"What's going on?" I asked him too confused.

"What do you mean?" My dad asked through a mask of mock innocence.

" Why are you acting so wierd? You didn't know Lily , but you are caring for her like you have met her.'

" I don't think that everything I do or feel is required for you to know."

" It is." I banged the table. " It is,why can't anyone get that?!" I started shouting. " I was searching for her until last year. I was worried sick about her. Till date I can't get her out of my system. And everyone except I know more about her disappearance. Why can't everybody see that I-" I stopped mid sentence.

"Why can't everybody see what?" my dad asked still intimidating.

" That I care for her. Why can't everyone tell me everything? " my voice started to break.

" James.. hear me out , nobody I repeat nobody wanted to hide anything from you , the circumstances."

" To hell with circumstances dad" my knees gave away and I fell on the couch.

My dad came up to me and sat by my side.

"It's okay but believe me that nobody wants to hide anything , they have all been sworn to secrecy. They couldn't even if they wanted to. And there's always a reason for whatever happens James. I promise you today will be the last time you will be finding something everyone else knew but you didn't. Today is the day"

" What day?"

" The day that nothing will be hidden anymore."

" Why are you making it sound like it's some big secret about James' life? Do you like putting the dramatic effect Mr.P?" Sirius' voice echoed through the room.

"SIRIUS?" I pushed open the door to find three heads trying to hear the conversation.

" Oh hi James, didn't see you there" acted Remus.

" You are so much better than this Remus "

He ran a hand through his hair and said " thanks?"

I couldn't help but laugh at the situation. I mean, it was funny.

After a moment of gawking everyone started to laugh. I guess we were all going mad.

" This is ridiculous." I said frustrated and tired of laughing.

" James , are you on your periods?" asked Sirius innocently

" Sirius , have you lost your mind?" Lily answered quickly.

" You don't ask somebody on their periods if they are on their periods, it frustrates them more" she added giving him a serious look.

The pair started laughing after holding their laugh for a minute.

Everyone in the room started laughing again.

Again.

I wanted to cry but couldn't cry. Why?

1) Sirius

2) because I was laughing

"Well this is ridiculous!" I shouted on top of all the laughs in the room.

Everyone stilled for a moment.

" We are sorry son" my father started consoling me. " I..we didn't mean to dilute the importance of this to you. "

I looked at Sirius and Lily pinching the insides of their cheeks to prevent them from laughing. I surely felt at the moment that only Remus was sane so I looked at him for support, but he was already showing his back to me and due to the rise and fall of his back I figured that he was trying to control his laugh.

This just frustrated me more.

" Dad, can I be left alone?"

" Okay, I will send your food inside"

" Make Sirius do it." I asked devilishly.

"Why me?"

" Because , because."

" Won't work on me Mr Potter." Sirius tried to act professional

"Dad"

"Sirius just do it."

"Come Sirius I will help you." Remus said.

And the three males left. Leaving Lily and James.

James was again seated on the couch his head in his hands.

Lily kneeled down beside him and hugged him.

"Last discussion before breakfast?" She asked.

" Hmmm" I replied