sasuke presented as teasing wasn't teasing. He was being petty and jealous, and he used a morning of banter as a perfect excuse to say something shitty. Or rather, to think it.

They were closing in on their first shelter when things took a turn. It looked very similar to the one Itachi had kept Naruto in, which instantly pissed off the Uchiha. The briefest memory flashed in Naruto's mind, of Itachi holding him in his arms as he approached the ramshackle cabin, explaining to him that it was a "safe place", and that is what really set him off. Naruto had shut it down before he could see more but it was enough to upset him. And unfortunately he decided to take it out on Naruto.

He grabbed his arm and jerked the blonde back to face him, eyes burning with rage. "Are you seriously fucking fantasizing about Itachi right now?" he snapped.

Naruto stared at him with a mix of disgust and horror, appalled that he would read into the situation like that. "Are you fucking kidding me?!" he shouted. "It looks just like that place- that is what I remembered. I wasn't fantasizing about anyone, you fucking prick."

"Fooled me" he snarled.

And that already was bad enough, but he went a step further which is where he really fucked up.

"Since it's already on your mind" he growled, "tell me- which one did you like better, Naruto?"

Sasuke forced a memory to the forefront of their minds- a recent one. Naruto was pinned down, Sasuke's hand buried in his hair- keeping him face down as he fucked him from behind.

Naruto flinched, not understanding why he would throw last night back in his face, why he was being treated like this in the first place. He opened his mouth to tell him so, but the words dried up on the tip of his tongue and fell to his feet as Sasuke brought up a new memory- of another Uchiha, pinning him down on a bed in a very similar way.

The look in Naruto's eyes was.. shattering.

Sasuke wasn't sure he had ever seen the blonde look at him like that. And if he did, he likely felt the same way he did now, and hoped to never see it again. He realized instantly the monumental mistake he had just made, and he also realized that it was one he couldn't erase.

Naruto would remember this moment.

They both would.

"Naruto, I-"

The blonde tore his arm free, pulled it back, and punched him across the face. Sasuke fell in a heap on the forest floor. He had deserved it, so he didn't bother dodging it. Naruto knew he let him, but it wasn't enough.

It fixed nothing.

"I can't believe you.." His voice faded, but his thoughts remained.

I have never been cruel to you, Sasuke. Ever. How could you.. how could you throw that in my face?

Sasuke slowly got to his feet, dark remorseful eyes locked on his blonde. Naruto, I'm sorry. I- I don't know what I was thinking.

Naruto's jaw clenched tight, his eyes brimming with angry tears and a pain that ran far deeper.

And that's supposed to make it all better? I let you fuck me like that because you are my boyfriend! It doesn't give you the right to use it against me!

I know.

"I'm not done" Naruto snapped.

Sasuke tried to take a step towards him, but Naruto leapt back, keeping plenty of space between them.

And it's fucked up for you to make me see that again. He swallowed. I wasn't fucking Itachi, asshole- he was going to rape me! What the fuck don't you understand about that?!

Sasuke flinched. And I made him relive it. Because I was jealous.. because I-

"Because you're a fucking asshole!" Naruto shouted.

Sasuke roughly dragged his fingers through his hair and attempted to close the distance between them, but his blonde just wasn't having it. "I'm sorry, Naruto. I.. I can't believe that I just-"

Naruto gave a sharp humorless laugh. "I knew it. I fucking knew it."

Sasuke stared at him, his concern growing. Knew what?

That I was going to regret it.

Dark eyes widened. "Naruto, wait. Please- let me fix this."

"You can't fix this, Sasuke."

"Wait! Naruto, please! I'm sorry!"

His blonde turned away from him, heavy blonde bangs hiding the pain that he had put there. "Naru-"

He blinked, and he was gone.

No..

Sasuke screamed for him, searched for him, but it was too late. He couldn't sense him at all. Just like the times that he had been taken by Itachi and Obito, all traces of Naruto had completely disappeared. And just as he had before, Sasuke launched into a desperate search to find him, hoping that he could mend the mess he had made.

Naruto- I'm sorry. Please, please come back.

But he didn't. And after what he had just done to him, he wasn't so sure that he ever would.

Author Note:

I know, aren't I just the worst? I just couldn't resist throwing in more angst. Things were getting too peaceful, and Cinnamon was getting a little stir crazy. ;)

But I am a fan of happy endings, so I won't be cruel for too long.